Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1270: Never at peace
The people who returned from the tower prayed in the shelter. In my opinion, their mental state has changed quite a bit from the first encounter with them. , They still remember my things, but there is another explanation for my appearance and disappearance in their eyes. Ignore what kind of phenomenon my behavior is in their eyes, but in the conversation with them, I didn't find them doubting it. The rumors, changes, and any abnormal phenomena in my eyes and feelings in this shelter are taken for granted in their eyes. And this attitude is what worries me.
The abnormal things are regarded as normal, even if the observation results are changed due to the different perspectives, but for itself and the environment it observes, it must be relatively abnormal Case. This nightmare is accompanied by the advent of the deepest night, and a terrible change is happening quietly, and people are also undergoing subtle changes along with this change. Compared with the past, their consciousness, thoughts and mental state have clearly produced what I regard as "distorted".
"Pray to the gods deep in my heart", "Golden Witch", "Heart", etc., in the hunters of the past, it is difficult to imagine that they would say it from their mouths. And they who said these words are more like a group of terrorists who believe in cults. The thoughts of these people imprison themselves in the house, refuse to continue fighting the weirdness, and refuse to continue to explore the secrets of the deep night.
Now, I am alone again.
The saying about "the gods deep in the heart" has been circulated throughout the sanctuary. I have observed that there are very few people who have not been affected. And those who accept this kind of statement are concerned about the people and things in the house. They all showed indifference, even rejection. The only people who can talk normally a little bit are those who have returned from the tower, probably guiding the sanctuary’s sentiment, even so, for my performance in trying to probe their situation in depth. They also clearly expressed resistance.
"Please leave, hunter." The people inside refused my request to enter the mansion. "Although I am grateful for everything you have done for us, but in the face of the deepest night, everything ends up It will be meaningless. There is only prayer, only prayer. Praying to the gods in the heart is not asking for forgiveness. Because we have done nothing wrong, but for the gods, the difference between right and wrong is also meaningless. Care about what you have done. Only by praying can the gods hear our voices and save us in the deepest night."
"Why can the gods save us?" I asked back.
"There is no need to think about why." The person inside replied so firmly: "Just believe. If you have doubts, you will not be saved."
This is already an obvious, religious answer. I have studied occult and psychology. It is very clear that a person who does not consider why but only stubbornly believes in something cannot be persuaded by reason. However, even with the power of Level 4 Mageweave Envoys, I still couldn't open the door of this mansion with violence under their refusal. Or find other entrances. In the shelter, these people living in these places seem to be a manifestation of the exclusivity deep in their hearts-they cannot enter without being invited and without permission.
And in the occult. This kind of power that originates from will and presents appearances is also quite common and powerful. In religious studies, even the demon that is regarded as extremely terrifying cannot be directly violently defeated, but can only be lured by the practice of turning around. But on the other hand, whether it is mysticism or religion, or some works full of humanistic philosophy, there have been some stories to express the danger of using this kind of "self-enclosure". Although external forces seem to be unable to break through this enclosed protection, from another perspective, the power of salvation is also unable to lend a helping hand to it.
These people who refuse to contact the outside world and are autistic in their homes, once a malignant change occurs, it means that they will be in desperation. And what gave me an unpredictable premonition was this kind of thought: if these people close themselves in the house, they have been viciously corroded by the deep night——
The Deep Night is a macro concept in this nightmare. It didn't start now, nor did it start when the sky became like this. The birth of the nightmare itself may be very short in the timeline of external observation, but living in the nightmare, the deep night has the concept of "since ancient times".
"The deepest night has begun in the past, and the future will also exist. What is happening now is only inevitable. Moreover, it is not just beginning, but gradually tends to become intense, gradually with an obvious Phenomenon manifests itself, but before these obvious phenomena appear, the deep night has already begun."-Whether it is the old Hawk, the humanoid "line" or the old hunter, the description of the deep night can be used. Summarize such content.
According to the concept: the deep night has always existed in this nightmare, and it is going on all the time. It is just that there is a wave-like ups and downs in some strange phenomena, which is never obvious and unobservable. The development is clearly observable. Then, everyone in the nightmare, of course, is affected by the deepest night at all times, and there is no saying that if you close yourself up, you will not be affected.
I know very well that I cannot understand all the weirdness in this nightmare. However, these people staying in the house and praying, and resisting contact with the outside world is itself a result of the deepest night, and this possibility is still very high in my opinion. What's more, the source of their prayer, the object of prayer, and the behavior of prayer itself are already weird enough.
Because of the weirdness of these people, the atmosphere of the entire shelter is becoming more and more disturbing. Even the few people who do not pray have become more anxious in their conversation attitudes than in the past.
However, in the face of these changes, I cannot do more for them. They repelled me, repelled everything outside the house, even if this was the shelter they knew, just like the concept of "shelter", which is coming with the arrival of the deepest night. And the scope has shrunk drastically.
