Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 601: Upgrade

Father Xi Sen and the file certainly don't believe that I have the power to destroy the world. This can be seen from his expression, and the same is true in the judgment of the brain and hardware. However, even Father Sissen could not maintain the calm expressions he had before in such conversations. How much of these changes in expressions are disguise, what kind of judgments the two people’s real thoughts would make of my words, I have no way of knowing. The only thing I can be sure of is that even if I don't believe what I said, my words and attitude really make them unable to really calm down.

The power of language is precisely derived from the judgment of the human heart. The language skills I created out of a certain contradictory instinct will also create power derived from contradictions in the minds of the minded people-they are difficult to judge The true meaning of my words, who can interpret the thoughts of a "mentally patient" with normal thinking? Yes, I am a "mental patient", whether in the theory of psychology, in common sense, or even in the unique thinking of these people walking in the mysterious world, not only in the so-called "reality", or This self now.

I know very well that my spirit is collapsing with the collapse of world outlook, outlook on life, and moral outlook, and these thinking models cannot be maintained and repaired by brain hardware. Mental patients know that they have mental problems, but they are at a loss. This is not unique in clinical psychological cases. I don't know how long I can hold on, but I have given up maintaining the "normal" mask, even for a short time before death. In a narrow world, I have decided to go on in my own way.

I feel that my status will not interfere with the execution of the plan. Because I am a mental patient, but it does not mean that I am an idiot, does it? A warrior who has an abnormal mental state, but has not lost his wisdom and reason, will, to some extent, be stronger than himself who has been desperately maintaining his "normal" posture in the past.

The people in front of me can't understand my changes, and this is excusable. Because this change is so obvious, and the time it takes place is so short. Before such a change really happened to me, it would be hard for me to believe that although there is no lack of precedents in clinical psychological cases, I must now admit that even if it only happened within a minute. Will completely change a person's psychology. Even so, I still don't know whether my own change is a special case in all similar cases of sudden psychological changes, because whether it comes from instinct. The understanding of the original brain and the inference of the brain hardware have made me understand that this sudden change of mental state is not just "knowing something that should not be known. The impact is too great", it changes The depth even goes back to the root of the doomsday syndrome-the phantom of the young Gaochuan and the activity of "Jiang". It must have caused a profound change in the real body, which has had a dramatic impact on the Gaochuan personality of "I" and reflected in the mapping of the doomsday illusion. And the influence of this change made me instinctively feel the threat of death.

I cannot change this fact. I have never even been to "reality", and no one has told me how to get rid of this threat. The information inherited from the previous Gaochuan made me have long expected that my personality consciousness is just a transitional product to achieve the plan, and I also decided to assume this possible result. I do feel contradictory, but I do not reject or resist this possibility, because I am also Gao Chuan.

Because of the contradiction, I did a lot of meaningless things and generated some hesitating thoughts. I have been a product of contradictions since I was born. I have no real past, nor have I experienced too many things personally. Strictly speaking, I don’t even have friends and lovers in the true sense. What I have is only the memory information and resources of the Gaochuan people in the past accumulated in the body. Do I have to treat theirs as my own? In a certain sense, this approach is valid, but from a comprehensive perspective, this is not complete.

Nowadays, I feel more and more that my time of death is approaching. I have to think about it. Actually, I am not satisfied with myself. I feel that I am incomplete. Therefore, I want to make up for myself and let myself be The complete posture will leave your mark in a certain corner.

It’s just that the changes in the situation are always worse than I imagined. I never thought that my "transitionality" would be highlighted in the way it is now-I even think that even if it is dominant The planned super color and super Dorothy were not prepared, even if they might have considered the possibility of such a development.

Now, I don’t have time to make up for myself. No, it should be said that the old idea that "everything will get better as time goes by" was originally wrong. The key to the mistake is that, in order to maintain my "normal", I tried to digest everything left by the Gaochuans in the past-but the things left by the Gaochuans were purified to a certain extent, but However, these seemingly purely informational things are not completely clean. How could the imprints left by the past Gaochuan's lifetime be removed so easily?

Even if they are all "Gaochuan", the essence of personality consciousness may be the same, but there are things that wrap each "Gaochuan" apart from the essence. And the information I receive, it is impossible to have only essential things, because every Gaochuan possesses that kind of things, and there is no fundamental difference between them.

