I Just Came to Borrow a Light Chapter 49:

&nb Yuan Wu glanced at Jiang Chengyu: "What is successful and what is unsuccessful?"

&nb"Don't play stupid with me," Jiang Chengyu put the cigarette in his mouth and held it in his mouth. When he lit the cigarette, he took a breath, which affected the wound at the corner of his mouth. He twisted his face for a long time, "Fuck."

&nb"I can't tell," Yuan Wu took a cigarette and lit it, "Anyway, I smoke it almost every day, and I went to buy a water heater in the morning."

&nb "I'm not asking this, I know you two are like buy-one-get-one-free every day," Jiang Chengyu gritted his teeth and tried hard to control the extent of his lips opening and closing, "Fuck, I'm having trouble speaking now, can you please let me talk less? Say a few words?"

&nb"Let's fall in love." Yuan Wu said.

&nbJiang Chengyu choked on his cigarette, coughed and twitched the corners of his mouth. He pointed at Yuan Wu with a painful expression, but didn't say a word for a long time.

&nb"I don't know what to say," Yuan Wu looked at him, "Isn't that what it is like to fall in love, at least it's much more comfortable than the so-called 'love' I talked about before."

&nb "Do you like him?" Jiang Chengyu asked, pressing the corner of his mouth.

&nb "I like it." Yuan Wu answered this question very succinctly, without any pressure or confusion.

&nb"What do you like about him?" Jiang Chengyu asked again.

&nb "He said that you don't need a reason to like someone," Yuan Wu was smoking a cigarette, looking at the smoke drifting upward, "No one in this world can do that again."&nb

&nb "He likes you, revolves around you, he is happy when you laugh, he is worried when you are upset, he can do anything for you," Jiang Chengyu stared at him, "so you decided to like him, right?"

&nb Yuan Wu glanced at him and said nothing.

&nb "I've seen you two are in a wrong state," Jiang Chengyu held a cigarette, "you are in a wrong state, and neither is his state, one of you is 'as long as he is with me', the other is 'Engong' I want this, so I want to be like this', it's too inexplicable."

&nbYuan Wu still did not speak.

&nbJiang Chengyu has never been in a serious relationship, at least not in Yuan Wu's memory, but Jiang Chengyu has countless friends around him who have lived in the bushes. For him, this kind of love is something that can be clearly seen. s things.

&nb Yuan Wu did not admit that Jiang Chengyu's words were right, but he did not want to deny it either.

&nbTo a certain extent, Jiang Chengyu's words made him suddenly lose his direction.

&nb"No, you two can pull it down," Jiang Chengyu said, "before I have no idea about him at all, you withdraw, I will go."

&nbYuan Wu gave him the middle finger.

&nb This discussion did not continue. Neither Jiang Chengyu nor Yuan Wu liked to discuss life and feelings. After a while of silence, the topic returned to the inhuman wound on Jiang Chengyu's face.

&nb It's really common to be beaten, and it is said that there are many injuries on the body.

&nb But Changyu doesn't take much advantage of it.

&nbJiang Chengyu gritted his teeth: "He will definitely not crook his mouth when he laughs in the future. I punched his mouth straight!"

&nbLin Chengbu smiled and leaned against the wall with his ribs.

&nbI want to adjust my mood before going in.

&nb Yuan Wu's liking was beyond his expectations, and what he had already felt was that Yuan Wu tolerated and cooperated with him more than he could feel Yuan Wu's feelings for himself.

&nbJiang Chengyu used a very accurate name.

&nbIn Yuan Wu's heart, as the only person who did not give up Yuan Wu...he was kind to Yuan Wu.

&nbBenevolence.

&nb Maybe just like Yuan Wu gave him the same definition.

&nbFather.

&nbAlthough Lin Chengbu will also say that he is the Holy Father and the Lord, he will also say that being so nice to Yuan Wu is waiting for him to show his promise...

&nb But once he found out that Yuan Wu really seemed to do this, he did not have a trace of happiness, only deep disappointment and loss.

