Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1213: Context

I thought, I probably don’t need to go to other suspicious places anymore. In this city, the situation in the paradise bar is a standard. ｜TOP｜点｜Fiction. [2][3][w][x]} The people of the Doomsday Shinrikyo have already planted pieces of chess, but there is no large-scale activity, even if they are removed by people Part of it should not show up. What the paradise bar represents is a universal sign. If you want to use them to do something, it must be carried out by such a group with a large number of members and a certain degree of social influence. However, in my expectation, the Doomsday Shinrikyo will not be coerced to this degree. Since the Doomsday Shinrikyo has assisted to a certain extent in this attack on Las Vegas, they will naturally be prepared to be bitten back. Their plans to roll out in this repeater world will definitely prevent possible actions. And the actions they can infer are also inevitable, because everything they have so far is likely to have their intervention, and the amount of intelligence on both sides is not at the same level.

If you want to win, you have to emerge from this kind of almost transparent surveillance. I must be prepared for the situation I think about. This also means that since I think I am under such unfavorable conditions, There is still the possibility of victory, which proves that there is indeed a hidden killer. The clues related to this assassin were not noticed before, simply because they had hidden them too well. Then again, if there is no such degree of secrecy measures, it is impossible to fight the doomsday truth sect that is coming with great momentum.

I don't know under what circumstances my guess will prove, but if you want to win, you will have to use this killer sooner or later. I think back to my own experience. It has been proved that my actions and thoughts can always cut into some key places under the guidance of a kind of secret. A story is always composed of one or several protagonists and multiple supporting characters, which seem to be scattered. The clues that cannot be encountered easily will always revolve around them intentionally or unintentionally, and I have always felt that I am such an important role in promoting the development of the plot. There are so many people in the world, why is it that those things that seem to determine the fate of the world are caused by somebody and noticed by somebody? Is it promoted and ended by someone?

I had this feeling a long time ago-my thoughts and actions can always cut into the key to the event. This is not because of my sharp senses, or outstanding judgment, or some special characteristics. The talent, but because, my existence is to play such a role. This is not determined by my personal will and ability. It is some kind of power that determines my will and ability. This determines my actions and establishes my role.

It's like writing a novel. Some people like to set up some characters with personality, give a rough background, and then promote the plot with the interaction of the characters. The famous name is that the protagonist decides the development of the story. There are some more people. A story is decided in advance, and characters with different personalities are arranged according to the needs of the story. It seems that the personality of the character drives the story, but in fact. This is a better plot line to decide from the beginning.

I used to think that I was a role in the former type, but now it looks more like a role in the latter type. However, regardless of the former or the latter, the role itself is still "others want the role to be like this, so the role is like this", not "I want to be such a person, and become such a person." Thinking of this, I couldn’t help but feel an inexplicable emotion in my heart. It was not hatred or resistance. It was just like eating a ripe fruit, but there was a slight sourness in my mouth, but in fact, This fruit is actually not unpalatable.

In the core concept of Marxist philosophy, matter determines consciousness, and consciousness has an active effect on matter. From the perspective of hospital reality, the research on "viruses" is still based on this: "viruses" induce pathological changes in consciousness (altering consciousness) by guiding the pathological changes of the human body (changing substances). Dr. Ender’s Human Completion Plan makes full use of the second sentence of the core concept: In the doomsday illusion, the "script" is used to promote the change of the patient's consciousness, so that this changed consciousness will act on the diseased body (maybe) . This seems to be the extreme point that the actual science of the hospital can reach. However, the existence of "virus" cannot be described by this degree of scientific view. In my opinion, this is the reason why the research in the hospital has not made decisive progress so far.

Associating such reality, feelings and ideas, it is not difficult to make people feel that the "virus" is actually the true story editor. From a higher dimension, it determines a story it likes. According to the needs of the story, it sets the necessary characters, including their personalities and ideas, thereby establishing the characters' inevitable actions. In this story, The character also began to write a story, but directly set a character with a rich personality, giving it a general background, allowing him to deduce a wonderful story on his own. However, the reason why the character in this story writes the story in this way creates these specific personalities The role of the characters is because the "virus" has set their personality and thoughts in this way, which determines that they will do it. Indirectly, the roles in the story of the characters in this story seem to be free, but they have already been decided. A "mandate of heaven."

This kind of thinking is a bit negative, but I think so. As far as I know, most mystery experts have the same feeling, even if they are not reconciled to it, but the reason why I think so, why they are not reconciled, how can it prove that it is not a kind of "role setting." Woolen cloth? The difference between these people and me lies only in how many layers of "the story they are in" they feel. To put it simply, it refers to a story or a story in a story. Although there are many mystery experts, because they have similar ideas to me, they feel that their lives have long been doomed and become meaningless. However, their thoughts are probably "needed by the story."

