Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1276: Restart

The big rain basin outside the window is pouring temperature, and the thick cloudy clouds make the sky look like night. Lightning travels through the clouds. When the light flashes, it makes the ward appear paler and weird. ∷4∷5∷中∷Wen", in the occult, such a gloomy environment has always been the best place for brewing mysterious events, plus weird rumors throughout the history of the peninsula, as well as the current observations, various mysterious organizations The activities of the world and the mystery and spreading process of the world, when I wake up, I noticed where I was and turned into a ghost domain full of weirdness and danger, which would not surprise me.

My past experiences, and what happened to me, the situations that hinted that I was a weird source of activity all the time, as well as those sudden memories, hallucinations, and even thoughts themselves, are changing Those seemingly normal fragments are contaminated with an abnormal smell. When did I begin to think that "there is no mystery in reality", and when did I stop insisting that "there is no mystery in reality"? I don't remember the time clearly. Now I can look at hallucinations, anomalies, and all mysterious and weird situations with a habitual look, and my reason tells me that this is a manifestation of morbidity in itself.

The "truth" that suddenly appeared in my mind was not something I could think about. It just appeared in my memory and turned into a line of thoughts, and all of this was gradually taken for granted in the formation of thoughts. And I know that there is no cognition, it should be "taken for granted." However, if a person's memory, emotions, and thinking are all alienated, how can one always maintain a distrustful attitude toward these thoughts? At least, today I can feel the contradiction and abruptness of this "truth" that has suddenly appeared and forcibly explained everything. I didn't have any doubts about it.

On the other hand, I understand very well that these "truths" are not something that tells me. Yes, it didn't tell me anything, it just stuffed information and intelligence, and this information and intelligence cannot be fully understood from a human perspective. And the part that I can understand. This "truth" was formed in a logic that I can accept through my own sorting. On the other hand, if different people accept this part of the same information, according to their own thoughts, past cognition, memory, and ability to accept, some other "truths" will probably be formed.

But another point must be affirmed, that is, although these "truths" can explain the doubts held by individuals, but. The limitations of being a person also make this "truth" necessarily not a comprehensive truth in an absolute sense.

In this way, what is the reason and effect of this "truth"? Of course, it is not aimless or unfounded. In my opinion, this "truth" is merely a side effect of the "virus" becoming more active. This "truth" pair is limited to me personally explaining what a "virus" is, but it is also determining the existence of a "virus" and even. A force is being bred that allows the "virus" to have a stronger actual influence.

The moment I was about to fall into a coma in my nightmare, how I felt. It has also recovered at this time when I woke up-my memory, thoughts, spirit and thoughts are like a cold ocean, and in the depths of this ocean, something is gestating and it is about to hatch. From this perspective, I was forced to recognize the "truth". It is also the effect caused by its fetal movement.

I think that is a "virus" and also a "Jiang" at the same time. I can't stop this thought of myself, and I deeply feel this kind of thought of myself. It is one of the core factors of "virus" or "Jiang" gestation, fetal movement and incubation. If I did not have the thoughts from the past to the present, and the content of the thoughts, did not search for the "truth", did not have the sudden appearance of this information and intelligence, did not organize the information, and even now affirm the "virus" status, "Virus" and "Jiang" probably won't appear in fetal movements in a way that is clearer than ever.

The "virus" exists, but the reason it can have a terrible impact in the way it is today is because people try to recognize it, give it a concept, and define its existence. Therefore, although "Jiang" also exists, it really took shape because I confirmed its existence.

When I think of this, it’s not difficult for me to understand why before leaving, Dr. Ruan Li told me that when I finished reading the records I wrote before unconscious, I would definitely have a deeper understanding of my own situation. Know, and will regret writing those diaries in the past, and even have a deep hatred of their past. Because, the "truth" nowadays does make people feel that all of this is self-reliant.

However, Dr. Ruan Li was still wrong. Although I was shocked by the "truth" that I had forcibly recognized, I also felt at a loss what to do, and my heart was filled with a deep sense of frustration. I was even swept by confusion and despair before my eyes. However, as "Gaochuan", there are too many "despair", "accidents", "frustration" and "confusion". The reason why "Gaochuan" has been able to live to this day still maintains the motivation to act is precisely because I have never been defeated by these negative things.

