Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1035: The beginning of the deviation

The eight sceneries of this world are not the same as the eight sceneries I know. No, I began to think that it was because the relationship between the eight sceneries of this world and mine was different, so she showed her that is different from the eight sceneries I know. one side. To say that this world is completely a fake constructed by the repeater based on my consciousness, so the eight sceneries of this world are also fakes. I absolutely don’t believe it, because this world is so real, and the core spirit of the repeater The integrated device is not an independent thing. The doomsday illusion and the spiritual integration device have an extremely deep and close connection. The world born from the spiritual integration device must also have a deep and close connection with all the factors that constitute the doomsday illusion.

Carmen's suggestion is also sufficient to support my point that this world is not simply illusory, otherwise my idea of ​​doing something for this world must be ridiculous.

The doomsday illusion, the hospital reality, this world of restraint constructed by the repeater, whether it is true or false, I actually didn't understand it for a long time. I can only treat all of it as true, based on a certain world and regard another world as a false behavior, I cannot do it, even if it is to save the people in the hospital in reality, and have to treat the doomsday destiny of the doomsday illusion indifferently. I did not act with the idea of ​​destroying an illusory world.

Whenever I think that I have to do this, I have to give up something, otherwise I can't get anything, my heart is full of pain. With intense pain, I face a doomsday illusion that I cannot save, and those who will inevitably be destroyed with the destruction of this doomsday illusion-whether it is real death or not, such an awareness is true. . Therefore, I have never complained about the people in the doomsday illusion, whether they are enemies or friends. I don't have the power to reverse the doomsday simply in the doomsday illusion. I can't see anyone who can do this kind of thing, can become a hero in the true sense, so I have to find another way to make cruel decisions based on the subordination between the doomsday fantasy and the reality of the hospital in my eyes.

I hope. When I complete the redemption in reality in the hospital, I can solve the problem of the doomsday illusion at one time and prevent the tragic fate from reincarnation. However, this does not mean that in my eyes. Everything in the doomsday illusion is false. I believe in the authenticity of the stories I have experienced in it and the encounters between people.

The relationship between this world and the doomsday illusion is just like the relationship between the doomsday illusion and the hospital reality, so when I open my eyes to observe this world. When I was shocked by the reality of this world, I never regarded everything as illusory because of the assumption that "this may be a repeater trap". In this world, the relationship between Gao Chuan and Dr. Ruan Li, as well as Bajing and Sakuya, and even the existence of more people, the emotions and relationships between each other. Where can I see its falsity?

I once heard the description of the world and life by philosophers: everything is empty and everything is allowed. It is concise and incomprehensible, but now I feel that I have some experience. Therefore, the eight sceneries in front of me, which are not cute at all, are definitely not a fake, but only real, the other side of the eight sceneries that I have never seen before. Whether in the doomsday illusion or the hospital reality, even if it is deep in my memory. The memory in the orphanage cannot prove that my understanding of the eight sceneries is complete and thorough, because of the time, distance and living conditions between us. It's too far away.

Even if there is an unspeakable relationship between us. As Gao Chuan, I must shoulder its responsibility to her. And all this does not mean that I know everything about her.

I looked at Bajing, my mind was ups and downs because of her words, but it soon calmed down. I have never regretted my choice. I want to save Bajing and others. This idea will not change because of their strangeness. I once again confirmed the consciousness in my heart. The girl in front of me was familiar and unfamiliar, distant and close, but it was true that I couldn't let go of the existence of my hands.

I was in a daze. I just felt that the scene in front of me seemed to have happened at some time. In this scene, the smell, the wind blowing from a distance, and the hustle and bustle of the classroom are just like the past. Reappearance at a certain moment. But I can't remember it. There is no such scene in the memory I have. So, it's probably just a sense of sight. In a world where the spirit is the first and the material is the second, it is not surprising that anything that is very peculiar in terms of sensibility happens.

Because, here, it was originally a world of feeling and interaction with the mind, a world completely different from the world of material primacy in common sense theory.

