Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1070: Never want, never want

The spiritual erosion in the gray mist has entered a new stage. Although I want to go to the destination in one breath, the "mysterious" interference makes me have to consider using the magic circle. The Night Crow Quark, which could have played a greater role, could not be summoned temporarily after sending away those outside the school, and the feeling of danger was approaching step by step during this period. Just before I completed the magic circle, what appeared in front of me was my own mirror image—in addition to the mirror image, there are also many names, but in terms of nature, they are actually the same—this is the other person standing in front of me. I seem to have matured the self in the image of the murderer in the past. Although from the outside, his condition is not good, but it still makes me feel a strong danger.

How did the murderer Gao Chuan form, what aspects of his ability have been optimized, and what is his mental state? What can be done under extreme conditions? These things are related to me. It's not too clear. After all, that was the self that was once.

Furthermore, when I appeared as a murderer, I was still immature, but now standing in front of me is a "killer Gaochuan" who is full of tempered maturity. Taking the murderous ghost Gao Chuan in the past as a reference, then his current combat effectiveness may be 50% higher.

Is fifty percent the limit? At the end of the conversation with him, I felt a sense of power in his words, which made me unconsciously doubt my prediction.

"For me, we can coexist. After all, I have seen many'Gaochuan' who are not exactly the same as myself, but because of this, I can be sure that this kind of'no Exactly the same' exists precisely on the basis of the'having essential similarities'. These commonalities are the reason for the continuation of'Gao Chuan', but there are new possibilities. If after the death of one Gao Chuan, the next There is no difference between Gaochuan and the previous one. So, even if it has been reincarnated countless times, it will only repeat the same mistakes on the same issue. While "Gaochuan" is regarded as an individual, it can also be regarded as an ecosystem composed of multiple individuals. Because diversification and essential commonality exist at the same time, so many possibilities can be created, which makes people look forward to it, and I think that maybe in the event, I can entrust a mission that I cannot achieve." I told him Put it this way: "From this perspective, when I died, I had indeed made the consciousness of entrusting my mission. As a result, unexpectedly, I did not die completely. I can still live this. In fact, I am very happy. When I think that I can still move on, I don’t want to give this responsibility to other people, even if the other person is "Gao Chuan". However, even so, when it comes to the time when it is necessary to be enlightened, I am also convinced that I can coexist with any'Takakawa'. Even the murderer Takakawa is the same..."

When I said this, I stared at his tired, cruel but passionate and calm eyes.

"But, for you, it won't work, right?" I was so sure.

"Yes, no, I can't do it, it should be mine, it should be mine." The murderer Gao Chuan did not hesitate, "Even when he is crushed, he will never think that it is a last resort to hand over to others. Yes, it makes people happy to have someone to entrust. How can that kind of thing be happy? A mission that can't be accomplished even to death. It will bring a terrible frustration. It makes me feel that if I work harder, it will be fine. , This kind of regret, it burns like a flame. Ha—" He breathed a long breath, "I don't know when I will die, but I will die at some point. This is Undoubtedly, I don’t think that if I try my best, I can definitely accomplish my mission. It’s just that I tried my best to convince myself that as long as my mission has not been completed, then, even if it’s dead, it’s definitely Will crawl out of hell! It doesn’t matter how much time it takes or how much pain you experience. What you should do must be done in your own capacity. There is absolutely nothing wrong with this! Entrust it to others, To die with peace of mind, of course, helplessly, with a wry smile...None of them fits my philosophy."

"...In some ways, I don’t hate someone like you at all. It’s probably because I wanted to be such a person. That’s why when I made my first choice Come closer to this look?" I squeezed the cigarette **** and said to him calmly: "After all, the murderer Gao Chuan in the beginning is not me."

"But, you didn't choose to become that kind of Gaochuan in the end." He bent down, a posture that seemed to relax his body but suddenly tightened the atmosphere, "Do you remember? When I decided to take off the mask, that It’s a rough mood. You are actually very unconfident? Without the power of a murderer, can you go farther than the last time, so even though you resist wearing a mask, you always keep the mask by your side.” So, he Open the palm, there was nothing there, but at this time, there was a familiar harlequin mask in it.

