Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1026: The middle of truth and falsehood

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Bajing is sitting next to me, just like the past in my memory. She is now the same as when I first met her in the doomsday fantasy world, full of purity that is not contaminated by weirdness and mystery, although it has been Reflects the capable and excellent side, but it is just an ordinary female student. Sitting next to me like this, she exuded a fresh smell, letting the turbulent inside of me calm down. The idea of ​​"repeater trap" has not disappeared from my mind because of the strong authenticity of this world. My contradictions and suspicions have tightened my nerves during these few hours, constantly trying, observing, guessing, Self-examination, these behaviors that did not get a definite result made my spirit very tired.

The existence of a deep bond with me in the first few hours seemed to have disappeared from my life. It was not until I saw the oil painting of Crow Quark and remembered the origin of this oil painting that I felt relieved. The feeling of a breath. Now, there is such a person who once had a deep bond with me sitting next to me, looking at her, it feels as if everything is gradually stepping onto a track that I am familiar with.

The eight sceneries exist, and Sakiya should also exist. Then, other people may also exist in this world in this familiar and unfamiliar way. Just as Bajing is just an ordinary and excellent female high school student, other people also have an ordinary and ordinary identity. Before this, I was subconsciously convinced that this was the case, but only when they really appeared in front of me, I felt completely relieved.

I looked at Bajing calmly. In my heart, there is no longer any worries when I "waking up" in this world. I know what I want. And I, too, have long been awakened.

"Do you feel happy?" Faced with the silent astonishment of Bajing, I asked again.

"Why are you asking this question?" Bajing and I looked at each other for a while. I was very firm, so she thought for a while and replied, "That's it. Do you always show some miserable life programs? I feel better than those people. Saying that I am not happy at all is really..." She shrugged and said, "It's you, what's going on today? Not like you."

"No, I just watched some programs, and I felt it." I replied casually, but. I have already understood that the Eight Views are indeed happy, although they can only be measured by the misfortunes of others because there is no strong contrast with them. The misfortunes she exemplified were far different from the misfortunes she had in the doomsday illusion. Therefore, she is now happy, a kind that doesn't need to think deeply. You can feel it without deliberate comparison. Ordinary happiness.

"That's it?" Bajing seemed to see something, she didn't believe my answer at all, "Gao Chuan, you are usually weird enough, now you are even more weird."

"Ah, am I usually weird?" I asked, turning the subject away.

"Really unconscious." Hakjing's tone was not very good. "Anyway, don't ask me such boring questions next time." Her attitude was not at all polite.

"I know, I know, but I felt it for a while." I replied.

Hakjing glanced at me, stood up and prepared to leave the classroom, but suddenly sat down, and looked at me again. At this time, I had already planned to end the conversation, clean up the supplies on the table, and then left the classroom, because , I have got the answer I want.

"Wait, Gao Chuan." Bajing stopped me. At this time, she looked just like me before, and she seemed to have something hard to say. I couldn't help but stop what I was doing, and turned to look at her.

"Why did you ask me about that topic?" Hakjing mentioned the previous thing again. This time, she seemed more cautious than I was at the time.

"Didn't you say it all? It's just a whim, sensual germination." I can only answer: "I have been watching those life stories these days."

"You are lying." Hakjing said without hesitation, as if he had already concluded, "I know you are lying. You want to do something, right? Because you are not satisfied with your life. "She stared at me with a strange but full of penetrating eyes, full of her usual style of hitting the nail on the head.

However, I think that when she said that I was "dissatisfied" at this time, she actually expressed her "dissatisfaction". A peaceful life makes her want to do some peculiar and exciting things. Such an idea is very common in the school days. I think it's normal, but this doesn't mean that I should tell the things in the doomsday illusion, or turn this ordinary and real world into a new doomsday illusion.

