Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 381: The Devil
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(Remember to read novels) (Remember to read novels) This evening, no, maybe not at night. In this closed building, there is no way to determine the passage of time, but I still feel that it’s been a night. *1*1* I slept so deeply, my heart was full of strength. I am not alone in the fight. In my body, the blood and consciousness of the past are flowing. By my side, there are girls who are extremely cold and looking forward to me. We have made a plan no less crazy than any force, and are implementing this plan with an attitude no less than anyone—though, I have lost my memory in this regard.
However, I still believe in me in the past, in the girls of the present, and believe that even if we are in a different space, even if the form is completely different, we still have feelings that surpass all of this. I believe that trust in itself is a powerful will and the power that can achieve miracles. I believe in all this, which makes me no longer feel pain because of physical pain. ..
I didn't dream. When my consciousness gradually recovered, I felt like I was wandering in a quiet night sky. I separated from the black night sky, opened my eyes, and the scene in front of me was no different from before I fell asleep, but it gave me a completely new feeling. These cold metal, the auditory hallucinations still calling or shouting in the ear, like the illusion of ghosts dangling from the corner of the field of view, and the left eye that turned on its own, none of them scared me anymore.
I have enough courage to accept all of this, even though it may herald death is approaching me, but there is an inaudible melody echoing in my heart. But a song that makes blood flow. It was composed by the past "Gao Chuan". It is only a song belonging to "Gaochuan".
I am Gaochuan, no matter which Gaochuan it is, it is still Gaochuan.
The past me, the things that have been passed on to the present me, I want to continue them. If I still fail and die, and I cannot avoid self-disqualification after all, then I hope that at least this melody can be in the heart of the new Gaochuan Continue to sing.
——Don’t be afraid.
The melody spoke so softly in my ear.
"Don't be afraid."
I told myself so softly.
Even if you die. I can't stop my footsteps, because we are Gaochuan, and we may be different. But it is still "Gaochuan". Now that he has inherited the name "Gaochuan", he must have the consciousness to carry this destiny. I think that being a "Gaochuan" is actually unfortunate, but it is also happy, because all "Gaochuan" have the same dream, a desire that is higher than life and death and self.
I turned on the computer and sent an e-mail about my intentions to the e-mail address of the New Lurker Alliance. The content was very simple, and it was a reply conveying my willingness to cooperate with them.
No matter what role Super Dorothy plays in "Super Gaochuan Project". But at least for now, she is a member of the New Lurker Alliance. Since she did not send me suggestive messages, it can be considered that she wants me to join the alliance. I have no doubt that at this point, the Super Dorothy and Super Series, who can actually make contact, and have been cooperating tacitly, must have reached a consensus.
Before the birth of Super Takakawa, it was impossible to do more with only three of them, even after the birth of Super Takakawa, whether it has the power to control the situation by its own power. Still not sure. However, if the Alliance of New Lurkers continues to oppose Dr. Ender and his representatives on a stand, and is not uprooted by the hostile forces, it will be able to create a chaotic situation someday in the future and give Super Gaochuan enough space for action. .
Chaos, resistance and battle. This island will be fragmented, and research on "viruses" and "doomsday syndrome" will no longer be possible. but. This is also impossible.
Supporting my ability to voluntarily become an experimental white mouse, I hope that the researchers here will be able to produce serum. They used various legal and illegal methods to obtain results from me and from other patients. This can be tolerated. As long as they can produce serum, it doesn't matter how much they pay, but what is unbearable is that, Their goals have changed at some point. {http:
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They are addicted to the power brought by "virus", "doomsday syndrome" and "doomsday illusion". Maybe this kind of power can really make humans become superhumans, but this is not what I need, not color and peach What Rose and the others need is not what the patients need. Our hope is simple, we just want to become a normal person, be able to walk under the sun again, and enjoy the warmth of family and love. Rather than being forced to endure endless pain, witnessing the collapse of the body and personality of oneself and the one you love, turning into a pool of yellow liquid that you don't know what it is.
We don’t want to become Superman. At least, our hope of becoming Superman rests on the pain of ourselves and those we love. Probably, this is a very selfish idea, but it is precisely because of this idea that when we are combined with each other, we are still ourselves, rather than a pool of casually able to integrate each other, and we can no longer figure out which ones are our own. Yellow liquid.
In our cognition, human beings are never simply a social creature.
