Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 2195: Secret battle

Is Dorothy afraid of fire? If she could answer it herself, the answer would only be: not afraid. However, although it is not scary to talk about, but when carrying him back and making various small actions in private, hiding the other party from the dark, it looks like it is playing with everyone, and ultimately leads to the current situation even if it is not entirely due to yourself. For this reason, Dorothy will still apologize in the face of a fire escape. This kind of apology is not very strong, and, for her, there is a reason and need to do so, and the more deeply she thinks about everything in the doomsday illusion, the more she feels that what she has done is not wrong.

Yes, if you insist, when Dorothy acted like this, she felt that she had a righteous status. But even so, she still finds it difficult to show it in front of the fire. This feeling of having to surreptitiously makes her wonder whether what she has done is really correct. Since she cannot be fair and honest, is her righteous hypocrisy? Although she always questioned herself so much, she still did everything she wanted to do. Even if you keep asking yourself whether you are doing this correctly, you will eventually give yourself a proper reason and tell yourself that this is correct.

Doroth does not regret everything she has done so far. Because this is the conclusion she came to after countless observations and thoughts, and she never planned to pat her **** to leave. She also thought about the possible consequences and made sufficient psychological preparations before carrying out the plan in a cold manner. Compared with the determined people she had met, she didn't feel that she lacked much in attitude.

While saying that, it would be better to be able to leave the London repeater before waking up from the fire. Dorothy did not deny her feelings.

Once the fire broke out and woke up, what kind of mood and thoughts would it be like to know what Dorothy had done inside the repeater in the past? In any case, confrontation is unavoidable, but Dorothy doesn't know what she should say to the fire. Everything in the doomsday illusion, for her, although there is a real place, but there is no doubt that the reality of the hospital is more real and more like the source. No matter what was done in the doomsday illusion, what happened, if this influence could not interfere with the reality of the hospital, but was only limited to the doom illusion, then this kind of influence would be nothing more than an illusion to her.

Doroth doesn’t know how she sees the relationship between the hospital reality and the doomsday illusion, and she thinks she can’t put the two on an equal position like Gao Chuan, let alone the doomsday illusion. Like the others, they fixed their cognitive foundation in the doomsday illusion.

Among all the people she knows, she feels that her perspective on these things is actually closer to those researchers in the hospital reality. Even though Dr. Ender's team most often uses the color center, as far as she is concerned, she feels that she and Dr. Ender's team are more closely related.

If possible, Dorothy actually does not want people in the doomsday illusion to know what she has done, and complete the plan in a quiet way, so that everyone’s pain will end without knowing it. It can also reduce the possibility of excessive reactions after they know their plans.

Ending the doomsday illusion, ending the suffering of all patients with doomsday syndrome, and ending the depressing and desperate future without everyone noticing it, which makes Dorothy feel the ideal situation, is no longer It may have happened.

Omi is right. Perhaps the torchlight’s deviation ritual has had the strongest impact on her. What hurts Dorothy most is not her own spirit being hit, but the advantages she painstakingly created, the well-arranged traps, and the various methods used to correct the progress of the plan. Almost all of them are ineffective in this deviation and distortion.

The plan, which was completed with painstaking effort and dedication, was almost completely overturned and fell into an irreparable situation.

At this time, Dorothy has escaped from the initial shock and self-blame, and reorganized her thoughts. She felt that the reason why she did not give up at this point was not because the plan seemed to have theoretical success. Go deeper, because the people around you have never said to give up, even in such a difficult time, even with not-so-harmonious ideas and positions, but they are still trying to do more. Therefore, you cannot be the first to give up.

Everyone is facing the same dangers, the same dangers, the same despair and madness, why do not others give up, but they have to give up?

From this perspective, Dorothy feels a bit "actually dragged away by others". However, it doesn't matter if it is dragged away by other people. Dorothy has a stubbornness. She will never give up first.

So, when Omi mentioned the fire escape, she could say: "It’s okay." She really didn’t want to face the fire escape at this time, but if there was really no way to avoid it, she would never tell the other person. Say any apologies.

"Is it really okay? You actually care about what you think of you when a fire escapes, right? You actually care about what other people think of you?" Omi stared at her sharply, "Although you have been insisting, but You are actually a coward, don’t you? Do you think you will forgive you if you go wrong? Will others forgive you?"

"No." Dorothy never thought that the people who were used to execute the plan would forgive themselves, but it didn’t really matter what they thought of, because: "They can’t forgive anything. Now, they are all dead."

"So, because you think they will die anyway, why don't you let them contribute more to your plan based on the premise that they will die?" Omi asked, "You can also say this to Mizuo Kind of words?"

"...On the other hand, Omi, you are also someone who has your own plan, and you are the one who silently watched me finish the plan. How would you answer this question?" Dorothy threw the question back again.

"Me? I don’t think it’s a problem. I can say it even in front of the fire." Omi said indifferently, "If the deaths of other people promote my plan, then they will die. It doesn’t matter, or it’s better to die. That’s how I think. You should know that I’ve always been selfish. But you’re different, right? Obviously it’s a copy of the final weapon, but it’s closer to humans. When I understood this, I knew that no matter how close you are to the final weapon in terms of abilities, you are still an imitation full of flaws and will never become the real final weapon. On the other hand , Isn’t it selfish for those who hope you can become the ultimate weapon?"