At first, I tried to find out from this group of people that I knew, even the patients in the peninsula’s spiritual port who had only one side, but in this case, it was also impossible to do it. So up to now. I still have no sails here. The people here are specifically connected with the patients in the Peninsula Spiritual Harbor. Because there are no examples, all previous suspicions remain on suspicions.
It is not the first time for me to make judgments and actions just because of suspicion. This kind of situation is often encountered by most mystery experts. Want to find all the clues. Determining the truth behind the scenes, then following the vines, and ending the mysterious incident in a bullfight, is only a theoretical possibility. On the contrary, in specious clues, based on one's own experience and knowledge, make a certain direction of suspicion, when no conclusive evidence can be found. Suspicion is the most common situation.
When the mysterious event began⊥There were many questions, and until the end of the mysterious event, there were still many questions, but they could not be answered in the end. For more serious people, it is an extremely uncomfortable situation. However. If you can't break through this layer of psychological cleanliness, you will easily die in mysterious events.
The so-called "mystery" is something that seems to be logical but has no logic in reality. The so-called "mysterious events", of course, it is impossible to escape the incomprehensibility brought about by the "mystery".
If every clue. Every cause has a logic and a conclusive explanation. It can be analyzed clearly through careful observation, rich experience, and even luck. If it is clear, it is just a "detective story", not a "mysterious event". "NS.
"Mystery" in an absolutely realistic and completely real world is theoretically a concept of "there is no instance", it is a kind of relative unsolvable, but not absolute. The grand unified theory is a theoretical existence that can explain all the problems from the bottom of the world.
However, in the doomsday illusion, it does exist, and from the perspective of the doomsday illusion, to observe the world, the world is more like a "mystery". The unified theory, in such a world, is instead a kind of "fool's delusion."
Observing the doomsday illusion from the reality of the port, and observing the reality of the doom illusion from the doomsday illusion, whether "port reality" or "doomsday illusion", itself will have a great, almost fundamental contrast.
The experience of receiving information about the reality of the port in the nightmare tower made me more deeply understand this contrast-because at that time, the reality of the port was like an "inspiring foresight" "Dream" is also a kind of "make people come into contact with the real dream", but no matter which kind, you can't escape the feeling of "dream". I don’t know how other people who are crazy after receiving the information of the reality feel, but for me, the reality that was originally very realistic has become less realistic. In terms of perception, it still remains It is one of the most realistic worlds so far, but in terms of feeling, it is completely different.
The deep night that is happening in the nightmare is such a "mysterious" but very realistic situation. It only exists in this nightmare, but the source of its birth and the impact it can cause are not isolated. It seems to have clues that can be parsed and parts that can be inferred logically, but it is impossible to unearth its secrets by relying solely on logic.
Looking at the deep night from outside the nightmare, whether it is based on the repeater itself, or based on the doomsday fantasy, or based on the reality of the port, there are different interpretations, and these interpretations are mutually and mutually. Related, the part that affects each other. However, on the other hand, none of these explanations can be used to analyze the truth of the Deep Night from a complete angle-I think the "mystery" of the Deep Night is reflected in this point.
In my theory of "real side", it is closer to the "real" phenomenon, and other observations and explanations based on the perspective of a certain world are just a description of this "real" "side".
Experiencing, observing and thinking about the deep night, I seem to be vaguely able to see the way to perfect the plan.
I don’t know if other repeaters will give birth to something like "In the world of repeaters, people’s nightmares are born in the deepest night of reality". But in the Las Vegas repeater, it is indeed slowly unfolding in front of my eyes in a wonderful way.
The doomsday illusion in reality, the repeater in the doomsday illusion, and the world formed by the repeater. The nightmare in the repeater world, the deepest night in the nightmare, and the reality in the deepest night—here, the world I perceive constitutes a loop integration, and the foundation of the entire loop . It is still a "book".
Although I have been worrying about the impact of a certain mysterious event, under a certain mysterious phenomenon, specific actions, and the neighbors, making this impact benign. But at the same time, I also tried from a higher level, a more macro perspective. Look at these mysterious events and the mysterious phenomenon itself.
I try to integrate macro-cognition and micro-behavior, and use micro-actions to promote macro-changes↓ For example, what I do in the Peninsula Spirit, even in my nightmare, is deeply targeted Nights and other mysterious organizations. No matter who you are protecting or who you are fighting against. To a large extent, it is based on the standard of "Let these situations in every world I observe, produce a benign response that is beneficial to the plan" ▲It is not simply to rescue a certain person in the repeater world Individuals, or just to avoid the end of an observed world.
And such an attempt, so far. Both still haven't shown obvious effect, and the great wheel of doom is still rolling in orderly. I sometimes wonder if my own approach is really effective, however. This kind of suspicion, every time it arises, it will be immediately abandoned. I know very well that in the current situation, there is no room for self-doubt.