It's not about justice and fairness, it's just because of our life form itself.
If they no longer study serum, then our cooperation will end here. Now, it's time to get back what we used to pay. Maybe without the power of these researchers, we can't make the serum by ourselves, but at least we will do our best to complete it. Instead of just watching your loved one go through pain, but you have to act as a murderer.
Gao Chuan, who once placed his hopes on others, has been disqualified and will never come back. When I realized this, I seemed to understand some of Gao Chuan's original thoughts-this was to ensure the implementation of the "Super Gao Chuan Project", but is it not a confession?
Done the wrong thing. You must accept punishment. This kind of thought, even if it is not integrated with the past information, is still ingrained in my heart, and this kind of thought must have existed in the hearts of all Gaochuan in the past.
When Kokawa first realized what Dr. Ande’s plan meant, when he saw Super Color and Super Dorothy, and perhaps Sakiya, Hakkei, and Marceau who are now missing, he must have Full of regret. However, even driven by such strong emotions, he still thought calmly, impulsively unable to solve the problem. But he had to solve the current situation where he played the role of booster, so the "Super Gaochuan Project" was born.
With self-punishment and hope for the future of himself, he made the decision of self-disqualification without hesitation. all of these. All for the birth of a Gao Chuan who can become a hero, in order not to let the new Gao Chuan be caught by this emotion of regret and self-blame, in order to create a situation that can carry those heavy emotions and pressures in the worst situation. But the super Gaochuan who will not be swallowed up by those negative emotions.
It must be like this.
Now I am embraced by such emotions like a volcano, and I look forward to being born.
So, I must be happy. Even though, I may just be a halfway stop for this emotion and expectation.
I thought so quietly, I couldn't stop the heat rising from my eyes and nose. The vision was blurred and full of water vapor. I had to treat it as a state of onset, chewing on those bitter medicines. Even so, those calming agents still couldn't stop my heart from throbbing deeply.
This turbulent emotion made me want to do something, make me want to shout, want to run to the end of the world. However, I still suppressed this impulse and sat quietly in my chair, waiting for the arrival of new mail. because I know. This impulse does not allow me to do anything. No matter how full of vitality I feel, I am still a terminally ill patient on the verge of death, and where I am, I am not able to run towards the horizon. Or the beach under the setting sun, but a completely closed underground prison.
A concentration camp for patients with doomsday syndrome.
I seem to immediately return to the doomsday illusion. To carry out our plan, I want to become a super Gaochuan as soon as possible, even if I am still not ready, with that kind of consciousness, to press the enter of self-disqualification. But I still want to try, where I can achieve, I want to be a super Gaochuan, not which Gaochuan, not the past Gaochuan, nor the new Gaochuan in the future, but the current Gaochuan, the present self.
Whether you press the self-disqualified carriage return is entirely out of your own will. Whether it's color, Dorothy or Gao Chuan, I have put the right to choose in my hands. Perhaps, the possibility of failure will be great, perhaps, it is really impossible to achieve the best of both worlds, and perhaps, like the hints received so far, the road ahead will not be smooth and full of fatal dangers.
But I still want to try it.
Try it and become the ultimate hero.
I don’t want to wait any longer. With such a fragile body, such a fragile will, what can we do even if we continue to stay in reality? Only by returning to the doomsday illusion, can I get into action and become stronger in the action.
Even though, I still don’t understand the outline of the "Super Gaochuan Project" and how to become a Super Gaochuan; I also don’t know what I can do after returning to the doomsday fantasy world when the end is doomed. What to do; I can’t even be sure of what meaning the Omi, Sakuya, and Hakkei are beside me.
If the doomsday is bound to come, and if there are no errors or omissions in the Super Gaochuan Project, the "Gate of Destiny Stone" will reverse the entire doomsday illusion and the personality consciousness in it, resetting everything back to the state of the week's goal.
If this is what I want to do, am I killing this world and the people in this world?
Today I, the ones I love in that world, maybe after the world line changes, they won't be the same again. This is not simply a time travel. When I meet these people again, they and them must have had different lives because of different opportunities, and even completely different in personalities and thoughts. All this is like the self-disqualification of the Gaochuans before my birth.
Even so, we must...
I stared at my right hand, and the throbbing of my left eye was so violent. It seems to be pulled out of the eye sockets.
