Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1154: Decision

I have not concealed my guess from John Bull. The origin of the demon summoning program is unknown. In the worst case, it may carry some mysterious information about the user himself. "Top

"Mr. Gao Chuan, your gaze puts a lot of pressure on me." John Bull's gaze dropped, then lifted up, took a deep breath, glanced at the expressionless Zuo Chuan, and said:" Yes, we took your Demon Summoning Program Disk, but it is no longer in our hands."

John Bull began to explain to me the ins and outs of the matter. After obtaining the demon summoning program and making her own electronic demon, she and Zuo Jiang met by chance. However, in hindsight, the accident at that time actually has an unnatural taste, but there is no evidence, just the intuition of the mystery expert. In fact, the mystery expert is the group of people who least believe in accident. However, whether it was accidental or inevitable, the meeting between the two is a fact, and it is not a bad thing. However, when they decided to go to Asia, an email was delivered to them.

The content of the email is very simple. The first is to explain the situation of the demon-summoning program to prove the sender’s understanding of the demon-summoning program. It makes people think that the other party is the creator of the demon-summoning program.

"Do you think this sender is the maker?" I asked John Bull.

"Perhaps, I tend to assume this as a fact." John Bull answered.

The second is to inform the two of me and the mysterious "Carmen" of the doomsday sect in the world of repeaters.

"Carmen!" I nodded, confirming in my heart, "My demon summoning program disk is in his hands?"

"Yes, this is what the sender asked us to do. The other party hopes that Carmen can meet with her after getting the disk." A pronoun of John Bull makes me a little concerned.

"She? A woman?"

"No. It's a monster with a female appearance!" John Bull said of the man, his face turned gloomy, his tone of voice was not very good, he had obviously suffered a psychological shock, and he still hasn't recovered.

"Did you fight her?" I asked.

"No, no." John Bull said cautiously, "As long as I see it. I will never think that it is normal... No, I should say that I know that it is a monster when I meet! That thing, as if It is completely composed of anomalies, and its external image cannot describe its essence at all." After a pause, he said, "I have never seen something so abnormal. It is like, above all anomalies. "It’s anomalous." She is a bit difficult to describe, and can only say: "Because it is too abnormal. Therefore, we did not fight at all and did not oppose doing it according to its requirements. There are many uncertain doubts about this matter, but , One thing I can be sure of is that what the monster has to do is even worse if it refuses, and there may be an irreversible situation."

"The actual situation is only clear to you of the person involved, but—" I said to John Bull without any concealment. "I trust your judgment."

John Bull breathed a sigh of relief: "Mr. Gaochuan, I know what you are worried about, but I don’t think there should be a mystery that perfectly replicates the mystery of others in this world. When the user is operating the electronic demon. Let’s The power exerted by the electronic demon, acting independently of the electronic demon, or when it is in the hands of other people, can not be equal. Indeed, the mystery can do anything in theory. Realize all imaginable and Unimaginable effects, but this does not mean that when mystery is directed at a certain actual situation, it will completely surpass the category calculated by known data. Ninety-nine percent of the mysteries that have appeared so far cannot be unrestricted. It’s impossible to do anything, even with the support of a repeater. The network ball has conducted data statistics on the existing known mysteries, and found that the mystery can achieve an upper limit, although for a mysterious event, this The upper limit is not easy to judge. Moreover, in the statistics of the network ball, there has never been exactly the same two mysteries. Therefore, even if the mysterious information leaks, it is not enough to cause too much trouble to the user. . For example, this time, suppose the electronic demon you created by Mr. Gao Chuan is controlled by the enemy, and the opponent cannot reach the level of your use of mystery. If this enemy uses your electronic demon against you, then his failure is inevitable, I believe , You must understand this."

"Even if the possibility is only after the decimal point of the percentage, I hope I can be more cautious." I warned John Bull cautiously, "If Carmen uses my demon summoning program to gain the power of my electronic demon , It is possible to produce extremely terrible changes." Carmen’s origins, his relationship with "Jiang", and the meaning represented in the doomsday illusion are all extremely special, and the night crow quark is also a kind of my particularity. I can't imagine what will happen when the two particularities merge together, but I don't want to see something like that at all.