So, those "Gaochuan" things still belong to them and represent their own things.

So, the more I try to digest, swallow, and turn their things into my own things, not only will I not make myself complete, but I will gradually lose the "self" component. Now, my "ego" is like a random patchwork monster with patches all over it. Perhaps this kind of impurity and tattered "ego" has caused my mental state to be unstable all the time, which made me so. The culprit who was easily defeated in the boundary line.

Limited by various factors, I was born here in a deformed state. And, just unaware. Without any warning, he grew up in a deformed way.

Now, I don't have time to regret it, I'm dying. Death is not terrible. For any Gaochuan, the death of personality consciousness is not something to be afraid of. but. I don’t want to die in such a deformed and ugly appearance, even if I die only as an "incomplete and mentally dysfunctional Gaochuan". If this is my true face, then I accept it and I am willing to carry it. . Even if it looks incomplete, it is something that really belongs to me.

Countless thoughts are running in my mind, and the suppressed emotions make the brain's hardware work sluggish. I was holding Sakuya's hand, maybe I was scared. She will accept and leave, although, I also understand that she absolutely can't imagine how the "Gaochuan" she is facing has changed. It will definitely not leave me because of the difference between me now and the past. However, in the sea of ​​emotions suppressed by the brain hardware. The emotion of "fear" must be boiling. Because perceptuality is never something that can be controlled by "understanding", "knowing" and "understanding".

The brain hardware controls the prosthetic body very well, so that it is not disturbed by emotions at all. Therefore, in theory, it is impossible for Sakiya to feel my state at this time from the contact with me. However, when she turned around and grabbed my hand forcefully, no matter what the reason, it may not be what I think, but it still made me feel peaceful and calm, and the brain and hardware movement gradually became lighter. stand up.

My conversation with Father Xi Sen, the abnormal feeling made the air in the room a little depressed. Father Xisen and the file didn't think I was in a state suitable for negotiation, but I thought it was good. Maybe it made them feel uncomfortable and made them think I was crazy. It's really good. The current me makes me feel real. This kind of real existence is so heavy, like a green, but at least not a rotten fruit.

This kind of truth makes me sober, knowing what I’m talking about, and knowing how my words and actions will affect my surroundings, even if it is difficult for others to accept, it’s the best state for me.

"Tell me, Father Sisson, what will we whisperers gain by participating in your plan?" I asked again, as if in an unequal environment, forcing an enemy who was in a state of disobedience. .

Father Xi Sen and the filer looked at each other and revealed a kind of reluctance from the small movements. Then, this kind of reluctance made a wry smile on his face. He said: "I understand, Mr. Gao Chuan, this is the first time I have noticed , You are such a difficult communication partner, did you deliberately? I still remember when we first met, you suddenly gave me a few punches, and now, the place where I was hit starts to hurt again."

"Really?" As soon as the file heard the news, the dignity and strangeness on his face suddenly disappeared, and his eyes pierced and asked me: "You really punched him so many times?" Make a boxing motion and swing a few times, "Like this?"

Father Xi Sen and the file made the atmosphere gradually warmer. It can be said that they are trying to get rid of the influence of my abnormal mental state, but it can also be said that they think that my previous performance was deliberate, a means of competing for the dominant power of negotiation, and admitted that they had once Lose yourself and lose your way, and try to regain the dominance in your own way.

The retinal screen observes the details of everyone in the room. With the sensibility of the atmosphere from the native brain, the brain hardware constantly interprets the subtle changes in the conversation and the meaning behind these changes.

The act and small movements of the file made her seem to have some private dealings with Father Sisson, and she did not try to hide this, as if she was telling me that she still followed my decision, but in When negotiating, she would stand on Father Xi Sen's side—whether it was for personal reasons or a secret order from a mercenary organization, she seemed to have been persuaded.

The file was naturally scared by my previous words, but, like Father Xi Sen, she also had her own interpretation. And the result of this interpretation, as well as the result of the private exchange with Father Xi Sen, does not seem to undermine the cooperation with the whisperer of us.

A lot of information is flowing on the retinal screen. I feel that my current self is incomplete, mentally abnormal, but true enough, but it seems to be able to see through their souls—perhaps an illusion, but. This is indeed a wonderful feeling that has never been felt in the past.

