Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1246: Secondary school in the hospital

I fell asleep in a nightmare, and when I woke up I found that I had returned to the mental hospital. This development is not strange in my life. ⊙ Four ⊙ Five ⊙ Chinese ⊙ text, although I call it "reality" and "nightmare" in order to distinguish the environment I am in, but one "reality" is a "nightmare" relative to the other "reality" , And the environment that should have been relatively "nightmare", but in some cases, has become a living reality, and these situations will always appear. In the end, I can't tell what is reality, what is a nightmare, and what is my own illusion.

People like Dr. Ruan Li always define "reality" as a unique and true environment whether they are in or not. In a normal sense, the term "reality" looks like this. I don’t deny Dr. Ruan Li’s understanding of "reality". On the contrary, I feel that to understand like that, having a concept representing "reality", "highest" and "unique" is a beautiful thing and a better way for human beings to survive. Required. On the contrary, people like me who always unknowingly obscure the concepts of "reality" and "reality" must be sick and abnormal. In particular, such vagueness is not a subjective recognition. When the problem of knowledge is a more objective observation, of course it is even more abnormal.

Humans have limits.

Within this limit, no one has ever been able to observe multiple realities, and I, who seems to have done it, are naturally contrary to the self-knowledge of being a person.

So, the conclusion is quite obvious: If I were a human, then, I have encountered so many dazzling situations, part of it must be hallucinations, not the part of the hallucinations, even if it is broken. It should also be possible to piece together an outline of a unique reality. This outline may be flawed, but it is absolutely impossible for the same thing to show multiple forms at the same time under the same observation. A person can only see what he can see at the same time. Under the same observation method, if you see a certain person at a certain point in time, then this person should not show different behaviors and different personalities under other identities at the same time.

In this way, if I, as a human, really observe the truth, then Seishi and Dorothy should also be just a kind of appearance, instead of being human and inhuman at the same time.

However. In the situations I have observed and personally experienced, not only there are multiple "Gaochuan", other people and things also have no "uniqueness" at all. Although they seem to be connected, it is this obscure connection that proves that they are conceptually "not unique."

What is real. What is false, what is dream. What is an illusion, the only criterion is only my own feelings, as well as "Jiang" and "Virus".

This is inherently ridiculous.

Now, I'm used to such absurdities. Not even surprised by the sudden emergence of a "situation more real than in the past". It won't be like this at all, but just will all this. Treat it as "fait fact" and "existing existence".

I acquiesce that "Jiang" and "virus" exist, and I am not "human" in the full sense. It sounds ridiculous to set oneself in this way, but it’s with other people who think "because this is so handsome. I want to try it" or "there is some kind of psychological shadow, so I use this method to escape". Different.

If I don't do this, I can't survive. These settings are no longer the identity I imposed on myself, but form part of my personality now.

Sooner or later, the second disease will be cured, and the world they see will be as ordinary as everyone else. They can feel ashamed of what they have done before, or laugh at it and start a new life.

And I can't see this day.

Because, in the world that I observe, when I dream of becoming a hero, some people die, and countless people will die before my eyes. Before that, they are suffering-this is not what I want to see To the world, and when these things happen repeatedly in front of me, I can’t do it either. One day in the future, I will treat all of this as a shameful fantasy and laugh it off.

In this world where ordinary people feel ridiculous, I fight with those who have some firm convictions, and the opponents are also a group of crazy but faithful enemies. Their words and deeds affect me all the time, and I also affect them. Let me treat the things that have happened, those deaths, those pains, those struggles, and those dreams as mere "second disease" and laugh at it. How can it be possible?

Absolutely impossible.

So, I can only say to myself that everything right now, everything that is happening, may have another image in the eyes of others, but for me, it is my own reality.

In the common and normal cognition, it is very difficult to maintain such a personal cognition. I know very well that the thoughts of "normal" and "abnormal" have always been like a tug of war, pulling my knowledge of the world and others.

Everything I have seen is so complicated, so complicated that I don't understand at all, but I have to go all the way in this kind of incomprehension.

Whenever I encounter thorns, whenever I am stung by thorns, I can only swallow these pains by myself, and be silent to others. Because this is the world that only I know.

Although, in this world that only I know about, there are others who exist, and they will also intersect with the world in the eyes of others, but this does not mean understanding and approval. Instead, differences are the most conspicuous.

Even if it is a temporary cooperation, it cannot be represented, and the two sides will not become enemies. Even if they both think that the other party is important, there is no guarantee that the two sides will work together on the same path. Even if it is similar in concept, it is impossible to be sure that they will step in the same direction.

Can't think of the same thing as the one you love.

Can’t see the same thing in the same way as the person you trust.

Can't accomplish the same goal with the same will as the person you value.

People who regard each other as important will always take the path that they affirm for the sake of each other, not the other side's affirmation.

Isn’t this a sad thing?

There is such a saying, if you really fall in love with someone. It should be for its sake, acknowledge its decision, and even help it realize what it wants in the direction and path it decides-but the problem is. Do you really think that your decision is wrong and the people you love are right? Are you willing only because of the will of the person you love, when you think it is wrong, you still decide to help the other person to take the wrong path you think, and then to bear the bad result that you are sure of?

