Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1127: Under the curtain

Chang Huai'en already understands where he is. Talking with the body Gao Chuan has been a rare pleasure for him for so many years. This is not only about the exchange of some interesting ideological topics, but also especially after he woke up. There is a sense of security. This sense of security is brought by the place where you are and the friends around you. In this world, there is no safer place than a repeater, and this repeater is the result of a long time of hard work by the network ball. He feels that the past efforts have not been in vain, compared with the indescribable horror in the abyss of the sea of ​​consciousness. Exist, the sheltering ability shown by the repeater is even more valuable.

When Dorothy’s voice suddenly sounded from behind, Chang Huai'en was not nervous or frightened. On the contrary, this sudden appearance made him feel nostalgic. In the timeline of the material world, even though it was only a few days. , But in the deep conscious mind, the sense of time becomes extremely abnormal, and after encountering those terrible things, seeing the sky again, and calming down, it will inevitably feel like a lifetime. Chang Huai'en laughed, turned to look at the girl who came by, and said, "It's been a long time, Dorothy, it's amazing. The impression of you in my mind seems to stay in that studio." He pointed It was the studio that once sealed the "Doroth Project", but in fact, after the completion of "Doroth", the two did meet each other. At that time, Chang Huai'en was already in a deep diving state, and then he and the network ball Everyone's communication is just a kind of conscious communication. His pressure was not great at the time, so it can be hidden from other people, and the communication with them is just an ideology.

However, in the rest of his life, the trauma caused by the shock of consciousness has not been healed. Maybe it will never be healed, Chang Huai'en knows. That kind of fear is deeply imprinted in my bone marrow. Because of the trauma of this intensity, the memory and consciousness are not the same as the past. I lose my impression of some things, and even lose my memory. It's possible-he hasn't noticed yet. He also knows that if others don't mention it, it may be difficult for him to detect it. In psychology, there are indeed cases where the amnesiar feels that he is in a state of amnesia, but in more cases, if the amnesiar does not encounter an obvious factual gap and cannot detect that he has amnesia, it is more frequent. Especially when these memories are not related to one's personality structure, but only some work information. This is even more so.

For Chang Huai'en, as long as you can determine who you are, where you are, and remember your old friends, your tasks, and your hard work, other memories are less important. Even if Dorothy was called a "philosophical ghost"-which is not a good description-he did not feel that he should be deeply distressed. Because he still remembers that fear. And the indescribable thing that brings fear, this is especially important in his heart.

"Your adventures make them sad if you go fire." Dorothy said, "But. I know you will bring something useful."

"Of course, my adventure was not unplanned. Although there were some problems, don't you still stand here now?" Chang Huai'en smiled relievedly.

"However, it is very doubtful whether the person standing here is Chang Huai'en, whom we are familiar with." A cold and angry female voice inserted in. Chang Huai'en turned his head and saw it. In the place where there was nothing in the last second, the figure of Catwoman appeared, as if she had been standing there all the time, but she was just noticing. This kind of weird situation has long been accustomed to Chang Huai'en, since repeaters involve consciousness in more places. Even when it comes to human collective subconsciousness, that is his professional field-in this field, no matter what happens, he will not feel strange. The only thing that really scares him is the only thing hidden deep in the sea of ​​consciousness. Those monsters only. And this fear does not originate from death and failure, but a kind of fluctuation that runs through the soul, as if those things themselves embody the concept of "fear", which is unstoppable.

It is useless to think too much about the fear of "unexplainable, unstoppable". Chang Huai'en's mentality is much better than most conscious walkers. He never gave up on something he couldn't do.

"It doesn’t matter if it’s Chang Huai'en in the past. The existence of Chang Huai'en, whether it is an actual human or a philosophical ghost, is your old friend. This is not because of his existence. Change with the flow of time and space, I swear." Chang Huai'en said so, stepped forward and hugged Catwoman forcefully, "I am lucky to see you, ma'am."

"Yes, you are so lucky, Chang Huai-en." Shi Huo, Ms. Mayne, Omi and Marceau also appeared in Chang Huai-en's vision. "You should thank Omi, Marceau and Dorothy, they saved your little life at the last minute!"

