Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1261: The truth about Ruan Li II

In Dr. Ruan Li’s calm narration, the origin of all this--including the ones I had to believe, about the setting of "Doomsday Fantasy" and "Hospital Reality", and the mystery and destiny intertwined in the story , And even the truth that Dr. Ruan Li knows—in fact, all originated from White Claudia, not the “virus” I learned from the “hospital reality”.

Strictly speaking, in the truth explained by Dr. Ruan Li, “virus” does not exist, “Jiang” does not exist naturally, and the “mysteries” that depend on both of them certainly do not exist. However, "White Claudia" does exist. The product of "Paradise" made by "White Claudia" did not exist earlier, but the concept is similar and it is also called "paradise". The manufacturing plan does exist. Most "mysterious organizations" do not exist, including cyberballs, Nazis, and the Domination Bureau. However, the Doomsday Truth Sect does exist, and they are indeed always active. However, the truth of the Doomsday Truth Sect is related to my diary. It’s not the same as described in.

In the doomsday illusion, no one can determine the source of the "mystery", but most of the "mystery" can be related to the gray fog. The past doomsday illusions also involved different spaces and demons. In today’s doomsday illusions, common mystical systems such as demons, gray fog, magic lines, and even wizards can all be attributed to the origin of the “ruling bureau”. Therefore, There are also many people who believe that the Domination Bureau—whether it is the predecessor of a different space in the past or the ruins of the current Domination Bureau—developed a whole set of incomprehensible supernormal technologies, and then a technological disaster occurred for some reason, so , Part of the technology and its side effects leaked out, which led to the frequent appearance of "mysteries" in our world.

These people believe that, including prophets, magicweave messengers, wizards, and more mysterious powers that are difficult to be included in the system. Both can be interpreted using the dominance technology. The only thing that makes people feel tricky is how to dig and understand more dominance technology information. Although when referring to the word "technology". It smells of normal science and technology, however. When actually digging and researching these ruling bureau technologies, the whole process also gives people an inexplicable feeling. So far, I have not seen anyone claim that they have found the law of interpretation, and once the research involves the technology of the ruling bureau, everyone often describes it as "mystery" rather than "incomprehensible technology."

There is a fundamental difference in concept between "mysterious" and "incomprehensible science and technology".

I don’t know much about the Bureau of Domination. In the past apocalyptic illusions, those seemingly predecessor of the ruling bureau named "Apocalyptic illusions" in the alien space, I have not entered many times, maybe it is too rushed, maybe there is a force in the dark to stop it. I have been in that place many times, but now in retrospect, the meaning of the "doomsday illusion" from the perspective of the "hospital reality" and the "doomsday illusion" from the perspective of the "doomsday illusion" in the past is the meaning between the two. different.

There are many noun concepts. It had already changed when I arrived in the "Hospital Reality", and in today's doomsday illusion, it has been modified beyond recognition. For example, in the past doomsday illusion, the way to obtain the magic pattern, the way to raise the magic pattern level, the whole process and mechanism are actually clearer than today, and the magic pattern was the most clear mysterious power system at that time, and the operation mode of the entire mysterious circle. , Is also clearer than it is now, and the fate of the magic pattern messenger itself has to be carried. It is also heavier than it is now. At that time, the Mageweave Messenger was also called the Chosen One. As in its literal meaning, Mageweave Messenger and Prophet. It is considered to be the two most important parts in the fate of doomsday.

However, the existence and importance of the Mageweave messenger today has become very popular, and the name of the "chosen one" is no longer heard.

I don't miss the past apocalyptic illusions, and I don't like the reality of the hospital. However, compared to what I saw and heard in different worlds and time periods, I can't help but doubt the difference in detail between them. Moreover, I don't completely think that it is because the "world" is evolving and becoming perfect. On the contrary, whether it is the illusion of the doomsday of the past and the present, or the reality of the hospital, based on what I can observe, there are many places that I think are extremely vague. It is this kind of vague and **** place that makes people feel like they are in a dream.