&nbWhat he wants is not gratitude and touching.

&nbWhat he wants is love.

&nbLin Chengbu closed his eyes, raised his head and lightly knocked on the wall.

&nb7:10pm.

&nbIt was windy outside the box.

&nbI looked at the garden with a plate of spare ribs.

&nbI was a little disappointed by those words.

&nbAn auto mechanic turned cook, once lost, he can force himself to become Wong Kar Wai.

&nb The door of the box opened suddenly, and Yuan Wu came out with a cigarette in his mouth, presumably wanting to smoke in the yard.

&nbWhen he saw Lin Chengbu leaning against the wall with his ribs, he was stunned.

&nbLin Chengbu was also stunned. Yuan Wu came out too suddenly, and he was distracted again. He didn't hear any movement at all, and he didn't even have time to look like he was about to enter the door.

&nbThe two looked at each other for a few seconds.

&nbLin Chengbu felt that this was probably the most tacit understanding between him and Yuan Wu since they met. No one said anything, but they all knew in an instant.

&nbI heard you.

&nbI know you heard me.

&nb "Are the dishes ready?" Yuan Wu put out the cigarette in his mouth on the trash can next to him.

&nb"Well," Lin Chengbu nodded, "this is the last set."

&nbYuan Wu turned around and entered the box again. Jiang Chengyu looked up and saw the two of them came in together, and was stunned: "Have you met?"

&nb"I just happened to..." Lin Chengbu put the dishes on the table, "The dishes are ready, let's eat."

&nb"Aren't you going back to the kitchen?" Jiang Chengyu asked.

&nb "Well, don't go back, tell the boss," Lin Chengbu sat down and let the waiter who followed up to prepare the service go out, "You can do it yourself, you can do other things."

&nb This was probably the least meal Lin Chengbu had spoken to in such a long time, apart from eating alone.

&nbHe didn't want Yuan Wu and Jiang Chengyu to see his emotions, but when something he was worried about but never wanted to face suddenly appeared, he couldn't control himself.

&nbYuan Wu has seen it, and Jiang Chengyu must have seen it too.

&nb It can be seen that there is nothing he can do. He really can't find a way to soothe his emotions in a short time.

&nbAs long as Yuan Wu is not alone with him, he will talk less. If he doesn't speak again, Jiang Chengyu is basically the only one who is active.

&nb Under such circumstances, Lin Chengbu had to admire Jiang Chengyu, even if he and Yuan Wu just responded ummmmmmmmly, he didn't make the scene any more embarrassing.

&nb But after eating, Jiang Chengyu returned to the 18th, and when only Yuan Wu and him were left, the atmosphere became a little subtle.

&nb"Shall I take you back?" Lin Chengbu started the car.

&nb"Yeah." Yuan Wu responded.

&nb Compared with him, Yuan Wu is even less good at or unwilling to hide his emotions. He used to be like this, impatient and unhappy, all written on his face.

&nbThe same is true now, and the depressed mood influenced by Lin Chengbu is also straightforward and undisguised.

&nb Silent all the way.

&nbWhen Lin Chengbu parked the car downstairs, he turned his head: "Did you hear that?"

&nb"...Well," Lin Chengbu hesitated and nodded, "but...it's not surprising."

&nb "Chengyu asked suddenly," Yuan Wu put his arms on the car window, and his fingers picked a lock of hair around his forehead, "I didn't even think about it, I didn't know what to say."

&nb"Actually, I can't think about such a thing," Lin Chengbu said, "the first reaction is almost always accurate."

&nb"Really." Yuan Wu hooked the corner of his mouth.

&nb"But I'm quite surprised," Lin Chengbu looked at him, "you said you liked me."

&nb"I like it very much," Yuan Wu said, "I've reached this stage, it's impossible to say I don't like it, I don't believe it myself."

&nb"Me," Lin Chengbu said with some difficulty, "actually this sentence is enough."