Even so. Do you want to do it too? I asked myself so. Do you have the courage and consciousness to endure everything that has changed?
"It's okay." I covered my face with this right hand and grabbed this face forcefully, as if the pain caused by doing so would prevent my heart from becoming fragile because of tears. "If , If this can save them in reality..."
Yes, no matter how real the doomsday illusion is, it is still not real. No matter how happy the people in it are, it is not real happiness, but they can't realize it anymore. What's more, it is impossible for them to feel happy at all. Because they live in a world that is destined to be destroyed, and this future of destruction is not the future brought by their self-thinking gods, gods, or demons, but a script set by a human like them, even if it’s a new one. came. It's just repeating such a tragic script.
This kind of fragile thing is based only on the existence of super color and l. Its existence, like this closed prison, is just a concentration camp that means that patients with doomsday syndrome cannot be liberated.
"If you really need to change all of this, if someone really needs to bear the pain of changing all of this, if someone really needs to destroy this world in order to liberate this world. Then, it's me!"
I let go of my palms and supported myself to stand up. I have never felt so crazy and so calm once. I wiped away my tears and said to myself loudly.
Starting today. From now on, I will be the devil. I will destroy all this, I will carry it all, and then I will become a super Gaochuan, the ultimate hero!
The mail from the League of New Lurkers has not arrived yet. It has been silent, but it is not important to me anymore. I want to do something that is extremely painful for myself. I want to witness and promote the coming of the doomsday with my own eyes, and use the power of the doomsday to open the door of the stone of destiny! Then. Change the world, change reality!
Now! immediately!
All this is my choice! It is also the choice of the Gate of Destiny!
The door of the room was opened, and a figure was standing outside the door, and I looked back calmly. I know that anyone can realize from this face. I just cried, like a child. But. It doesn't matter, just let me face that person with this face. Because I firmly believe that this will be the last time I cry.
The devil never cries, so the one who decides to become the devil will never cry again.
I don't know why. Before I saw the person outside, I thought that the other person was Dr. Ender, but when I saw him clearly, it was exactly what I thought.
Doctor Ender put his hands in the pockets of the researcher's white clothes, like a thing made up entirely of shadows, standing in front of the door and staring at me.
"The new experiment is ready. Are you ready?" He said: "This time, we have re-adjusted the details of the script. It will promote the development of the doomsday fantasy in a smoother way. You will Dive deeper and won’t pop up like the last time."
"Flier...do you mean more violent, stronger?" I asked calmly.
"Yes, it is more violent and stronger. No matter what you encounter, it will be enforced hard, even if it is a bug." Dr. Ander said very stiffly: "This time, we will never let the opposite **** virus factor. Run away. As long as you dive deep enough and the script is strong enough, its response will definitely be more active. You can rest assured, as long as you catch the virus of the opposite **** and study it, even if there is no serum, all patients will be saved. ."
"Will you be saved?" I asked myself in a low voice, smiling.
If the answer is to Dr. Ender, then it doesn’t matter what the answer is.
Even if he said so, he said with the flat voice: "You will be saved." Then he said again: "This time, you may die."
"Death? It's okay." I stared at him with calm eyes.
"It's okay?" Dr. Ender seemed a little confused, and he frowned.
I didn't lie, I really heard the sound of death's footsteps approaching, it was the sound of my left eye beating. However, I already have something to do even if I die, and I don't think death can stop me.
Nothing can stop "Gaochuan".
I said to him, "Maybe, I used to be afraid of death, but...I won't be afraid anymore. Because I have gained something more important than being alive."
His brow furrowed even tighter.
"I don't understand..." He answered ~IndoMTL.com~ but didn't let me go on. "But it doesn't matter. Before entering, we will make an adjustment for you to make sure you get a better connection. Enter the state." He said: "You will lose a part of your memory and you must be prepared. The script has already begun to warm up, and we cannot know every detail that happened in the doomsday illusion, so you must be psychologically prepared, maybe After you enter, you will not only forget everything in reality, but also what happened the last time you accessed the doomsday illusion."
"No, I won't forget." I just smiled so and said to Dr. Ender: "Who do you think I am?"
Doctor Ender didn't intend to continue talking with me. He turned his body sideways to allow him to go out.
When I went out and passed by Dr. Ender, I seemed to be telling him, and it was like telling myself.
"I am Gaochuan!" said so firmly, "Gaochuan, always ready."
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