Wife Please Be Obedient Chapter 387: : Go around in a circle

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Sun Wen sat alone on the hillside, with his hands on his knees, a cigarette between his fingers, but it just kept holding it and didn't pass it to his mouth.

The soot grows slowly, and gradually fades like a burning hope.

The wind is blowing, and the wind is blowing from a distance against the ground, passing over the verdant vegetation, blowing past the past, blowing away the long soot and the rising strands of smoke.

The family arranged a blind date for him. High-achieving students are always very popular when they come back from the big cities, but none of them can make it-he really can't do it.

I went to the hospital secretly, and the doctor said it was a psychological problem. He didn't know whether the psychology was a sequelae of being taken care of, or because of the child taken away by Xu Wei, or something else.

In short, he can't do it anymore, and he doesn't want to commit sins anymore.

Yes, this kind of him, no matter who he marries in the village, he will ruin the family.

So of course I was treated as a monster——

He couldn't say that he had two children outside, one son and one daughter.

He hasn't even seen them, don't know where they are, don't know how they're doing now, don't even know their birthday, only know that it's probably in winter.

Maybe he is really a monster... Sun Wen himself feels that he does not live like an individual. He desperately tried to get out of the exam and went out of the mountain village to the big city. He wanted to get ahead and leave this little place forever. Mountain village.

But, in the end he returned, with all the scars on the outside, turned into a monster and returned.

While going around for more than ten years, and finally returning to the original point, what is it for?

He couldn't figure it out.

The original dream now looks like a joke. If you can do it again, maybe you shouldn’t go to college from the beginning, stay here to find a woman, marry and have children, and continue the circle of your father’s generation. Stability is the best choice.

Wife and child are hot on the bed, which is very good, but for him now it is also a luxury.

The last bit of sparks remained on the cigarette **** between his fingers. Sun Wen raised his hand and took a hard sigh. The pungent smell of the burning filter poured into his throat, making his thin face wrinkled, but he did not vomit it out. Taking a deep breath, feeling the acridity of his lungs, he threw the cigarette **** on the ground and crushed it, then patted his **** to stand up.

Only in his thirties, the back and back of the brawny fitness man was a little buckled, his clothes hung loosely on his body, and there was no more vigor on his face. The wind and sun turned him into a rough man. , Only the vicissitudes of life are left.

Ignorance is a kind of happiness, because they don’t ask for much. The price of wheat has gone up by three cents, and the price of pork has dropped by more than one, which can make them happy. Sun Wen envy them now. The people in the village have been The people he despised.

Cooking smoke rose again from the ruined temple in the distance. He looked down the hillside and walked over there with his foot raised. This habit was learned from Xu Wei. She always went to the outskirts of Luocheng on the 15th day of the lunar new year. There are two sticks of incense on the Datong Temple in Datong. He used to sneer, but now he has become a devout believer.

Because he can feel inner peace there.

Whenever the night is quiet, he always thinks of the two children who can’t fall asleep. He imagines two dolls called fathers, with small short legs and small arms, crawling on him, and then in his heart The pain was painful, like being pierced by a knife on the tip of the heart and spinning slowly, blood dripping out, icy cold.

Night night is like a big hand squeezing him, making him breathless, and huddling himself into a ball, trying to shrink into the dust.

Only the compassion and solemnity in front of him, the solemn statue of Baoxiang could make him feel a touch of warmth. Sun Wen lit a small handful of joss sticks, gently waved it twice to extinguish the flames, stepped forward and inserted it into the incense burner, watching A curl of green smoke rose, floating above the Buddha statue.

"Would you like to eat together?"

It was almost dusk at this time, and the vegetarian dishes in the temple had been prepared, one porridge and one dish. The old monk had only made his own portion, but now he is going to divide half of it.

"Thank you."

Sun Wen did not refuse, and followed him to the backyard.

The dish is Chinese cabbage, the old monk grows it on the hillside himself, and the porridge is millet porridge, bought under the hillside-or half-buy and half-free.

There are people in the nearby villages who believe in Buddhism, some do not believe, and some are dubious. Sometimes when they have to do something, the old monk will always give some steamed buns or rice noodles, and ask: Master let the Buddha bless me to sell more Money/letting the Buddha bless my child to get the first place in the exam is a thought.

There is not much porridge, and it’s even less if two people share a bowl. Sun Wen can even drink it clean in two mouthfuls, but he didn’t do that. He took the cold steamed buns from the old monk and took a bite of the dish and the porridge with chopsticks. Chewing slowly.

When he was in Los Angeles, he and Xu Wei went to Datong Temple to eat vegetarian food, but the vegetarian food there was much better than here, the vegetarian chicken and duck, and the various dishes were not inferior to the hotel.

It's just that there is no peace at this moment.

At sunset, two people were sitting on small wooden benches quietly eating dinner in the backyard of the ruined temple. The wind blew in from the door, bringing a hint of coolness to the summer evening.

Pulling the last bite of porridge into his mouth, Sun Wen got up and went to the side to wash his bowl. He saw that there was not much water in the bucket, and he fetched two buckets of water from the well—now the village has been running tap water. , Only this old antique is left here, and it is not easy to use, occasionally there will be no water, then you will need to go to a remote village to lift water and use a small wheelbarrow to push it back.

The outside world is changing with each passing day, but it hasn't affected the small temple in this remote ravine. Everything has stayed decades ago, giving Sun Wen a sense of unreality when he was a boy.

He likes this feeling.

"Are there really gods and Buddhas in this world?"

After that thank you, Sun Wen said the second sentence, breaking the tranquility of the ancient temple.

The old monk glanced at him, shook his head and said: "I don't know."

"Then you are here..." Sun Wen pursed his lips, wondering what word to use.

"I'm used to it." The old monk understood what he meant, patted his patched clothes, "Where else can I go?"

"..."

Sun Wen was speechless.

I thought he was a person of seclusion, but he didn't expect to be just an old man who was unable to struggle in his years.

Habit is really a terrible thing. When you want it, you can't ask for it.

He also wants to get used to his current life, but he always thinks of the things left out.

"You can see that you are different from them."

The old monk took a tattered futon and put it at the door~IndoMTL.com~, sat down to enjoy the cool, looked into the distance and said: "There are some things, maybe you can tell me, anyway, I'm about to get into the soil, what? I can't take it away, I can't keep anything." He turned his head and glanced at Sun Wen, "I haven't seen what the outside world is like."

"Outside...there are monsters and monsters outside."

Sun Wen smiled, twitching his face at the corner of his mouth, looking a little stiff.

He looked around, and also pulled a futon, put it in front of the door and sat down, his back leaning against the door frame, memories appeared in his expression.

Have betrayed a partner.

Destroyed the marriage of others.

Abandoned one's dignity.

Make black with competitors.

There are two other children who can’t recognize.

And a free and unrestrained woman.

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