&nbYuan Wu turned his head to look at him: "lie me or lie to yourself?"

&nb "No... I'm just... I mean..." Lin Chengbu frowned and asked determinedly, "Am I too greedy? Do something good and still care about gains and losses and dissatisfaction ?"

&nb "If you say 'do a good deed', it's a little too much," Yuan Wu smiled, "It's not something that can be done from the very beginning." &nb /

&nb"It's nothing, I'll be humble," Lin Chengbu said, "I just want to, I'm so happy..."

&nb "Do you just like me?" Yuan Wu interrupted him.

&nbLin Chengbu looked at him without speaking.

&nbYuan Wu also looked at him, waiting for his answer.

&nb"I dare not say it," Lin Chengbu was silent for a long time before speaking, "I dare not say it. With your current state, if I say it, you will run away."

&nb"Why?" Yuan Wu asked.

&nb "You will feel that you can't pay back, it's too heavy." Lin Chengbu said.

&nbI love you.

&nb Lin Chengbu never said these three words... No, he did, he told his mother that it was the homework assigned by the teacher, and he went home and said to his parents that I love you. After he finished speaking, he started Goosebumps all over, my mother is probably the same, rubbing her arms and saying whether your teacher is wrong is not in line with the national conditions...

&nb.

&nbDigress.

&nbI love you.

&nb These three words have a very high status in Lin Chengbu's heart. They are ranked first in terms of numbness and difficulty in speaking. The key is that these three words are very special. It dissipated as soon as it was blown, but when it came out of the heart, it sank badly.

&nbHe didn't want Yuan Wu, who was already "repaying his kindness", to carry a heavier burden.

&nb Even if Yuan Wu can imagine that his feelings for him are not just liking, but as long as he doesn't say it, everything can be discussed, and it won't force both of them into a corner.

&nb"I'll go upstairs first," Yuan Wu opened the car door, "I'll go to Dr. Liang's place tomorrow afternoon, now once a month, to chat with him."

&nb"Yes." Lin Chengbu nodded.

&nbTomorrow, Yuan Wu will not go to the 18th. He suddenly panicked when he thought of this moment. He found that if he didn't keep looking for various reasons, picking up Yuan Wu to the 18th was their only contact.

&nb Except for the purchase of a water heater, Yuan Wu never made any requests for a meeting. He asked him every time, and Yuan Wu agreed.

&nb How long can this state last?

&nb"Xiaobubu," Yuan Wu got out of the car, turned his head and leaned halfway into the car to look at him, "I have something I don't know what to say."

&nb "Whatever you say, I don't need to make drafts with me." Lin Chengbu smiled.

&nb"I like you," Yuan Wu said, "It shouldn't be because of anything else, I mean, there is no specific reason, but I like it a lot."

&nb"Yes." Lin Chengbu nodded seriously.

&nb"I may..." Yuan Wu frowned, as if thinking, "Maybe..."

&nbIt was the first time that Lin Chengbu saw Yuan Wu organize language so hard, and suddenly felt a little distressed. If he didn't need to consider his feelings, Yuan Wu didn't have to live so tired at all.

&nb"It may be like this for a long time," Yuan Wu said, "Do you understand what I mean? I may be like you for a long time..."

&nb"I understand." Lin Chengbu said.

&nbMy feeling for you is probably at the "like" stage.

&nbAfter Yuan Wu turned and went upstairs, Lin Chengbu lit a cigarette.

&nbAt last he could no longer be an ostrich, and finally he could no longer ignore the lingering unease in his heart, although he thought about making things clearer and wanting to know more clearly Yuan Wu's thoughts and feelings.

&nb But these came a little too suddenly, he didn't even have time to prepare himself a little, and suddenly faced this reality.

&nb What made him even more uncomfortable was that if he didn't want to change the status quo, Yuan Wu would have no opinion and would continue to accompany him, poking their heads in the sand together.

&nbUntil suffocated.

&nbDoes Yuan Wu really just like him?

