Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1486: In front of the window

I don’t know what’s going on in the hut where I and Dr. Ruan Li are located. Looking out from the house, it seems that the whole peninsula is still in a storm, rather than being a temporary data hedging space. My impression of the peninsula and the feeling it brings to me are strangely incompatible. I don’t know which scene I see before me, which one is real and which one is unreal, or where this cabin is located is a special space in the entire Las Vegas repeater, and this The space exists only because Dr. Ruan Li is here.

However, I didn’t feel entangled about this, because in the mysterious world, there are many people who even rack their brains, imagine, exhaust all of their own roots, and exhaust the crystallization of modern human science and civilization. The phenomenon. In many cases, looking at it with idealistic philosophy and speculating with the concept of pure spiritual world, on the contrary, it can give people a more thorough feeling-but even this kind of thoroughness will make people feel impossible at some point. Explain the reason.

To treat all puzzles as "mystery" and use the concept of "mystery" to describe one's own ignorance can always make people feel confused and less desperate.

Doctor Ruan Li is here, and I also exist here, no matter how weird it is, it is more like a safe and peaceful sanctuary than other places. Of course there are secrets, but I am not looking for these secrets.

My conversation with Dr. Ruan Li did not stem from having to figure out my own situation, but because she always gave me an urgent feeling that she wanted to tell me about these things. She let me know that she is a patient. She repeatedly emphasized that I am a patient and I know very well that what she wants to talk about next is still "Gaochuan is a patient." If this is the first time I have listened to this concept, I will certainly resist it. But now, I think that if I can listen to what Dr. Ruan Li said, it will bring myself a sense of "daily" peace.

I know exactly what she said. It's for me. But my listening is for her.

Doctor Ruan Li needs an audience, and I am her only audience in this world. Before I save anything, this is the only thing I can do for her.

I am sitting right across from Dr. Ruan Li. It's like a mental patient who is questioned by a psychologist.

In this unknown hut, there is a sense of sight that is full of sight. Amidst the layers of weirdness and gloom, there is a tranceful warmth.

"The erosion of White Claudia can give people hallucinations, but these hallucinations have a complex reality basis. They are the information that the individual has, the information that the individual receives in real time, and the interaction between people. Information, information that interacts between man and nature. It even includes information generated by Claudia White’s own activities. This kind of information is the result of a complex and orderly combination on the subconscious level. This combination is purposeful Yes, based on the understanding of life sciences, it can also be regarded as beneficial to White Claudia for the time being." Dr. Ruan Li's voice became very clear, "This is understandable, right? A Chuan. "

I nodded.

"Then, suppose we can filter and strip the constituent information from this complex result in some way. Theoretically, we can present the information from the white Claudia. Take a step back, since the patient The hallucinations produced are the result of the comprehensive composition of information, so. Among so many hallucinations, there must also be some hallucinations in the composition of information. Information from Claudia White occupies most of the hallucinations." Dr. Ruan Li said so.

I think she is justified. Putting it on the "virus" of the hospital reality, this set of theories can be used to some extent, no. It should be said that a large part of the actual research on "viruses" in hospitals is actually based on this theory. Because, there is also a doctor Ruan Li in the hospital. Of course, there is a deep connection between her and the doctor Ruan Li in front of me, and the ideas between them are also in a certain sense.

It is precisely because the hallucinations seen by the patient reflect not only the patient’s own information, and this information is not true, so that such a shared and huge world can be formed, because such a world , The essence is the network of information interaction, in which there must be the information of the culprit itself. More precisely, starting from the simplest cognition, pathogen information should also be the most critical guiding part.

“Therefore, being able to see hallucinations also means having the basis for access to this part of the information.” Dr. Ruan Li said: “The scary thing is not hallucinations, but not even hallucinations. There is no possibility of contact. Under the condition of sex, it is so helpless to die. The reason why the seminar studies the paradise is to be able to enter the patient’s hallucinations in a more active way while keeping oneself normal, to understand the information that exists in these hallucinations. And further feedback, parse out that part of the information about Claudia White."

If the name of "White Claudia" in her words is replaced with the name of "virus", it is almost the mechanism of observation of the doomsday illusion by Dr. Ender and others in the hospital reality. However, the hospital reality has a ready-made "doomsday illusion". Although there is no such drug as "paradise", there are also other drugs, and even "Gaochuan" and "color center" can be directly connected to the "doomsday illusion." "The subject.

The real researchers in the hospital want to figure out the secret of the "virus", which is completely compatible with the doctor Ruan Li and the seminar who want to figure out the secret of "White Claudia".

"I was prepared for being eroded by white Claudia, and I had no resistance to seeing Heishui and the woman you call Sitianyuan Jiacoco." Dr. Ruan Li said, "Because, In a sense, I saw the hallucinations that only you could see in the past, which means that I have gained access to Claudia White-of course, provided that I will not become like other patients. Completely lose the ability to distinguish between reality and illusion."

I am silent about this, because I am not sure whether this approach is right or wrong. Even from the perspective of Dr. Ruan Li, her being eroded by Claudia was not voluntary, just like ordinary people were infected during the spread of infectious diseases.

"I injected myself into Paradise." Dr. Ruan Li said, "I am quite sure that my understanding of Heishui and Sitianyuan Jiacoco is completely different from that of you, Achuan."