"Yes, thank you very much, Omi, Marceau, and Dorothy. Then, I also want to thank the others, Zihuo, Catwoman, Ms. Mayne, and other friends who know or not know about the Internet." Chang Huai'en let go of Catwoman and said in a sincere and serious tone: "I know how dangerous I am, but please believe me, I am not a fool who ignores my own life. It's just that this time I saw it in a deep dive. Things are more important than my life. I had a hunch before I acted, and when the facts happened, I found that it was stronger than that —— I accept any punishment, but maybe you can listen first Listen to my story?"

"Of course, I let you live to listen to the story." Omi said, "I hope your story has this value." In the greeting, everyone sat down, and Chang Huai'en naturally sat on the main seat. Then on the two sides of the sofa, one side is: Ms. Mayne, Shizuo and Catwoman; on the other side are: the physique Takakawa, Omi, Dorothy and Marceau. Chang Huai'en looked around everyone, and felt that this kind of seating was really a bit interesting. But he quickly put aside these boring thoughts, because no matter who has a better relationship with whom, everyone is a friend who insists on the same goal. Unity is a special emphasis on cyberball, and it is also a value that runs through all actions. Only by uniting all those who can be united can we save something from the terror in the future. After witnessing the indescribable "monster", Chang Huai'en felt more and more the difficulties in the future, and the meaning of gathering everyone at this moment.

The people here have great prophets, the leaders of the world’s second largest mysterious organization, and terrible artificial people. There are technical experts with unknown positions, powerful fighters from the far east, and the control core of a repeater-their identities represent different classes, interests and visions, but they are all members. In order to advance in the future, they are gathered here.

In such a scene, Chang Huai'en feels hope and strength.

"This time, I dived to the same level as the repeater." If Chang Huai'en's words were heard by other conscious walkers, they would definitely make them horrified. In fact, even people who knew it would be such an accident, thought it was an extremely remarkable achievement, even after hearing it several times, they felt it was incredible. Repeater is a kind of condensation and embodiment of human collective subconsciousness. Its existence is of course difficult to describe in words. However, to try to understand its position relative to the human collective subconscious in accordance with sensibility and rationality, it must be given an intelligible coordinate to describe its power. It is "in a very deep place, every operation will have a fundamental impact on the collective subconsciousness of mankind." That is the depth that almost no one feels that human consciousness can consciously reach. Yes. The human subconsciousness is there, and its existence transcends the concept of time and space, and embodies the high-dimensional nature that no one can explain. In theory, humans do not need such behavior as "deep diving". It has been influencing human collective subconsciousness, and it is also affected by human collective subconsciousness. The term "deep subconsciousness" is actually full of contradictions. But the problem lies in the so-called "subconscious." In terms of definition, it is the level of consciousness that humans cannot "consciously". Including Chang Huai'en, all conscious walkers can consciously walk in this "unconscious" world by definition. This is a contradiction- And this contradiction reflects the existence and value of "mystery".

"Science" is logical and rigorous. If it shows contradictions, it means something went wrong. Although it may be applicable, but if the "error" is not resolved, progress will never be made, or even , Trying to use it will only bring danger. But "mystery" is not logical and rigorous. The concept of "contradiction" based on the concept of "logic" has no meaning for "mystery". Therefore, when "mystery" is revealed, it should be viewed from a scientific perspective. , Will only feel incredible.

Unbelievable, illogical, unscientific, unprincipled, and beyond imagination--the absurdity embodied in these descriptions is the most representative of the characteristics of "mystery", and it also provides an understandable definition of "mystery".

Chang Huai'en "deep to the position of the repeater", even among the many absurd mysteries, it is extremely absurd, unexplainable, and even unbelievable, even if the facts are in front of them. The inherent logic of human thinking has also been instinctively repelling such "unreasonable and unscientific" things.

"Well, it's horrifying." Catwoman took a deep breath and said, "You are really, really, really sure that you have indeed reached the position of the repeater—that is, Have you seen the true face of the repeater?"

