Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1521: Upstream

Seasonal storms bring thick dark clouds, which makes it a bit confused whether it is day or night. Fierce battles, various supernatural phenomena, and shuttles between different dreams and data hedge spaces, all these encounters are destroying a person's sense of time. There is no longer any reference for observing the time around me. This gloomy and gloomy scene seems to last forever, even if I know clearly that just in terms of the changes on the peninsula, the elapsed time must be shorter than it feels.

I have been unable to observe the peninsula data hedging space, and I said that it will detonate there, but the timing of its action and the resulting phenomenon are uncertain. Of course, there is also the possibility that the other party is fabricating a lie to remove me from the peninsula data hedging space. However, in my personal judgment, I am more inclined to believe it than this kind of conspiracy theory. There is no doubt that sensibility occupies a huge factor in this judgment, but it is not entirely the emotion that has been in the past that dominates this judgment. Indeed, I don’t know much about this doomsday illusion, and I don’t spend much time with cyberballs. I often act as opponents, conflicts in cooperation, and cooperation in contradictions. I’m right, no, it should be said that the trust and confidence in the cyberball is based on the impression of the past to a greater extent, but even if the doomsday illusion is reconstructed, everything in the doomsday illusion still has traces to follow. The inevitability is of course meaningful, and my past impressions of cyberball are certainly not all wrong in the present.

It is difficult to believe in something.

Time keeps things changing. Friends become enemies, good people become bad people, encounters will change, emotions will also be different, and even a person's way of thinking will change dramatically. The past is not the same as the present, these great ideals must be clear to many people. Even if it is perceptually refuted, it will recognize the truth in reason. Therefore, it is necessary to transcend the difference of time, the change of the world, the change of people, and insist on what to believe. It is very difficult.

I have thought about what factors are at work in my trust. Although I can name countless reasons, I still don't recognize these reasons as the main reason. At the end of the last, after throwing away the factors that I can think about, I realized that the most fundamental factor of believing or not believing is in my own heart——▲￠style_txt; a kind of simultaneous sensibility Entangled with reason. Careful attempts and persistent persistence are nothing but the most common things in human psychology and social thinking.

What to believe is not to find a certain meaning, nor does it need to find any reason for such persistence, because the existence of this belief has its own meaning. It is the crystallization of people's own psychology and emotion, and also the result of social thinking produced in their own growth. It is not the cause. It is a result.

As for why this result is produced? This question is inherently stupid, because the answer has been revealed bit by bit in everyone's life journey so far.

Therefore, there is no need to doubt the persistence of this trust. Isn't it sad that even this insistence has to be treated with conspiracy theories? It seems that my past is entirely made up of conspiracy, and all the good and ugliness come down to conspiracy. And there is nothing that really belongs to you, isn't it very negative? And such negative thoughts are one of the biggest obstacles to the survival of a human being in human society. Isn't it ridiculous that one's own thinking hurts oneself?

So. Even when it comes to the conclusion that "everything is a conspiracy" or even "there is an invisible, indescribable and indescribable giant hand covering everything, covering the sky and playing with destiny" from reason, I do not Take this conclusion drawn from reason as your final choice. It may be correct, but it is only "maybe". It is only an alternative answer, and the right answer has always been hidden in my sensibility, those strong emotions and irrational thinking-these It is full of sunlight, even if there is so much horror and darkness around it, it is like the little firelight in the underground river.

I know very well that the answer I give myself will never be despair, madness, and endless darkness. I am willing to believe, I am willing to rely on, I am willing to lend a helping hand to others, and I am also rationally telling myself that when no one will help me, I still believe emotionally that there must be someone who loves me, and, The invisible helping hand has been extended-yes, I want a hero, but I also look forward to, who can become my hero. When I told myself that no one would come to save myself, so I had to save others, the rush of emotion was not despair, nor was it a hysterical dying struggle. I knew very well that if it was really these negative emotions. Dominating your own thoughts will definitely not make yourself sentimental, will not lead to behaviors such as "believe something", will not let yourself have expectations for everything outside, and of course you will not have the emotion of "love".

The truth is, even if I fell in love with a monster, I still have love. Even if my trust in some people will be disappointed, I will take the lead in trusting others. Even if everything can be wrapped in conspiracy theories, the answer I chose is not the answer given by conspiracy theories. I want to be a complete bad guy, but I always find various reasons in my actions to excuse myself, so that I can't become such a cold person. I want to treat everything that is right in front of me as an enemy, but in my heart, where is there so much hostility? I complained about this doomsday and painful world, but even when facing death, I never gave up on it.

I am such a person.

Gao Chuan is such a person.

I think so, the body that has been suffering from pain and pain, once again gushes out a force, making the heart beat more forcefully, squeezing out the blood forcefully, and rushing along the entire blood vessel network. As a result, my tired spirit was refreshed, and my footsteps became firm again. I feel refreshed from head to toe, and I have the energy to keep going. It seems that the complex and exhausting emotions and psychology that have just left the peninsula data hedge space are like snowflakes melting under the shining of the sun.

What will happen next, what should I do, how to plan to carry out, etc., these things have not yet a complete idea. But--

"There will always be a way." I said to myself.

