Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 2007: Door

I have realized that, like those "rebellious" mystery experts, I am undergoing a change from the end of my mind. My rationality is telling me little by little that the truth of the doomsday is correct and relative to them. In other words, how stupid I am.

However, I still feel that I am different from others. I never deny my stupidity, limitations, and mistakes. Although I can draw many conclusions from continuous thinking, these conclusions are not the most important to me, nor are they the ultimate guide for behavior. I am more stupid and narrow-minded than other sensible people. Therefore, no matter whether the people of the Mar Jones family are really geniuses or not; no matter whether the Doomsday Truth cult really has the ultimate correctness; no matter who opposes them, Whether my companions who have been fighting with me are stupid or smart; for me, they are not the basis for making any plans.

I just want to make the person I love happy no matter what, and no longer look like a patient who is unacceptable to them.

My rational thinking, in any case, could not give a way to achieve this result, and it was still rigorously proving that such a pursuit was meaningless and impossible to achieve, so I gave up on it.

Although I can think, there is logic, there is reason, but I give up these things.

They are working, but my behavior has taken the initiative to separate from them.

Because of being separated from them, when other people use logic to understand me with common sense, they will eventually be unable to understand me. When other people try to use "thinking" to predict me, they will make mistakes. They fear me, say that I am strong, and think that my strength comes from something that does not belong to human beings, but in fact, I feel that this is not a question of "strength and weakness", but just that we are "not on the same line."

Can love save everything? Is something so human, that reflects the limitations of human beings, really that powerful? The salvation of love looks like an innocent fairy tale, not what a mature person with normal logic should say, not a scientific reason. Whether it is to implement the doomsday truth or oppose the doomsday truth, "love" should not be the most essential need.

Yes, this is the only correct and sensible logic in their thinking.

However, I have long since given up this correct and rational logic, so this denial has lost its meaning to me.

I can give my answer anytime: Yes, love can save everything. Love can transcend everything, it has nothing to do with finite and infinite, it has nothing to do with micro and macro, it has nothing to do with science and mystery. This is not a rigorous conclusion based on rationality, but it is the ending I must follow.

"...I forgive my incomprehension, Mr. Takakawa." After listening for a long time, he said to me, "What do you want to tell me about what you said to me? What inspiration should it give me? How should I respond to you? What I want to deal with is the elementary life, what help do you say to me?"

"I tell you this, not to inspire you, not to make you respond, and there is no deep reason, probably not helpful." I replied: "It's just that I think I can deal with the end. Truth, because I think so. And if you don’t have the consciousness to achieve an irrational result, you probably won’t be able to cope with the elementary life supported by the Doomsday Truth cult. Take a step back, even if you can defeat the element. Life, ending their sacrifice, you will also find that the actual impact of this result is not as correct as you expected. Can you accept such a result?"

"No, of course not. I can't understand how the planned steps to destroy the enemy little by little can be the wrong result?" Shi is still full of doubts, "This is not logical at all."

"This is why I said these things to you." I tried to warn her and let her know the seriousness of the problem: "When faced with a situation involving the Tianmen Project, you cannot just pre-evaluate your own behavior like this Be logically correct, and use this correctness as the goal guide, otherwise, when you actually observe the heavenly plan, your spirit, your stand, your seemingly firm consciousness now, and your once Perseverance will collapse. Just like the people I have seen who eventually joined the doomsday truth cult. If you can’t understand what I’m telling you, then you must construct your own thoughts, a It is sufficient to resist the Doomsday Truth and the thoughts of those in the Mar Jones family. For you, this thought must be substantial enough to support all your actions now and in the future, without any wavering...at least to the level of Father Sisson , Even if you can’t prove it is so powerful in essence. In the world of your mind, you should be fanatical."

"...Impossible, this is too irrational. I hate any fanatics of ideas. I hate that crazy feeling." Shi showed a disgusted expression, "I thought you were not such a person, Gao Chuan. Sir. Why did you become like this?"

"Because, otherwise, I cannot support the ending I desire to see." I was not disappointed by her disgust, "If I fall, no one will come to save me, and no one can Do it. How about you? Remaining and looking forward to it, can others do what you can't?"

"I...I haven't thought about it that way." He said, and then there was a long silence. I listened to the sound in the pipe, there was no one other than us, but it was not quiet here, and the sound here was by no means the rustle that I had heard in the reality of the hospital. After the silence, it was unique here. , And the sound that was completely different from other places became louder. There is no night and day here. The light is artificially made. It spreads out from corners that do not know how far or how close. It is pale, light yellow, sometimes a bit dangerous orange-red, and there are darker and darker colors. Light and the corresponding shadow outline the outline of things, but when it falls into people's eyes, this outline will swell and deform in the mind, becoming something specious and full of fear.