&nbReally?

&nb Is he really just touched or touched or touched by him?

&nbIs it really hard to go one step further from liking?

&nbLin Chengbu frowned, holding the cigarette in his mouth and barely smoking, until the ashes fell on the back of his hand and scalded him, then he suddenly regained his senses and pressed the cigarette **** into the ashtray.

&nb As I was about to start the car, my phone rang.

&nb is Yuan Wu's phone number.

&nb"Hello?" Lin Chengbu answered the phone, opened the door and got out of the car, looked upstairs and saw a head sticking out of the window.

&nb"Is the car broken?" Yuan Wu asked.

&nb"...No," Lin Chengbu said, "I smoked a cigarette."

&nb"Are you coming up?" Yuan Wu asked again.

&nbLin Chengbu's heart beat faster for three seconds, but he still quickly said: "No, I have to get up early tomorrow to go to the store."

&nb"Oh," Yuan Wu's head shrank back, "Then... let's talk about it."

&nb"What's the matter?" Lin Chengbu immediately asked, "What's the matter?"

&nbYuan Wu's head popped out of the window again: "When you are free, let's go to the movies."

&nb"Watching a movie?" Lin Chengbu was stunned, "What movie do you want to watch?"

&nb "...I don't know what movies are coming out recently," Yuan Wu hesitated, "I just mean, go see a movie, what do you want to see?"

&nb "I... let me check." Lin Chengbu raised his head.

&nb"You can go directly, just see whichever the time hits." Yuan Wu said.

&nb"Okay." Lin Chengbu said.

&nbAfter hanging up, Yuan Wu retracted his head and closed the window.

&nbLin Chengbu drove the car out of the community and stopped at the place where he stopped when he came to watch for a while, and then slowly walked to the bench where he always sat.

&nbYuan Wu was comforting him.

&nbWhat is watching movies? Yuan Wu doesn't like watching movies at all. He would rather go to concerts than go to the cinema. Lin Chengbu heard him say it a long time ago and felt that watching movies was oppressive and uncomfortable. .

&nb But now Yuan Wu suddenly said to watch a movie together.

&nbToo fake.

&nbThe fake made him feel bad.

&nbLin Chengbu lowered his head and scratched his hair. The cold wind at night blew from his fingers to his scalp, and the coolness penetrated into his body, which could not be relieved for a long time.

&nbSuddenly, it became like this.

&nb The pretense of balance and smoothness was so inexplicably broken.

&nbHe suddenly got a little irritable, took out his mobile phone and dialed Jiang Chengyu's number.

&nb"Hello?" Jiang Chengyu's voice was mixed in the sound waves on the 18th, "Why did you call me now, and you didn't meet Xiao Wu..."

&nb"It's all your fault!" Lin Chengbu shouted.

&nb "What the **** did I do to you?" Jiang Chengyu was stunned.

&nb "It's okay to ask what the **** you are asking!" Lin Chengbu said.

&nb "...You two are my friends, and you've been together for so long, isn't it normal for me to ask a question!" Jiang Chengyu reacted, "If you say another word, believe it or not. Find someone to take care of you!"

&nb"Fuck it!" Lin Chengbu said.

&nb"Fuck," Jiang Chengyu laughed, "No, what did you hear when you were hiding outside?"

&nb"I heard it all," Lin Chengbu sighed, "not a single sentence."

&nb "Actually, you don't have to think so much about it. You know that person Yuan Wu, he has always been like this," Jiang Chengyu said, "If he had to say it, he had never cared so much about anyone before, or I I won't ask."

&nb "That's because I'm the benefactor, the benefactor!" Lin Chengbu said, "No one in this world can treat him like this except me, not before, and probably not in the future, there is only one heavenly father. "

&nb"What a mess," Jiang Chengyu also sighed, "Why don't I give you an idea."

&nb"Speak." Lin Chengbu said.

&nb"You spend the night with me, then tell him," Jiang Chengyu said, "to see how he reacts."