I understand very well what he meant, and he also said it all, the thoughts deep in my heart. I did hesitate, and I have been moving forward in hesitation, including "whether we need the power of a murderer", and there are all kinds of things that can be more resolute, but it is difficult to be resolute. It has been entangled in my heart, but is suppressed by will. That's it, the boiling of thoughts all the time, and there is a profound relationship with the existence of these hesitant things in the heart.

But--

"Is it really wrong to hesitate?" I asked, "Resolute action does not mean pure thinking."

"Indeed." He threw away the mask casually. I touched the inner pocket of the combat trench coat. Sure enough, the harlequin mask that I carried with me was gone. I'm afraid it was the one he threw at his feet. "What the **** is I can’t judge whether there is a completely correct thing. Although there are contradictions in my thinking, I cannot be completely sure how to do the best, and whether the thing I’m doing is absolutely the best, but this This kind of hesitation is okay as long as you don’t give feedback on your actions. On the other hand, I also think that it is not a straight line of pure mind, and the hesitation that arises after deep thinking is a good thing. However, this is not a murderous ghost. It looks like."

Yes, that shouldn't be the appearance of the murderer Gaochuan. The silence of the murderer Gaochuan should be more sharp and direct. It is not pure thinking. But from the beginning, the direction of the decision has been fixed. When killing someone, you will think about many questions, but even if you don’t have an answer, it doesn’t matter, because. This does not hinder "killing", as long as "killing the past, killing to the end" is fine, and all the tedious things are cut through with a single breath like a sharp knife. Beheaded, you don't need to worry about encountering thorns, just cut down and rush straight over.

Such a murderer Gaochuan has no doubts about "wearing a mask". My current behavior and way of thinking are indeed far removed from when I was a murderer.

So, Gao Chuan, the murderer in front of me, took the mask from my arms?

Because. He thinks that I don't need this thing anymore, I have already embarked on a different path from him. Even so, did he stand in front of me with the idea that he must go down too?

Now, standing in front of me, is he presenting another reality that belongs to me in the new stage of spiritual erosion?

"Look. You are thinking again." He moved his wrist and said, "But, every time I can't find the answer, because even if someone else tells you the answer, you won't believe it, you What I want to get is the answer I found myself and is enough to convince myself. However, for me, such a thing may exist, but for you, it does not exist at all. Because you think The origin of "You don't believe in the answer you think of"."

"Can you understand this too?" I couldn't help but feel heavier, because the enemy in front of me, although they are talking, but the enemy who will not stop fighting, really knows me too well. Even if there are doubts about "he is me", the level of suspicion does not decrease with the progress of the conversation, even if it does not completely become zero, but 50% and 1% doubts are brought about The feeling of coming is completely different.

A self who knows me very well and is a bit extraordinary in combat effectiveness-such an enemy, even if he doesn't use his hands, the pressure it brings is not a joke. It is simply the feeling that "the spiritual erosion and physical blows brought about by the mystery have to be raised by a level". Without the Night Crow Quark, I'm just an ordinary person, and the magic circle... hasn't been completed, can I really win it? As soon as this thought emerged, it was thrown away by me.

No, it's not a question of whether you can win or not, but you must win.

"You are still doubting me who is standing here. I know very well, I can't understand everything about you. Although you know me the same, you can't rely on this understanding to equalize the gap between us. Do you know it very well in your heart?" Murderer Takakawa's posture is even more depressed, making people feel like a bowstring that is gradually pulled apart, "I am a more complete Murderer Takakawa than before, and now you are not in the state. . Even if I have just had a battle, my body and spirit have not recovered, but the remaining strength is still better!"

"So, if you don't want to die--" His words paused, and they were already behind me when they sounded again, "Just hurry up!"