"I know." I said.

"No, you don't understand." Dr. Ruan Li stared at me and said word by word: "Hei Shui and Si Tian Yuan Jia coconut are just a phenomenon, a comprehensive manifestation of disease information. It is our The part that can be observed by this comprehensive information is the result of intuitive understanding. But, A Chuan, you have always thought that all people who become black water have died, and Sitianin Gaya Coconut is the cause of this huge death. The direct reason, right? You think that I saw Heishui’s despair, anger and revenge. It was the grievances and vents against Sitianyuan Kayako, right?"

She paused, and continued to say to me in a serious and sincere tone: "That's wrong, it's not like this, A Chuan. Sitianyuan Jia coconut does not exist, and black water does not exist. Their appearance , Is just a part of the information we observe, presented with illusions that we can intuitively understand, but their essence is not just that—in fact. Human beings have not become black water, but are sick, forty The billions of black water just shows that four billion people have been eroded by Claudia, and these four billion patients have not died, because the black water is still moving and still emitting the smell of disease. Four Tianyuan Kayako is not a human being, not what she looks like, a woman who has mastered the mysterious power. I think. She is the core manifestation of the source of infection. I want to deal with her not out of grievances, but to make people To recover and prevent the death of four billion people from the disease. It is necessary to eradicate the source of infection and feed back to the hallucinations, that is, to eliminate the behavior of Sitianyuan Kaya."

Doctor Ruan Li’s explanation made me react for a while, but I felt that this was the most consistent perception of her situation. Yes, when she saw Heishui and Sitianin Gaya Coconut. When she was like me, trying to leave the peninsula and encountered all kinds of incredible, I thought it would break her denial of "mystery", but in fact, she was mysterious about everything she saw, as well as black water. The observations and cognitions of Kayako and Sitianyuan did not deviate from her original logic and perspective.

"That's it, it turns out that my mother thinks so." I said, "Mom, do you think that destroying Sitianyuan Kayako means defeating White Claudia and saving the world?"

"No, maybe it's far from saving the world. But at least it is an effective counterattack against the erosion of White Claudia, I think so. Anyway, if you defeat it for four days Yuan Jia coconut can prevent a malignant disease affecting four billion people. Isn't it also a meaningful victory?" Dr. Ruan Li smiled.

All her coldness, calmness, tension, distress and confusion before disappeared in this smile. I understand her and I understand what she means. All my rhetorical questions are not only because I want to confirm, but also because I think she needs these introductions to let her deposit everything in her heart. Pour out all the brains. She used the identity of a doctor to explain the mysterious and strange conditions to me, but I also used the psychological knowledge I had to feel her heart.

Dr. Ruan Li said so much, but the content did not disturb me much. In my opinion, it is natural for Dr. Ruan Li to think so. There is a huge difference between Heishui and Sitianyuan Jia coconut in my eyes and her, this kind of thing has long been clear. For me, this smile from Dr. Ruan Li is the most precious gift from this meeting.

"You will succeed, mother." I responded with my sincerest feelings.

"A Chuan, I have an intuition. As long as I can complete the medicine for this large-scale epidemic, I will have the opportunity to cure you." Dr. Ruan Li's expression became more and more hopeful and joyful. Under the influence of Laudia, the special medicine injected to you before should be effective. Although it failed this time, as long as you figure out the root cause of your disease change, you will definitely be able to make up for it."

"Yes, I believe you can, mother." I stared at Doctor Ruan Li's smiling and confident face, but had to stand up and say to her, "But, I should go, mother. ."

The joy and smile on Dr. Ruan Li’s face solidified for an instant, and she calmly, as if she knew I would say that, said in a hard, non-defying command tone: "You said the same last time. .You always think you have to do things, but in this world, there is nothing that you have to do. I know very well what you see and what you are thinking, I never intend to blame you, because , The world you see is different. But—"

She said, stood up and came to me. She stood up straight, so I had to look up when I was sitting.

"But you are just a patient. The things you have to do, the responsibilities you think belong to you, the world you see, and the things you are trying to save, do not actually exist." Dr. Ruan Li said The top-down view is like God’s gaze into the world: “It doesn’t matter how many times you say it~ IndoMTL.com~ It doesn’t matter whether you accept it or not. I will continue to tell you: Achuan, you are just a patient. What you want to defeat is not a monster, just yourself. What you want to save is not a river, not Bajing, Sakuya, the so-called Marceau, and the invented relationship color and Dorothy, and Just yourself."

I know very well that she would say that, and her attitude has not changed no matter how long. She thinks she is right, and sometimes I think so. As she said, I am a patient, but regardless of whether I am sick or not, what I see is real or illusory. When I witness these people struggling in the end, the pain is endless. In the reincarnation, the lover who feels that he cannot escape from the infection and deterioration cannot be ignored.

I have many dreams. The biggest dream is to be a hero. Even if I can’t tell which of these disasters, doomsdays, and suffering people actually exist, even when Dr. Ruan Li in front of me told me that the battles I did were meaningless. , I also know very well that the world she observes is not the same as mine, and it is also in the process of doomsday, and my battle is not as she said, it is completely meaningless. (To be continued.)

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