However, when I knew that my demon summoning program had fallen into Carmen's hands, I had a strong hunch that the changes I didn't want to see had already begun. Therefore, it is useless to blame anyone at this time.

"What are you worried about? Mr. Gaochuan." John Bull asked.

"I don’t know what the internet ball thinks of Carmen, but I think that no matter how much you think you overestimate him, you still underestimate him." I confessed, although I can’t explain to them why I have Such thoughts. The personality who has been stuck in the doomsday illusion cannot truly understand the impact brought by the "hospital reality". Kongkou said that everyone is only in an ideological world, and the higher-level reality that determines the fate of everyone does exist. At best, it is regarded as a philosophical assumption. In most cases, I think it is my imagination. . What's more, there is no way to "log out" at all when the body is transformed. This is also one of the reasons why I think that to rescue Sakiya and Hakkei from the height of "hospital reality", and even liberate all patients with doomsday syndrome, one must go through "jiang".

The Dr. Ender, the lurker, the color repeater, and Dorothy, who is not sure where in the "Hospital", have prepared a series of plans for the "virus" and the "patient". For those who are still helpless to change, the extent that they will eventually be able to achieve, at best, is to cure the patients who have not yet changed. If only the goal is set to this level, there is still hope for Dorothy and another plan that I am implementing. , The best result imaginable. Probably, Sakuya, Hakkei, and Marceau can also be saved. Although the status of Seiji and Dorothy is more special, but because they are also not transformed, there is also the possibility of being saved. Therefore, the other me will not hesitate. Go ahead and execute this plan, even if you have already transformed yourself. It is impossible to be saved from this plan.

I don't think it is wrong to sacrifice myself and the possibility of Mae to save Sakiya, Hakjing, Marceau, Shiseki, and Dorothy. I don't hate the other me, because he has done nothing wrong, and even the plan he is implementing may be more realistic in human logic. It's just not ideal. Yes. It's just not ideal. Not everyone is saved. At least, not everyone loved by "Gaochuan" can be saved.

I sometimes feel that the reason why I can recover is precisely because there is an idealistic side in the idea of ​​"Gao Chuan". Looking forward to the dreamlike and perfect ending, the "Gao Chuan" personality who can dominate the immediate action had to follow a more rational side. Therefore, there was a contradiction in his heart and was interfered by "Jiang". Resuscitate me.

I exist in this world with an unreasonable miracle, which in itself may be the realization of the end of the "Dream of Gaochuan". Therefore, while I feel contradictory and painful because of the impracticality of "idealization", I will never waver because of the impracticality of "idealization". Because of this, I never doubted whether I was "Gaochuan" at all.

Obviously, I am the cognition of "Gaochuan", which has been given the meaning since I was born and when I was recovered.

However, although my existence as "Gaochuan" is like a miracle, if there is no greater miracle, nothing will happen. Because "Gaochuan" has already been transformed, it is impossible to correct it by ordinary means. "Hospital Reality" intervenes, and assuming that "Hospital Reality" is the real reality-even if I can't be sure, but I can't deny this possibility-it means that I no longer exist to save anything from a realistic level. The possibility of something, contrary to me, what Dorothy and the others are doing is actually an act that has the possibility of self-help. From this conclusion, the other me is indeed on the path of "the hero of the one I love", and I am just a "pseudo hero" who can only live in delusion.

Yes, if there is no greater miracle, this is what I am—the end of the dream, the idealized illusion. However, because of this, in the ideological world of the doomsday illusion, I can theoretically be stronger than any "Gaochuan", because, in a certain sense, this kind of existence has surpassed "Gaochuan". "The end of the will.

I don’t know whether these thoughts that occasionally cross my mind are true, but it does not prevent me from taking them as assumptions that dominate my actions, and all my actions are actually based on assumptions. Because I can’t understand the true reality, I only have an idealized dream, or, in other words, my confirmation is that the realization of this dream is the only meaning for me to exist here.