Every time I experience the world, the world I observe is "incomplete". The doomsday illusion itself has "incomprehensible mystery". All "incompleteness" is used as "incomprehensible mystery." Completion and elaboration, but the reality of the hospital is small, and I still don't know what the world outside the island looks like. And those things that make me feel like my own memories are recorded in the form of hallucinations. Isn’t it weird?

I have always been dissatisfied with my memory and the world in which I exist, because this dissatisfaction breeds many emotions and prompts me to take actions that ordinary people cannot do. Others think that the world they exist in is taken for granted. If there is a secret, it will be understandable sooner or later. However, I am different.

I think there are too many things in this world that are not so "taken for granted", not only in human society, not only in mysterious events, but also in themselves. It is difficult for me to explain, what is it that makes me feel unnatural and not taken for granted. If it has another look, then what should it look like? I really can't imagine what the real world would look like if everything I experienced was not real.

If you think about it according to this logic, it will only make your brain confused. It seems that these questions involve the ultimate philosophy of mankind, and no definite answer can be obtained.

However, when I think about it this way, there is indeed a feeling of "everything is an illusion". And the closest description of this feeling is undoubtedly the Buddha's interpretation of "all empty" in Asian mysticism.

However, from a philosophical and biological point of view, humans cannot breathe in a state of "empty" and recognize "illusions." The concept of "illusion" came into being relative to the concept of "real". This also means that no matter what I have experienced. What is the secret, how many are hallucinations, but. There must be a corresponding "reality" in this.

I think this corresponding "real" hidden behind the illusion and dream. It is the basic point of a certain understanding of the real world. I can't determine how many characteristics it has, but I can be sure that it must be a "pervasive existence". Maybe, it's a bit difficult to understand just to describe the theory, but. If this basic point is visually regarded as "things that exist in everything I can observe and feel", is it easier to understand?

Yes, I think so. To know the truth, you must first find a true base point, and then base on this base point to observe everything around you. And this true basic point is smaller. It must be "something that exists all the time, in every situation."

In the past apocalyptic illusions, I used to think that such things were everywhere; but after arriving in the hospital reality. I began to doubt. When I realized the existence of "virus" from the information in the hospital, the concept of "virus" and the concept of "Jiang" were unified. It is under such circumstances that I think I have found " The basic point of truth" is the hybrid concept of "virus" and "jiang", which exists in both the hospital reality and the doomsday fantasy. And, the distance to me is so close. It can be said that the characteristics it exhibits. They all fit the definition of "being in myself and everything I can observe and feel" almost perfectly.

Even now, after arriving in the world of repeaters, in an environment where this "mysterious" system has undergone tremendous changes again, it is still feasible to observe everything based on "virus" and "jiang". However, looking at everything based on this hybrid concept is also painful and hopeless at the same time. Because the meaning and result of "virus" and "Jiang" are not close to my ideals. On the contrary, their existence itself is a kind of destruction and malice to the ideal world I expect.

Under such conditions, I will fall in love with "Jiang", which is something that even myself finds incredible. Although unbelievable, I accepted it—just that, I can evaluate my spirit, there must be something wrong.

However, while accepting this situation, while trying to use this situation to correct the world that I think shouldn’t be like this, I never thought about whether there would be a second one. It completely contradicts this "real base point", or theoretically covers its "more real base point".

Because, before this, I have never heard of a statement that is more permeable and easier to understand and accept than the mixed concept of "virus" and "Jiang".

Until this evening, Dr. Ruan Li brought it up-at least for me now, the situations she said can also explain everything happening around me relatively perfectly. The problem is that it is more difficult to accept her statement than to accept that "the hospital reality is the real reality", and this difficulty lies in my understanding of the repeater world, and my understanding of the repeater world, the doomsday fantasy and the hospital reality. The inherent cognition of the dependency relationship between the people.

