Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1487: The gap between truth and illusion

Doctor Ruan Li said words that fit her identity, and these words are nothing new. She repeatedly instilled an idea to me, but I couldn't fully accept these ideas. Just like this time when I was resurrected, I kept saying that I would sacrifice everything in exchange for an opportunity, but I really couldn't calm down my heart when facing Sakiya and Hachijing, and watch the whole world collapse. Yes, no one can prove that everything I have seen is real, and the death and suffering of people I have seen here makes it impossible for me to think that everything is false.

I have my own judgments, my own perceptions, and these judgments and perceptions are all based on what I see, hear, and think. And my pain and contradiction all come from this-what I see and hear limits my scope of observation, and what I think makes me feel that I am a stupid mental patient. But even so, can I ignore the people around me struggling in such a doomsday? Can I not think about how to eliminate all the pain I have seen?

I'm just a patient. Of course, there are many things that I can't do. However, it is also a mistake to treat everything I personally experience and see with my own eyes as vain. Is it also a mistake?

The theory of Dr. Ruan Li is not surprising, and there are similar arguments in the hospital reality. Then, if the illusion contains the information that △＄ is the source of all suffering, then just treating it as an illusion and ignoring it is equivalent to giving up the last chance? If this is correct, then why does Dr. Ruan Li work with the seminar to develop the "paradise"? Why do researchers in the real world of the hospital still exhaust all methods to collect information in a so-called "doomsday illusion"?

There is no essential difference between what Dr. Ruan Li is doing and what I am doing. only. When she saw those "mysterious" hallucinations, and felt that she was eroded by the white Claudia, I was already indulged in them. She wants to enter this world that she sees as hallucinations, trying to explain these hallucinations, find the root cause of the hallucinations, and create targeted drugs. Isn't it ridiculous to ask me to escape these "illusions"?

It's ridiculous, but I don't have any reason to laugh at her, because all I feel from it is the warmth of my family. I understand that Dr. Ruan Li is the source of these contradictions, but. Just as she wants me to return to what she thinks is the right world, I also hope that she can live like this and not be involved in the doomsday.

However, such a wish may not be realized.

Because, whether you will become a patient is involuntary. In an infectious disease like the plague. So far, there is no specific medicine for prevention and treatment. "Paradise" is not a medicine used to treat diseases, but just a psychedelic drug that fights poison with poison.

"Mom. Maybe the black water of four billion people is really an illusion, but even if you observe it from a scientific point of view, it means that four billion people are in pain, and this is White Claudia brings proof of the end to the world, doesn't it?" I sat down. He raised his head and looked at Dr. Ruan Li, completely not avoiding her sharp and tough gaze, "I want to do something, it must be something I can do. Because, mom, you said that, only face it. The illusion can defeat the enemy, because the enemy’s information is hidden in the information that constitutes these illusions. I don’t have the cleverness of my mother, and I don’t have enough reason and knowledge to find the enemy from this mess of information. Really looks like, but I think—"

I took a deep breath: "As long as you defeat everything in the illusion, you can definitely cause trouble to the enemy. Because, if all of this is an illusion, then the enemy's information is also guiding the illusion. No matter what. What exactly is this enemy? It is some kind of life that actually exists, or an unpredictable anomaly unknown, but when it guides something, it must get something, and this kind of guidance will allow it to get it. The things you want to get. The doomsday exists. Whether in your eyes or in my eyes, the world is heading towards the doomsday. It is the clearest and direct commonality that exists among the huge differences. So, Mom, let me go. Let me fight, struggle, let me do my best to face the things behind the end, no matter what it is."

Doctor Ruan Li suddenly bent over and hugged me in his arms. I felt her body tremble, and I felt she was crying. As if under that rigid attitude, it was a rippling and fragile soul like water.

"Treatment is not the responsibility of the patient, but the responsibility of the doctor. You have no reason to be a hero, and I only hope that you are just Gao Chuan, not a hero." Her voice rang in my ears "I guess what you will'see' next. You will always be driven by hallucinations to do what you think you should do, but how can you be sure that it really is what you should do? What about things? This time, I will put an end to all of this."

After she said that, I felt something sharp in my neck.

"A Chuan, in your diary, you can always get a special medicine to suppress the condition in the hands of Dr. Ruan Li. Now, you will also get it. Because I am Dr. Ruan Li. The Dr. Ruan Li in your writing What can be done, the real Doctor Ruan Li in front of you can do better."

After a breath, my body was paralyzed, and then my consciousness fell into a hazy mood. I felt like I was going to be unconscious. The scattered light above my head once again turned into a water reflecting the light, and I sank into the water. , Falling continuously while unable to move.

Farther and farther away from this light-filled water wave.

In the dimness, I only hear trivial sounds: closing, moving, footsteps, machinery is running, liquid is flowing...

I'm still sinking, and there is light refraction above it, as if water waves inlaid with countless gems are rippling. The waves of ripples seem to be telling some information. I think it is Dr. Ruan Li who is talking.

Then she left with something.

Suddenly, I realized that she had actually completed the research on Heishui and Sitianyuan Kaya, and made the corresponding special "paradise". Now, she is about to set off to face that terrible monster or disease.

No! Don't be alone! Take me! Take me! ——I raised my hand with difficulty, trying to reach out the shining water surface. However, I couldn't control my sinking, I could only watch and see that I was getting farther and farther away from the surface of the water. I am being swallowed by darkness, even if, the deeper the darkness. The warmer it makes people calm.