"Perversion, this is a beautiful compliment." Bajing's expression and tone, without irony at all, made me think that the word "perversion" in her mouth is indeed a complimentary word in her heart. I know, in fact, I have never really understood this girl's thinking circuit in the past. Think about it carefully. In the doomsday illusion, we actually don’t have many opportunities to get along. In the eight sceneries, we were involved in the mysterious events created by the Goat Guild, and then it developed to the extinction of the whispers. It was only a short period of time, after which the eight sceneries became the prophet. Later, most of the time, I was studying with the Prophet Mayne. In reality in the hospital, Bajing is just a patient whose personality has been severely damaged, and even communication is impossible. What makes me feel that I have a deep relationship with her is probably the memories that have emerged in my mind and the information obtained in the "hospital", but the image of the eight sceneries spelled out by these materials is obviously extremely one-sided. It's just that I never have time to consider these issues.

To look at this situation from a more in-depth perspective, for Gao Chuan, what kind of person the Bajing is, in fact, has no meaning at all. Gaochuan must save Bajing. This is undoubtedly the core of all actions so far. One is the meaning of struggling in the most desperate situation. For me, all these are the mission and responsibility that I am born with and must shoulder. In this sense, the description of Bajing at this time is indeed correct. When facing them, my sense of responsibility is in my heart. Deeper than other feelings.

Although "abnormal" is not a commendatory word in my dictionary, it seems that there is actually a big difference between my thinking and Bajing's thinking. but. However, I cannot refute Bajing’s views from various aspects. Her cognition of me seems to touch the essence more than my cognition of her, and it can best explain my thoughts and behaviors all the time.

"I'm a woman who likes excitement and doesn't know what love is. To me, feelings are like flavoring agents. It doesn't matter whether they have them or not." Hakkei said to himself, "But, is a man suitable? Myself, I will never read it wrong. Gao Chuan, your appearance, personality and talents can satisfy me. Although it is a pervert. With the current situation, let our union become a matter of course."

"Why do you always add the suffix ‘perverted’?" I couldn’t help muttering. Although understandable, I couldn’t accept such a description emotionally.

"Because of the nature of Gao Chuan, it is a pervert." Hakjing said, "Although I don't know exactly what kind of perversion, but I don’t think a man’s vision can be wrong. Anyway, I don’t mind that Gao Chuan is a pervert. , Or rather. Because of the perverted Gao Chuan, it is a stimulus within a safe range, no problem!"

"No, it’s the most fundamental problem to keep people perverted! Your attributes have changed!" As soon as I finished talking, I was stared at by Bajing. She was a little bit playful: "It seems like you You know me very well, but we have never had a deep communication between us. Since when have you been together, you have been peeping at me and looking forward to me. Do you imagine me? However, longing is often the furthest distance from understanding Distance. However, it doesn’t matter. I will understand you well and let you understand the real me. Maybe it will destroy your good imagination of me. However, people like you, Gao Chuan, will accept it well. Or, better accept it?" Although it was a rhetorical question, the attitude revealed in the words was undoubtedly convinced, "I will never miss you, Gao Chuan, you are such a man. A man who suits me. Although in common sense, it is wrong for students to fall in love with each other early, and it is a discipline that should not be violated as a student cadre. However, for people like you and me, there is no need to worry about academic decline. , And you can determine the path of your future life early, and this process will inevitably be full of excitement because of breaking free. It is simply a match made in heaven."

Hakjing became more and more excited, her eyes seemed to shine: "I feel more and more that the harvest tonight is really the most exciting since I entered school."

"Listen to me, the Eight Views..." I want to regain the right to speak. No matter how I look at it, the Eight Views are talking to themselves, and there is no room for me to choose. Although the relationship between us is so complicated that Bajing is unimaginable, it will only be regarded as a mental illness when we say it. It must also be admitted that Bajing, as a woman, has her own conditions-to exclude the sudden strong personality. Outside-they are all very good, but the problem is that the sudden offensive of the Eight Views is too unprepared, and the act of making the final conclusion immediately seems a bit tricky.

