Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1454: Drawing

After Moon God, Alien Youjiang, Sitianyuan Gayako, Novsky, and repeater Marceau appeared one after another, Father Edward, whom I had always cared about, finally came on stage. ↑, the timing of his appearance is very delicate. Judging from the current situation, the only person who can stop him is me.

He didn't conceal what he meant. What he said about the connection between the Saya virus and Blackwater, in fact, I had already guessed it a long time ago, and it was only confirmed at this time. It's just that, in his smiling and relaxed expression, the indifference shown in him makes people feel cold.

In his mouth, the dead in this repeater are like trophies. In fact, I also understand that this is also true for many mystery experts, but the only ones who really regard the entire world of repeaters as raw materials and take action are him and Sitianin Kana. I can understand why they think so, and I can find reasonable reasons for their various behaviors to stand on their side, but this does not mean that I approve of such thinking. I admit that when I don’t approve it, it’s not rationality that predominates, but it’s almost all perceptual and subconscious negation.

Because, if you are from the perspective of the doomsday illusion, you can treat the repeater world as a matter of course. Then, from the perspective of the hospital reality, can you not treat the doomsday illusion with a similar attitude? It is true that few people in the doomsday illusion know the existence of the hospital reality, however, this is not the reason that the doomsday illusion is a reality, and the repeater world can be completely denied.

At least, I can't admit this attitude. If I admit it, it's like denying my efforts in the world of doomsday illusions and repeaters.

I have long been unable to distinguish where the dividing line between reality and illusion lie, because, in my story, they are entangled with each other, affect each other, and give feedback to each other. Just like the two sides of the Mobius ring, like a suggestive tail-biting snake. In many cases, I can't judge those extreme and cruel methods. From the perspective of the interaction of multiple worlds, is it right or wrong?

However, there is only one thing that I have always insisted on. If you kill someone, you must shoulder this responsibility. And can't regard the other party as an illusory existence. Just like what happened in this repeater world, Sitianyuan Kayako turned the people here into black water. When this behavior is related to the doomsday fantasy and even the reality of the hospital, whether it is right or wrong, I can’t be accurate. Judgment, but when she did so, she didn't regard these people as real people. This attitude was the most difficult for me to accept. Now, when it comes to Father Edward's attitude, I think the same way.

At this moment. I finally understand that when I once had the idea of ​​"reconstructing the entire repeater under the consequences of the possibility of the collapse of this repeater world", when I was in the deepest night, borrowing the doomsday truth. When preaching to the residents of the gathering place to comfort them in despair, what was the difference between the self at that time and the truth of the day?

The doomsday truth cult regards the end as the truth. From an ideal point of view, it may not be completely wrong; they either actively or passively rush to life. Promoting the doomsday, perhaps from the perspective of the hospital reality, it can be regarded as the reason for their existence, and it cannot be called an error rationally. I have had the same extreme thoughts. I have used similar methods, in those desperate environments, in the signs of doomsday, in the pain of eternal relief, any negative emotions, and many of my practices. It can also be regarded as unscrupulous.

However, the attitude toward "people" is exactly the difference between Doomsday Truth and me.

Leave aside the concepts of reality and illusion, and treat everyone I meet as human as possible. This is the bottom line I have always insisted on. Even for those crazy believers in Doomsday Truth, I have always tried my best to treat them as a person, or a desperate and crazy person, or a stubborn and superstitious person, or a self-defeating person. Use human behavior to analyze their behavior, use human psychology to understand their inner changes, and capture their lives with the concept of "killing". Either way, I rarely regard them as illusory existences. Even if they are called "monsters", the concept of "monsters" is still based on the concept of "people".

Apart from the "ultimate weapon", any existence called a "monster", to me, is not just an alienation or extension of human beings.

However, I may be too accustomed to such a bottom line and forget it. In fact, there are many things that look like humans and don’t treat themselves as human beings. There are also many people who insist on their beliefs and don’t treat others as human beings. .

Whether it is Father Edward, who appeared at this time, or the Kayako from the Four Heavens Court, at least it is the second kind of person. They may have their own ideals and persistence, and have things they must do, but they also regard people as pure "resources" for these reasons, rather than being the same life as themselves.

I suddenly wanted to understand that the story of the ruling bureau ruins that appeared in this doomsday illusion did not imply the behavior of using people as raw materials, but rather an attitude of using people as raw materials to make ashes. Fog, the gray fog technology produced, is merely a performance under this attitude, not its essence.

And what I have seen and experienced happened in the hospital reality, the doomsday illusion and the world of repeaters. Those curves of fate that are gradually approaching the doomsday, those plots and results that are full of sense of sight. So there is a feeling of "all the world lines converge to the same end", precisely because behind those tragedies, no matter how many reasons, conspiracies and coincidences, are not the most essential reason. What really leads to all this is the attitude of not seeing yourself as a person or seeing others as a person. Perhaps, the emergence of this attitude can be explained by various reasons. However, there are always many reasons, but it promotes the result. It has always been behavior under a certain attitude.

In the reality of the hospital, the "virus" makes people alienate the disease, and the patient constitutes the "doomsday illusion." The doomsday illusion reincarnates. At a certain stage, a mental integration device and a personality preservation device were produced, and this was born again. Repeaters and the world among repeaters. This process implies the process of deterioration of the disease, the instinct of physical abnormality, personality fission and self-saving of life, but in fact, the most essential driving force among these changes is the alienation of thought and attitude.

