I Just Came to Borrow a Light Chapter 17:

Lin Chengbu only felt that he was sweating in today's really not hot weather, and the clothes on his back were soaking wet.

After the worker finished speaking, he tutted, "You are his friend, right? Does he have a problem with his brain?"

Lin Chengbu didn't say a word, but another worker took over the conversation: "I usually don't have a problem with it, but I just talk less."

"That's right, don't you talk to us when you go to the toilet? It doesn't seem like there's a problem," the worker looked in the direction of Yuanwu Ship, "Did you get some irritation? Or... Are you in the dark?"

The idiot slapped him and waved his hands.

"I'll just say something," said the worker, "I think it's weird for him."

"Thank you," Lin Chengbu rubbed his body. He didn't even have a whole pack of cigarettes, so he had to take out his wallet, "Thanks to you..."

"Hey!" The worker quickly pushed his hand away when he saw his wallet, "Don't take the money, it's unnecessary, let alone the neighbors who have been around for such a long time, even if we don't know each other, we will too. It's a rule for people on our ship to save people."

The fool also pushed him, motioning him to go back to Yuanwu's boat.

"Come back," another worker said, "he still choked on the water, and then fell asleep without saying a word. You go and watch, don't wake up and what happens."

Lin Chengbu returned to Yuanwu's boat and stuffed the cigarette on his body into the fool. The fool patted his shoulder and made another gesture. Lin Chengbu couldn't understand what it meant, so he just let it go. Don't worry about him.

"Thank you," he said.

After the fool left, he walked to the window and looked in, Yuan Wu was still lying in that position.

He hesitated for a while, then gently opened the cabin door and walked in, and sat down beside Yuan Wu.

Staring at Yuan Wu for a few minutes, he couldn't hold it back, he reached out and probed under Yuan Wu's nose, and then retracted his hand after feeling his breath.

"Why are you?" Lin Chengbu looked at Yuan Wu and said softly, "You always ask why, why are you... I want to ask now, why are you?"

Yuan Wu looked sound asleep, of course it was impossible to answer him.

He didn't expect Yuan Wu to answer either. In the face of Yuan Wu, he almost didn't dare to do anything. When he heard the workers' words, for a moment he even hoped that Yuan Wu would return to his previous state.

Let's live this life seriously, don't change it, maybe it won't be an accident.

Is it really possible?

Lin Chengbu looked at Yuan Wu's tightly closed eyes, if there was no external force, would Yuan Wu really be like this forever?

No way.

When he talked to Jiang Chengyu about Yuan Wu's state before, he said he was afraid that Yuan Wu would live like this all his life, Jiang Chengyu laughed.

"You're so naive, nothing lasts forever. Even if you think nothing has changed, time keeps changing. Every minute and every second is different."

This is the only time he feels that Jiang Chengyu's statement that he graduated from the Department of Philosophy may be true.

What the **** happened to Yuan Wu?

Lin Chengbu always knew that he had serious mental problems, but he never thought that he would suddenly commit suicide.

Is it suicide?

Lin Chengbu frowned.

He couldn't imagine how Yuan Wu dived underwater, grabbed a handful of water plants and never let go.

Thinking of such a description now, after being quiet, made him suddenly shudder.

The chill crept into the bones little by little.

Water plants.

Asphyxiation.

Fatal attraction from water.

These are repeated in Xingtian's story, each time being different.

And what terrified him was the last story.

The last story that Yuan Wu has not yet written.

Lin Chengbu's breathing began to become difficult. He gently moved to the small table next to him and brought Yuan Wu's notebook over.

The notebook was turned on. After the screen turned on, Lin Chengbu saw the document that was not closed.

"The final decision is still the initial decision, nothing has changed, he went around in a circle, and finally returned to the starting point...

No one can tell what we are looking for and what we are running from...

The road to the end looks different, but the end is silent...

Those questions about oneself, or noisy, or silent, have answers, or no answers, in the end no one remembers...

He sat on the bow of the boat with cool water under his feet, surrounded, danced lightly, and left...

Is down the answer? No one knows, but there will never be an answer here, leave the place he can't live without, go where he doesn't know if he can reach...

He went down and down until he couldn't go any further...

This is it, no looking back, he reaches out and grabs the green elf that stretches, jumps, looks happy..."

Lin Chengbu closed the notebook. He felt out of breath. After taking a few deep breaths, he lightly took Yuan Wu's cigarette and went to the stern.

The air in Shenqiao was still so good, the cool air with the smell of water was poured into his lungs, and his breathing finally calmed down.

He's seen all these stories, but when I read it again today, it feels completely different.

Yuan Wu didn't know what kind of mood he felt when he wrote these words, what kind of feelings would make him take this story as an operation manual.

The phone rang in his pocket, a message from Jiang Chengyu.

-What's the situation?

-I can't say a few words, I just jumped into the river, I'm fine now, I'm sleeping

-Sleep? You are still him

-he

-Sure enough, I have the style of my No. 18 best bartender, please contact me if you have anything

-good

Putting the phone aside, Lin Chengbu sat on the board of the boat, took a cigarette from Yuan Wu's cigarette case, and didn't light it.