A Chuan, we will see you again. Then, you will be well, I promise-I seem to hear Dr. Ruan Li's voice.

I opened my mouth, and my throat was filled with the influx of liquid, filling my lungs, blocking all sounds.

Countless bubbles popped up in front of my eyes, floating up.

Then. I was completely plunged into the abyss of darkness that seemed endless.

I opened my eyes vigorously, and the familiarity was full of the sense of technology and surgery-like cold texture, once again flooding my field of vision. I found myself soaking in a coffin-like container, flooding the container with liquid to make the scenery outside a little distorted. I was immersed in the liquid, but I didn't feel stuffy, but it was nothing surprising. It was not the first time I was in a similar container. This is the medical cabin. Or it may be a life-sustaining cabin, but the specific name is not important.

Why am I here? The memory quickly recalled in my mind. Get yourself in front of this container. Everything that happened, the information remaining in the vagueness, was squeezed out of the brain little by little.

I am sure I am in a coma, but how long was the last time I struggled? There is no timing here.

My awakening didn't alarm anything, I'm pretty sure. Doctor Ruan Li is no longer here.

I punched the transparent hatch hard, and a complicated light path suddenly appeared on the door. The red light spread from the direction of the place where it was hit, and the lighter the lighter the more outward, it seemed to describe the route of power dispersion and weakness. . I move forward. I bumped my head against the hatch, and the hard and strong force feedback on my forehead made me feel pain, but this pain made me more awake.

The next moment, as if to hear my call in my heart, a dark crow sprang out from the shadow in the corner and writhed in this small room filled with too many instruments. After a few turns, it was submerged in the shadow again, and when it reappeared, it had already come to me. Although it seemed to me to be immersed in these liquids, its movement was as convenient as these liquids. It is an illusion that does not exist.

Quark——

The quark turned into a cloak and wrapped me in it. As soon as I fell backward, I felt my back press against the hard and flat ground, and the coolness covered my skin. I pulled off the cloak, and the cloak turned into a crow again. The crow quark gave a soft cry and stood on my shoulder. I ignored what I was doing and looked at the room carefully. Obviously, this room is not the same as the operating room where I woke up last time, but there is also no timer.

Except for the sound of mechanical operation, there is nothing left in this room. There are no traces left by Doctor Ruan Li, her breath seems to have been bleached out. My body moves. I don't have any impression of this place, but it seems that my body knows how to leave. I subconsciously fiddling with the instrument panel of the machine. I don’t even know the meaning of these buttons, lights, and sounds. These machines don’t even have a display screen—their appearance can only be described as rugged and heavy, just like in a doomsday movie. People in China have unearthed the remains of more advanced products from a century ago, and the products are made by rough and spliced ​​pieces.

Then the door appeared and opened wide.

The body is like getting acquainted with everything in front of me, let me go out instinctively.

Stepping out with no more passages and stairs, I found myself suddenly standing in the hut where I was talking to Dr. Ruan Li before unconscious. Under my feet, behind me, there is no trace of the entrance and exit that brought me here. I feel as if I have experienced a spatial transformation and moved in an instant.

This situation can of course be called weird. From the beginning, this place and Dr. Ruan Li were full of a sense of "mystery", but it made me unable to deny that Dr. Ruan Li once sat here. Talk to me by the window. If we say that illusion and reality are intertwined, this is probably how it feels.

Doctor Ruan Li is no longer there, and the room is silent. The lights shone palely, and the figures on the ground seemed to be squirming all the time. For the first time, I noticed that there was only one window here, the window I used to look outside. There was also only one mirror, that is, the mirror that didn't show my figure.

I tried to open the window. However, the window leaves seemed to be solidified with the space, and it seemed that they were just painted, extremely realistic pictures.

I walked to the mirror and looked at the world in the mirror, once again convinced. Yes, the furnishings in the room are reflected in the mirror, but there is no sign of me. It seems to imply that I feel that the "self" that exists here is false, or that the place where I don't exist is false.

But if the self-perceived self is false, then where is the true self? If I don't exist here, then what is "here"? I touched the mirror surface, and there was a hard, smooth and cold touch, which seemed to remind me that it was real.

I came to the chair and sat down. I have searched every corner of this room and found many traces of Dr. Ruan Li's stay here, but now only these traces remain. There are many small clues that outline the scene of Dr. Ruan Li leaving this room in my mind.

She picked up the bag~IndoMTL.com~ took the medicine away, turned around and pushed the door open—however, the room I saw was tightly fenced, and the wood that served as the wall was fundamentally hard It is impossible to think that it is just a piece of wood, and there is only one window, which cannot be opened yet. What about the door of the house?

I woke up, but couldn't leave. This room is full of medicine and disinfectant, like a ward deliberately renovated into a daily home, and I am the only patient detained here.

These trivial things seem to be intricate, and can be vaguely connected to each other to form a complete outline of information. In my mind, they are constantly assembled into imaginations that look grotesque and seem reasonable at first sight.

But, I just want to leave here. I know that I can't do anything in this room.

Suddenly, the quark standing on my shoulder screamed a few times. I looked in the direction it was staring, and suddenly noticed that there was a pack of cigarettes on the coffee table not far away. I was quite sure that I checked it before. The coffee table was empty. (To be continued.)

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