Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1440: On the empty building alone

Dr. Ruan Li proposed that "Paradise" can defeat "Black Water". Although she said many theoretical reasons, I am very clear that there are still many key points that need to be resolved in order to truly accomplish this. …, whether it is from the perspective of "the collective subconscious illusion caused by white Claudia" or the "mystery composed of more than four billion people", black water means an incredible power. Even if Dr. Ruan Li described the "paradise" as a virus-like medicine that needs to be injected into the black water and work, it is definitely not a problem that can be injected with an ordinary syringe.

I have been maintaining the observation of chain determination. Although the observation of surrounding things has been reduced to a very low value under the interference of data hedging phenomenon, the observation results of Dr. Ruan Li’s physical reaction activity still let me Feeling abnormal. Before the trip to the underground river, Dr. Ruan Li was a very healthy and normal person. However, after experiencing the underground river incident, the results of her observations began to fluctuate. This ups and downs cannot be transformed into a more detailed one here. Data, but it directly expresses a certain unknown premonition in my feelings.

I think Dr. Ruan Li’s body is just like being ill, and it’s not a condition that can be cured by common sense. Although Dr. Ruan Li was calm on the surface, she did not avoid the remarks that "she has been eroded by the white Claudia". What's more, she injected herself with drugs in front of me. However, no matter whether her situation is "white Claudia's erosion" or some other reason, the observation of her body in the linkage determination gives me a feeling of deteriorating.

It's as if the condition is getting worse and worse, and it seems that even the time of death can be predicted.

Yes, I think Dr. Ruan Li will die if you let it go. This premonition of death is so strong. When she made the decision to return to the mental hospital, this premonition of death made my heart so heavy that I couldn't breathe. Dr. Ruan Li’s words and deeds are like those who have a belief in death, who have to decide to perform a certain mission before they die, or in other words, under the awareness of their inevitable death.

But. How can I stop her? What reason and position do I have to stop her? I can't relieve her pain, can't change her status quo, can't cure her injuries. The meaning of this repeater world to her is completely different from what it means to me. This is not a question of the angle of observation, but a completely different weight in the mind. Everything in this world is unique to her, just as heavy as the doomsday illusion weighed on me when I had not yet gone to the hospital for reality. And even if you know the actual existence of the hospital. This weight seems to weaken, but it is still at a ghostly moment, above any observable world.

To this day, I still think of the people and things in the past apocalyptic illusion, and feel pain and hesitation for them. Everything that has completely disappeared will be in a corner of my thoughts, and will whisper quietly in my dreams. Thinking that I alone can prove the existence of that world, I can't help feeling a kind of suffocating sadness. And the only thing that can relieve this sadness and pain. There are only fighting and "Jiang", in the new doomsday illusion that familiar, with the same name and surname, is full of everything that has the sense of sight, and more often, it is just uncovering the **** scars.

What the doomsday fantasy of the past means to me. Just as what this repeater world means to Dr. Ruan Li in front of me. We are similar, so I understand her, and because I understand her, I cannot stop her. I have smelled an unknown smell and heard the footsteps of death. The pain, grief, loss, struggle, determination, and resistance of Dr. Ruan Li’s activities have given me a glimpse of myself in the past.

However, Dr. Ruan Li is not Gao Chuan. If she is dead, she cannot be reborn. She also doesn't have multiple personalities. The death of her in this repeater world must also imply that Dr. Ruan Li in the hospital is in misfortune. I don't have much evidence, but I believe in my intuition and the relevance of this repeated reconstruction of the doomsday illusion to the reality of the hospital.

And I can only watch this happen. In the face of the unknown fate that I have already felt, even if I have gained the power of the fourth-level magic pattern, I still feel that I am so small.

I asked myself, what can I do for Dr. Ruan Li? Is there really no way to save her? In the past, these questions always have an ambiguous answer, there will always be a retreat, a possibility of success, even if this retreat is tortuous and dangerous, even if the possibility is low. However, facing the same problem now, my thinking and intuition have not given any way out, and there is no possibility of any ambiguity.

From now on, any decision made by Dr. Ruan Li is based on an unalterable destiny-she is going to die.

No one knows the pain in my heart. I don’t want Dr. Ruan Li to see my pain, my weakness, and all my human fragility, because, I think, that will only increase Dr. Ruan Li’s burden and pain. I pretended to be calm, buried all my thoughts deeply in my thinking about the plan, turned myself into a cold person, and insisted on using her last strength and resistance as a bargaining chip. If I feel that I am ugly, inferior, inhuman, and for granted, if others think that I am such a person, it can make me feel forgiven.

However, as in the past apocalyptic fantasy, I already knew myself. When I see those touching and tearful storylines, I will pretend to be a cold posture, close my heart, and contain all those fragile actions that seem to expose myself. I watched the cry of others coldly, and used various reasons to describe the blood of the story, while ignoring the warm and human nature of the story itself. Just because, I don't want to cry.

The same is true now. I still don’t want to cry. To be more precise, I don’t want to be an unreliable, thin, mentally fragile child in the last life of Dr. Ruan Li.

I took Dr. Ruan Li to the psychiatric hospital. I felt like a piece of burning iron in my heart. It blocked my heartbeat, my throat, my face and tear ducts. All the soft water and blood evaporated in an instant, leaving only the dry and withered nerves.

I am so painful, so sad. However, when facing this pain and sorrow, there is a force to support this dry body and spirit.