What does Yuan Wu think every time he stays here and looks at the water?

Lin Chengbu didn't know, and couldn't understand it. From childhood to adulthood, he basically didn't keep anything in his heart for too long, he didn't like to think about things, and he wasn't sensitive. It's a disturbing sexuality, and he doesn't think much of it.

Maybe it's heredity. When I talked to my parents, they even managed to digest it like a fight with him.

But like this, he ran into someone like Yuan Wu.

He knows Yuanwu very well, he knows what he likes to eat and drink, what he wears and listens to, his birthday, his address, his height and weight, if he hadn't dared to go to the toilet in Yuanwu When it's time to follow up, he will even know Yuan Wu's size, it's just so shameless.

But he doesn't know Yuan Wu very well, he doesn't know the environment he grew up in, he doesn't know what's on his mind, he doesn't know what really bothers him, he doesn't know why he has a bad temper sometimes, and he doesn't know What was behind his indifference and anxiety.

Maybe he will know it gradually, just like he was confused watching Yuan Wu in chaos for so long and suddenly found out that Yuan Wu is not amnesia, nor is he obsessed with wanting some stories to appear in the original state. Where it appears...

Lin Chengbu never dared to really think about this. He didn't know how to face Yuan Wu, who was no longer Yuan Wu.

The rear cabin door rang, and before Lin Chengbu turned his head, he could already see Yuan Wu walking out of the cabin in the corner of his light.

"You..." Lin Chengbu jumped up, the cigarette in his mouth fell on the boat, "Awake?"

"Well," Yuan Wu glanced at him, bent down to pick up the cigarette, and put it in his mouth, "Why are you here?"

"I'll come... to see you," Lin Chengbu took out a lighter and held it in front of Yuan Wu, looking at his wet hair, "I'm not going to work today."

"Do you have anything to eat?" Yuan Wu leaned forward and lit a cigarette, "I'm hungry, I feel hungry when I see you."

"Have a snack, would you like me to make something else for you?" Lin Chengbu said.

"Snack is all you need," Yuan Wu glanced at him, "You look really bad, didn't you sleep well?"

"It was all a mess all night." Lin Chengbu turned around and remembered that all the dishes and food were in the car. "What...the snacks are in the car, I forgot to bring them."

"Go get it." Yuan Wu said.

Go get it?

Simple to say!

No! dare not! Walk away, who knows if you will plunge into the water and hold the water plants without letting go!

Lin Chengbu stared at him for a while: "You accompany me to get it."

Yuan Wu looked at him with a look at the second fool: "From here to the dock, there are 27 boats in total. It takes five minutes to walk, and five minutes to come back. Even the big ones come and go like the wind, you go. Want me to accompany you?"

"Yes," Lin Chengbu nodded, "I'm... afraid."

Yuan Wu looked at him and said nothing, and after a while he puffed a small bundle of cigarettes at him: "Did you fall into the water again when you came here?"

"No," Lin Chengbu bit his lip, "you accompany me."

"Why?" Yuan Wu probably felt a little baffled.

"By..." Lin Chengbu wanted to say that I'm your boyfriend, but he didn't dare to say it. He didn't know if Yuan Wu's incident today had anything to do with him taking advantage of it yesterday, "It's just that you're hungry."

Yuan Wu continued to look at him and gave him a thumbs up for a long time: "This reason is absolutely flawless."

Lin Chengbu followed Yuan Wu to the pier, and halfway there, he saw the big head still counting ants lonely on the pier.

He suddenly became nervous. He was afraid that when he saw Yuan Wu, he would excitedly ask about the previous matter. Now that Yuan Wu has not mentioned this matter, Lin Chengbu can't tell whether he forgot or not. Said, I don't know how he would react when I heard him from the big head.

He could only savagely and suddenly jumped in front of Yuan Wu and walked quickly towards the pier.

"Am I hungry or are you hungry..." Yuan Wu said behind him.

Lin Chengbu didn't bother to answer and jumped onto the pier. Datou had already stood by the pier and was about to start shouting. He quickly pinched Datou's face: "Don't ask Brother Xiaowu about the morning, do you know? He doesn't want to talk about this, he'll be sad if you ask him, understand?"

He pinched his face, but he let go and then added, "I see."

"You're so smart, you're going to be a big deal in the future." Lin Chengbu patted his head.

"Uncle," Dabao shouted leaning against Lin Chengbu's legs, "Good morning!"

"Morning," Yuan Wu jumped onto the pier, "Have you a snack?"

"Eat!" Datou replied immediately.

Lin Chengbu walked to the car with some uneasy feeling, and when he opened the door to get something, he pricked up his ears and listened to their conversation.

But the big head is really reliable. He didn't ask about the morning, and he focused all on the snacks.

Lin Chengbu took a bag of small bread and a bag of small cakes for him to choose, and the big one picked the small cake: "I want one, I don't need such a big bag, I can't finish it."