The sound here is so commensurate with the scenery reflected only in human eyes, and the scene swelled in human brains. Mystery experts often say that the scenery in the ruling bureau ruins is monotonous, pale, dry and cold. However, in my eyes, even such a terrifying scenery is also full of temperature. A long time ago, I didn’t hate anyone anymore—whether it was a doomsday illusion or a hospital reality, whether it was a doomsday truth cult or a person who opposed the doomsday truth cult, whether it was ordinary people or inhumans, I would fight them. , Quarreling, fighting for life and death are never because I hate them, hate them, on the contrary, I love them deeply, I understand them, and I feel that I can understand why all kinds of must happen between each other Gamble on the conflict of life, why speak coldly, why blame and ridicule each other.

When many people hate the ugliness embodied in this kind of contradiction, I can feel the fetters between people, whether it is ugly or good, nor justice or evil, and exudes a touch of warmth. The love I feel from it cannot be shared with others, because no one believes that in the life and death contradiction, there is no right or wrong, no ugliness of human nature, but full of warmth and love.

I understand that they cannot watch all of this from my perspective, and even so, I never thought of giving up on them. Occasionally, I would fall into the mundane and narrow-minded thinking blind spot, and then use the attitude and language that I usually hate to insult, vilify and slander the guys I hate for a while. However, I have never done so. I have been happy, and every time I reflect on it afterwards, I always realize that this is the ignorance brought about by my limitations.

Over and over again, I feel warmth and love from contradictions, doing things that I also hate over and over again, treating my enemies maliciously, introspection over and over again, and feeling over and over again in which I am How ignorant and narrow. In such repetitions, I will also feel bored, but the rushing thoughts and emotions cannot be stopped, but in the repeated moods, behaviors and thoughts that seem impossible to stop as long as you are alive, you can also feel at a certain moment Intangible things that calm people.

It’s like now, in this silence, the sound that never stops in the silence—movement and sound never stop, it is physically unstable, but my heart is in their movement Calm down.

I don’t know if I can be as calm as I am at this time. I think she should calm down, even if she has just experienced a terrible sacrifice, and the future is so confused, she will definitely be like me in the past. The same, like every mysterious expert, I deeply feel that my own power is so weak and fragile, and the fetters between companions are so fragile, but we still need to rely on such power and fetters to fight those who just watch. With the growing enemy, how desperate all this is. I hope that she can calm down from this despair and confusion. If she can feel the warmth and peace that still exists in this life-and-death struggle, she can definitely break free from this despair and pain.

It is impossible to escape despair and pain completely, because no matter how strong she is here, from the perspective of the reality of the hospital, she must be just a patient. The inevitable, elusive, and unavoidable illness that will inevitably lead to the collapse of the body and mind began when she realized that she was "born", and death was never the point. Whether in the hospital reality or in the doomsday fantasy, life is like Hell reciprocates like reincarnation until it becomes completely blank. If you realize this, but cannot break free, then this life is too painful and desperate. If there is at least a moment of warmth and peace, then it will surely save a little bit in the future journey of more painful and desperate Strength and hope.

You are so young, so full of hope, ideas, and enthusiasm. It's probably different from what I only want to do to get the person I love out of this painful reincarnation. In her heart, there is a more beautiful and huge dream, and there is an idea to save more people and help more people— -In this sense, she is actually more qualified to be a hero than me.

However, I know very well how painful and desperate it is for a patient to become a hero, no matter in the reality of the hospital or in the doomsday illusion. I did that before, I fell, and I later saw more people try to do this and fell. Now there is another one, which seems to be going to do that, but I have nothing to help her, I can only pray for her-I can no longer be a hero, but this does not mean that I like to see those People who want to be heroes and qualified to be heroes~IndoMTL.com~ are all tortured to death by that crazy, desperate and painful reality. I will also feel heartache and sadness when they give up the naive and naive dream that made me feel warm in order to survive.

What can I do? I am just a stupid human being. I have lost my heroic qualifications. I just want to make the people around me happy. It is absolutely impossible for me to always show up when she needs help. I can only keep telling her what I have learned in my life, even if the limitations of people and the barriers between people prevent my words and thoughts from being conveyed to her heart, I can only do it again. Talk about it everywhere. When I said everything I wanted to express, there was only silence.

There is an end to silence. What stands in our end is the towering valve. Every screw of this crimson valve seemed to give off a dangerous smell, telling the unpredictability behind the door. The height of more than three hundred meters is like a hint, and the seemingly inadvertent lines and scars on the door are slightly mysterious. I don't think there is a smooth road behind this door, obviously I don't think so. Even so, if we don't open it, there is no other way.

I feel it, it’s like my life. Peace is always in the corner inadvertently, and when a door is opened, there are terrible enemies outside, human enemies, inhuman enemies, and material things. There are also enemies in the heart. If it’s just for your own happiness, you don’t want to open it. If you stay where you are, you can definitely feel happiness. However, if you want to make others happy and save your loved ones, you must open it.

If you say that the Mar Jones family has its own "Heaven Gate Project" and others have their own "Heaven Gate Project", then this door seems to be everywhere, but in fact it is not like this. It is mine." Tianmen".