Although the "truth" that is forcibly recognized is terrible, it seems that there is no weakness, it is despair that cannot be defeated, and even this "truth" is still not the final truth. However, in the past, how could "Gaochuan" really find hope? When will we truly realize the truth? "Gao Chuan" has been advancing in thorns throughout his life, bruised and taciturn, never found the truth, never found hope, but just has been walking on the road of finding truth and hope.

Yes, "Gaochuan" has always been moving forward in the dark, and has never seen the light ahead. Is the horror and fear brought about by this forced cognition of the "truth" now, is it more terrifying and fearful than in the past? Is the darkness observed today deeper than the darkness in the past? Is the abyss facing today more helpless than the abyss facing in the past?

The answer is no.

Darkness has always existed, and it has always been so deep, and the abyss has always existed. There has never been a time when people feel that the distance has been reduced.

So, what "Gaochuan" could do in the past, and what it can do now. There is no difference.

That's just going forward.

It's only going forward.

No matter how the "truth" changes, how the "reality" changes, how many illusions are produced, and how many situations are illusions and illusions, and even whether oneself is crazy or regressing. Did you fall into a trap? In the face of the spirit of "forward", the essence is the same. Precisely because of the darkness in front of me, it seemed that every step I took, I would fall into the abyss, I couldn't see the direction at all, and it seemed that every place was a direction, and everywhere was vicious that human wisdom could not determine. So, even the way forward. It is no longer important.

The only things left in "Gaochuan" are "forward", "love" and "dream".

I am only advancing with these emotional things, and I will not stop and regret the past just because of a "desperate truth".

So, Dr. Ruan Li's judgment was wrong. I don't think "I shouldn't" just because of what I see right now and what I wrote in the diary. Even the "truth" at the moment. My plan is still possible.

Virus and Jiang...

I breathed and felt calmly. Ridiculously, thinking stupidly. What I have, what I know, what I can understand, and what I want, all sorted out in my mind.

I visit the ward. I confirmed my time period on the calendar. I was in a coma in a nightmare, and woke up in the "reality" of the repeater world, a total of two days have passed. In the past two days, whether it was the situation in the Peninsula Mental Hospital or the situation in the nightmare. They are bound to deepen. The foreshadowing of the cyberball and the "deviations" caused by the members of the Torchlight will definitely make the situation worse. Even if "deviation" is regarded as a necessary part of all changes in the current context, then my situation is of course affected by "bias."

The power displayed by the torchlight here does not make any party more profitable. Perhaps from a local situation, one party may think that he has an advantage, but in my eyes, based on my own situation, With this "truth" of forced cognition, it can be concluded that the doomsday process has not only not been eased, but has accelerated. And the final form of the doomsday is probably not even thought of by Doomsday Truth, and it is completely inconsistent with the doctrine and extended thoughts of Doomsday Doomsday that I currently recognize.

Doomsday Truth does indeed regard "doomsday" as truth, but they still have their own definition of "doomsday", and at the same time, they also have their own ideas about "the way of doomsday". The "doomsday" of the Doomsday Truth sect seems to be rational and pure, but there is still a part of it that is full of "humanization". Even if it is a negative performance, it is also a humanized negative. Perhaps these negatives may be further distorted, but their essence still contains people's thinking, wisdom, wisdom, and prayers. That is the limitation that must be possessed by being a person or having been a person, and the imprint left in the concept.

In this case, what they can think of, the "doom" they want to promote, must be because of the existence of "virus", and the inevitable apocalypse is essentially different.

I cannot tell the essence of the difference, but the essence of the difference can already be determined. Because of the difference in nature, when the doomsday process of the "virus" reaches its end, its expression and content absolutely do not conform to the ideas of Doomsday Truth, and even the ideas of the various mysterious organizations of human beings at the moment. , Are completely different.