"Okay." Lin Chengbu tore the bag and took one for him.

Big Head took a bite of the cake, raised his head and was about to speak, when Big Head's **** voice came from the boat ahead: "Big Head - come back for breakfast!"

"Oh—" Datou responded, turned back and waved to the two of them, jumped onto the boat, and ran to his own boat, "I'm going to have breakfast!"

Datou stood at the bow of the boat and looked at the dock for a while, Lin Chengbu nodded at her, and then walked back with Yuan Wu.

"When did you come?" Yuan Wu asked.

"It's been a while," Lin Chengbu said, "you were sleeping when you came."

"Oh," Yuan Wu responded, took a few steps forward and turned around, "You said you were my boyfriend?"

Lin Chengbu was taken aback by the somewhat sudden question, but he snorted vaguely in order to be consistent.

"Why didn't you tell me when you came here." Yuan Wu continued to walk forward.

"I...don't dare." What Lin Chengbu said was true, he really didn't dare.

Yuan Wu didn't ask any more questions. When he got back on the boat, he took a can of Coke and sat down at the stern. He reached out and took two small buns to eat.

"Is there anything else to drink? Milk or something, don't you use milk to froth milk," Lin Chengbu said, "don't drink Coke in the early morning."

"No, I didn't seem to sleep last night. I drank a few cups of coffee and the milk froth was gone." Yuan Wu said.

"You... haven't slept?" Lin Chengbu squatted beside him, "It seems?"

"Well," Yuan Wu took a bite of the bread, "I sometimes can't tell if I'm dreaming or awake."

Lin Chengbu didn't say a word, remembering how Yuan Wu was squatting in the stern and crying bitterly in the middle of the night. It was only that one time, or it was always like that.

I don't know, but thinking about it makes Yuan Wu feel helpless.

If he didn't find Yuanwu, would this Yuanwu always be like this, crying alone in the middle of the night when it was raining heavily...

"Have you read my novel?" Yuan Wu asked.

"I've seen it, I've seen some," Lin Chengbu retracted his thoughts, thought about it, and then added, "I'm not your reader, and I don't want your signed book."

"Yes, you've seen it," Yuan Wu thought for a while, "you can still tell the content."

"...Well." Lin Chengbu found that Yuan Wu had ignored the plot of the chapter that had not been posted online when he said the content.

"Did you say," Yuan Wu took a sip of Coke, "You're sick?"

"I didn't say it, it was you who said I was sick," Lin Chengbu said, "I meant I...was a ghost."

"Well, I remember," Yuan Wu looked calm, took a bite of the bread and turned to look at him, "Why do you want me to send the ghost in line in front of you away?"

"I..." Lin Chengbu closed his eyes and took a breath, "I want you to find the past and have mine."

"That's it." Yuan Wu lowered his head and stuffed the rest of the bread into his mouth, staring at the Coke on the boat and didn't speak.

Lin Chengbu looked at his profile, and couldn't tell if the unusually calm person in front of him was Yuan Wu.

The demeanor and the way of speaking are familiar to him, cold and calm, he doesn't seem to be surprised or curious about anything, but the content of his speech is still the same as before.

"Are those pasts important?" Yuan Wu asked.

"Important," Lin Chengbu looked at him, "very important."

"For you?" Yuan Wu glanced at him.

"It's the same for you. You live your whole life, don't ask for anything else, at least you have to remember yourself." Lin Chengbu said.

Yuan Wu picked up the Coke can and raised it at him: "It makes sense."

What followed was a long silence, Yuan Wu stopped talking, and Lin Chengbu didn't know what to say, so he also took a piece of bread and nibbled silently.

"My novel," Yuan Wu said after eating three loaves of bread, "is almost finished."

"So fast?" Lin Chengbu asked.

This sentence of Yuan Wu made him nervous. The novel is not almost finished. Compared with Xingtian's previous novel, this one has been written at most one-third, and it is only the beginning of the novel.

But Yuan Wu said he was almost finished.

Lin Chengbu knows why he is almost finished, because later, there is no more, all the stories, whether they are finished or not, are only here.

"Well," Yuan Wu said, "I can't write anymore... The editor is going to chop me up with a knife. This is a bad end."

"If you can't write anymore, don't write anymore," Lin Chengbu said. "How come you are comfortable, there are so many unfinished ends, and the editors will cut them down one by one until next year, and then it will be your turn."

Yuan Wu looked at him for a while and suddenly laughed.

This smile is very happy, Lin Chengbu can see that Yuan Wu is relaxed now, and he also breathes a sigh of relief.

"There are still two chapters to the end," Yuan Wu said, "I have already set the time, and I will update it when the time comes."

"Yes." Lin Chengbu nodded.

"Go and try," Yuan Wu clapped the crumbs on his hands, "I have time."

"What to try?" Lin Chengbu was stunned.

"Try if I can send you to Samsara," Yuan Wu raised his head and drank the Coke, squeezed the can, "start from the first one."