"What are you going to do?" I repeated her words, a little lost. She guessed it right. I want to do something, but thinking doesn’t mean doing it. Besides, I can’t tell that it’s the right thing to do. I have the consciousness to do anything, and I have a final and clear goal, but , Only make a selection after confirming everyone’s answers. Bajing is happy, but not satisfied, but this kind of dissatisfaction is based on the happiness currently possessed. Compared with her in the doomsday fantasy and the reality of the hospital, it is a luxurious dissatisfaction. I feel that anything that can be obtained on the premise of destroying this happiness is not worth the gain.

If this is the trap of the repeater, which constricts my consciousness and prevents me from leaving this world, then, when I find the ordinary but quiet of destruction, so that the people I love can live through them Before the reason for my unconsciously happy life, I am willing to be bound here. Because, assuming that this is not the trap of a repeater, the doomsday illusion and the hospital reality are nothing but a delusion that I am unwilling to be flat in a peaceful life, then, acting rashly for this delusion will definitely make me regret it.

Perhaps the doomsday illusion has given me many things, but it is also because it has taken away many things from me, so I have such deep and stubborn emotions for it. Similarly, the Doomsday Fantasy Land will give Bajing something, but it will definitely take away some of her things. I have seen her in the doomsday illusion and the hospital reality, what she has lost. What you got is clear at a glance. Compared with her like that, I confirm that being able to luxuriately find further satisfaction in happiness is already a good enough life.

The eight sceneries of this world have no idea what exactly happened to her in the doomsday illusion, so. Is it so sensitive? Her dissatisfaction made her aware of the struggle lurking in my heart.

At this moment, I thought a lot, but in the end I just shook my head and replied, "No, I just asked this question purely. Actually. It’s enough to answer the general question, I did ask one Simple and boring questions."

I intend to suspend this conversation, even if continuing to talk may deepen our relationship, but. Bajing is a girl who is full of curiosity and struggle, and has keen insight. Therefore, once the intersection between us is based on this problem, it may cause some trouble. Everyone is unwilling to live a plain life. Students who want to create excitement will always make something that looks naive afterwards. Things that were difficult to stop at the time came. In this very real world without weirdness and mystery, trying to change something without following the norms of daily life will only make people regret it afterwards.

I never doubted the mobility of Bajing. I'm afraid, she has already had some idea, she needs someone's support urgently. Her previous answer to my question has already made me aware of a trace. I planned to leave, let the matter cool down, and without thinking, she pulled my collar all at once.

I left very quickly, but it made me almost suffocated by the skirt of my clothes.

"Tell me clearly, otherwise don't want to leave." Bajing said very simply. The surrounding students looked over because of the movement here, but Bajing has long been used to this class, so , I quickly ignored it.

"Clarify what." After she let go, I complained while adjusting the collar. Ordinary I don't have the extraordinary physical fitness in the doomsday fantasy. Although the combat experience and instinct are still there, the subject If it is the eight sceneries of ordinary female high school students, it is impossible to fight back.

"You are actually very dissatisfied with this kind of ordinary life day after day, aren't you?" Hakjing stared at me with a look of "I saw you through", "This is really a happy trouble. In this world , But many people are in dire straits."

What she said is exactly what I want to say.

"Since you are already idle to the point where you start thinking about the philosophy of life, I have a good job to introduce to you." When Ba Jing said this, his tone was full of pretending to be mysterious.

"I'm still a full-time student and don't plan to work." I said.

"Volunteers are good for graduation assessment. They are paid, and they can also add points to the college entrance examination." Bajing said.

Her persistence fills me with a sense of sight. It should have been a similar scene in the doomsday illusion. Then, I heard a very familiar term-whisperer.