However, from another perspective, it is the characters with different personalities and different ideas, including myself, that constitute such a story that is liked by the editors of the story. In other words . Our characters are "loved". I was extraordinary in experience, and I, who came up with this idea, was probably also "preferred" as a particularly important role in the heart of the editor. Suppose the true mask of "virus" is such an ultimate story writer. Therefore, if we cannot be observed and understood by these characters, can "Jiang" be regarded as a special character created by substituting itself into the story?

I have always been thinking about the relationship between "virus" and "Jiang", trying to find hope from it. There is no doubt that "virus" is what the story writer said, compared to "virus" is virus instinct, and "Jiang" The observation of human nature embodies the argument. The entire doomsday process is the erosion of the "virus". Such a statement makes people feel more warm, but also more mysterious. Because, assuming that the "virus" is the writer of the story, then one has to ask, the "virus" itself. Is it also a role, one set by a more advanced author? Are you destined to write this story? He even kept asking endlessly: How to prove that you are not a character set by a higher existence?

There is no answer, and a slightly scary thought. However, I can't help but hope that if I am really just such a setting. The doomed role, the editor who determines my destiny, can write a beautiful and successful ending for my story, even if the ending is perfect and complete. How can it be impossible under "normal logic". And don’t just write a tragic ending that is "shocking", "logical", and "determined by the character of the character in the story."

In literature, there is a saying that tragedy often embodies the most shocking beauty, because it smashes the most beautiful things, so it shocks people. I admit this statement. Therefore, I don’t hope that I am a character who was deliberately smashed for the sake of "beauty". The possibility that makes people feel scared.

If "virus" and "Jiang" are two-sided super-dimensional existence, then relying on "Jiang" still has the possibility of defeating "virus".

However, if everything I have encountered, I and others, including "Virus" and "Jiang", are just a set character, a doomed story, then I can only pray for the compilation of the story The person is very compassionate, but besides that, he has nothing to do. At the same time, if the editor is a good person, a good person who does not adhere to plot logic, does not allow the development of character, and yearns for a Dzogchen ending, then no matter what difficulties I encounter at this time, I can be full of confidence. To face the next day. Because I can know that even no matter how ridiculous it is, my future is bright.

In this idea, there is both a huge horror and a strong hope. When I have this idea, I don’t even know whether I should accept it, because, until the end, I can’t know whether the guy who wrote this story is a good casual person or just a Morbid Wenqing.

However, this kind of thinking also brought me peace, allowing me to face the incredible, tragic, and strange things that I will encounter more calmly. Because I have figured out the characteristics of my role from my past experience. Assuming that my destiny is doomed, then, whether it is the noise or silence, it must be set. At this time, there is no other way except to go on silently.

I threw the bartender into a corner of the alley, and with the power of consciousness walking, I took away what he knew. He is just an ordinary person, but not ordinary in the true sense. He is responsible for the construction of the sacrificial ritual project, but he does not have mysterious power himself, and he can do such frantic things as sacrificial rituals. He lacks a human heart, naturally. It's no longer an ordinary person. In the past, I should be angry with people like him, but now I only regard him as a kind of "setting"-he is set to become such a person, and is also From the story, it is destined to do such a thing. Everything that he seems to be subjectively active is actually just passive acceptance.

I hate people like him, but I can no longer hate them. I killed him, my heart was calm, and I hope that this is not because I was set, or someone who would do it-but at least. I have not been set up as a bartender.

I didn't go to track down other suspicious locations. It was like collecting all the fragments in my heart, and the thoughts that I had put together at this time filled my heart with strong and inexplicable emotions. I have to admit that just observing my own changes from rationality. Dr. Ruan Li was right. The previous nightmare, the action of looking for "Jiang" in my heart, did not improve my condition, but worsened it even further-I felt that I was a character in a story, and acted in accordance with this idea. In clinical cases, it is also a very classic symptom.

Although, such thoughts did not really make me negative. It didn't make me tired, but its occurrence is still extremely abnormal. Ordinary people will immediately forget it, and even the thought of "how is it possible" will not arise, so forget it, but. My own emotions and behaviors are indeed improving step by step. Fits this idea. And I cannot stop such changes.

As usual, I recorded this change and gave it to Dr. Ruan Li when I had breakfast the next day.

"Do you really think so? This is a story?" Dr. Ruan Li thoughtfully, the knives and forks in his hands knocked against each other lightly, making a crisp tinkling sound. "In the beginning, it was the predicted doomsday destiny, then it became a virus that has the power to determine the human body and consciousness, then it was a mysterious and incomprehensible thing, and then... it became a set-up. Story."

I could hear what she was talking about, but there was no turbulence in my heart, just as usual, I cut the food and stuffed it into my mouth.

"In fact, such changes can reflect an important context." Dr. Ruan Li said: "This is a change in the way of thinking from ancient times to modern times. From idealistic cognition to natural sciences to social sciences. , And finally came to philosophy. Although philosophy is ideal, it is also a way of trying to describe the laws of objective things. In your case, it is that normal people will not produce such drastic worldview changes in a short period of time. Even if it occurs, it is often a relative change, not yours."