I only had time to backhand the arm blade to the side, and the fierce slashing force was already transmitted. Because I couldn't reach the best ergonomic angle, I couldn't completely resist the impact. In order to maintain my balance, I had to roll on the ground, during which the blade of the murderer relentlessly advanced, and simply brought a few blood marks on my body. His actions did not reflect the effects of quick-grabbing superpowers and chain judgments, that is to say, he was fighting as an "ordinary person" at this time, but his skills, physical ability, mental concentration and willpower were all right. Waiting, but feel that I am completely at a disadvantage.

The murderer Gao Chuan is such a pervert. Under the same quality, as long as the act of killing, he can get a bonus that seems to come from instinct. And even a small gap can be grasped with extraordinary precision and transformed into a gap that is difficult to bridge. I feel that I will fall under the wind, and I will be injured in the first fight, and I have been mentally prepared before the start of the war. The impact still cannot be completely eliminated.

If you don't make some unexpected changes, then you will definitely lose. I rolled, dodged, counterattacked, leaped, sprinted, and jumped back again, but there was a feeling that the shadow of death was constantly approaching, even when I was struggling. You can pass by this feeling of death, but in the next moment, it will appear closer, without the feeling of temporarily pushing it away once. His clothes were constantly torn open. The stinging pain and the occasional blood rushing out of the exposed skin are all proving that he is slipping in the direction of failure.

Obviously the quality is the same, but I was so embarrassed, and the murderer Gao Chuan. Even though I couldn't completely escape from my counterattack, while I was injured, it was still full of a sense of ease.

I know that the murderer Takakawa has long been accustomed to this feeling of dancing on the blade, no, to be precise. Dancing on the blade is his domain. When trying to harm others with the greatest effect, he will also be injured in the opponent's desperate counterattack. If he does not give others a way to survive, others will not be merciful. This point, the murderer Gao Chuan knows best. However. He who clearly recognizes this, but does this without hesitation, is also terrifying.

I don’t care about hurting others or hurting myself. As long as you are fighting, then the thought in your mind is just "killing the opponent", and I will never think about things like "killing the opponent's sequelae" and "can killing the opponent really end?" because. The target of the murderer is always in front of you, right under your feet—continuously through the act of "killing", it is enough to deal with the trouble before reaching the deep body. I don't care about the troubles that are still far away. Because, if it really stops itself, it will definitely come to it, and then it will be fine to kill it again-the murderer Gao Chuan is such a "very practical" person.

I understand him, as I understand myself, but, as he said, understanding, not disgusting, or identifying with him is completely meaningless in the fight against him. Because he will not become weak because of being seen through by the enemy. His strength is extremely fine and stable.

In contrast, my strength is always fluctuating. My emotions, sensibility and thinking, as well as feedback from the outside world, will make me feel unstable all the time. My calm and calmness came about when I recognized this volatility, recognized this volatility, and accepted this volatility.

However, even if the fluctuating state of one's own ability is acceptable and accepted for oneself, facing a more stable and more sophisticated party, such an attitude cannot be a factor in breaking the situation. The superiority of abilities reflected in the battle of life and death is the truth that has been proved by practice.

Nowadays, the gap between me and the murderer does exist, and this is the truth that has been proven.

What can be expected, what will be the key factor that can reverse this gap? From past experience, it is the volatility of the Night Crow Quark and power.

However, if the Night Crow Quark can arrive in time, it is difficult to guarantee that the murderer Gaochuan will not enter the Mageweave Messenger state. He grasped the inherent flaw of the electronic demon-the user's body. Therefore, the increase in winning rate based on the premise of the Night Crow Quark is not worth looking forward to.

The other is the volatility of one's own strength. Although this volatility tends to show a declining side in the face of fine and stable power output, it is precisely because it is a state of volatility, so it will give the enemy It creates the illusion of "suddenly becoming stronger" and makes the enemy unprepared, thus achieving a reversal victory.