There will always be a way.

There must be a way.

Although there are so many situations, everything is not good, maybe my efforts will not be rewarded, the enemy is so terrifying and powerful, the situation is so abnormal and crazy, and he will die in the end. Even death became uncertain, as if only unimaginable malice remained. However, it doesn't matter, there is always a way.

Maybe I can't help it, but there will always be others who can. Maybe I can't help myself now, but maybe I can help myself in the next moment. When nothing is uncertain, it is desperate and dark, but there will always be a certain moment. It can't be so ambiguous forever. Therefore, when things come to an end, there will always be a way.

I'm talking to myself like that. Through the woods, through the storm, to the outline like a behemoth—familiar architectural layout, familiar taste, familiar color and looming and unbelievable illusion. The sick buildings of the mental hospital, although not those places in memory. However, as long as the things are still in the mental hospital. It is impossible to be unfamiliar.

The things pouring out of my heart, those mixed emotions and thoughts, are so full of instant sense. Even if it is not a familiar place in memory, it makes me feel as if I have been here a long time ago.

I pushed open the door of the main hall, and of course no one was seen inside, according to the actions of Sitianin Kayako. Not only the peninsula, even if the entire repeater world is calculated, there are not many remaining human beings. However, I also didn't see any traces of black water. After the black water flows away, there may be no droplets left behind. However, this place has not even been corroded at all. Not only this building, but on the road before arriving here, there is no sign of being corroded by black water, just like the black water that I have previously recognized is really just a "nightmare." , People can't help thinking, maybe "more than four billion people have been transformed into black water" is just an illusion.

Of course, reason tells me that the truth is not so simple and beautiful. Although this natural peninsula is full of "normal" aura, I can still use my magic lines as a reference to find out those places that are not so natural.

It's weird here, but for mystery experts, the weird situation is no longer strange. It is very difficult to analyze the causes of these weird things, and it is difficult to get an accurate answer-to treat the existing situation as a fait accompli, which is the necessary prerequisite and default environment for solving the problem. Your actions must be based on these It is the only correct way to develop things based on things, not to pursue these basic things.

The chain judgment has been launched, reaching the standard distance of 50 meters. The details of the entire building are presented in my mind. From the constructed three-dimensional image, there is no suspicious point that is blocked, and my intuition is also Can not feel the existence of any monsters, ghosts or human beings. I seem to be the only person here, and I am the only one left on the entire peninsula.

All the electric appliances are still working, I turn on the lights. The lights make clear noises and flicker abnormally, just like the props in horror movies that have been in disrepair and set off the atmosphere. Even so, it didn't feel like being in the woods, as if there was always something in the dark with eyes watching oneself. On the contrary, it made people feel lonely and a sense of abandonment slowly coming cold. There is nothing weird about looking at your own shadow, you don't feel that there will be any monsters suddenly, changing your own shadow, or suddenly jumping out of the shadow.

Suddenly, the sound of the record player from where I didn't know made the atmosphere suddenly tense.

But for the mystery expert, it is still in the "normal" category.

Music is accompanied by human voice, the rhythm is very clear, but the pitch is very hoarse, and the human voice can't tell which country is speaking at all. It seems that the disc is scratched, errors and sound loss occur when reading, music, or vocals, suddenly jammed in a certain tone, distorted, and distorted, making people feel harsh, but the overall atmosphere is right. As far as I am concerned, it is still "okay".

The origin of music and human voices cannot be observed in the interlocking determination. Obviously, in many cases, the motion itself can be used to determine the objects of motion and relative motion through "vibration". However, it is actually quite common for the chain decision to lose its effectiveness.

My heart is not shaken by the occurrence of these abnormal situations that are seen by ordinary people, because these are all conditions that are normal for mystery experts and for a place where mystery sprouts. I collected some information in the hall and determined that the location of the building was actually very close to the edge of the peninsula, and it was indeed not the place I had visited before in this mental hospital. This building, as well as the surrounding buildings, is a place where some special patients are treated in isolation-according to the layout instructions, both doctors and patients should live here, but some employees’ notes are "There has been no patient for a long time." Coming here~IndoMTL.com~ I'm about to grow moss when I am idle."

Even so, there was no information about the patients and doctors associated with the facilities in this information, nor did they leave a clear record of the time and name of the person. It just seems from the surface condition of the object that it has been a long time in the past. In addition, what makes people worry about is that even though there is no one, the scene cannot give people the feeling of "abandoning this place for a long time". On the contrary, it is more like these employees and patients who originally stayed here have evaporated out of thin air, leaving only Various traces of life that have become antiquated.

Are these clues informative? What kind of situation will it have reference? I can't be sure. In such an environment, I have a feeling of "passively becoming an unrelated person".

The elevator is still working. However, while waiting for the elevator, the jump of the indicator light made people feel a little chilling, and there was a creaking sound, as if something was breaking, making people really want to turn their heads and leave. After entering the elevator, what you saw also gave people some unclear impressions: blood stains, rust stains, yellow-brown steel mesh exposed under the broken iron skin, even if I stood still, I felt that the elevator was shaking—even though it was a modern one. Style, but there is a feeling of antique plaything. (To be continued.)

...

...()