Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1069: Parallel lost way

The "mystery" that appeared after the dead soldiers turned out to be spiritual in nature. Although I didn't feel that I would be overthrown by this power from the beginning, after all, I had already gone through a considerable test before this world. Mental erosion is terrible, but compared to the tests given by "Jiang" and "Hospital Reality", it is not an irresistible force. In occultism, the danger of mental erosion lies in self-denial. For many people, although You can usually think that your will is strong enough, but when faced with an irresistible, huge surge of negative thoughts, whether you can get rid of the confrontation between positive and negative thoughts becomes the key to defeating this power. Even if you are psychologically prepared, people who are already conscious of their actions have a certain chance of losing the battle-precisely because the seemingly firm heart has always been constantly swinging, and people's determination is also It is only when negative emotions and thoughts appear that they can be manifested by defeating them. When there is no psychological struggle, saying that you "will never be overthrown" is just a one-sided word.

I don’t think that going through this test is very difficult. Compared with the test I have received before, it is a relaxed one. Ask yourself, fight your own negative thoughts, in the contradiction of thinking and self-interpretation I’m doing it in the middle of the day. I usually do it. It’s more or less accustomed to fighting than hand-to-hand combat. I think there are not many people who can really understand the saying that "you are always fighting with yourself", because this is the situation. In many cases, it's just that if the instinct of walking is like that, it will not deliberately make people pay attention.

Compared with the hard feelings of fighting with myself, the exhaustion after getting the results is also heavier than the hard feelings experienced at the time of the battle.

"Mystery" allows spiritual erosion to be manifested in the form of "yoke", although it is invisible. However, it can be felt that it is possible to phantom a more specific shape of shackles in the mind through feelings. And This test. The biggest danger. I am afraid that it is not in the self-interrogation stage, but in the final decision to move forward. The feeling that the body is about to shatter like glass-because it is not clear whether the shackles are breaking or My body is shattering, so I sometimes feel that if I continue to do so brutally, even if I break the shackles, my body will be torn apart, and then I will die.

It is terrible to realize that you are going to die, especially when you are struggling. Before the people who mustered their strength to move forward and survive, at the last moment, there will be this kind of death feeling as if all previous efforts have been abandoned. It is enough to make it through the early stage. People in this stage stopped again. I don’t know how many people will stop because of the last fear when they are replaced by others. However, even if there is no definite evidence, I think that at that time, there is no "even death." The idea of ​​"forward" is probably really not enough.

No matter what would happen if I really stopped at that time, it doesn't matter now. I'm moving forward. This is an indisputable fact. The feeling of mental erosion has subsided. Although paying attention to listening, there will be ambiguities. , Whispers full of negative emotions, but as long as you move your attention away, there is no threat at all. I am more worried about the situation in the school dormitory. The mental erosion does not occur near the old toilet. I have always assumed that the old toilet is abnormal. The core is to lay out the plan, so the scope of this mental erosion can be regarded as the actual threatening anomaly is expanding, or it can be regarded as this time from anomalous dangers that will occur within the scope of the gray fog. ——The latter is naturally the most unfavorable situation. The previous intensity of mental erosion is not something that everyone can overcome. I use my own experience and past experience as the standard to estimate the huge amount it can cause. Destruction.

The chance that those combat experts can survive the test is only about one-third. Moreover, in the process of experiencing the test, the connection with the Night Crow Quark has become a lot thinner, and the nature of the mental attack Does it matter? I walked alone in the fog and threw away the third cigarette-the time for the three cigarettes has passed, and the night crow quark has not been able to come over. What is the situation? At this time, even if I want to It feels that I can't do it in the past, as if there is something invisible between me and it.

The power of the electronic demon is unquestionable, but if it fails to reach the owner in time, it will reveal a huge flaw. If you encounter hand-to-hand combat at this time, it is really dangerous. The current situation is I took over The weakest time since this mysterious incident, and is this weakness a targeted trap, or is it just a coincidence? I can't help but think so.