"I privately established a mutual aid club called the Whisperers. The purpose of the club is to help others while looking for inspiration for life, as well as exciting and interesting things." Hakjing lowered his voice and stared directly at it. I said: "All those who join the club should be like-minded people who are not satisfied with the current lifestyle and want to make some changes to make their life journey more brilliant. I think you have this potential, Gao Chuan. "

"I have never heard of such a club in the school, and, in terms of the purpose of the activity, the school will not allow the establishment of such an extracurricular club that is not helpful for further studies." At the moment when the whisperer was heard , I understand what kind of organization it is. In the doomsday fantasy, isn’t Eight Views the founder of this society? It's not the first time she has invited me. But the problem lies here. If this is a real world, then why is my experience in "delusions" copied here? If it is said that it is the past that has already happened, but before that, I really have not heard of Bajing mentioning Whispers. Therefore, it is almost certain that I did not hear about the "whisperer" in this real world, and added such a factor to the "delusion". As a result, this world full of strong sense of reality is really a reality. Of the world?

My thoughts and emotions are shaking, and the words of the Eight Views are like revealing a hidden corner of this ordinary and real world. Even so, I still need to suppress this kind of spiritual shock. Continue to pay attention to the development of the matter, looking for more evidence that can confirm "this is a real coincidence" or "is part of the repeater trap".

"Of course. The school will not allow this kind of society to exist." Hachijing nodded without hesitation, "But as I said, this is a privately established society, which I established privately. It does not require the school or society. The acknowledgment of the participant is sufficient."

"Since it is not a club recognized by the school, what does it have to do with the graduation assessment and the bonus points for the college entrance examination?" I asked back.

"Money can make ghosts grind, the establishment of an underground society. It is always inseparable from the support of funds." Bajing replied without hesitation: "I have a high plan for the society. The first thing is to get one. A lot of money, and this process is naturally thrilling, a thrill that ordinary students and even other ordinary people cannot enjoy."

Sure enough, it is really the style of Eight Views, I couldn't help but pinch the bridge of my nose. This feeling is like repeating the past that I am familiar with. In the doomsday illusion, the whisperers she formed did not go too far. The so-called "stimulus" was naturally a behavior contrary to the norms of daily life, and it was not good. It will bring huge trouble to one's own peaceful life, at least, in that weird and mysterious world, the whisperer is used by Doomsday Truth, and even the result of being slaughtered. It is still vivid at this time. This seems to be a real world, although there is no weirdness and mystery. However, at some point, the Bajing will reap the fruits of their "exciting" actions.

Naturally, I hope she will not do too outrageous things.

"Crime is not good," I said.

"Who would commit a crime?" Bajing looked over with contempt: "I naturally have my own way, but there is a shortage of manpower. I think you are a good candidate. You can guarantee the quality of your studies. There are not many students who have the energy to do these things."

"Guarantee the quality of learning?" Her words caused me to think deeply. The whispers of the Eight Views are obviously different from those in the doomsday fantasy. Chasing the weirdness and mystery in a world without weirdness and mystery is undoubtedly fruitless. In the doomsday illusion, the reason why Bajing became a whisperer was because she had already begun to be exposed to the weirdness and mystery. The power of the prophet had been spontaneously detected. This kind of thing itself is enough to stimulate an ordinary student, but , There is no such thing in this world. It is debatable in which direction the whispers of the Eight Views will go. At least, it will definitely not be her entertaining activities in pursuit of non-existent weirdness and mystery. The Eight Views I know have always been very active in action. Planning and anticipation.

What she is pursuing must be something that she already has a plan that can reach a certain stage. In the few words before the Eight Views, it has been revealed that the whisperers will be involved in the normal social level, and not just a student group operating in the school. It is only the first step in a larger plan to get in touch with society prematurely and seek money. . Although she was a little worried about the method she used to raise funds for the event, since she said that it was not a crime, it was obvious that she had already prepared in advance. The problem is what kind of self-worth will be pursued in an extremely normal society after having activity funds. I don’t think at all that the whispers of Bajing will develop in political and economic aspects, although it will inevitably involve politics. And the economy to consolidate the foundation of their own activities. I don't think it will develop towards a purely extreme entertainment.

I’m a little confused about the idea of ​​the eight sceneries, just like in the apocalyptic fantasy world in the past.

