Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 2066: Consciously
——This is not true. This is my illusion. It can't catch me. It makes me feel terrified, but it can never kill me.
Dr. Ender muttered to himself in a low voice, he couldn't hear his own voice, only thoughts that were so strong that they didn't belong to him came out of his mind one after another. He has seen many patients with doomsday syndrome, and witnessed how they hurt and tortured themselves, doing things that abnormal people can do, and even if they do nothing, dementia will suffer from certain diseases. Sometimes hurt by their own body. Doomsday syndrome often starts from the patient’s mental state, and further affects their nervous system, followed by internal organs, and then to the surface structures of the body such as muscles and skin. When people see it, there is a kind of empathy, but in fact, no one else can know how painful it is.
But now that Dr. Ender feels it, it’s no longer empathy, but a personal experience. For him, whether it’s unexpected or expected, it’s not just for him." The word "pain" can describe it. Starting from the human senses, the feelings of the onset of illness are very complicated. The hallucinations presented from the mental world and brain operation are causing some indescribable stimulation to the body's physiology. He felt scared, not just for everything he saw in this state, nor the huge red moon he had seen before, nor the unstoppable thoughts in his mind in the unrecognizable scene of illusion and reality. It is also fearful of the changes that are taking place in oneself.
Although I keep admonishing myself that all this is just an illusion, my fear and instinct are making some hints in a subtle way compared to what I said. No matter how subjectively eliminates this kind of suggestion, it is undeniable, but when this kind of suggestion is more like a "thought of your own generation", it makes you involuntarily believe it.
to believe the truth is such a thing.
self-rejection, using "illusions" to call the behaviors oneself sees, compared with it, is like deceiving yourself and others. Just as Dr. Ender has no way to prove that everything he sees is true and which is an illusion, he also cannot prove that when he feels instinctive stupidity, when he feels that he is deceiving himself, he really is not. so.
The reference object used to refer to reality and illusion has disappeared. Or, in other words, everything that could serve as a true reference is all in this abnormal scene, in the face of this surging thought, in the face of this deep inspiration, becoming no longer just, and its material primacy status is disappearing. If you want to convince yourself that something does not exist, the best way is to dig out its material foundation, use common sense to verify it with some more logical theories, and summarize it into your own worldview. However, Dr. Ender was difficult to do-he could always do it in the past, but he couldn't do it now. Investigating the reason, he only felt that it was extremely complicated. Just as he had various reasons to claim that all he saw were hallucinations, he also had many ideas to tell himself that this weird phenomenon was not all hallucinations.
How much real or illusion is ? What kind of objective truth is at work behind this scene? Faced with these questions, Dr. Ander only felt that he had little knowledge and was difficult to answer. He knows that he needs time, just as he grew from an ignorant child to a wise adult in the past. In the face of this terrible unknown, he is like turning back into that ignorant child. It takes dozens of times, hundreds of times. Time to learn, research, think and organize, can you become an adult again.
However, Dr. Ender is also very clear that he has no time. Just like his own thoughts, after sorting out all the known clues, he will feel that people all over the world lack time, and even the world itself lacks time. Regardless of whether the "virus" is the KAEKESA of the Pleiades cluster or not, what kind of thing the so-called "KAEKESA" is, it is too large for human beings who have not yet made their home planet. Scientific theory has developed quantum theory from the imagination of "assuming that there is a basic unit that cannot be subdivided". However, precisely because it is based on hypothetical theory,
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Therefore, this theoretical height is difficult to transform into a more realistic force, so that human beings can only look up to the starry sky and use their imagination to paint their inner blueprint of the universe.
Now, a terrifying existence beyond human imagination seems to have traveled through the sea of stars and descended on this planet. There is a terrible gap between the strengths of the two parties, even if they are based only on theory: one has really been put into action and has been proven in practice; the other has only one hypothetical theory, and even the outer voyage of the planet is rare.
If the enemy is an inexplicable monster, it is a fantasy in human myths, or an unidentified species on this planet. Dr. Ender doesn’t think it’s really scary, because Things that exist in this way must also be subject to the closed theory based on the environment of this planet, and at some cost, they can be included in the dangerous ladder law that humans are accustomed to. However, what comes from outside the planet has an indescribable horror for people who know how vast the universe is. Especially when this thing has shown erosiveness on this planet, and its own efforts can't figure out the truth at all, this kind of horror will grow at a speed that even oneself can't imagine.
Dr. Ande has studied and studied psychology. He can tell how his fear comes from, and he knows some of the reasons why he is so afraid, but it is also because he knows more than the average person, and more than the average person. Learning, the world that I recognize is more complex and huge, so I am more and more sure that my understanding of my own state at this time is one-sided.
In this terrifying and magnificent scene where it is no longer possible to distinguish between reality and illusion, Dr. Ender deeply felt his own insignificance and ignorance. What human beings have to face is such a terrible thing, and his cognition makes him feel extremely desperate.
is helpless, no matter how hard you struggle. Huge negative emotions are like constant magnification and acceleration. Dr. Ender clearly knows that he cannot go on like this and cannot think about these things. He should change his thinking and perspective to do what he can, but he cannot control it. My own thinking and consciousness, those exercises designed based on psychology, have no effect in the face of the ever-expanding thoughts.