"Isn't this a natural psychological evolution?" I asked.

"Of course not. Although it looks very regular, but because it is too regular, it is full of deliberate feelings. Normal people’s hearts and perceptions of the world are often more muddy, from babies to Adults with a fixed world view should have a developmental pattern: in their infancy, they will be a mass of clear water, then stir the mass of clear water to float the sludge and make the water turbid, and then filter it to obtain a fixed concentration of water. The quality of water is the heart of an adult." Dr. Ruan Li described it and said, "Your situation is too linear. It's like, it's not being stirred into muddy water and then filtered, but something, deliberately poured into clear water. Injecting specific ingredients, step by step produces inevitable chemical reactions, and finally becomes a specific concentration." Dr. Ruan Li pressed her temples, and she seemed to feel that it was a bit inappropriate to make such a description in front of me. Perhaps, this It can be seen as a proof of her inner shock, "Such a situation is that the possibility of your own natural development is very low, and it is not a mental mutation caused by a physical pathology. In the cases I have contacted, it is similar to yours. The situation is all because of being deliberately guided, and it is the effect of long-term time. A Chuan, are you sure that during the period of school, really nothing special happened?"

What Dr. Ruan Li meant, I understand that it is not possible to have a long-term influence on a person. For students like me, the human affairs encountered during school time are the most influential. However, during the time I arrived in this repeater world, I did not encounter such people and things. Although the school is a bit mystery, the content of education is quite standardized and positive.

Dr. Ruan Li said that my condition is not the result of natural development, and the body's pathology is not the cause. Such a statement, from the reality of the hospital, is wrong. It is precisely because I have experienced the hospital reality and cannot find evidence that the "hospital reality" is still a conscious illusion in the hospital reality. Therefore, the cognition gained in the hospital reality and the illusions that are constantly emerging, which seem to be broken memories, It largely affects my view of the world and life.

Because the reality of the hospital is more like reality than this repeater world, I cannot regard the situation described by Dr. Ruan Li in this repeater world as part of reality.

Doctor Ruan Li stared at me for a long time, as if he sighed, turned off the topic and said to me: "I'm going to meet some old friends today. By the way, let them know about your situation and see if they are not. There is a better way."

"Have you always researched by yourself?" I raised my head and asked.

"Yes. But, it turns out that I value my abilities too much." A trace of guilt and sadness appeared on Dr. Ruan Li's face, "Perhaps, I shouldn't hide your situation from the beginning. In In Paris and other places, there are many psychologists who are more capable than me. I have some friendship with them, and I believe that they will be interested in your situation."

"No!" I immediately refused. With a slightly stronger tone, Dr. Ruan Li raised his eyes in surprise.

"I don't want them to study my situation." I said straightforwardly: "I only admit you, mother." I don't know where this emotion comes from, probably from the actual experience in the hospital. Yes, but I really don't want to be surrounded by those doctors, proving from the front and the side all the time that I am a mental patient, how strange my condition is, how valuable it is, and how it is getting worse. Even if I know that I am a mental patient, no, because I know that I am a mental patient, I want to live like a normal person. I can face Dr. Ruan Li without pressure, because we have lived together for a long time, and the emotional bond between us makes me feel like a parent-child relationship. But this does not mean that I can face other psychologists with the same mood.

This kind of strong refusal seems to make Dr. Ruan Li feel stunned. It took a while before she said: "Although you say that, I am very happy, but in fact, in the past, I have already put some of your information Send it to them. It is because of their assistance that I can come up with so many ways. Moreover, the medicine you need is made by their relationship. You don’t need to think of being violated, the doctor can’t. Avoid offending **, especially in psychology...A Chuan, you have been by my side for a long time, and you know this situation."

"I know, but whether I know it or not has nothing to do with personal emotions." I said to her: "I am simply not in the mood, to accept other psychologists except you. Psychology is not a general pathology, the patient’s Subjective emotions are also important, aren’t they?"

Doctor Ruan Li nodded for a while, and did not mention the topic again: "I will take care of it~IndoMTL.com~ I won't come back for dinner at noon, can you take care of yourself?"

"Of course." I answered without hesitation.

"If someone is looking for me, let him call me." Dr. Ruan Li emphasized cautiously: "Don't care about the other party for any reason, whether you can't get through, or you don't have a phone number, you don't need to care about it. Just let him call me directly."

"You look nervous, mom." I was a little surprised, "Is there any danger?"

"No. There is no danger." Dr. Ruan Li's complexion eased, and he said, "I just don't want you to be stuck with some brown candy. Many people here don't know what politeness is, especially for your age. Child."

"I don't mind teaching them." I smiled. The atmosphere on the table softened.

Half an hour later, Dr. Ruan Li, who had packed a box of documents, went out as scheduled. I watched her get into the taxi from the window, put on my coat and left the room. I am going to the base in Paris. The performance of Dr. Nguyen Li and the cause of this trip made me feel that she should be put under surveillance to ensure her safety. Therefore, I need the power to draw on. (To be continued...)