Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 2070: Treasures

The cards are laid out on the table, turned, turned, moved, covered... Dr. Ender, in a kind of weird and grotesque intuition, looked at the weird patterns on the cards, it was like some kind of The patterns, like certain words and sentences, seem to reveal a certain truth, and also like a ghostly existence that uses this method to talk to people. He wanted to stop more than once, but his body did not listen. There was another vague will playing with all of this, but he was not sure whether there was his own subconscious in it. He felt that he could decipher the secret, not now, but "will soon." However, this secret that was about to be deciphered has always been stuck in what will be revealed. This feeling made him unable to help but recall the intention of the research team: the secret of the "virus" is hidden in these cards. If this secret can be read, he can face the "virus" and complete the first step of serum production.

　　 It seems that the future really exists in these cards, not in the three girls... However, Dr. Ender believes more in his own judgment. The secret lies in the three girls, not in this card. . It is precisely because of this judgment that he and the research team are talking about it. Moreover, Dr. Ander is very clear that his condition has worsened, and staying in the research team will only become the subject of research. Those who have been exposed because of his professionalism The data will also be hidden again. Those people don't fully believe in themselves... Dr. Ender has always felt this way, and this feeling can be explained logically and empirically.

　　 Dr. Ande manages the isolated island hospital and leads the research direction. It is no longer a day or two. Even in the most peaceful days, people who oppose him and those who intend to seize high-level positions have always existed. Those researchers who were politically overthrown by him not only did not leave the hospital, but also took root in the darkness of the hospital in a more secretive way. In, secretly form an alliance for research. He didn't know the details very clearly, but he knew that those rumors were definitely not unreliable, and the supporters behind those people were probably the forces that established hospitals and provided resources.

　　 There is nothing truly hidden and self-contained in this world, especially in human society. Even the chaotic state of affairs will become a part of order. This is how human society works. Dr. Ender is very clear that he does not have the power to break this terrible order that includes both the dark and chaotic sides. He is very restful. As long as he achieves a certain degree of success, he will not pursue the deeper side, but will Putting his wisdom on research as much as possible, and he is recognized and good-looking by others, so once he sits in a certain position, he will always be very stable.

　　 However, this time, the source of the disaster did not come from the human society’s own metabolism and operating laws, but something else—“viruses” and very familiar viruses. This is a very obvious fact.

　　 He must have his own judgment, he must insist on his own judgment. This is no longer a reason such as "different ways and not conspiring". He is very aware of the disease of patients with doomsday syndrome. Once he does not have a stubborn and stubborn If you insist on something, your personality will collapse more quickly. Therefore, you must be different from other people and believe that this difference can make yourself a kind of "special". Of course, he is not sure that this can really save himself, but at least he can buy more time for himself.

　　 Drinking a dove to quench thirst, this is knowingly but helplessly.

　　 Dr. Ande’s choices and decisions are largely based on intuition, the thoughts that continue to grow in his brain when he is in pain, and the memory that has become exceptionally clear. That is the experience that most people will not realize that they already have a large amount of information, combined with an extraordinary logic, and summed up the law of the patient's condition.

　　 When Dr. Ender realized this, he was quite sure that he had undergone incredible changes from the inside to the outside, and his current self was completely different from his past self.

　　 Under an inexplicable madness, he stared at the cards that were constantly being moved by him, and at the same time had a more contradictory consciousness, wanting to break free from this gaze. It seemed that there was an illusion whispering to him, telling him that he would not succeed, and his spontaneously created stubbornness and paranoia made him believe that he would succeed.

　　 He seems to feel that the inside of this body is not internal organs, cells, genes, or the elements that make up the human body, not the composition of every element, but the "inside" on the level of consciousness. There are two A distinct self is vying for the dominance of the "self". He felt like he was going crazy, no, he was already crazy.

　　 "Stop, stop, don't think about it anymore..." Dr. Ender murmured to himself, and suddenly broke the cards that had been spliced ​​up again. After that, he paralyzed in the chair, breathing continuously, the feeling of sorrow that made the irritable emotions in his mind calm again.

　　——In this case, I have to find the missing card.

　　 He was in a trance, and this thought passed through his mind.

　　Don't go to the girls, because they can't be found anymore, his instinct told him so. Although, he has not searched this room carefully. He finally understood why the people in the research team said "the girls are gone." They probably have already experienced this inexplicable and full of real feeling-even if they haven't looked for it carefully, but staying here will have it. This strong feeling: girls can't be found. As for why? It seems that it is not very important in front of this conclusion, even if, in terms of logic and behavior, such a conclusion does not seem to be reliable.

　　Intuition, intuition, everything is intuition, it seems that intuition has surpassed logic and revealed a deeper truth. When, and why, has intuition become so important? This is actually in conflict with the qualities that researchers must possess. However, even Dr. Ander, who knew this, couldn't fully follow his own rationality to do things.

　　——Don't go to the girl, look for the card, the part of the card hidden by "Gaochuan".

　　What the principal of the research team once said to him, once again rolled over in Dr. Ender’s mind. Dr. Ender felt irritated for a while.

　　 So, I can only look for cards. This time, it returned to the track of the research team. Dr. Ender felt a ridicule that embarrassed him.

