Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 2063: Invisible battle

The key to this battle has transcended behavior and ideology, and is manifested in existence. Once it fails, it will probably completely lose its existence and become something "non-existent". I'm not sure how the elementary life and the Doomsday Truth Wizards support their own existence, but I can be sure that their own existence is supported by "Jiang"-the more at this time, this essence becomes More clarity.

I can still feel and describe my feelings, which may prove that "Jiang" is still able to do well in this situation. Although I can't sense its existence, I have observed its appearance and disappearance from the depths of the consciousness of the file before, and it feels like "fleeing" or "departing". However, it turns out that I may have underestimated "Jiang".

According to the two-sided theory of "Jiang" and "Virus", when "Jiang" is also at ease, "Virus" will certainly not fall behind.

The "virus", which has always been regarded as the ultimate enemy by itself, still has the power to fight back, and the sacrificial ritual of the Doomsday Shinrikyo still has the possibility of counterattack. Such recognition will never make people happy in the past. But at this moment, facing the indescribable foreign object, I was relieved.

It's ridiculous.

I have always felt that this battle is the battle between us patients with doomsday syndrome and the "virus". Gradually dying from the plague, the serum that can defend and eradicate the virus was studied at the cost of life.

Indeed, no matter from the hospital reality or the doomsday illusion, the essence and truth of the "virus" cannot be confirmed, and it is impossible to know how and where it exists. It seems to be everywhere, seemingly nowhere to be found. But it leaves traces in every detail. It is so powerful that it makes people desperate. It makes people unable to see the possibility of defeating it in their lifetime, and it also makes it hard to imagine how to defeat it. Even so, if this is a battle limited between ourselves and the "virus", then the scale of this battle still has a certain upper limit-although it is not known how high the upper limit is, it is certain that there is such a Upper limit.

Even if I look through my diary and think about the mystery in the doomsday illusion, from the perspective of philosophy and mysticism, I try to touch the upper limit from a metaphysical height, but it is undeniable that there must be a big one. Part of it is my delusion. My spirit and psychology have already had an extremely serious problem, and I can't judge how serious it is, and where everything I see, think, and recognize is considered "problem".

Such a result is frustrating for me personally, and it also makes people feel desperate, unable to distinguish reality from falsehood. As the saying goes, if you don’t know what’s wrong, you can’t make corrections at all. This is the problem that I urgently need to solve in this battle with the "virus", and no one can help me-except for the things that do not belong to the category of "people" in my own re-established cognition. Outside.

Even at this level, even in the cognitive world of insanity, I have expanded my cognition to a level that is not human-oriented, and it has never made me feel that the ultimate enemy of this battle is outside the "virus". Anything.

Perhaps in the eyes of others, whether it is the reality of the hospital or the doomsday illusion, there are too many unnarrated secrets, too many incredible mysteries, and dazzling people. The whole world seems to be broken, but sparsely stitched with many translucent silk threads, as if every clue, every corner, there are amazing but elusive coincidences, as if everything is accidental and bizarre. There are too many "titles", "names", "individuals" and "groups".

However, in my eyes, the world is also extremely simple at the same time-everything starts with "virus" and everything will end with "virus". Anything dazzling is nothing but "virus". The superficial phenomenon caused by the infection of things. Those things that seem to be related, hierarchical, and steps that seem to be able to distinguish strengths and weaknesses are actually different manifestations of the same essence.

However, what the deviant ritual brings overturns this idea. The situation is becoming less simple. Although I can’t say it clearly, I can deeply feel that the pathological world that has always been around “viruses” is getting in because of new factors and letting “viruses” change from everything. The center of the event broke away.

To make a superficial analogy: In the past stories, the "virus" was the protagonist of the dark line, and the interaction of our patients constitutes the main line, and among us patients, there is one that is the largest in promoting the progress of the story. The protagonist of weight. Well, now the dark line protagonist of this story has begun to change. It is not that the "virus" is no longer the protagonist, but that the "virus" is becoming "not the only protagonist". Because of this dark line change, we patients constitute " "The main line" is also undergoing a certain deviation, and even our own original weight in the story is also undergoing a certain change.

I can’t say exactly where these changes started, in what way, and what results will be achieved, but I don’t feel that this change itself is a good thing.

This change will not reduce the pressure for us and weaken the enemy, but is trying to add an enemy at least as terrible as the "virus". The dark line is becoming complicated, whether it is me, the doomsday sect or the elementary life, if we who exist in this underground hall at this moment have no choice but to take the deviation ritual, then this dark line will be established.

No matter what the "virus" wants to do, or what the people and inhumans who are infected by the "virus" want to do, will inevitably be blocked by this new dark line. I believe that not only I can feel this, but other parties including the Doomsday Sect can certainly feel this.

This battle against the deviant ritual is no longer a battle around the "virus", but a battle around the "result of the deviant ritual" in the true sense.

Because I can feel that even the "virus" will be affected and will fall from the position of the only dark line protagonist, so I feel that this battle will be more difficult than any previous battle. , And it’s even more unimaginable. It will break all the upper limits observed in the past and enter an even more incredible category.

Not only that, but there is also a more terrifying nature: it is not ourselves who decides the outcome of this battle, but the existence of "virus".

The various types of battles that we have launched here are nothing but a superficial form of entanglement between the "virus" and the "deflection ritual".

Obviously, I spared my life to fight, but the result does not depend on us. Is there anything more sad than this perception?