As soon as the relationship between us started, we had reached the end. From all levels and in all senses, I was not psychologically prepared. The awkwardness in my heart is probably because of this.

"What else do you want to say? Am I not up to your criteria for choosing a spouse?" Bajing asked rhetorically.

"No—I think..."

"Do you think you should talk about love and gradually increase your feelings? Don't be kidding. Life is short. How can there be time wasted on such meaningless things."

"Is this a pointless thing!" I couldn't help refuting it.

"Yes, it is meaningless. Because I don't need it." Hakjing said with a righteous expression: "Emotional factors are the most fickle of all fickle factors, and all relationships that rely on feelings to maintain , Are fragile, does it make sense to spend time on something fragile?"

"No, your opinion is too extreme." This is the thought in my mind.

"It seems that you still don’t understand, Gao Chuan, but it’s okay. If you want feelings, just increase your feelings for me unilaterally. No, in fact, you already have deep feelings for me, even though I I don’t know where this feeling comes from, but I’m not wrong, am I?” Hakjing forced to look at me and asked: “Look at my eyes, to be honest, are you in your heart without any love for me? ?"

I can't deceive her, nor can I deceive myself, even if that love is not love, the emotion I have for her. It is not simply a relationship between men and women. It is a deeper, more entangled, and more incapable emotion.

"But, that's not the same as you think." I argued.

"No, for me. That's enough. Love is the broadest, warmest, and most trustworthy of all emotions." Hakkei showed a smile that can only be described with clarity, "Go after love Which one it is and where it comes from is the most meaningless, because love is love, and it is happy to be loved by another person. Ignore the fact of its existence and explore the secrets in it, thus missing This love will thunder in the sky."

"...how did you see it?" I felt restrained by my emotions. Already very clever. During this period of time, I have never had more contact with Bajing than ordinary classmates, and I have never focused too much on her.

"I'm very sensitive." Hakjing put his hands on his chest triumphantly, setting off his already quite large breasts, "Although you will say it, you won't believe it, but I can really feel it from simple contact. To other people’s emotions towards me. Especially the strong emotions like love and hate. There is also a premonition that can judge the people in contact with me, which ones are beneficial to me, even if such benefits are not in the first place. Reflect it."

I couldn't help thinking deeply about the eight sceneries. Seeing what she meant, it seemed that she had this ability a long time ago. Do the Doomsday Fantasy Land and the Eight Sceneries in the hospital reality also have this ability? Judging from the mysterious restraint power of this world, it should not belong to the category of weird and mysterious. But there are similarities with the ability of the prophet in some respects. Is the Eight Views finally becoming a prophet because of their sensitivity? In other words, a person who becomes a prophet is not random. But do you already have some measurable innate conditions?

Then, in this world, with the rise of weirdness and mystery, the possibility of whether the Eight Views will follow the path of the prophet has faintly increased.

The prophet is a kind of power, but the meaning of its existence is not positive. However, when the world inevitably goes negative, it is better to have this power than no power at all.

My mood is complicated.

"It seems that you have no objections." Bajing did not pay attention to the look in my eyes, although I think she could see the complexity in my heart, but, as she said, she didn't want to pursue it, or Said that keeping such a secret is actually a complicated matter for her. If she really sees through my emotions, then she will definitely perceive something deeper. A man with a secret is the most attractive to women-this sentence on Bajing seems to be true.

"I understand." I can't refuse, because her attitude has made it clear that there is no room for recovery. I don't want to consider all possible harm to her, no matter how tactful the way of refusal, For the eight sceneries in front of you, none of them will work. So I confessed my fate happily.

"Very good. This weekend, we will settle the relationship and meet with the parents." Bajing's attitude was sharply cut through the mess.

"...is it too soon?" I really haven't met Hakjing's parents, and when it comes to meeting with the wife's parents, it is the first worst thing in my memory. No matter in the doomsday illusion or the hospital reality, there are no such conditions. Even if I have experienced so many incredible things, I can't help but feel a little flustered.

"Just be quicker. Anyway, it's already a confirmed fact, and it's not something difficult to tell." Bajing said disapprovingly.