In this case, it can be considered that the current situation is neither controlled by anyone nor represents the advantage of a mysterious organization. On the contrary, it is just in line with the trend of "virus" development.

The only beneficiaries are "virus", or in other words, only "Jiang".

However, because "Jiang" has also benefited, there is still hope.

The seminar's research on "paradise" will still not be disturbed. The "paradise" that fits the situation of the doomsday illusion has been studied, and it is also ninety-nine percent of the time. The "deviation" of the torch light will cause the research in the seminar that still holds noble ideas to gradually produce malignant deterioration. In the “incidental” of his work, he researched things that were not in the plans and thoughts. And Dr. Ruan Li’s research is unlikely to be successful. On the contrary, the semi-finished products she produced may become an important factor in promoting the situation to develop malignantly, even if she did not intend to.

This is like a malicious fate, distorting what should be beautiful behavior.

And the next move of the mysterious organization of the parties. It is possible that through rituals, the nightmare will overlap with this peninsula, and eventually the terrifying weirdness will be pulled onto this peninsula, turning this peninsula into a battlefield. I think in this battlefield. The 51st District Council has taken the initiative to become the main attacker. They have been preparing for this for a long time. Maybe this plan was made by this organization, and a tacit understanding was reached in the mysterious mutual restraint and game of all parties.

The main force of mystery in the 51st District should be the Smoky Face, but outside the Smoky Face. I have also seen the mysterious power of the "light man" form. Combined with the situation obtained from the cyberball, it may be related to the so-called "son of destiny". Assuming that the original goal of the Nazis was to combine the alienated Youjiang with the monsters in the depths of Nightmare Las Vegas, and then generate a stronger force than the existing "ultimate weapon", then, the doomsday truth cult that has a connection with the Nazis , There should also be intelligence in this area, and then. Through cooperation in the 51st District, it is also possible to reach this part of the information from Doomsday Shinrikyo.

So. There is also more than half the possibility that the 51st District chooses to occupy the monsters in the depths of Nightmare Las Vegas.

I once judged that Dr. Ruan Li may be the controlling core of this repeater world, but it is possible for others to make different judgments. The 51st District may think that the monster in the depths of Las Vegas is the core of this repeater world. The most critical part. Not only in District 51, all who have seen the monster in advance, have experienced the "toilet talk" of this repeater world, have seen the rituals of the Doomsday Shinrikyo in the materialized area of ​​Victoria Heavy Industries, and almost pulled out from the abyss of the collective subconscious. Of the "monster" people. Everyone might think so.

After all, Dr. Ruan Li is only one of the many "well-known psychologists" in this world, and he only appears as an ordinary human researcher, and his activities have never penetrated the world in the past. Mystification process. The monster in the depths of Nightmare Las Vegas is presented to people in a unique image with a particularly strong sense of existence.

If I don't have the memory of the hospital reality, I would probably be attracted by the monsters deep in Las Vegas because of the nightmare, and ignore Dr. Ruan Li.

However, in my cognition, Dr. Ruan Li will appear here. It is indeed a more surprising situation than the existence of monsters in the depths of Las Vegas, the nightmare. Even in the nightmare of the Peninsula Mental Hospital, the old Hawk and the related deep nights appear in the same way. In this repeater world, there are too many "situations that shouldn't have happened" in common sense in the past. In contrast, what is so strange about "the nightmare there are monsters in the depths of Las Vegas"? Nightmare Las Vegas is not a normal phenomenon. It has already been judged to be a Nazi conspiracy. Then, this monster exists as the subject of the conspiracy, but it is only natural.

Therefore, when the "situation that shouldn't happen" appears, there must be some core secret.

Originally, Dr. Ruan Li’s sense of existence was obscured by other circumstances, leaving her in a relatively safe state, but now she has become an important promoter of the seminar’s research, regardless of her position or the environment. It made her unsafe. However, even Dr. Ruan Li, who has now shown importance, is still concealed by more conspicuous mysteries. Not only Dr. Nguyen Li, but even Marceau, one of the patients, has been concealed by the side effects caused by the new drugs. Although Marceau was hurt as a result, it was certainly safer to show a different side than she had been under the light of "exception".

