Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1203: Me and Jiang
Nightmare There are such monsters in the "deep" or "other side" of Las Vegas. Perhaps this is the truth of the nightmare system composed of electronic demons. John Bull said before that Nightmare Las Vegas is an open nightmare. In theory, it is a place that every electronic demon messenger can reach. Its essence is actually a huge space for conscious information storage, even us invaders. As long as you accept the electronic demon summoning system, you will inevitably leave a piece of information here. It is impossible to know what the information is, but it is certain that this huge information repository is definitely not open and fair. In places, its use is bound to be full of conspiracies. If the electronic demon summoning system is the security system of the Las Vegas repeater and a trap laid by the Nazis, then all those who have used the electronic demon summoning system can of course be regarded as having fallen into the trap.
There are still many doubts about this inference. For example, if the current mystery of the expansion of the island> novels are the Nazis happy to see it, then why not call this electronic demon at the beginning of the construction of this repeater world As a part of the world, the system builds a cycle in line with the population proliferation of this world, but chooses to let the invaders personally promote this mysterious spread after the invaders arrive? Did the Nazis make so many arrangements just to target us invaders? Or, there are deeper goals, and we invaders are just incidentals of the entire strategy?
Looking at the power displayed by the current repeater, the Nazis can actually act more directly and decisively, just like the blitzkrieg they were best at in the past, but only after the doomsday truth cult and other loners gathered before letting the whole The mystification of the repeater world is like deliberately waiting for all the actors to be on stage. It also makes people feel, so far. Including everything done by the Doomsday Sect, they are just making wedding dresses for the Nazis.
What was the goal of the Nazis? The ultimate answer is naturally "the doomsday", but before reaching the doomsday, what phased goals do they plan to achieve? Now they are in the outside world aggression, and the layout of the Las Vegas repeater. What kind of connection is there? What is the hidden killer that makes them so confident that they can reverse everything after a series of unsatisfactory silences? Regardless of the outside world or the world of repeaters, the people who resisted the Nazis have already taken active actions. What are the cards of the Nazis and regard these positive actions as part of their plan?
In these questions, there is something disturbing hidden. It is precisely because it cannot be confirmed what it is that it makes people feel anxious, as if being chased by the hour hand. I had to speed up, but there was a huge black hole hidden in front of me, and I didn't know when I would fall into it.
From my point of view, what the Nazis did is indeed frantic. If they can be annihilated, no matter which position I stand on, I will never hesitate, but. Even if the Nazis are defeated, it does not mean that the doomsday process of the doomsday illusion will stop. It is also unable to form a sufficient blow to the "virus". The horror of the "virus" makes me have to assume that it will be strengthened at every moment of the doomsday process, even if the Nazis and Doomsday Truth Sect are completely eliminated, everything it wants. It may also have been obtained in the process. Starting from this assumption, it is actually meaningless to simply defeat any people and organizations in the doomsday illusion that yearn for the end. The historical trend of apocalyptic fantasy dominated by "scripts" can't really be changed without being able to fight against the "virus". If I can do something. In other words, to do something for the "Jiang" who really has the possibility of final victory, it must not be resisting the "script" and reversing the doomsday process, but in the event that converges into the general trend, the "virus" wants to do something. Whatever it is, some kind of thing? Some result? Material or spiritual? Cut as much as possible.
Assuming that "Jiang" and "Virus" are two sides of one, then what "Virus" needs is naturally what "Jiang" needs. From the perspective of life behavior logic, since the “virus” has infected humans, whether subjectively or objectively, consciously or instinctively, or just inadvertently, it has formed a doomsday illusion and has become the core of the doomsday process. So, in this process, something beneficial to it will be born, even if it is not for nutrition, but only exists here, which causes this series of consequences.
Because no life will take the initiative to stay in an environment that is harmful to itself, and its own impact on the environment will not be completely harmful, but it will inevitably benefit it, and even respond to its urgent needs.