"I did see a repeater, but it’s hard to say that that’s the true face of a repeater. It’s really not human-understandable. So, I insisted on fixing it as an image in my mind. There must be a lot of defects." Chang Huai'en blinked and said: "Even so, I can still say that I may be closer to it than anyone else and made a holistic observation."

"What does a repeater look like? Is it like the bunch of machines we modified before?" Not only Catwoman is curious, but everyone else is interested in this topic. Strictly speaking, the repeater constructed by the network ball is just a shell. It is like an apple, the flesh of the material, enveloping the inner core of consciousness, you can point to the flesh and say "this is the repeater", but the real "repeater" may only be regarded as the indescribable state. The core of consciousness is nothing more than-it is the aggregation and embodiment of the collective subconsciousness of human beings. Therefore, it cannot be really observed wherever anyone is. The practice of "packing" it into a shell logically comes from In fact, it is quite contradictory.

"I think that in the eyes of different people, it will look different, but in my eyes, it is like a fortress floating in the ocean current." Chang Huai'en exclaimed. In his heart, he was regretful that the language could not accurately describe his mood and what he saw at the time, and he felt even more that human language. It's so pale and shriveled, it's useless when it's needed to work.

"Wow, fortress." Catwoman seriously imagined it, and said, "It's not the same as what I imagined in the past. When you say this, you don't think the repeater is very prestigious."

"Then what kind of image do you think it should be?" Omi asked with interest.

"I can't tell." Catwoman spread her hands out and said frustratedly: "How do you describe the unimaginable? I just think it should be in a form more than I might imagine. More impact and shock."

"It's like suddenly realizing that this world is different from what I thought in the past. It's like, we realized for the first time that the mystery really exists." Yiti Gaochuan interjected.

Catwoman patted her thigh hard, made a clear voice, and said loudly: "Yes! That's it. A fortress? It's nothing great even in the depths of the ocean. The Sanxian Island of the Central Duchy is more powerful than that. Times."

"Talk about other things. Now that you have dived to that depth, you should have seen more things-your body has completely collapsed. There is also a problem with consciousness. It cannot be caused by the observation of the repeater. ?" The escape interrupted the conversation. Said: "Actually, thinking about it now, the wheelchair person actually hinted that he saw the repeater-at that time, we had not been able to build the repeater. He saw it. Maybe it was the repeater. The most **** form. However, because he can't describe it in words, he can only use some obscure hints. Now you mentioned it. I realized that he was talking about these at the time."

"Teacher...has he also dived to that depth?" Chang Huai'en was a little shocked, but also a little embarrassed. He felt that he had already reached a deep dive distance, surpassed his mentor, and achieved unprecedented success. To the point.

"He is not as lucky as you." Ms. Mayne said quietly: "I don't know where he got there, but his description at the time made me think that he should have reached the same depth as you. The same thing, but there was no power to help him...If the repeater had been completed by that time, maybe he wouldn't just die like this."

"Yes...yes, it must be like this!" Chang Huai'en was suddenly excited. He could not see the death of his mentor with his own eyes, but combined his own experience in the description of Ouhuo and Ms. Mayne. I imagined the scene closest to the time, "The tutor must be in that place. He must have seen that existence, so he will go crazy and die! The tutor is so powerful, and only that thing will hurt him suddenly! "

Zhuohuo and Ms. Mayne looked at each other, and Chang Wai-en's excitement made them resurface the madness of wheelchair people at the time-he was so incoherent as to describe a "terrible thing". It seems that that is the root of the destruction of the world, and the desperate existence is something that shouldn't appear in this world.

"The wheelchair person also mentioned that there is something that shouldn't exist there." Sai Huo said cautiously.

"Yes, yes, that is something that shouldn't exist there, but it really exists there, in the collective subconscious of human beings..." Chang Huai'en's body trembled, his eyes filled with Fear, he indulges in this fear, and digs out all the memories that he has locked in his heart, because it is very important, even if he collapses immediately, he must let the information they know is dissipated, "I can feel So, it does not belong to the human subconscious mind at all. It is different from the repeater. It is foreign, lurking there, indescribable, and the sense of existence is enough to make people crazy. It is hidden in the repeater. There is a deeper place, that is a bottomless abyss, I think it is deeper than I can feel, but it is too big, too crazy, too existential, so I let me I feel that I was very close to it."