&nb "...Jiang Chengyu," Lin Chengbu was speechless, and he didn't even bother to raise his voice, "I tell you, if I want to beat you, I won't be lighter than Changyu."

&nb "Don't mention that kid! I'm looking for him." Jiang Chengyu's voice was vicious.

&nb"You keep looking," Lin Chengbu felt a little weak, "I'll hang up first."

&nb "Don't be so depressed," Jiang Chengyu changed his serious tone, "think about it, the two of you are calm now, just like a boat floating on the water, walking slowly along the water, you are useless in a hurry, The speed depends on the waves."

&nb"Ah? Who is it?" Lin Chengbu was stunned.

&nb"Waves, ocean waves, waves in water, real waves," Jiang Chengyu said, "surfing waves, surfing fast, that's because there are waves."

&nbBecause of the waves.

&nbIf there are no waves, you can only drift slowly.

&nb But who knows how long it will take to float, Yuan Wu is so repressed and accompanied him slowly drifting, what if it is a backwater bay and the two of them just go around in circles like this?

&nbI'm getting bored, Yuan Wu may get off the boat and go ashore.

&nbAnd possible seasickness.

&nbOh no, Yuan Wu lived on the boat for two years...but the boat was parked...

&nbWill a parked boat get seasick?

&nbLin Chengbu stood up and slowly returned to the car.

&nb It's a helpless thing to go astray when the brain is not enough at the beginning.

&nb11:10.

&nbLin Chengbu and Yuan Wu stand in front of the ticket machine in the studio.

&nb He felt that Yuan Wu was just as bad as him when it came to choosing the time. The movie he wanted to watch had one at 11:5 and the next one was at 1:30 noon.

&nbHowever, in order to watch the movie with peace of mind, they have already eaten their lunch.

&nb"Have another meal?" Lin Chengbu said.

&nb "I really don't want to accompany you to the hospital for injections." Yuan Wu said.

&nb"Then let's go shopping?" Lin Chengbu said, "There is a video game mall on the second floor, go to Biao for a while?"

&nb"Okay." Yuan Wu nodded.

&nb The two stood on the elevator in silence all the way down, Lin Chengbu hesitated for a long time, and asked softly: "Uncle, are you annoying?"

&nb"Huh?" Yuan Wu turned to look at him, "What bothers you?"

&nb"With me like this." Lin Chengbu said.

&nb"It's okay," Yuan Wu said, "it's not annoying, nothing to worry about."

&nb"Will it be annoying if it goes on like this all the time?" Lin Chengbu asked again, "This shouldn't be the state you want, right."

&nb"I don't care," Yuan Wu looked at the head of the person in front of him, "I never thought about what the state I want is, you don't have to mind it."

&nb "I don't need you like this," Lin Chengbu suddenly got a little excited, and pulled Yuan Wu down the elevator quickly, to a place with few people next to him, "Yuan Wu, I don't need you like this, I really I don't need you to follow me carefully! I don't need you to sing!"

&nb"What do you sing?" Yuan Wu looked at him.

&nb"Thanksgiving—" Lin Chengbu sang, "Thank you for—"

&nb"...do you want to applaud?" Yuan Wu clapped his hands twice.

&nb"You know what I mean," Lin Chengbu said, "I said before that I wanted you to show me your love. It was a joke, you couldn't hear it, did you?"

&nb"Can you not bother about this?" Yuan Wu leaned against the wall.

&nb"It's not that I'm struggling with this, it's..." Lin Chengbu frowned, trying to find his native language, "yes..."

&nb"You're just tangled," Yuan Wu suddenly became impatient, "I don't want to think about these things, I don't want to analyze how we should get along! Why are we together, how should we be together!"

&nbLin Chengbu looked at him, didn't say a word for a long time, and finally sighed softly: "I know I shouldn't say it, but I still have to."

&nbYuan Wu looked at him.

&nb "I don't want you to thank me for loving me, I want you to love me." Lin Chengbu said.