I understand what’s happening right now, and from the perspective of this understanding, I re-examined the guys who have been regarded as enemies, but found that I must stand on the same front with them, and in essence Belonging to the same camp-belonging to the "virus" camp.

Such a change is so unprepared, it makes people protest emotionally, and feels ridiculous, ironic, and unfair.

Even so, there is no point in resisting such a change. On the contrary, he will only feel more deeply how small and ignorant he is.

I have always relied on strong sensibility to drive behavior, but at this moment, even sensibility has begun to make me feel desperate.

Everything I know seems to stand on my opposite side-even my own rational thinking and emotional motivation.

I don't know what else to rely on besides "Jiang". If I can't rely on anything, it's a question of how to survive just by being weak. However, even if I want to regard "Jiang" as an absolute reference to measure and determine oneself, "Jiang" is the same vague thing, and even at this time, I cannot even "Jiang" exist. Felt it.

With "Jiang" as the reference object, this reference object has disappeared, and it is impossible to confirm when it will reappear.

I know that I can no longer think like this. The more I think, the more chaotic I will be, and the more I will fall into the darkness of despair. I can't even judge whether my thinking and thinking at this moment is really thinking by myself, or is it being permeated by the chaos and darkness. I know this kind of thinking is negative, but I can't stop it. These thoughts that make people feel desperate, sad, crazy, and painful are like a derailed train, rushing in a direction that greatly deviates from what you need. Every minute and every second, this "deviation" is expanding.

The past, the present, the foreign, the truths in every science, philosophy, and occult that I have read, are moving in a terrible direction, distorted by my own Thinking about mining.

I feel like the abnormal changes in front of me, crushed, ravaged, and distorted by invisible forces, turning into a terrifying image that cannot be described like a dough. And, when I confirmed that this is a form and way of fighting right now, this distorted power gradually becomes stronger.

I obviously didn't move, and I could see that I was standing at the entrance and exit of the underground hall, and from the angle that I could observe, I was sure that I was "standing at the entrance and exit, motionless". But after excluding these observations, it is impossible to deny that he is fighting with a distorted and chaotic force from a terrifying angle. I am not really "moving", but changing all the time. At that height that cannot be accurately observed but can only be vaguely felt, it is unfolding a struggle that cannot be described in human language.

Other humans and non-humans except me, whether they are wizards or physical beings, are also involved in this sensible but unobservable battle. Even their mysterious powers are probably not enough. In order to allow them to recognize this degree of battle. Therefore, they are just like me "not moving".

The whole process of the battle is misty, unobservable and incomprehensible. Although there are substances that can be destroyed, it is difficult to do destructive behaviors. As for whether substances can be defeated materially after destroying them The enemy is still an uncertain issue. Before the establishment of the behavior, the leading factors that led to the behavior have been chaotic. How to solve this chaos and let the instinct and consciousness occur and operate according to its original established law is a problem that needs to be solved urgently. However, how can we solve this problem? Problems, but there is no precedent to follow.

I observe this battle beyond materiality from a peculiar perspective and based on my own state. On the contrary, I can be sure that it is not my own power to fight on this level of transcending materiality. It is not one's own subjective wishes, the level of this battlefield is determined by the ritual of deviation. Although it is difficult to determine which side has the advantage at the level of feelings, this advantage may be reflected in the phenomenon of alienation at the material level caused by the deviant ritual.

In terms of the changes that can be observed, this underground hall is still occupied by two main anomalies so far, even if more anomalies are manifested from time to time, everything here seems strange, but, The alienation of material flesh and the expansion of the texture of the magic circle are still the most stable and lasting abnormal phenomena. After the sacrificial ritual of Doomsday Shinrikyo begins, even the wizards who initiated the ritual have been distorted, but the ritual itself has not been implicated. It expands automatically and continuously, just like the deviation ritual after the combined impact of the elementary life. , As if it had been hitting hormones, showed a larger and deeper distortion, and the phenomena caused by the sacrificial rituals were similarly active, and the distortions of the deviant rituals did not give way to each other.

Because the phenomena caused by the two rituals are not integrated, although it cannot be said that they are distinct, they can still be distinguished by their respective senses of existence. Therefore, it is possible to confirm the progress of the battle in this way. .

The chaos of my own thinking, the change of my own transcendence of materiality, is just a corner of the battlefield. The resistance I made alone is no greater than the collection of many doomsday truth cult wizards and elementary lives. Weight.

This battle cannot be measured by the time of common sense~IndoMTL.com~ Actually, it has exceeded the space capacity of the underground hall. Behind every fighting individual is supported by a huge shadow. Tickets to this battle. The battlefield that has broken through the physical limitations of common sense is not even restricted by the huge and solid temporary data hedge space of the "ruling bureau ruins", and extends to a range that has completely exceeded my own cognition and observation capabilities. Even in my feeling, all the temporary hedging phenomena that occurred at this moment are just one aspect of this battle, a trivial footnote.

I even doubt whether this battle has spread to the reality of the hospital, and another weird phenomenon is used to show the existence of this battlefield. Even, will it surpass the "hospital reality" and "doomsday illusion" in my cognition, and directly reach other unobserved real or illusory worlds.

It is beyond my personal ability to make a difference in this level of battlefield. I think that what I acted as on this battlefield is not a combat power, but a base point—a base point that can make the silent "Jiang" suddenly cut into it at a certain moment.

　　

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