For me, these are all good news.

Doctor Ruan Li said that he would take care of Marceau. If there are no particularly huge changes, there should be no surprises. If Dr. Ruan Li can be with Marceau and have been busy in the laboratory, it is one of the best developments for me. Before the abnormality that spread to the entire mental hospital develops to a level that can be recognized by Dr. Ruan Li, all my actions in response to the mysterious incident will be acquiesced as a manifestation of morbidity, and I will not be trusted. Therefore, even if Telling Dr. Ruan Li about these so-called "truths" and my prediction of the situation now has no effect.

And I can’t forcefully suspend Dr. Nguyen Li’s behavior. Many patients, including Marceau, need Dr. Nguyen’s research and medicine, even if Dr. Nguyen’s research will become a “deviation” One of the important factors that promote the development of research in the direction of malignancy. However, based on my understanding of Dr. Ruan Li’s identity in this repeater world, I still believe that the effects of the drugs developed by Dr. Ruan Li can probably be maintained. A certain degree of improvement.

Because it cannot be stopped, and in some sense, it should not and cannot be prevented, Dr. Ruan Li’s situation can only be let go for the time being, focusing on actions against other mysterious organizations.

I still decided to stop the nightmare, the mysterious organizations of various parties want to take advantage of the operation of the deep night. Its purpose, of course, is not simply to stop them, but also to verify the "deviation" of the torchlight. In the Peninsula Mental Hospital, I cannot interfere with the seminar, so I cannot verify this "bias" here. The "inside news" that other people, including Dr. Ruan Li, brought me was not enough for me to thoroughly understand the internal situation of the seminar. On the contrary, I can actually participate in the nightmare, so I have a stronger ability to interfere and a more direct observation angle of the situation in the nightmare.

On the other hand, kill the weird in a nightmare, and it will turn into ashes and be absorbed by Mageweave. These ashes, gray fog, and magic patterns themselves are a kind of existence between spirit and matter. Even in the nightmare of consciousness, the power gained by magic patterns is also possible in relative reality. in use. It can be said that there is no absolute difference between the material state and the ideology for the magic pattern and the gray mist.

I can maintain my own enhancement in different environments by fighting in the nightmare.

Thinking about it this way, returning to the nightmare is like entering the world of the "doomsday fantasy" in the past apocalyptic fantasy. The only difference is that in the past apocalyptic illusion, such an experience will lose the memory, but now it can maintain the memory when entering and leaving the nightmare.

Think about it now. Actually, I don’t know when it will start. The limitation of memory cannot be maintained when entering and leaving the "extraordinary environment". It is no longer so rigid. Perhaps it is my own special reason, and it is also possible that for most mystery experts, as their activity level increases, they will gradually become adaptive. However, the Netball not long ago specifically mentioned that if you enter and leave the ruling bureau ruins, you will also lose your memory, but you can use some specific methods to convert this part of your memory into pure information for preservation.

I thought about it for a long time, but the weather outside the window showed no clear signs. I don't know how long it took, and I suddenly realized that my thinking had spread to some areas that were irrelevant to the current situation~IndoMTL.com~ and suddenly came back to my senses. I heard the metal rubbing, and I looked up and saw the old-fashioned wall clock on the wall. Has it always been there? I'm not sure, and its old style is a bit incompatible with this modern hospital room.

The pendulum is swaying, and the owl's eyes, amidst the lightning and thunder, seem to be turning, glowing, like a living animal.

The mysterious and weird taste seems to have increased a bit.

I squeezed my fist, and my body has completely returned to normal. I tried to calculate the pi, and my logical thinking ability also returned to normal. I stood up and moved my body, brain and body, energy and vitality, all returned to normal standards. The various side effects of the forced "truth" seem to have disappeared.

At this time, I suddenly realized the quietness of this ward. The corridor is also quiet, so that people can't help but have an illusion: the building and the area around the building are plunged into a strange silence.

As it should have existed, more patients, nurses, doctors, and experts have all lost signs of activity.

My chain judgment expanded in the silence. (To be continued...)