So, when Dr. Ruan Li wants me to believe her, I can only remain silent. Although she did not act unexpectedly and frustrated, I still feel that if I can, I don't want to remain silent at this time.

"Actually, I have said the same thing to you many times." Dr. Ruan Li said, "However, it has become more and more difficult for you to recognize what is true. You In the shaking of the truth, his spirit has been in tatters. You know, when I guide the patients, in most cases, I will not directly raise the situation that directly conflicts with their ideas. Suppose a mental patient thinks something Something exists, then, if I judge that his hallucinations are not a substantial threat, I will not use strong means to tell him that the thing does not exist. Because, although the patient’s spirit is problematic, But it is often stubborn. There is no complete conclusion as to whether the direct conflict of cognition can save the other party."

"Mom, you mean. Have you treated me with a very direct cognitive conflict therapy?" I couldn't help but ask: "You tried, forcibly put what you think is correct, the real situation into my In your head?"

"Yes." Dr. Ruan Li replied without changing his face. There was no fluctuation in her tone or mood, although she knew it too. This approach is very unpleasant, and I can imagine it. The whole process must be full of inhumanity. Mandatory adjustment of the mental state of mental patients. It is unavoidable to use some cruel machines and illegal drugs with great side effects. At this time, I don’t have any feelings or memories in this regard, but I don’t think that Dr. Ruan Li is lying.

She doesn't need to lie, and I won't hate her because of this. This is determined by my character, and she should know this too, I think.

"I have always regretted it. Maybe I was too anxious to get results." Dr. Ruan Li's eyebrows softened, full of apologetics, "Since then, the effect of stimulant therapy has been declining. In the early stage of treatment, your performance was normal for a while, but soon returned to the appearance of the disease."

"You mean, hallucinations?" I asked. I know that she has always thought of my unusual behavior and unusual thoughts. It's all based on hallucinations. And the diary I wrote must be very incredible in the eyes of ordinary people, and there is no way to touch "mysterious" words. It was just a story full of delusions, but Dr. Ruan Li has shown incredible resistance to "mystery" so far.

If Dr. Ruan Li is not regarded as "mysterious restraint" and "relay core", then her existence is undoubtedly more real than any mystery.

It is this truth that makes me willing to listen to what Dr. Ruan Li said, even if I think this statement is even more incredible than "hospital reality"-for anyone who can't reach the "hospital reality". The existence of the "hospital reality" itself is incredible.

"Whether it is just an illusion in the end. I can't be sure, but the term illusion is indeed the most common term at present." Dr. Ruan Li gave a ** reply.

I was feeling that Dr. Ruan Li was a little offensive, so she continued: "Actually, you lose more memories than you think. For example, you are really sure that the diary you wrote down is only you Do you see so many?"

"What do you mean?" Although there is nothing incomprehensible about what Dr. Ruan Li said, there was an unexpected impulse in my heart.

"Before you became like this, you started to write a diary." Dr. Ruan Li said, "When your condition was not so serious, the records in your diary, and the current records, are It’s not the same. Although there is no lack of correlation, it looks more like two worlds. You think that when you were sixteen or seventeen, you recognized a mysterious world, and you learned about the Doomsday Truth and Baik. Laudia and Paradise, but in fact, you have heard of them as early as eight years old."

I was silent. I couldn’t believe it. What Dr. Ruan Li said may be the "Gaochuan" that already existed in this world before I arrived in this world of repeaters. However, the huge difference in age makes people It feels incredible. The words of Dr. Ruan Li mean that this repeater world preserves all the activities and existence records of "Gaochuan" that have existed since at least eight years old.

And my own records of activities and existence, in terms of the doomsday illusion alone, have disappeared as long as the past doom illusions were destroyed.

Compared with me now, the Gao Chuan that Doctor Ruan Li knows undoubtedly has a sense of real existence.

"Do you still remember your past before those mysterious events?" Dr. Ruan Li asked me.