During the conversation between the two, the entire London repeater was making a peculiar sound, not everyone could hear it, but anyone who could hear it would feel that something went wrong. The sound is like the gear of a clock is stuck. Although the power still keeps the mechanical structure running in order, it can't turn it in anyway. It was a jamming sound, and it was also like a cracking sound, which made people feel that this repeater was undergoing some kind of serious test, and it might break down at any time.

When hearing this voice, Dorothy even felt that this was the result of her confrontation with Omi. First of all, because of her confrontation with Omi, the three pillars that formed the basis of the repeater were also produced. Opposition, the influence of this opposition is getting bigger and bigger, and more factors are involved, which amplifies the terrible influence that affects the entire repeater structure.

However, Dorothy can no longer judge whether this is the case. Just now, all the connections between her and the London repeater have been interrupted, and all the permissions she once had have been blocked. Even if the Super Department has been supporting it, the name "Doroth" has been removed from the safety list. Instead, Father Xi Sen, who was standing by his side and unable to communicate normally, still retained the authority occupied by the "Black Nest" to a certain extent.

After all, this London repeater belongs to both the network ball and the nog, and the "black nest" is also a member of nog's permanent governing organization.

Those mysterious organizations that once constituted nog are now very few. Among the remaining mysterious organizations, the surviving mysterious experts are also pitiful. Just like the "Black Nest", Father Xi Sen is already the last survivor of this mysterious organization in the personnel record. Even during the period of his disappearance, his name was almost put on the death list and completely removed from the authorized personnel.

The status and authority of the "Black Nest" is an important help for Father Xi Sen to successfully invade the London repeater.

Doroth doesn't know why Omi, who has regained most of the authority of the London repeater, still retains the authority of "Black Nest" and Father Xi Sen, but she doesn't plan to speculate further. Unless she can leave the London repeater, no matter what Omi does, she will dominate, and she can only let it go.

Therefore, the primary goal must be to escape from the London repeater.

In this tense atmosphere, the confrontation between the two sides is still based on communication. In Dorothy's view, it definitely does not mean ease and relaxation.

Because, from the beginning, this kind of communication was impossible to get results. In the current situation, language is the most vulnerable force, because neither oneself nor the other party can give up their own ideas and follow the other party's pace and plan. Even the goal for both parties to work hard for it is very likely. It has always been different. The reason for cooperating in a certain process is simply because to achieve different goals, but to go through a similar process, that's all.

For people who have different goals, different methods, different cognitive and thinking angles, and different priorities, but also insist on their own opinions, it is actually meaningless to want the other party to understand their own language, even if it is really understood by the other party It doesn’t make sense to lose yourself, unless the other party can admit that his own ideas are better and more correct, and are willing to follow this better idea to do things. In many cases, even if the other party admits that his ideas are better and more correct, he is still more willing to go his own way.

In this way, contradictions always exist, confrontation is inevitable, and understanding is meaningless, and language that is weaker than ever, instead of directly using violence to reform the other's thoughts is more efficient.

Under the premise that communication is meaningless and it is absolutely impossible to achieve results, the confrontation that is still carried out in the form of communication is absolutely not the communication itself.

Doroth doesn’t know what Omi has done in this kind of exchange, but she herself has indeed tried the means of reforming Omi. Consciousness walkers are best at doing this kind of thing, although she is not considered a conscious walk. However, there is no lack of such means. On the other hand, although she did not feel it, she did not feel that Omi hadn't made any small gestures to her "thoughts".

Perhaps the line of defense established in the past prevented the opponent from making a contribution in one fell swoop, or perhaps because the opponent’s methods were too ingenious and prevented one from being aware of it in the first time~ IndoMTL.com~ Consciousness, thought, and cognition are all subjectively based on oneself. Cognitive objective methods, processes, and phenomena are all targets that can be attacked. For all things that can recognize the "self", all that can think, and rely on thinking to guide behavior, the impact of this attack is also the most thorough one.

It is difficult to tell whether your thinking has been affected when you start thinking.

Doroth doesn't believe in the instincts possessed by her body completed by Omi, but she can't completely avoid this instinct. The reason why instinct is instinct is that it seems to be resistant, but it does affect a person's self-cognition every moment. On the other hand, precisely because he uses such a body, Omi's influence on him would theoretically be more direct and secret.

In this kind of invisible, intangible, or even intangible confrontation, she uses the "super system" as a reference to her own observation data. When connected with the "Super Department", she has already begun to back up and analyze her self-perception and thinking patterns at the time. Using the state at that time as the standard, it is possible to know exactly what changes have taken place in my ideology and behavior in the subsequent time.

She even eliminated suspicious points from the initial sample and completed a minimal backup. Once her ideology really has a problem, she will use this backup to cover her self-knowledge. Perhaps the "self" recovered from this minimal backup is also missing too much to be truly regarded as the original "self", but it can avoid the penetration and influence of the enemy to the greatest extent.

The battle of ideas never stops when communicating, it's just invisible. This kind of battle is even more secretive and anxious than the material destruction that goes straight back and forth.