　　 "Eight Views...Sakuya...Marceau..." Dr. Ende tried to cheer himself up, calling out the names of the three girls, and he felt that his hoarse voice felt terrifying to himself. The sound that echoed in the empty room was like some monsters and ghosts tempting humans, and he himself was the monsters and ghosts.

　　 Dr. Ande wandered in the room for a while, feeling the night breeze from the unclosed window, and facing the ominous crimson moonlight, he crawled out of the window sill without thinking. He sits on the window sill, ten meters above the ground. On weekdays, he will be afraid of this, and he will also feel that this behavior is full of weird behavior. It is one of the weird behaviors of patients with doomsday syndrome, but he is also Did it. He knew what he was doing, but he didn't feel anything wrong.

　　Doctor Ande didn't quite understand why he did this, but as his gaze scanned the night outside the building, he suddenly felt a sense of what he was looking for. He couldn't help but cast his gaze in a certain direction. He suddenly felt that he had to go in that direction. The information that "Gaochuan" used to hide was in that place-he couldn't tell the specific location, but this feeling Make him feel that as long as he goes, he will know.

　　 Dr. Ende didn't hesitate, so he jumped off the window sill. He didn't think about anything, he just felt that his state was half-dream and half-awake, but when he jumped from such a high place, the acceleration of gravity was like pulling up his internal organs. The feeling of "falling" was so. It was true, but it didn't give him the feeling of "I will fall to death". Of course, he felt fear, but this level of fear could not make him escape from this half-dream and half-awake feeling.

　　 Then, his feet touched the ground, and he felt the reaction force just like jumping from a height of one meter. It was incredible, this kind of rational shock made him feel like he was waking up suddenly. He turned around and confirmed that he had really reached the clearing downstairs. He raised his head and still looked at the high window sill somewhat incredulously-did he really jump from there? He didn't even suffer any harm or pain. It's completely illogical and unreasonable. What kind of power is it that allows one to do this kind of thing?

　　 This is a superhuman experience that is contrary to common sense, but while it surprised Dr. Ander, it was not so unacceptable. It's just that he can't understand, and can't accept it rationally and logically. He has not seen a similar report, although many patients with doomsday syndrome have jumped off buildings, and the reason for this has not been ascertained so far, but can only be roughly classified as psychological trauma. . Even the special subject "Gao Chuan" had the same behavior and broke a pair of legs as a result. However, it is precisely because the patients he knows who jumped off the building have suffered more or less serious or even death injuries, so he doubts that his situation can really be explained by "doomsday syndrome" alone?

　　Just the performance that oneself is not injured, it seems to have proved that the self who has become a patient with doomsday syndrome also seems to be extremely special. Moreover, this kind of specialness seems to be what he needs-rather, the situation nowadays is like he wants to be special, so he becomes special.

　　 Terrible, incredible, incomprehensible... and time is running out. Dr. Ender did not hesitate this time. Although various thoughts, imaginations and emotions were still emerging in his mind, he just put aside these unanswerable questions and moved in the direction that he called to himself. go.

　　 The hospital was very bleak. On this heavy and ominous night, the crown of the tree seemed unbearable and decadent under the huge weird red moon. The night in the hospital was not completely silent. In the past, even if there was no human voice, there would be various natural movements. However, Dr. Ender only felt a distorted silence at this time.

　　 He couldn't even hear his own breathing or footsteps, even if he deliberately kicked stones, there was no sound. The more you move in the direction implied by your intuition, the stronger the feeling that something is about to happen will be enveloped.

　　Doctor Ande couldn’t help turning his head again, looking at the dormitory behind him, and saw that the billowing gray fog had poured out from the cracks in the building, and the bright and extinguished lights in the corridor had become faint in the fog, and In the room where the girls are, the window on the window sill where I once sat is not closed, as if it had never been opened before, as if the previous behavior of jumping from above was just a false memory. He felt that the room had been closed, the whole dormitory was shrouded by a strange power, and he had no idea of ​​going in again.

　　——Did I jump off the window sill~IndoMTL.com~ Or did I walk out unconsciously, but felt like I jumped off the window sill?

　　Doctor Ande felt that his head was aching, and his mouth was full of a sweet smell of rust. He spat out, and saw that the saliva had been stained red with blood.

　　 I must have a problem, and the problem is getting worse. Thinking about this, Dr. Ender quickened his pace.

　　 Finally, he stopped in a clearing. There are not many numbers in this open space. Not far away is another dormitory building, the one where Gaochuan once lived. There are more research institute buildings around, but at this time they all appear to be dilapidated, and some of them are invisible. I don’t know if they are real people or ghosts, survivors or those who have gone mad. Gaochuan replica.

　　 When Dr. Ande stopped, he intuitively told him to dig here, and what was hidden by "Gaochuan" was hidden here. He didn't want to doubt this feeling in the past, but stomped his feet, feeling the solidity of the ground. There is indeed a place here that is not covered by cement, exposing loose soil, as if someone had dug a hole here, but there was no time to completely cover it. Even so, no one seemed to realize what was wrong with this small piece of mud, and no one had ever tried to dig this place.

　　 If "Gao Chuan" really buried something here... Dr. Ende thought so, and when he noticed it, he had already squatted down and started to dig through the soil with his hands. Driven by a terrible impulse and fear, Dr. Ender digs involuntarily. The more fear is impulse, the more impulsive, the faster the hand moves. Even the pain from the fingers and wrist seems to be a problem. Part of the motivation.