Without own will, but centering on the other's will, is this the expression of love? The answer to this question. I don't know, because I have never met such a person. The people around me are all people who have a strong self-will and are trying to save and achieve something. It's not that they don't understand and approve others, it's just that. They never denied themselves from the beginning. Don't doubt yourself. Even in this world, there are many kinds of roads. If you cannot believe that you are right, you can deny the correctness of others. They will say: "I don't deny the right of others, I just insist on my own. Correct."-That's it.

Yes. Everyone has everyone's right.

However, when these cannot be combined correctly, they are full of contradictions.

When you think you are right, even if you don’t have the approval and approval of others, you will use your strongest will to promote it. That's everything I see now.

This is true whether it is me, a researcher in the hospital reality, various organizations in the doomsday fantasy, and even everyone in the organization. Cooperation and grouping are only because everyone’s "correctness" has something in common, not because they are infected by the "correctness" of the other party and trying to accomplish the "correctness" proposed by others.

It is in this form that the doomsday truth sect and the black nest appeared, which is simply incredible, and I can only explain it in terms of the commonality of personality, human nature and human ideology.

The world I see is like this, even if it is the "hospital reality" that does not have much "mystery" for the time being, it is also a group of stubborn people playing games.

I sometimes think, in fact, what the world will be like is not really important to them. For them, the most important thing is whether they can correctly implement and execute what they think in the same environment. If this is correct and saves the world, then it is good; if it destroys the world, then it is evil. However, before the result of this "salvation" or "destroy", whether what I think is correct will achieve good or bad results, but it is just a small embellishment, not higher than "I think it is correct." itself.

I sometimes feel that, in fact, I am such a person myself. Also because I am such a person, I will exist in, and observe, such a world.

Of course, this was just a flash of thought when it was very accidental.

I always think a lot and record them in my diary, but these thoughts have never been the main driving force for my actions. There has never been a single thing I have to face, and it can be solved with these complicated and obscure ideas.

My mood is always fluctuating, and I often hesitate about one thing. But I am very convinced that after deciding the direction, I also have a strong executive power, and will not change the direction towards Lingxi because of a momentary sway and hesitation.

I put water on my face, and I couldn't help it, and suddenly my confused thoughts settled down. I don't think it is the unnatural monotony and whiteness of this ward that caused this emotional instability and confusion of thoughts. Because, even if I wasn't here, I would often commit such problems in the past, especially after recovery, it became more serious, and even when fighting, I would suddenly break away from the content of the battle itself. If it wasn't for the "relatively fast" feature of quick sweeps, maybe it was because Akira was overturned by the enemy in a certain battle.

Or in other words, it is precisely because of the quick-grabbing super power that gives me more leeway relative to others, so that distracting thoughts will breed in the battle?

I can’t tell. I know that this is probably not a good thing, but I can't control myself.

I took a look at myself in the mirror, wondering if I was in a trance. For a while, I felt my face became blurred, but it didn't look like what I knew, the way I was in this world. but. I still don't have any surprises. This situation has happened many times in the past. Although it seems that a little secret can be detected from this kind of illusion phenomenon, it is in fact. I have never found this secret and answer. It seems to be a "real mapping", but in fact, there is no evidence to prove it.

In the reality of the hospital, these "illusions", "illusions" and "immediate sights" once became my help in finding the truth, but now it seems that it was still too naive at that time. These hallucinations, illusions and instant vision can indeed suggest many clues. But it does not mean that what you find following these clues is true.

The mirror seems to be fogged up because of my thoughts, and it looks very strange. I wiped it with the palm of my hand, only to see a handprint clearly branded on the top, and then a trace of blood dripped from the top of the brand. The mirror surface is painted all at once. My face, which was blocked by **** handprints, looked weird in the mirror.

I took a deep breath. I ignored him and left the bathroom directly.

It was about five o'clock in the afternoon. When I woke up from a nightmare, it was half an hour ago. The rain outside the window became more and more intensive, and I decided to leave the room for a walk, and it is unlikely that I would walk out of this building again. However, on the other hand, I also want to confirm the structure of this building and other residents. I picked up the special mobile phone for the seminar from the bedside table and walked out the door directly in the patient's suit.

The long corridor stretches in front of you. For a while, it seemed to spread to the front that I couldn't see clearly, and the door began to bend, just like using a spherical lens to take a wide-view camera. However, I blinked, and it recovered about 20 meters again, and things on both sides returned to the square appearance. I feel a little bit, have my visions become more frequent? I suspect that when I was in a nightmare, the staff in the hospital injected me with certain drugs, and the situation at this time was a side effect. Although Dr. Ruan Li prevented me from taking new medicines, this only meant that I did not take the new medicines made in the past, and as time progressed, the new medicines would continue to improve. Of course, she would let me take the newer medicines.

The new drug should be part of the result of research and trial production of "paradise". Of course, it also has a certain hallucinogenic effect. People have nightmares, but only one aspect. I can imagine that in a worse situation, the hallucinations produced in the hospital reality will be enough to make the observing person manifest in an inhuman image. Thereby awakening one's own aggressiveness.