I can only do my best, based on my own suspicions, before I get the truth, and when I'm not yet ready, I will act with the edge.
I think that for some thoughtful people, this approach is completely unacceptable. Because this means that the fault tolerance rate is reduced, and the luck component is improved, and even if a mistake is made, the vicious consequences will be more serious, which is "absolutely not cost-effective". The best way of course is to understand every key, determine every detail, and move forward step by step according to your own preparations, rather than desperately betting like a poor gambler.
However, in the world that I can observe, there is no place where I can do this step by step. The development of events is always worse than expected, and the speed of development in the bad direction is always faster than expected. When you think you can solve a problem and improve the situation, you will find that solving this problem makes the situation worse.
If this is only a problem that only arises on my own body, then I can think that it is my lack of ability. However, if this problem occurs in everyone I have observed, then how should I look at it? If all of this is regarded as the world’s mistakes, then, to survive in a wrong world is a very real problem-when you are unable to change the world’s mistakes, but want to live in the wrong world, you can But the wrong world does not allow people to live, so what should I do? How to think? What kind of answer can be obtained in the end? And what is the correct answer?
For me, what I have observed, the world I am in, no matter which one is terrible. But none of them make me feel "wrong" and should be "hate". Whether I want to accept it or not, it just exists, it develops, and it is destroyed. And the people I love and I are just some of the many victims. All people are equal in the face of this destruction. Even so, I still hope that I can change it, even if all the evidence proves that I cannot change it.
Yes, I know that maybe my own struggle is meaningless, but I just want to do it, so I did it.
I want to be a hero.
Wanting and doing it can never be equated, right?
So, I forgive myself for thinking so, trying to do it, but I can’t do it anyway. Also forgive this world that is wrong in my eyes.
I walked through the alleys of the house, listening to the self-closing room in the room, lighting up the light, groaning and greasy prayers. I think their approach is wrong. All of this is the abnormal change brought about by the deepest night. Their behavior seems to be trying to solve the problem, but in fact, it is only accelerating the arrival of the problem. Make the answer to the problem troublesome, bad and unsolvable. However, I never blame them, nor resent them, let alone think that they are stupid. Because, as they said, the source of all these errors did not originate from them.
The deepest night is here, no one can escape.
What is the difference between it and what I have observed, the end that every world has to face?
If you absolutely cannot survive the deep night, then what is the difference between staying in the house and praying, and going out to hunt weirdness and find the truth about the deep night?
All efforts are only meaningful if they "achieve change" or "unsure whether they can be changed". In the face of the absoluteness of "definitely impossible to change", all actions are futile. Compared with this, the mind has more possibilities. What people say "pray to the gods in the heart" may be suggesting this to me-if there is peace in the heart, even if this peace will lead to the worst results, it is also a kind of salvation for me. Bar. On the other hand, if there is no inner peace, then no matter what you do, you cannot be saved. "Struggling hard" itself is a painful punishment.
The people here don't intend to educate me with such principles. Perhaps they have never thought about it so much. But their behavior itself seems to be a huge, invisible will hinting at me, let me stop, let me feel, the peace under the end of the day, or try to make me calm and peaceful. Attitude to face that kind of future.
Yes, I can feel that high, ubiquitous will.
The result of seeking the heart and the result of seeking external objects are cut apart in this hint.
However, this is not what I want.
I didn't mean to stop, these suggestive things gradually faded from my mind. The reason why I am struggling with pain in such a weird, weird and desperate world is not for the peace of mind. In other words, if it's just for inner peace, you just need to close your eyes, close your heart, and stubbornly believe that you will be saved, and then just die unknowingly, and you can get it. Now, those people staying in the house must have gained inner peace, right?
But, I am not them, I am Gaochuan. Gao Chuan did not live in this world purely for his own peace and happiness.
This idea has never faded away. In other words, the idea is deeply rooted because of the constant search for inner answers~IndoMTL.com~.
What I want is something bigger and more complicated than "the peace and tranquility of the self." The unavailability of such things is the source of my pain. But this is not the reason for me to give up. If this painful flame will continue to burn, let it burn until there is no drop left in my soul. I embarked on the journey with this kind of consciousness.
Now turn your head back to the shore, become a Buddha on the spot, give up the painful realization, and gain your own peace? What a joke!
With this thought, I stopped on the mountain road outside the sanctuary, and at the half-mountain cemetery that was already visible, as if to punish my stubbornness, some faintly appeared A hostile figure. Although I can't see clearly because of the environment, the hostile smell can be smelled even far away.
They are digging graves ≥ As I know, those graves buried people like Old Hawk. The names on the tombstones are all "Gaochuan".
No matter why they are all "Gaochuan", and no matter what they do for this, it is enough for me to regard them as an enemy.
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