Starting from this behavioral logic, the existence and pathological changes of patients with doomsday syndrome, the existence of doomsday illusions, and even the observation and research of humans on "viruses" may all be beneficial to the "virus", and humans and " The essential gap in the existence of "virus" also prevents human beings from directly threatening it, and there is no way to talk about it and personally change the series of deterioration that is taking place.
If there is no "Jiang", then the "virus" should be truly desperate. However, since "Jiang" exists, it must have the reason for its existence. No matter what the reason is, I think, after a long, long time, probably no one can really analyze the reason, unless human beings reach the equivalent of "virus". The height may be a silver lining. The memory of Mae’s death from disease and the relationship between Mae and Gaochuan obtained in the "hospital reality", including the so-called "eating Mae" behavior that occurred in Gaochuan after Mae’s death, and from After that, the serum project that really started, the rescue of Sakiya and the others that came with it, and the changes in the doomsday illusion, gradually made me realize that the so-called "serum" may not be in normal pathology. Serum.
Because, things that cannot reach the height of "virus" and things that cannot interfere with "virus" are not enough to defeat it. Therefore, the serum should possess some of the characteristics of a "virus" and have characteristics that distinguish it from it. Since the beginning of the Serum Project, Gao Chuan firmly believed in the existence of serum, and the personnel who gave this belief originated from Mae’s death from illness and Gao Chuan’s “cannibalism” behavior. Assuming that this memory has a certain degree of authenticity, then. The so-called serum naturally has to do with this origin.
Synthesizing the above clues and analyzing everything I have encountered so far, I couldn't help but think of the "Jiang" who was considered a "virus" by Xie Se and Dorothy and resisted. "Jiang", which seems to be closely related to the "virus" but has subtle differences in various manifestations, may be the "serum" in the true sense.
From this conclusion, when I feel "Jiang", "Sera" can already be considered as having been born, but from my later experience, although it is effective, it is not ideal. . Even so, along with Gao Chuan's adventures, including me, it has been getting stronger.
"Virus" is not a virus in the general sense, and "Jiang" is naturally not a serum in the general sense. "Virus" cannot be directly observed, but my connection with "Jiang" is closer, so that I can feel the existence of "Jiang" more deeply, thus indirectly reducing the difficulty of "observation". Let the line color and Dorothy that are also mutated based on the original Gao Chuan's serum plan feel it, and even observe it in some ways. Thus it is regarded as a "virus".
Yes, if it is this kind of logic, it can run through the things that "Gaochuan" has experienced, and it is by far the most logical explanation.
"Virus" is a monster, and "Jiang" as a serum against it is also a monster. Two sides of one. The latter can be regarded as a biological change of the former. The interference of "virus" on its own existence environment directly or indirectly affects humans like ants. For them, they don't even know or care about small humans. Just like when people sit down, they don't care about whether they crush an ant. However, the result of this interference will not be completely harmful to it, but it does not mean that it is completely beneficial. The emergence of "Jiang" may be a manifestation of this incomplete benefit. Its birth, at the beginning, had an impact on the "virus", just like a human being bitten by an ant. It feels a bit, but not care. However, this also means that "Jiang" has an influence on the "virus".
One step further, just like when people eat, although it is a physical need, it is beneficial, but the food they use will also affect the body. The worst is naturally carcinogenic, which is an extreme , The embodiment of not entirely beneficial. So, if "Jiang" is the serum against "virus", it is an extremely incompletely beneficial thing born from the intentional or unintentional behavior of "virus", then, is it the cancer of "virus"?
Cancer cells will absorb the patient’s nutrition and continue to proliferate unproductively, but they will not stop eating behavior. Then, whether "Jiang" is also needed? In the series of beneficial changes caused by "virus", intercept What is the beneficial part?
Based on this assumption, it is possible to completely ignore the various changes in the doomsday illusion, not to resist the doomsday process described by the "script", but to take away what is beneficial to the "virus" in the process. I don't know what that beneficial thing is, but "Jiang" knows it. "Jiang" is in my body and affects my behavior. When I accept this influence, I have become a part of "Jiang". My love for it, that kind of love that crosses the race, may come from here.