It's just that, will this extremely real and ordinary eight sceneries be the same as her in the doomsday illusion? Assuming that the doomsday illusion is just my "delusion", I don't think it will be exactly the same, but the establishment of the whisperer is consistent with the trend of the doomsday illusion, so I now dare not make rash assertions. From this perspective, this seemingly real world is more likely to be a trap created by a repeater. This can explain why it is obvious that there are not many intersections in the past, just the eight sceneries of the relationship between ordinary classmates, which are so consistent with my perception of her in the doomsday illusion.

"How? That would be a very interesting thing." Bajing suddenly said: "Actually, I have noticed you a long time ago, Gao Chuan."

My heart is a little shaken, because the trajectory of this world seems to be coincident with the trajectory of the doomsday illusion. This is not what I promoted, but more like a shielded power that is beginning to interfere in this world. This is my intuition. Now, I have started to have intuition again. This intuition is different from the so-called intuition before. The same vocabulary describes things, before Bajing talked about whispers, and talked about whispers. After that, it was as if a line was clearly drawn-I feel that today's intuition can be trusted without a reason, just like my intuition in the doomsday illusion.

"Attention...me?" I couldn't help but repeat, "Why?"

"I don't know, intuition." Hachijing replied simply: "However, from today's conversation, my intuition is not without reason." Her tone began to have a meaningful taste, and the more she It's becoming more and more like her in the doomsday illusion.

"Let me think about it." I ended the conversation decisively. My instinct made me feel that if we continue to talk about it, a fateful overlap will become more and more obvious, and I actually did not accept that result, even if the world In the end, it overlaps with the doomsday illusion, which has proved that this is the trap of the repeater, and I will also get out of this trap. A world that has been proven to have weird and mysterious powers is impossible to trap me. However, the unparalleled sense of reality that this world brings to me makes it difficult for me to accept that this is just a fictitious ideological world, and let everything go along the trajectory of collapse.

At least, in this world, before I confirm the living conditions of other people, I hope it can be maintained within this real and ordinary boundary. I have thought about why I hope so, and the conclusion is that I probably long for this to be the real world. Even if, I will pay the price of making everything that I get in the doomsday illusion become a "delusion". However, if everything hasn't started, then it is better to let everything not begin than to contribute to that cruel world.

If this world has the opportunity to become an ideal country, then why not let it exist at the end of a distant dream? A world without apocalypse, no weirdness and mystery, no doomsday truth and mysterious Nazis, no "virus", no need for heroes, in fact, it means that it will not become a disaster that everyone has to worry about every day.

I hope that the people I love can live in such a world. If this is a dream, I also hope that when I wake up, the dream will continue forever, and they in the dream will continue forever.

So--

"It shouldn’t be now, it shouldn’t be so fast~IndoMTL.com~Don’t become such a cruel world." I face myself, I don’t know if it exists on the other end of the unknown, something that makes this happen Begging for the existence of. However, I heard the sound of my own blood rushing, and heard the unexpectedly strong agitation of my heart. My body seemed to be getting stronger as I escaped from the classroom. I also heard the familiar, auditory murmur, the chanting like the wind blowing in my ears, the ordinary shadows under the night lights, and it seemed to be constantly twisting, as if there was something, trying Get rid of the invisible shackles.

Weird and mysterious, swinging on the dividing line between "existence" and "nonexistence". This feeling made me seem to be able to perceive the existence of "Jiang" again - but this feeling did not continue to be strong, and the whole world was swaying in an ambiguous state. I feel that I have once again become a mental patient from an ordinary high school student, because for normal people, everything that is placed in front of me is real. Only mental patients can have this feeling of uncertainty.

I held on to the handrails in the corridor, took a deep breath, measured my lung capacity, and confirmed whether my strength was an illusion. Someone called me: "Your health is not good yet?" I turned my head. It turned out that I was at the same table before. He once again proposed: "Go ask for a leave, your face turns blue." To be continued. If you like this work, you are welcome to come to the starting point () to vote for recommendations, monthly tickets, and your support is my biggest motivation. For mobile phone users, please read it.)