The factors that guide actions are becoming confused. He can only "know what he should do", but cannot "do what he thinks should be done." He sat in the corner with his knees folded, and when he lowered his head, he looked like a frightened ostrich, but his eyes could not be closed, and his gaze could not help but peer through the gap to peek at the weird sight.
The hand that stretched out from the shadows swayed disorderly, and its movements only gave people a painful feeling. Dr. Ender subconsciously felt that it was the suffering of the dead patients with doomsday syndrome. These painful dead souls returned to this world in order to avenge all the living. Although these ideas are very inconsistent with the identity of a scientific researcher, however, there are many ideas that are emerging. Tell him that this idea is What is meaningful can be explained by science. It’s just that I’m too shallow, so I use superstition to look at it. I should get rid of this limited idea, and use a broader perspective to tolerate this kind of cognition. Look for further scientific truth.
If existence is truth, then he should accept everything in front of him-even if they are really hallucinations, he must also find out scientifically that they are just illusion proofs.
"There are still many unknowns, and many existing specimens and samples..." Dr. Ander muttered to himself: "Yes, there are still a lot of data and functions in the hospital Powerful equipment, I should go further to get in touch with the'virus'. Time is not enough, time is not enough... We must race against time, we must face up to the KAEKESA of the Pleiades star cluster..."
Dr. Ande pressed his head hard, knocked the back of his head on the wall frantically, making a bang. After a while, he suddenly stopped, and raised his head again, his eyes were red as bloodshot, and his expression was sometimes ferocious and sometimes indifferent. He seemed to have connected something, stood up swayingly, ignoring the arms sticking out of the shadow, ignoring what they wanted to grasp, and walked quickly to the window sill. When passing by the mirror,
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He glanced at what he looked like in the mirror-I would be surprised if I put it before. He thought so. However, the appearance is no longer important now. What is important is that the KAEKESA of the Ang Star Cluster is appearing here in a more substantial state than in the past, and he has enough opportunities to save the world.
"Virus" is the KAEKESA of the Ang Star Cluster. This kind of thinking made Dr. Ander feel that he had jumped out of the concept of the word "virus" and was able to face this terrible enemy full of unknowns. It doesn't matter what the KAEKESA of the Ang Star Cluster is. Everything has just begun. In a limited time, he must do some verification.
Dr. Ande felt extremely desperate, but there was a kind of crazy emotion that made him feel desperate, which was not the reason for him to stop acting.
What are you going to do? Dr. Ender did not have a specific concept, but when he walked to the window again, he remembered the three girls who had been studying: Sakiya, Hakkei, and Marceau. He remembered the psychedelic and wonderful singing, and remembered the description of the KAEKESA of the Ang Star Cluster in the content of the singing. And aren’t these descriptions the best fulcrum? Dr. Ender felt that he needed to find a crowbar long enough to put it on this fulcrum, and then he could lift up the strange, psychedelic, crazy and desperate unknown.
Yes, those idiots who want to take shortcuts are naive in terms of ideas, theory, and practice, but they do have one thing right: these three are closely related to Gao Chuan, Shi Se, and Dorothy. The girl in the relationship is also special. There are enough secrets in them, and the biggest secret is that they sang about "KAEKESA of the Ang Star Cluster". Dr. Ender was very sure that what he heard was the singing of these three girls. As for why they knew these contents, that was what he had to figure out next.
"Cards, statistics, singing..." Dr. Ender paced around the room, "Red moon, translucent arms, violent consciousness..." He is trying to connect these clues, even if there are A large part is imagination, but he is eager to think of something new. He hopes that more inspiration will flash, and he wants to forget the fear that erupted from the bottom of his heart in this crazy thinking. He longed for his own thinking to be able to catch the mysterious tail.
Dr. Ander thinks that he is truly calm now-although he is emotionally crazy, his inner reason still remains calm enough.
just then~IndoMTL.com~someone is knocking on the door. Dr. Ende didn't even think about it. He stepped forward quickly. He felt a strong feeling. He felt that he knew who was knocking on the door outside and why he came to the door at this time. That kind of unreasonable intuition that had never appeared before was so keen, he opened the door and saw the person he had thought of.
is a researcher who hides in this hospital, trying to find the secret of the "virus" from the three of Sakiya, Hakkei, and Marceau. As the principal of these researchers, he is not doing specific research work, but bringing other researchers back and making them a member of the team. Moreover, Dr. Ander also knew that although the principal was also a researcher, his talents and IQ were actually below the average level of the hospital. This person used to express himself in the position of allocating talents and coordinating chores, and was a pivotal figure in the hospital's logistics. But precisely because he is just such a person, Dr. Ender does not think that he can play a positive role in the next research.
Even if the research direction proposed by this person is carried out by the research team he has gathered, it has certain feasibility, but in Dr. Ander’s view, this direction is stupid, like leaving the subject without research, but instead Considering the leftovers, if there is enough time, maybe this choice is not a mistake, but the situation is so urgent at the moment, and they don't seem to realize it, or that is, the awareness of difficulties and urgency is too low. NS. Dr. Ender has better ideas, but now we must create some troubles to get this person back to the post he is good at.
"You are awake, Dr. Ender." The person outside the door lowered their voices and said to Dr. Ender in the room: "Something is wrong, something strange happened..."