No, consider it as a "coincidence". It is not my style. Suppose this is a trap set for the electronic demon's ability. The purpose is to weaken me or prove that the electronic demon does have flaws. Then, the enemy's One step, it should come sooner. If I wait until the night crow quark returns and I am out of the state of weakness, isn't it in vain?

If you think about it this way, the previous spiritual erosion did not find the source, or it was the specific object that initiated this "mystery". Therefore, it is impossible to be sure that the release of this power is the "abnormal natural change of the gray fog". , Or, "There is a more specific will that dominates such an attack".

There have been two attacks, but it still makes people feel that the enemy’s body is unknown, and the abnormal body is unknown. Just dead soldiers and mental erosion are not enough to prove more things.

"Tsk." I screamed in my heart. "Mystery" is really an elusive thing. Fortunately, from the initial contact, I am not doing useless work.

I called the night crow quark again, and the feeling of isolation reappeared. Is it really the only way to go to the old toilet? I can't help but think, if it is a coincidence, the blockade is highlighted. Powerful means, isn’t that too coincidental? The Night Crow Quark was just before, and just showed its power. Time, place, and.[,! ]Encounters, people have to care about.

I moved my wrists and my skin felt a little numb. Although the mental erosion is not as strong as before, it does still exist. The distance I have traveled is normal, and I should be able to see the old toilet, but, At this time, there are still endless gray fog and hazy building outlines around, what buildings are there in the school, what the buildings are like, and the surrounding environment. I know very well, so every time I turn my eyes. When you see the fuzzy outline of the building up and down in the gray fog, you can't help but feel a feeling of "how many copies of it?".

Even if I walk straight toward those buildings, I can't get there. I have tried it. I want to determine whether these buildings are real or illusion, and why I can conclude that I am advancing but still keep bumping into them. Following the normal route, these buildings should have disappeared behind them long ago.

However, the gray fog at this time seems to transform the familiar campus into a bizarre maze, those huge. Building outlines that can be used as reference objects are not all accessible. In other words, It can be considered that the scenery that I see is not completely real, and when I am walking, I have already lost the reference object. In this way, I am eager to find a real building that does exist and can be touched. The mood becomes eager. If there is no reference object, or if the reference object is wrong, ordinary people can't even judge distance, speed and time.

I can still be sure that I am indeed moving forward, just because what I use to observe is not the naked eye, but the sensitive intuition and ripples of chain judgment. However, even with these two, I want to reach the goal. It still seems to be a very troublesome thing.

There is no battle, the threat is in the trough, and everything seems to be better. However, it turns into a "seemingly lost" state, which is also very disturbing. From this perspective, the third danger has been Appeared, like a spring rain, moisturizing things silently act on all the awake people in the school. At this time, I am afraid that many people will hope that there will be something like a dead soldier. Indeed, the battle is heartily. One game, more profitable than the current situation.

However, since it is considered that this is an "attack" state, it is most natural that it will not easily make the enemy feel good.

I smoked the fourth cigarette and summoned the Nightcrow Quark again.

Failed.

Failed again.

The gray fog is still spreading, and the outline of the building is still repeating. On the left hand side is the outline of the back of the auditorium. On the right hand side, you can see the lamp holder of the street lamp. The line is aging, and it is about to be damaged. Then, it is the sense of gaze from all directions, that is full of malicious feeling, like a needle stick, but it is not certain whether there is something there.

I can’t distinguish between the illusion and the actual existence. The illusion and the actual existence can be changed at any time. Mental attacks are infested, and for the nervous people, it will only be "strange and confused", but for people with very sensitive abnormal feelings, it is "very scary" - these situations , Is one of the most classic fog phenomenon.

It's just that, although classic and familiar, there is still no fixed solution.

I took out the chalk from the pocket of the combat windbreaker and painted the magic circle on the ground. This method was successful during the rescue night, but this time, I can't answer with a certainty.