Because I think so, I think Carmen’s existence has a lot in common with himself, and therefore it is a particularly powerful anomaly. All in all, in the "Gaochuan" now, Carmen cannot interfere with the "hospital reality". Knowing this, his actions must be centered on the greater miracle that "can interfere with the hospital reality". This goal is To a certain extent, it is also something I have to go through.

Because our paths have similarities in this sense, I can better understand what kind of awareness and methods Carmen will pay to achieve this goal. If you say how strong I am, then how strong he will be. If you say how persevering I am, how persevering he will be. If you say how far away my thinking is, then his thinking will be so far away. I see Carmen as a peer-to-peer existence, but the cyberball cannot do this. They don't even know that I exist. My thoughts, my plans, my consciousness, what is the extent of things.

For this reason, maybe John Bull made the right choice based on the intelligence of the Internet ball, and I also think her choice was wrong. Moreover, it is extremely dangerous.

John Bull and I looked at each other and tried to express our seriousness. If Carmen really changes because of the crow quark, it is definitely not a matter of "there is no danger, there is a back hand, so there is no need to worry". Even if things are irreparable at this time, as a comrade in arms, I still hope that John Bull will pay attention to this point and avoid future actions. Because of the underestimation of Carmen, additional losses were caused. Although at the point of capturing the spiritual integration device, I will be the enemy of the Doomsday Shinrikyo, the Nazis, and the 51st District, and even the entire world, but before the situation naturally develops to that extent, I and the present There is no absolutely irreconcilable contradiction in the Las Vegas Special Operations Force.

In other words, there is no help and containment from the Las Vegas Special Operations Force. A person to face the doomsday truth and the Nazis has already begun, but there is no plan to show the integrity. The difficulty will definitely rise linearly. I am not afraid to face any difficulties, but it does not mean that I can ignore everything and let the difficulty continue to increase, because, what good is it for my plan?

It seems that I am staring at me with a little restlessness. John Niu moved away from the line of sight he had been looking at with me, and he pondered for a while before he said: "Mr. Gao Chuan, your origin has always been a mystery, and it is impossible for us to treat it like another Master Gao Chuan. However, We also believe that your existence must involve a deeper level of mystery in this world, and it also has a more important significance than that of Master Gao Chuan.

Of course, this view is not made by myself, but is based on the prediction of the Prophet Mayne, and the result of the analysis of the think tank of the network ball. I don't know whether this view is correct, but I am inclined to say that it is correct, because the fire escape and the Prophet Mayne have never let us down. They told me something before I joined this operation. Therefore, even if it is difficult to understand, I don't understand what the relationship between you and Carmen is. How to make such a judgment, I will take your warning seriously. I do hope now that you are just exaggerating on Carmen’s issue, but you will never bring this sentiment into action. "

"That's it." I said. The look in John Bull's eyes made me want to believe that her answer was not perfunctory.

"I came here this time to confirm your situation. I will return to Europe soon and join the team. Are you really not with me? What you do will make the world develop The trend is the same. All the mysterious troubles will be concentrated in Europe and America. I believe that there will soon become the core of all plans and the place we should pay most attention to.” John Bull said seriously, looking to the left. Chuan, "Zuo Chuan, Europe and the United States are under great pressure, and your immediate combat power is also necessary."

"No, I will follow the master." Zuo Chuan said, "Compared with your plan, I believe that the master will do more. The master has proved with facts, even if it is both on Doomsday Shinrikyo and Rivet They will not fall into the trap. Even with the cooperation of Doomsday Shinrikyo, didn’t the plan be aborted? Therefore, the center of the trouble will move away from Asia and return to Europe and the United States."

"On the strongest?" John Bull patted his forehead, "I really don't understand why the lunatics of the Mercenary Association will create you with this personality tendency as the core. Facts have proved that such a personality does not Not good, and it’s hard to be truly powerful."