The Mae and Tomie I have seen are definitely not the original face of "Jiang". From the perspective of survival instinct and utilitarianism, they may be regarded as a change in the form of symbiosis. I get satisfaction from it, and my actions will meet the needs of "Jiang", and what connects this interaction across life forms and modes of existence is the love expressed in this satisfaction process. From a rational point of view, love is a kind of survival mechanism of life. Through this mechanism, the isolated two are connected to complete the interaction that sustains the reproduction of life. And my love for "Jiang", the love embodied in the forms of Zhenjiang and Tomoe, and the abnormality that "Jiang" showed to me in times of crisis are also the love of this kind of survival mechanism. The gap between "Jiang" and my life form and way of existence caused Zhen Jiang and the others to be spiritually and humanly deviated.
I do not resist understanding the love between me and "Jiang" from this rational and logical point of view, and love, in a logical and rational way, allows me to see the hope of defeating the "virus". This kind of thinking was vague in the past, but it should have been rooted in Gao Chuan's heart from the moment "Jiang" was born. Because the "Jiang" was based on its "virus"-like existence from the moment it was born. It has an impact on things that are born and changed due to the "virus", especially someone who has a direct relationship with it.
Cancer is terminally ill for humans, but this does not mean that it will have a lethal effect in the first place. Similarly, it is necessary to reach the level of defeating the "virus". "Jiang" also needs to grow. The key to growth is that I don’t disturb the doomsday process, because I don’t know what “virus” needs, what “Jiang” needs, what is beneficial in the doomsday process, and what if there is no doomsday process. To make those useful. on the other hand. Since the doomsday process cannot be stopped and cannot be reversed, the "virus" will inevitably benefit from it, so "Jiang" should instinctively know how to become a beneficiary. The benefit of "Jiang" also means the enhancement of the effect of "serum".
It is my feelings that lead me to action. My thoughts, my will. My instinct, and these things, have been affected by it since the birth of "Jiang", no matter how it is. Well, if you say. Thoughts may be wrong due to the three views of human beings, so there should be nothing wrong with following the call from the depths of the heart, which is like an illusion.
And in this susceptibility. Whether to eliminate the Doomsday Truth and the Nazis is a concept of "not important". And everything I have done so far has not confirmed that it is "necessary". From this point of view, what I do is meaningful to myself, so that I can be satisfied, and the behavior that I think is what I should do is meaningless for the production of "serum."
Yes, even if I arrived in the "deep" of this nightmare Las Vegas, I saw such a terrible monster, and I can think of the whole nightmare Las Vegas being reduced to this monster "Food", and this "food" continues to expand with the spread of mystery. Even if the clues I collected point to a vicious development, the question is like a hole in the truth, and the cold wind leaking from it makes people tremble. Even if the doomsday is approaching step by step, the Nazis and the Doomsday Sect of Truth are laying traps one after another, making them have to move forward in distress and anxiety, full of tragic colors. These stories, full of human entanglements, philosophical significance, and mystery of consciousness, are meaningless to "Virus" and "Jiang", and they are equally meaningless to the Serum Project.
When I was constantly "digested" by this world-distorting monster, this thought came into my mind.
However, such a meaningless thing keeps me emotionally conflicted. My mind cannot stop these thoughts, and as my body decays, these thoughts continue to accelerate and become more and more complicated. While doing something that is meaningless rationally, I sighed emotionally at this meaninglessness, but I didn't want to stop at all. And this contradictory behavior seems to make me feel my mental illness more and more. The harm I have suffered here seems to be full of conspiracy and inevitable, but from another perspective, it is self-inflicted. If I didn’t care about everything and didn’t participate before the repeater control core appeared, as Dr. Ruan Li said, be a normal person and watch the doomsday indifferently, then I would be hurt. , It must be very few.