I shook my head because, although there is a little impression, it is true that not everything is clear. I have forgotten many things, including the voices and smiles of my parents and childhood partners. I have always felt that this is a very normal thing. The memories that people have when they grow up are mostly vague outlines. Therefore, the feeling of "immediate sight" can be produced.

"You have never doubted why the memory before becoming a Mageweave messenger is so vague?" Dr. Ruan Li said as she stepped on the pebble by the side of the road with her foot, she was leading me towards I walked to my room and said, "In fact, people’s memories are not always so vague. There are always occasional opportunities that will make people remember things that impress them clearly, especially those who care about them. Looks like."

"Mom, you are trying to say that the reason why my memory is fuzzy is because those memories are false?" I asked sharply.

"Yes, in your current diary, you no longer record the past, but in the earlier diary, what you recorded about yourself is false. You are just for your identity and background, I made some settings that are more in line with the protagonist of the story. Although there are some general backgrounds in the diary, but in general-there is no parental restraint, there is a certain amount of funds, and you can transform your room into a workshop at will , Have relevant technical knowledge, etc.-isn’t it just for those frequent adventures after the development of the story? You never thought about it, or you don’t even care about how a top student in a school can do it Do not disturb the adults, but realize those willful choices. In the story you think is true, when you first met Zuojiang, that strange and charming woman easily integrated into your afterlife, and then The focus of your life is also spring and autumn, of course, avoiding any actual troubles in life, and simply moving from high school to foreign adventures. Don’t you think this is really unnatural, very unnatural. Realistic?"

"From the perspective of hospital reality, the doomsday fantasy is not reality." I retorted.

"So, do you think the reality of the hospital is reality?" Dr. Ruan Li's question was very powerful, and I could only remain silent.

I also don't think that the reality of the hospital is reality.

"Actually, even in the near future, a large part of the diary you wrote is actually forgotten by yourself." Dr. Ruan Li changed the subject and said: "You said what you wrote, It’s more than you think. Maybe you don’t remember, but you have described other Gaochuan in the third person, including Gaochuan and Dorothy, as well as the actual situation in the hospital. It’s just, I think, When you write a diary in the first person, those contents are what you think you can really see. Therefore, those "things that you didn't see" become the third-person description, if you use the first-person story In terms of narration, this approach seems very formal, but the problem is that you do forget the content of the story you wrote in the third person. "

I couldn't help but my eyes widened. I forgot. The story I wrote? No, it should be understood that Dr. Ruan Li thought I had forgotten the contents of the diary written by Gao Chuan whom she knew in the past? Although you can think of it this way, there is indeed no problem with what Dr. Ruan Li said.

"When did I write it..." I paused and asked: "Is there any evidence?"

Doctor Ruan Li shrugged and opened the door~IndoMTL.com~ took out the laptop from the suitcase, and said, “Like this conversation, in fact, we have repeated it many times in the past, but more Later, the more it seemed that you heard such a thing for the first time. I can't guarantee that after you have confirmed the evidence this time, when you will forget it, thinking that you have never seen it before."

"I will record it. Write it in the diary." I said quickly.

"Look, you can selectively forget what you have written." Dr. Ruan Li sighed, "This kind of guarantee is actually meaningless. You can't control yourself at all. In fact, we have known for a long time. This kind of thing."

She meant it was obvious—I can’t control myself, and I will always selectively forget some reality, so I am immersed in the illusion, and even treat the illusion as reality, so even if I see the evidence now, it will not be To forget is to bypass these evidences and to be attached to the illusion as much as possible.

"Ignore...Do you want to say that? Mom." I watched Dr. Ruan Li open the screen and said hesitantly. In her eyes, this is probably the most difficult situation when treating me. (Want to know more exciting news about "Restricted Doomsday Syndrome"? Open WeChat now, click on the "+" sign at the top right, select Add friends to add an official account, search for "wang", follow the official account, and never miss it again Update every time!) (to be continued)