"Don't you give your family a little buffer?" I said.

"I know the situation in your family. My mother-in-law is a well-known psychology expert. With her vision and psychological conditions, there will be no objections." Bajing said: "My family does things simply and mentally tough. It’s also hereditary. Don’t worry, men I’m optimistic about will not deliberately criticize them."

"It's an unimaginable family relationship." I couldn't help but say: "Aren't they worried about you?"

"Not at all." Bajing took it for granted and said categorically: "Because I have no reason to worry them."

"Well, if you insist on doing this." I can only helplessly raise the white flag.

Next, we didn't have a deeper conversation. After a while, the bell rang for the second half of the self-study class, and the classroom calmed down again, with only the rustling of writing. I glanced at Bajing from time to time. She was exactly like a normal student, and she did not have any extra emotions or actions due to what happened between classes. This makes me really have to admire her. I can take all this for granted and do it with confidence. At least, there are still some emotional ups and downs in my heart.

I am not a particularly calm person. I have already known this for a long time. Sometimes I will harden myself, but that is just because emotionality is not always pleasant. When I see the tear-jerking plot on TV, I will have a straight face and look disapproving, because I don't like the sad mood that is aroused by those sadness and cruelty. I know that as long as I survive, I have to face the impact of various tragedies, so I decided to harden my heart. However, this proved that my emotions are richer than many people, and they have to fluctuate sharply.

I can't completely calm down at this time and put all the messy thoughts behind. Therefore, I think that a person who can be completely calm is really incredible, just like the current eight sceneries. At least, I don't see any wavering in her, even under my gaze.

So, this kind of emotion remained passive until the next night after self-study. I and Hakjing took it for granted, but in the eyes of the other students, we left the classroom together without abruptness. We walked together side by side, and the relationship was different from the past. However, even the classmates I kept close to each other and the female classmates who had good friends with Bajing did not have any unnecessary associations. We were walking on the same road simply and accidentally, and there was no doubt in the eyes of the classmates who were chatting around us. We were separated at the school gate, and we were on our way home with each other. At this time, I was still with Bajing, and for the first time in this world, I was a little sensitive and thought I would be ridiculed, but the truth is , No one cares about this kind of thing at all.

Soon, and the other people along the way, we also separated. In the end, only me and Bajing were walking in the bright moonlight.

"The direction of our house is the same?" I was a little surprised, because this is something I have never noticed.

"It looks like this." Hakjing said, her voice seemed to be particularly gentle because of the completely different atmosphere between each other. The relationship between her and her under the moonlight was also exceptionally peaceful. Different. Obviously, the outline has not changed, but every move seems to be dyed in a different color. It is a color that makes people feel beautiful. Bajing's appearance and body are very good, but on this evening, she is more in line with the compliments of beauty than I have ever met, just like-I know her for the first time.

The topic between us~IndoMTL.com~ seems to have gotten closer when we were parting with other students. However, even if it is silent, I feel that there is a different emotion from the usual, which diffuses between each other, as if it is narrowing the distance between each other. I can't bear to speak out, afraid of destroying such a sudden, but it makes people feel good, warm and calm. Bajing just walked so quietly, even from the quiet alley to the busy street, the footsteps in my ears have never been weakened. At this moment, even the hustle and bustle of the city, I can't hide her figure in my eyes.

I'm sure again, I really am a very emotional person. Even at this moment, the anomalies lurking in the darkness still appear in my vision in an illusion-like form, allowing me to hear their existence, but I cannot shake my heart, because the atmosphere between the eight sceneries, and That wonderful feeling produced. This world is about to face threats, but even if it is only this night, I feel very satisfied to be able to enjoy this unique peace and warmth in this short time.

We walked towards the flyover that I always pass by by chance. Our destination seems to be at the other end of the flyover. Then, when I stepped on the flyover, I said: "I won't go home immediately tonight." (To be continued. If you like this work, you are welcome to come to the starting point () to vote for a recommendation, a monthly pass, and your support Is my biggest motivation. For mobile phone users, please go to read.)