"It's active? Why doesn't it come up? What impact does it have on the repeater and the entire sea of ​​consciousness?" Huohuo asked, "Can the repeater solve it? If we can concentrate the power of all the repeaters ..."

"Ha...how do I know? I was crazy the moment I saw it." Suddenly, Chang Huai'en became extremely calm, and said to everyone here: " Actually, I was already crazy."

"Do you know what you are talking about?" Catwoman opened her eyes wide. She really couldn't feel what place Chang Huai'en looked like a "lunatic". Oh, of course, to rule out his crazy deep diving behavior. Everyone was chatting well before, but the atmosphere now seems a bit wrong. There is a smell floating in the air, indescribable, but it cannot escape the sensitivity of the mysterious expert. Catwoman wants to prevent this change in atmosphere, and subconsciously a kind of anxiety breeds in her heart.

"Yes, I'm very calm. I know what I'm talking about, and my thinking logic is very complete." Chang Huai'en replied with a weird calmness: "Because of this, I can learn from rationality and sensibility. I came to the conclusion that I was already crazy. My personality consciousness has been distorted, although it is difficult to see it in performance..." He gave a sad and bitter smile, "This distortion is something that only I can feel. Of."

Doroth, who has always been calm, said at this time: "Actually, it is a manifestation of distortion to say that she is crazy so conclusively. Normal people will never admit that she is a madman so seriously. Even the mental patient will not feel it, and admits that he is a mental patient. Chang Huai'en’s distortion is already very serious."

"You said you could save him!" Catwoman shouted excitedly.

"Isn't he standing in front of you?" Dorothy said calmly: "Although it is unable to change the twisted essence, and it is embodied in the form of a philosophical ghost. However, he can still tell what he wants to say Speaking out, I will tell you in a serious manner that he has become a madman. Isn’t he saved like this? You are too greedy, Catwoman. Think about the wheelchair person, and then look at the current Chang Huai'en, you I should feel more deeply that he is actually very lucky."

"Doroth was right. No matter what shape Chang Huaian has turned into, he is much better than a wheelchair person." Ms. Mayne looked at Catwoman gently, "As long as it still exists, Maybe we can do something in the future."

Catwoman's lips squirmed a few times. When she looked at Chang Huai'en, she couldn't help but feel a little sad, but what can she do? She pounded the sofa hard, knowing that her questioning was just unreasonable. Things are better than the worst, but she just greedily wants better, and it's not anyone's fault.

"Don't be sad, Catwoman." Chang Huai'en's expression became more and more peaceful, "Although my personality has been distorted, my will has not been affected. I know my state very well, and I have to know , I am a conscious walker, and I have a lot of preparations for the change of consciousness."

"Is it really unaffected? Chang Huai'en, or our comrade-in-arms?" Huo asked.

"Yes~IndoMTL.com~comrade-in-arms." Chang Huai'en looked at Dorothy and Omi, and the statements of those two would be the best proof.

"Believe in the power of the repeater, go off fire." Dorothy said: "Chang Huai'en is already the master of the repeater... Or, in the case of Eastern mysticism, is it a "spirit"? Compared with the repeater, it is too weak and small, so there will be no problems."

"I believe in my technique." Omi pushed his glasses and said, "The whole adjustment process was perfect."

"Actually, I don't quite understand. If Mr. Chang Huai'en is the "smart" of the repeater, then what is Marceau?" Gao Chuan, who has not spoken, asked. Marceau himself didn't have the slightest interest in this question.

"Marceau is the control core of the repeater and a key intelligent component that constitutes the controllable repeater. Simply put, it is an internal organ with independent will." Omi explained: "However, Chang Huai'en will be the soul of this controllable repeater. Marceau guarantees the normal operation and controllability of the repeater, and Chang Huai'en decides the direction of operation of the repeater. There is no conflict between the two. Before,, Our use of the repeater requires authorization to let Marceau execute it. But from now on, our authority will no longer be valid for the repeater. What to do with the repeater will be determined by Chang Huai'en himself. "(To be continued..)