However, this time the enemy is another self, and the murderer Takakawa also knows everything about me. Just as I understand how refined and stable he is, he must also understand what my volatility is like. For those who are precautionary, sudden fluctuations, if they do not reach an absolute intensity, are unlikely to have a decisive impact. Once you let the other party adapt and take your breath away, it will be difficult to win again.

From this perspective, it is also very difficult to show an "unexpected" side in front of him.

I brushed with the attacking blade again. The tricky angle made it impossible to defend completely. So, at the beginning, I left with the idea of ​​replacing my wounds. While my cheeks were bleeding, I used The same technique stabbed in the past.

The murderer Gao Chuan and I alternate positions, spinning like dancing, hitting, being hit, crossing, being knocked off, and the moment the blade cuts through the gray fog, it looks extraordinarily bright. The gray mist flows in the wind, the tattered windbreaker sways in the wind, the sound of trampling, the sound of rubbing, the sound of fighting, the sound of breathing, crisp and rapid, making people feel tired, but unable to stop, just like being in In the never-ending spiral, until one of them can't continue.

He jumped up lightly, and the movement made completely using inertia was like a swan landing on the water. It was natural and elegant, but the sharp light in front of him made his heart beat faster in the sense of life and death.

His body is already tired, his eyes, in the agitated light, can't conceal the gray exhaustion, but this does not prevent him from showing lightness and sharpness in the battle, swordsmanship and swordsmanship. Nothing at all, and not every blow can reach the best condition of human mechanics, but--

Quickly, very freely, no matter the imaginable angle or the unimaginable angle, it will pierce through. In the martial arts novels I have read, there is a similar description. The other party is a swordsman who only uses assassinations, but the same speed, the same angle, and the same freedom. In the past doomsday illusion, the enemies I have encountered have similar types, but the murderer Takakawa's attack is faster than the opponent, without a trace of distraction, and more pure and bright.

It's too late to react when you see the blade light, so you can only sense it in advance through your fighting instinct and intuition.

Then, after being hit unavoidably again, I staggered back and tried my best to guard against the deadly chase. I couldn't take care of anything else. The cut and pierced part has gradually become numb, and the temperature of the body is also decreasing with the passing of blood. Although the wound was not fatal, the number of hits was too much, which further aggravated the consumption of exercise.

The murderer Takakawa didn't stop at all, and didn't plan to talk to me again. He is silent, direct, and decisive, unlike those enemies who like nonsense. The previous conversation with me was probably the one he talked the most. And such a pressing step by step, no hesitation, no hesitation, and absolutely no mercy, like a chariot, who intends to crush until victory, can they reverse their disadvantages and turn defeat into victory? I can't get an absolute answer, and it seems that this is the first time I have encountered such an enemy.

The idea of ​​"face-to-face life and death with myself in a murderous state" has never been before. Now that I have actually appeared, I can even more personally understand how strong I can be if I become a murderer Gaochuan. The one in front of him is the closest reference.

I was deflected by the tremendous power. When I regained my footing, a soft strange feeling came from under my feet—I didn’t use my eyes to see, but the memories of the touch and the environment let me know what I stepped on. .

The harlequin's mask~IndoMTL.com~The proof of the murderer Gao Chuan was thrown here by him before the battle began.

The murderer Gao Chuan who came after him, like me, didn't wear a mask.

This must have some meaning.

However, I didn't pick it up, and maybe I shouldn't pick it up, but being forced to do unnecessary things is also an important reason.

After I evaded embarrassedly, the murderer Gao Chuan stopped his attack for the first time and looked at the harlequin mask on the ground with a flat look, not knowing what was thinking in his mind. However, his stopping gave me extra energy to think. I didn't fight back because he turned away, because that probably wouldn't work. Thinking like this, I took out the cigarette with my trembling hand.

"Put it on." The murderer Gao Chuan suddenly said to me.

Sure enough, as I thought, he told me so. However, the key issue is not whether to wear it, but whether I really want to take up the power of the murderer Takakawa again. (To be continued. If you like this work, you are welcome to come to the starting point () to vote recommended votes, monthly tickets, your support is my biggest motivation. Mobile users please go to read.)