I actually don't need any intelligence at all. "Jiang" has actually seen everything through long ago. I just need to do the most critical thing at a certain moment. In this process, besides "Jiang", I don’t need the help of other people, because human help is meaningless, which also means that I don’t need to exchange anything with other people, and I don’t need to be with them. interactive. Everything I have done for people, everything that seems to be full of human brilliance, does not actually bring any change to the essence of people's existence. Only, only the things that must be done by me, the core things that have been laid for a long time, will truly bring about changes.
Clearly know this is the case, but I still can't handle all this rationally.
That’s why I’m standing in this place, in a huge conspiracy vortex, troubled by mysteries, pieced together the truth with imagination, and solved problems with violence. I'm really not a smart person, I have never been, I'm just an honor student, a student who yearns to be a hero. Do you know that you are not pleased, and are full of contradictions, but think you should do something, is it a hero? I think so.
Thinking about it this way, in this depressed space, the emotions that seem to have become distorted and depressed, as if they have been injected with stimulants.
I think that maybe only at this moment, in this dangerous, twisted, and malicious conspiracy, can I temporarily get rid of my inherent mission and be a hero according to my own ideas. I deeply love "Jiang" and Sakiya and the others, but I, who acted because of my deep love, are not a hero, because that way I will hurt many people, and I will only give love to a few people, including one who is not. Human existence. Carrying the mission of creating serum, in the faint hope, I, who became cold because of knowing the truth of the doomsday, are not a hero, because I can only watch the result instead of the process.
However, according to your own ideas, to protect a city, accept John Bull's commission, and plunge into the whirlpool of conspiracy, this kind of self is probably the one closest to the hero. Because this is a purely based self who wants to save more people, even if his behavior is meaningless to the final result, even if his heart is full of contradictions, he still does that. A hero is supposed to be someone who has great ambitions, faces malicious intent, and practices in the process.
Whether it is a conspiracy or not, when I came to this distorted world, watching my body decayed calmly, my heart was full of contradictions, and when I was entangled by troubles, in a corner of my heart, there was a kind of nonsense. Known pride. It's like, in these entanglements, these meaningless behaviors that I have chosen, the scars, troubles, and pains that I have brought about are all heroes' medals.
I don't know if this is a medal or not, but I know that if all this brings me pain, then I won't go on doing it. On the contrary, since I have already done this, even if I struggle with distress, there must be something I can accept and I am willing to accept.
I stood in front of the fast food restaurant again, and I felt that the flesh and blood on my body was peeling off. The blood dries up before it reaches the ground, and the flesh has rotted as soon as it fell on the ground, and then was swallowed by the ground. There are invisible mouths biting my internal organs. My mouth has leaked air, and there are probably only holes in my nose and ears. When the wind blows, a lot of hair will fall off the top of my head. This kind of self, probably It's like a corpse jumping out of a coffin.
I stretched out my hand~IndoMTL.com~ What I saw from the cuffs was bones that were gradually losing their luster. I feel that it is gradually losing its calcium and becoming fragile, and the monster is as hungry as if even the bone marrow is about to be squeezed out. The terrible self filled my heart with peace. The injury I suffered here proved that I came here and indirectly saved some people who would do this for me. This is what I should do, because only I can get out alive.
I opened the door of a fast food restaurant, and from outside, I could see a large crowd of people dancing like demons. When I walked in, the noisy restaurant suddenly became silent.
They are staring at me. I can be sure that they are rough humanoids without even facial features. However, the feeling of being watched is like being deliberately pierced with a needle, sharp and full of malice. What are these things? I don’t know, one thing I can do is to lift the suitcase, open all the launch holes, and then
Attack!
For an instant, a loud sound flooded the entire fast food restaurant. The shock wave set off a hurricane and rolled up sharp cutlery such as knives and forks. It struck me from all directions and shattered in the fierce collision sparks. Every second, KY3000 is trying to destroy every place that can be observed by the chain judgment. And those humanoid things, weaker than imagined, began to disperse in the barrage. (To be continued...)