When I bend down and look away from the surroundings, the feeling of being threatened by something is even stronger.The ripples of the clearly interlocking judgment did not observe any more substantial anomalies, but it was a sensational thing. , Is still very much. I dare not fully focus on the depiction of the magic circle, the weak mental erosion is also interfering with the thinking, whether it is active or passive, the concentration is at a very low level. In this state, I heard footsteps.

I seem to hear it, not sure. When I straightened up and looked in the direction where the sound was coming from, I couldn't hear it anymore.

I stared in that direction for two or three seconds, and summoned the Night Crow Quark again to no avail, so I had to continue drawing the magic circle again. After all, continue to move forward, although it feels right to move forward, I feel that I can reach it The destination, but how long it will take, is uncertain. If the night crow quark can be summoned, the time problem can be solved more effectively. However, it is an indisputable fact that the night crow quark cannot respond. So, here is an indisputable fact. Stopping to portray the magic circle when planting is also considered a chance gambling.

If you succeed, it is naturally best. If you do not succeed, you must count the time wasted to portray the magic circle. During this time, it is difficult to determine what will happen to other people. Ordinary people Compared with the mystery expert, the disadvantage is here. The mystery expert can obtain information in a more timely manner. Open the channel. However, ordinary people do not have too many choices.

I can’t get in touch with the Night Crow Quark. The gap between me and ordinary people is not big, so I don’t have many choices. Every choice, compared with the Night Crow Quark by my side, seems risky. Zoomed in.

I smoked the fifth cigarette, and the sound of footsteps out of sight sounded again. This time, I did not look at it for the first time, but through listening to confirm that it was indeed the sound of footsteps. I painted the magic patiently Array, try not to focus on that side. Because when I deliberately observed before, the sound disappeared-I regarded this abnormality as a "condition" and followed it.

Then the footsteps are getting closer and closer. I seem to have done it right, if it is heavy. [,! ] Repeat the previous practice. To deliberately find the source of the sound, it probably won’t be close. But who is approaching? The gray fog changes the sound to a certain extent. Only through the sound of footsteps, it is impossible to conclude that the person is a monster. , Or human.

The sound of footsteps keeps approaching, it is easy to give birth to the idea of ​​"I will come close soon", but in fact, the sound stopped at about three times with me until I completed the magic circle. Meters away. At this distance, even in the gray mist now, you can still see the other person's appearance.

I slowly stood up, turned around, and brought my eyes--is the other me?

The appearance, figure, and dress are exactly the same as I am now, just like another self walking out of the mirror. However, his face is more haggard than I am at this time, and the windbreaker on his body is also damaged in many places, obviously passing by After a fierce battle, my left hand was drooping unnaturally, probably because of a very serious injury. When I looked at me, I was silent, but my eyes were not energetic. The tiredness seemed to penetrate into my bone marrow. How embarrassing and miserable this is. He is standing three meters away, looking at me quietly, without speaking, but it makes people feel that his existence seems to imply something--for example, implying that his future is like this?

"Phantom?" I said, perhaps, with a little thought of asking questions.

"No, it's true." He spoke, and replied, as if it were true, "just like you think."

"What am I thinking?" I asked back, adjusted my stance slightly, and the weapon mechanism on my body was in a state of being activated at any time.

"I'm wondering if you have another illusion. It's really real." He said so, but this kind of statement makes people a little concerned, "I know what weapons are hidden in your body. And, it’s not the first time you have used it, so probably you can’t kill me, because you don’t have as much experience as me on **** yourself."

"You killed yourself?" I began to think of something—for example, the ability similar to Zuo Chuan's "intrinsic barrier-self-cage", but listening to him, I think I am his Mirror?

"...It seems that you are new." He didn't answer directly. He just raised his freely movable right hand and bounced the arm blade. Only at this moment, his gray eyes , A very sharp light flashed. His words and actions have made me understand the current situation-his fighting will is very firm.