"The technology of the 51st District, I think you will like it." Father Xi Sen suddenly stopped his self-deprecating tone. Turning into a serious attitude, he said to me: "This is a mystery that is approaching maturity, and it is also a breakthrough in the study of mystery in the 51st District, half a century later."

Father Xi Sen’s remarks made me interested. Before I asked questions, Father Xi Sen grabbed the remote control on the coffee table and quickly pressed a dozen composite keys toward the screen embedded in the wall. The advertisements and publicity programs on the screen suddenly lost their signal, and the rustling sound and white snow lasted for about three seconds. During the period, Father Xi Sen quickly spoke a series of words to the screen, but that was a language that I didn't understand at all. I looked at the file, and she also shook her head, expressing that she was not clear.

There is a mechanism to authenticate Father Xi Sen’s voice and language or commands through the screen. When the images on the screen were presented again, they were a series of dynamic images full of high-tech mystery, but both I and the file recognized them. The style of these images has a very strong shadow of the terminal interface of the ruling bureau.

When the certification is over, a clear surveillance image appears on the screen. Recording what happened after we entered the valley and woodland, of course, was just a few important clips. Of course, we have already anticipated this kind of surveillance, so. There will be no violent emotions when more tangible proofs appear before you. Even before it was not clear. The owner of this temporary data hedging space is a behemoth like District 51. However, the crude appearance of this temporary data hedging space is full of artificial traces, precisely because it makes us feel that someone has left something in this place. , And even doing something, so, in order to gain a little bit before escaping from Las Vegas, we will come in, right?

These video clips are based on the process of dealing with the ugly man at the gas station, the records of the survivors’ activities before our arrival, and the series of deaths and alienations of survivors that occurred after we merged with them, and The peculiar darkness and smoky face monsters are the focus. As we speculated at the time, this looks crude, but at this time it has proved to be only a part of the temporary data hedge space. It is a huge experimental greenhouse and is used to observe the application of various experimental results. And the so-called breakthrough achievement that Father Sissen said was the face made of black smoke--no matter the darkness that cannot be illuminated except the special kerosene lamp, or the hallucinations caused by darkness, they are all secondary. The key environmental factors and by-products lies in the smoky face, but the face-like posture is not the true appearance of this achievement, and this achievement was experimentally applied to the ugly man at the gas station and the survivors. Body, which led to Eddie’s death and the abnormality of Old Ham and Ikena.

However, although not all survivors were infected by the "achievement", the infected were not predetermined. The departure and death of Eddie, Old Ham, Little Ham, and Ikena were also It is not the result of man-made infection. For different human bodies, the "results" will produce several different changes, so the pathological manifestations embodied in each person are different.

However, most of the "results" will become that smoky face after gestation and maturity in the infected person's body-it is not something conceived by a single infected person, but a complex, a large number of The "particles" conceived by the infected person of, constitute the black smoke-like existence. And the strange light time that has not changed for a long time and the dark time that cannot be illuminated are just the best environment for "fruit" activities and cultivation that has been researched so far. As for the source of illusion in the dark ~ IndoMTL.com ~ is also the same. This "result".

"The 51st district calls it Troy." Father Sisson said: "Although it is not mature enough to be used as a weapon, whether it is cultivation or post-processing, it is a bit troublesome, but its characteristics are very suitable for change. Scope and strategic environmental conditions. It looks like a biochemical virus, but it is actually a kind of mystery, the particles that make up this face..." He paused here, and said seriously: "In fact, it is not a material existence. , And it is impossible to observe its size and shape with current technology. Simply put, it is more like an illusion that can only be recognized by the naked eye."

"I can be sure that it actually exists." I said so.

"Yes, I can be sure, because it will indeed be physically affected, although ordinary physical methods cannot cause fundamental damage to it." Father Xi Sen nodded and said, "Of course, also It must be noted that the environment in which it exists and activities is a bit harsh. If it were not for this temporary data hedging space environment, it is difficult to say what kind of power can be exerted. These will affect the restrictions of practical applications. The 51st District is confident in It will be resolved within one year. However, the reason why I think this incomplete result can be called a breakthrough and recommend it to you is not because of such a smoky face. What I call "results" is just to constitute a black In front of the face of the smoke, the basic state of the infected body." (To be continued. If you like this work, you are welcome to come to the starting point (m) to vote for recommendations and monthly tickets. Your support is my greatest motivation.)