Doctor Ruan Li's calm expression, as if nothing happened. I don't know what she thinks, what kind of emotions fluctuate in her heart. But I just want to let her complete the battle she chooses according to her own will.

I crossed the fence and passed through the barbed wire. Along the way, weirdness changes from the trees, and things that are like beasts but not beasts rush to us. In the rain and ashes, it seems that there is an illusion and something that cannot explain its situation. They are scary. It is shocking. When you think it is an illusion, you will be torn apart by them. When you feel the danger and evade in a hurry, they are like a blue smoke, a mirage, all disappeared before contact.

The data of peninsula and peninsula overlap, and the reshaped peninsula is unfamiliar. It is unstable, a place that looks like a cliff. Even if you step in the air, you can feel the invisible flat ground, the seemingly flat ground, maybe once you set foot, you will step into the empty place and fall straight to the bottom of the abyss. It looks like a hollow underground, but no one knows what exactly exists in the dark depths. It's a cave, it's magma, or it's nothing, it's just a darkness that swallows everything.

I covered Dr. Ruan Li’s eyes. I don’t want her to see these malicious mysteries. Since she thinks. All mysteries are the result of the erosion of white Claudia. Then, the more mysteries she sees, the more she will think that she has become ill. Mystery is something that I'm accustomed to, but for Dr. Ruan Li, it's just a mistake, a poison. Perhaps for others, letting Dr. Ruan Li witness the mystery is a kind of "treatment", a process of letting her understand the nature of the world, but I know that this is not what she really wants to see.

The reason why I know is that mystery is no longer what I want. I used to fantasize about a mysterious existence, but now that it becomes a natural existence, I no longer have the joy of the first contact. Because I have seen too many tragedies caused by mystery. Mystery can cause miracles, and I must seek mysterious miracles now, but this does not mean that I am still complacent about the existence of mystery and feel that it must be something unique and good.

Mystery is not good, nor is it bad. In the second half of my life, all joy and sadness, luck and misfortune, are all brought by mystery. I told countless others that none of this was what I wanted. On the contrary, I did gain and lose a lot in this process. For me, this is my life as Gao Chuan. However, I have also thought about it, if there is no mystery, if I have not been involved in the toilet talk at the beginning, and nothing will happen afterwards, then, such a world, such me, would be happier than I am now?

I know that it's silly to think so, and I can't get the answer, but I still can't help but think about it.

While thinking, I used the fourth-level magic pattern to condense the aftermath of the data hedging into a sawtooth knife, swinging under the blood moon, cutting off all the weird people who attacked madly, no matter what they are. The real or the illusory, and then quickly passed through the cut gap. Weird handed out his minions to me, and I cut off their heads. If they had no heads, I would cut off their bodies and pierce their seemingly vital parts. If they haven't disappeared, I disappeared from between them, throwing them far behind with the speed of swift.

I climbed over cliffs, stepped on puddles, and jumped up from the empty ground. When the blood moon became completely clear, he stepped into a group of buildings scattered in the mental hospital. I don't know the purpose of this group of buildings, but the walls are so dirty and decadent, full of graffiti, and full of foul language. There are neurotic voices occasionally appearing in the ears, and you can look around, but you can't see anyone's existence, and you can't feel anyone's movement. There is also dead silence here, but in this dead silence, there are faintly invisible things about to move around, and its gloomy is enough to give birth to a retreat.

"Are you there?" Dr. Ruan Li asked, just as I was about to put her off my back.

"Here." I removed her covering cloth. With Dr. Ruan Li’s calm expression, she couldn’t see her attitude towards my behavior, but maybe she no longer paid attention to these trivial demands. She didn't even look at the sawtooth knife in my hand, but from the fluctuations in her eyes, I knew very well that she could see this weapon made with temporary data to hedge the aftermath.

Dr. Ruan Li observed the shape of these buildings and said to me, “It’s not here. When we might be able to find a map here. The backup of the seminar’s data will not be placed in the headquarters, but no one understands the seminar better than I do. Style. I have a feeling that as long as there is a floor plan of the mental hospital, I know where the materials are hidden."

"A clue?" I couldn't help asking.

"No, it's intuition." Dr. Ruan Li said.

However, there was a strong feeling at this time, prompting Dr. Ruan Li and I to raise our heads and look up at the place where the blood moon appeared. A hazy figure is like a moon shadow, and like a thin cloud layer, standing in front of the blood moon, it seems to jump out of the blood moon, and slowly fall towards the ground. It is so slow, but it is not slow, just a few breaths, you can already see a clearer outline-it is like an upright beast, slender, but not fragile, on the contrary There is an indescribable sense of oppression.

When it appeared, ~IndoMTL.com~ seemed to have a kind of magic power, urging people's eyes to turn to it, and like a black hole, through these eyes, people's inner emotions were absorbed.

"What is that?" Dr. Ruan Li asked.

"Lunar." I said.

"So it is." Doctor Ruan Li smiled suddenly, "I didn't know in the past. What kind of thoughts and feelings A Chuan you wrote that phantom adventure story that is like the babble of a mental patient, but I I feel that I finally understand a little bit now. This is really an extremely abnormal, painful, but full of charm, making it difficult to get out of the scenery. Now, Achuan, do you like your own story?"

"...I don't know." I was silent for a moment and replied, "Perhaps I used to like it very much."

"What about now?"

"I hope there is an ending, a good ending."

Doctor Ruan Li smiled again, stroked my head, did not speak any more, turned around and walked into the building. (To be continued..)u