Patients with doomsday syndrome will continue to deepen one after another. In the situation of constant despair, because of physical and mental deterioration, alienation of thoughts and attitudes occurs, which prevents them from being physically liberated. Nor can we get the source of liberation from the spirit.

The doomsday syndrome will produce various complications, but these complications may be difficult to cure, but what really makes people feel that the doomsday is coming is actually the gradual changes in thoughts and attitudes that occur in these diseases. There may be medicines to treat physical diseases. However, the alienation of the heart is irreparable.

The really scary thing about "virus" is not that it can cause people to collapse, cause various mental illnesses, and make people unable to distinguish between reality and illusion, and is hopeless. It does not lie in its infectious, latent and unobservable characteristics, but lie in the fact that when people are faced with terminal illnesses such as "cancer", they can still face them with a strong heart and not save the remaining lives. Seen as desperate as doomsday. When the "virus" strikes, it is difficult for patients with doomsday syndrome to do this. On the contrary, those seemingly strong wills and stubborn beliefs seem to become the source of despair and the driving force of inner alienation.

I don't know how complicated the "virus" is to make every patient feel that "the end is coming", but this kind of desperate mentality is the result of alienation. It is reflected in almost every patient. Compared with most patients, "Gaochuan" is a special one not only physically, but also psychologically.

When I want to understand these things, I can no longer tell what kind of emotion I am at this time. I feel like my heart is like a calm lake, but under this lake, I am violently rioting and rolling, because it is too turbid and too hot to distinguish fine things. I'm just silent. Repressed and silent, the mask covers my face and my heart.

I have never blamed anyone, nor did I resent anyone. More often, I was just pure anger, pure sadness, and purely disapproving of certain people and things. However, this attitude is probably just a kind of stupidity in front of other people.

The behavior and attitude of Sitianyuan Jiayu and Father Edward make me angry, but what makes me sad is that my thoughts can only represent myself. What I saw and thought, only I would agree with it. I regard them as human beings, on the basis of human beings, as "monsters", but in their eyes, in addition to themselves, perhaps even themselves are just a "resource" to realize their desires and ideas. . This difference in thinking and attitude is the reason why I couldn't integrate into them, and they also rejected me in the end. If all patients with doomsday syndrome will become like this, then whether it is the doomsday truth teaching or whether it is pushing the doomsday or rejecting the doomsday, it is just that the direction and means of action are different, but the nature of the action that promotes and guides the action, In fact, they are all the same.

Therefore, it is not only the Doomsday Truth Sect, but also an important material to promote the doomsday, and other mysterious organizations and mystery experts are also one of the materials to promote the doomsday. Therefore, from the past to the present, the interactions between the various mysterious organizations and the various seemingly good efforts are actually impossible to prevent the doomsday. On the contrary, it makes people feel that their actions are promoting the doomsday, and they are deeply trapped in it. In the desperate alienation. In the end, the mysterious expert will also become a member of the doomsday truth sect.

What seemed like a very complicated situation, suddenly became clear and organized, as if the incomprehensible and extremely mysterious situations encountered in the past have lost the veil of concealment.

Fr Edward couldn't see through the anger and sadness in my heart. He seemed to have some kind of misunderstanding about my silence.

"Discuss with you." He said, "If you don't do anything, you can make me and Sitianin Kayako into enemies. You know, no one will spit out fat in their mouths willingly. Besides, they have already swallowed this piece of fat and were dug out from their stomachs."

Although it seems reasonable, it is actually the most idiotic and meaningless nonsense he has said since I met him. Indeed, the value of Blackwater is sufficient to trigger confrontation between the two sides. However, since their thoughts and attitudes are essentially the same, the possibility of compromise and cooperation is the highest. On the contrary, if you are fundamentally opposed to them, you can even say that I am out of place, and in the end, I will still be the enemy they work together to target.

Fr Edward took away part of the black water of Sitianyuan Kaya, and Sitianyuan Kaya alone occupied all the black water. Which one is worse? Compared with the commonality that they will inevitably promote each other, the conflict caused by Blackwater is trivial.

I don't want Father Edward to get black water at all, even if he grabbed food from the Kayako in Sitianyuan and calculated the 51st district. Moreover, he said earlier that Sitianyuan Kayako had already left the peninsula. Whether this situation is true is still open to question. Even the place where the Moon God would be imprisoned, even if Sitianyuan Kayako is an extremely important combat power, it does not mean that it will be easily released, and her own ability can really leave the peninsula without knowing it. ?

The timing and purpose of Father Edward's appearance are very subtle, and this subtlety is not deliberately created. I can't be sure how true the information he brought is ~ IndoMTL.com ~ I can't confirm it one by one at this moment. There are not many things I can do, and it is very simple, just like the initial determination, no matter who comes up, all will be defeated, and only when all of them are defeated can we make a complete plan. In this way, it doesn't really matter who is the first to go up, and which one is followed by the goal.

The fight against Sitianyuan Kayako is to fight against Father Edward. Of course, it is impossible to solve it with just one mouth. Father Edward wanted to say a few words casually, so I let me sit and watch him absorb the black water. Such words, thoughts, and behaviors completely subverted the impression that I had accumulated about him before.

I think Father Sisson would not say such things. Of course, if he did, it can only be regarded as that he was indeed deeply influenced by Father Edward.

I was silent, and the black water on the ground fell into a strange silence, as if it was gestating something more terrifying, but its disappearance was also an opportunity for me to turn the blade to Father Edward.

I put the blade upright and held it to my chest.

Father Edward sighed when he saw this, and said, "Kick the stone violently, and your feet will hurt." His body suddenly swelled. (To be continued.)

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