"Don't you explain the current situation to me? Anyway, we look so alike." I said so, but to be on the safe side, I bounced out the arm blades of both hands. If the "Gaochuan" on the opposite side, really It is a mirror image, and he has already fought and won victory with other mirror images before he came here. Then, even if his image at this time is embarrassed, it should not be underestimated. From his point of view, maybe I am just a new mirror. However, from my point of view, he is already standing in front of the ultimate boss-because I am the real one, and this, even if he says more, will not let me shake.

We each affirm that our existence is real, and because of this affirmation, once we fight, we will not be merciful. Assuming that the mirror image of the ability is completely recreated, then we will kill all the way. He, in terms of experience and technology, is not much different from me who has experienced many battles.

"Are the experience, skills and weapons even?" I thought to myself, "However, even if you don't consider the spiritual level, there is still a certain gap in the ** aspect."

"Do you think the injury on my body is the decisive factor?" At this time, he said to me: "But. I used this body to walk over, so you don't have to worry about it."

"...It's really like talking to myself, what I'm thinking. Do you know?" I said: "Then. You should also know that what I hate the most is fighting myself."

"Although I know, but since you are me, you should know. This is how I came along. Not only me, but other ordinary people are always fighting with themselves at any time. Victory goes forward, and loses Just shrink back. Going forward is not necessarily a good thing, and shrinking is not necessarily a bad thing. Everything is like this..." He moved his unwieldy left hand, and took out the squeezed cigarette from the tattered windbreaker. He rubbed it round and lit it. I took a deep breath, "It hurts. However, even if you move forward, you may not encounter good things. I still can't stop. You should understand? You think so? So, we met, it is inevitable Of."

"When we meet, we must fight. Is this also a rule?" I said.

"What are you pretending to be confused?" He said: "You can advance better by defeating yourself. This is inevitable. Don't you think so?"

"No." I said calmly, without an attacking posture. "Only when I am sure, and there is no coexistence of ideas between each other, will we fight. If you are me, it should be understandable. In my mind Even the most complicated and contradictory thoughts appearing in the book, they are not all incapable of coexisting. The complexity and diversity of thoughts will not hinder one's progress. More importantly, learn the parts that can promote each other. Eliminate the obstacles."

"This is a manifestation of indecision. Although it sounds good, it's just that you can't make a decision in the first time." He finally said the idea that is not the same as mine, although, like this The idea I have had before, and it also exists now, "The enemy is so powerful and the road is so bad. If you can't make up your mind at the fastest speed, your will will be slowly worn away, or you will miss the best solution. Only following one thought and moving forward without hesitation is the real way to move forward. If you are me, you can understand it, right?"

…….[,! Is it really a further manifestation of spiritual erosion? From a whisper, it becomes a more direct collision. From a certain perspective, the person in front of me who is extremely similar to myself is indeed myself-in thousands of thoughts, I made a different choice from me.

In the first time, I knew the strength of this "enemy". Under his tired appearance, it might be something harder than mine.

"Killer Gaochuan?" From this hard feeling, I felt the familiar part, "No, if it is really a murderer, it will attack without saying anything, but you talked to me, What do you want from the conversation?"

"Murder? Well, it's a familiar name, but it's just another manifestation of cowardice. I used to think that it was powerful for a while, but now that I think about it, it really makes me feel ashamed." He said: "Killing the decisively does not mean that there is no dialogue. Dialogue is also a form of battle. It is unnecessary to confirm that the other party’s ideas are indeed at odds with yourself. This process is also very important. Just like now, with you For reference and dialogue with you, I can understand myself more clearly, the path I am going to take, and the things I have to give up for my wish." He paused and said sincerely to me: "Really, I am very happy to see you, the other me. It doesn't matter whether you are illusion or real. The dialogue with you allows me to walk my own path more firmly. If you are me, you should also be happy. "

"Ah-that's right." His words made my fighting will become firmer, and I assumed an offensive posture. "Although our choices are different, but to walk our own path firmly, this is In common, I actually think that we can coexist. But, for you, it probably won’t work."

"Yes. So, if you don't want to die--" His words were already behind me when they sounded again, "Just hurry up!"