"Wrong, the value of a ninja is not dependent on the strong, it is only a means of survival, not the meaning of existence." Zuo Jiang's speech made me look at him, although Zuo Jiang in the past has already shown a lot of Strongly, the characteristics of the ancient professions that have been obliterated in history in the 11th district of the Central Duchy are unique to her, but now she is even stronger, as if an image was refined in an extreme way. The description of "Ninja" in history is actually quite different from her performance today. To put it simply, Zuo Jiang's performance at this time is like a "ninja" template in mainstream ideology.

Although I have not been with Zuo Chuan for a long time and have not had enough in-depth understanding of her past, I feel that the artificial human "Zuo Chuan" who existed only as a mercenary in the past is definitely not the current one. What happened to Zuo Chuan? What factors caused her to make such a change in a short period of time? Is it related to Dorothy? These questions are all intriguing, but it is probably impossible for Zuo Chuan to answer them by himself.

"Do you really think that you are a ninja? As far as I know, the ancient profession of ninja has long been unable to be actually verified." John Bull looked at Zuochuan with interest, "You don't I know whether you are a ninja in the true sense. The guy who made you is just cultivating you into such a character as you imagined. You are excellent, Zuochuan, if you can make this kind of rigid If you change your personality, you can become a real strong person."

"John Bull, you should know that this weapon named Zuo Chuan has long been regarded as a waste and abandoned." Zuo Chuan said blankly, "It was the master who gave me the meaning of my second life. From the moment I signed the contract, I have not become such a person because others want me to be such a person, but I want to be such a person and become such a person. I understand that, To revive the profession of ninja, it may have been different from the ancient times, but it must be more helpful to the owner than ever before."

"It turns out that, from this point of view, the waste utilization of the Mercenary Association is also considered fruitful." John Niu mentioned the Mercenary Association, with a trace of sarcasm in his eyes. Although it quickly disappeared, I was still taken by me. It is not clear that this is the personal emotion of John Bull, or the attitude of the entire network ball. If you look at the current doomsday illusion with the past experience of the doomsday illusion as a reference, even if the mercenary association has a lot of abilities, it will eventually be completely digested by this behemoth dominated by the cyber ball.

I didn't expect that Zuo Chuan would have such an idea. In the past, she had never revealed it. I do have contracts with both Zuo Chuan and Jiang Chuan, not only on the level of contract and personal will, but also on the basis of the power of "Jiang". The power of "Jiang" is enough to swallow personal will, so the attitude shown by Zuo Chuan at this time is somewhat of a factor of being interfered by "Jiang". However, it is precisely because "Jiang" is too terrifying, so when we get along with and cognition, we have to put aside its existence, otherwise, all personal expressions of consciousness will become "meaningless fakes."

After all, what evidence is there to prove that at this time, including me and Dorothy, the personality consciousness of all patients with doomsday syndrome are autonomous and free? All thoughts and actions ~IndoMTL.com~ are based on personal wishes? This kind of personal will is indeed purely personal, and not forced by the "virus" and "Jiang" in the game?

If we say that all our thoughts and behaviors are "viruses" and "Jiang" needs to exist so that they exist, then we ourselves are meaningless.

Such thoughts are extremely dangerous. But it also seems to be related to the behavior of the Doomsday Truth cult-for example, it is precisely because the subconscious cognition of this meaninglessness, that is why we seek the end of the doomsday, in the process of the end, and even in the result, Re-search and gain meaning.

It's terrible.

I blocked this thought from the deepest part of my heart, and only looked at most of the thoughts and actions in the doomsday illusion by ignoring the interference of "Jiang".

"Forget it, although it seems that your decision is a pity now, but who can tell in the future? Maybe Mr. Gao Chuan, you and Zuo Chuan's choice at this time will become the most critical part of the plan." John Niu smiled relaxedly, "This can be considered a decision not to put all the eggs in the same basket." After that, she stood up, patted the legs of her trousers, and said, "I should go now. There are many things, Asia You can only rely on the two of you." (To be continued...)