However, in terms of personal feeling, except for occasional abnormalities that appear to be "illusions" and "illusions" in the sight in front of me, the strong psychedelic and erratic feelings similar to psychedelics do not exist.

I feel that I am completely normal, but everything in front of me suddenly changed my image, and in the next instant, it changed back to its original appearance, and the chain determination did not observe any abnormality.

If the range reaches 50 meters, the whole building will be wrapped in the first time. The building I’m in has only four floors. My room is at the end of the corridor on the third floor. After I walk out the door, my left hand is the fence, and my right hand is the same room. The doors are hidden and not all locked. . In my mind, a three-dimensional figure was quickly outlined.

Two-thirds of the rooms in this building are already occupied.

I knocked on the neighbor's door. The people inside didn't plan to come out. Judging from the perception of the chain judgment, he just stood quietly in the center of the room and did nothing. He seems to have been standing for a long time. I have been in front of his door for five minutes and knocked on the door a dozen times, but he didn't move. I know that no matter what seemingly weird and meaningless things a mental patient will do, there is no need to make a fuss. If I want to go in, I probably have to break in. The problem is that the door is quite solid and has a wooden surface, but listening to the sound, it seems that the inside seems to be inlaid with steel plates. Other than that, it seems to be deliberately installed several times. Dao Dasuo, and I currently don’t have any tools.

My luggage, I don’t know where it was taken. When I am awake, of course I can ensure that the tools are not lost, but the problem is that I can not always stay awake. Of course, there are no such things for crimes in the ward. If you want to ensure the ability to attack and move, it is not enough to have chain judgment and quick-sweeping superpower. I need at least a dagger. If possible, I also need to find enough materials to re-manufacture auxiliary props. The current situation that I have to face seems a bit like the reality in the hospital. Although I have the power of magic lines, I have to face a more weird environment, and I can't tell which side is easier.

I deliberately made some movement afterwards, but no one came out to watch the excitement at all. The whole building was maintained in an empty and quiet atmosphere, which became more and more weird. No matter what people are doing in a room with people, there is no response to my meaning, and the structure of the door does not say that I, a speed-type magicweave messenger, can forcibly open it with his bare hands. Conversely, in any room with no one, either the door is not closed or the door is not locked, and you can open it directly by twisting the handle from the outside. I expect that there will be some materials in it, but unfortunately, they are all vacant rooms that have been abandoned for a long time. It seems that there has been no one to take care of, and there are almost no usable objects. When the silt up dust is raised, it is enough to make people breathe. And, there are spider webs everywhere.

I thought that the mental hospital would look at Dr. Ruan Li’s face and arrange me in a more refined patient area. Just as I rummaged through the cabinet, the phone rang.

Caller ID is not any number stored in the phone, instead it is a series of question marks.

I didn't hesitate and answered the suspicious call directly.

"Who?" I thought, my voice was a bit harsh.

"...I finally got in touch." The voice over there paused, it seemed that the signal was extremely poor, not only the sound was intermittent, high and low, but also full of noises, "Gaochuan...shasha...I... John Bull."

"John Bull?" I confirmed.

"Yes... the signal on your side... interferes... the people of the torchlight pass by... leave a mark..." John Bull said a lot, but there was only one thing I could hear Little content. When I wanted to ask for more precise content, the signal was interrupted, and only a string of blind tones remained in the earpiece.

However, based on the few important words alone, I can probably guess what John Bull wants to say.

The most important thing is that the people of Torchlight have come.

The light of the torch is an important component, and there are seats in the seminar. Therefore, when the seminar is trying to create a "paradise", the arrival of the light of the torch is not surprising. However, it is not someone else, but the light of the torch, coupled with John Bull's special notice, the meaning behind it is somewhat intriguing.

Because the arrival of the light of the torch means the expansion of the "bias"-in short, before they arrive, if there is an accident, it is normal, but after the light of the torch arrives~IndoMTL.com ~ The accident that reappears is no longer a normal situation. The "deviation" of the torchlight is mysterious, and it may bring about changes beyond everyone's expectations.

For what kind of considerations did Torchlight participate in the production of "Paradise"? They must know what the "paradise" that Dr. Ruan Li and others want is like, and what the "paradise" under the influence of the Doomsday Truth Sect will become. Precisely because all parties need "paradise", most of them are positive about the completion of "paradise". The biggest contradiction lies in what effect the "paradise" should have.

However, the "deviation" of the torchlight is irrespective of the type of enemy and us. Can the reason for sending them here be regarded as that I have thought that I cannot exceed the Doomsday Truth in terms of the influence of paradise research , So trying to mix the water?

John Bull seems to want me to meet the people of Torchlight.

But I think it's better to observe in secret.

Although because of the signal problem, I could not hear all what John Bull said, but when it comes to the light of torch and the mark, if it is said that the light of torch will leave its mark, I have a general idea. . Even if you can't describe it in detail, you can be sure that you can recognize it when you see it. (To be continued...)