I Am Your Little Sunshine Chapter 40: I want to be with you all the time

After a while, the two of them bought the materials and books they needed, and then went separately to browse other books of interest.

Xie Tian doesn't really have any books he wants to buy, he just wanders aimlessly in front of the shelves.

There are always a lot of people in front of the bookshelves of youth books, most of them are junior high school and high school students, and most of them are girls. Just as Xie Tian was about to go around, he heard two girls whispering about the illustrator in a certain petty bourgeois literature magazine , unfortunately, it was Xie Tian.

The two little girls were saying that he must be a tall and thin goddess with long hair who likes to wear a white gauze skirt and an indifferent expression. The paintings always make them feel hopeless and imprisoned. The new picture of , said that the interweaving of despair and hope in the new picture is like being in minus ten degrees but reaching out to pick up a thin ray of morning light, the bone-chilling cold but the warmth that makes people want to cry.

Xie Tian was the first to hear someone commenting on his painting, and had been standing around the corner listening for a while when he reacted.

The two girls didn't see Xie Tian, ​​who was covered by the bookshelf, and happily walked away with the magazine. Only then did Xie Tian come out and pick up the magazine.

The magazine that Xie Tian contributed to will be revised in the new year, and it is now in the December issue. It is a special issue with the theme of nostalgia. There is a topic plan in the magazine's illustration inventory in recent years. Xie Tian has three works selected. Now, one of them is the painting that the two girls were discussing. It was a draft he handed in during November.

The painting was drawn after he returned to City D on the 11th holiday. This is the first time he has drawn a manuscript without the editor-in-chief giving him a theme. He didn't have any hope of getting it published. I didn't expect the editor-in-chief's response to be so great. He even praised him for a long time. One painting tops the other.

After returning from City A, the editor-in-chief called Xie Tian and said that the company wanted to package him. Xie Tian refused without thinking. The editor-in-chief persuaded him back and forth many times, saying that he was very talented , don't pass up the opportunity.

Xie Tian was just a little bit angry when he got the final editor in charge. It is true that Xie Tian's paintings are not bad, but there are many people who are good at painting. It is not difficult to find someone who can draw better and more obedient than Xie Tian. Marketing for a gimmick, but still pulling him in the end, if he agrees, it's a win-win. But Xie Tian just doesn't want to. He has always been very talkative, and his communication with the editor-in-chief basically only talks about business affairs, and he doesn't have any extra words.

The phone calls that the editor-in-chief lobbied him to sign were not classified by him as official business. Usually, the editor-in-chief would say that he was busy with his studies and had to hang up before he said a few words to Xie Tian.

The editor-in-charge mentioned this project to him. Because Xie Tian's drawings were all bought out, he did not pay additional fees for this use, so Xie Tian didn't take it too seriously.

After a few times, the editor in charge basically gave up persuasion. Although the usual drafts are still going on, Xie Tian obviously felt the difficulty of drafting. After the draft of the previous issue was reviewed, he has been returned three or four times in a row. Sub-painting. He also knows that his current character is not suitable for survival in society, and he also knows that he has offended many people intentionally or unintentionally, but he can't get out of the prison in his heart and show himself in front of everyone. The most fear and disgust cannot be suppressed in the bottom of my heart.

Xie Tian felt that his understanding of the painting was not as profound as those of the two girls just now. He only remembered that he was very calm when he was painting, and now he still doesn't feel any other emotions when he looks at the painting.

Putting the magazine back on the bookshelf, Xie Tian shook his head and couldn't help sighing. I'm afraid he'll have to contribute to a few more magazines.

The compensation for the previous fight had almost drained his savings, and although his uncle regularly deposited money into his card, he didn't want to take that money, let alone spend it.

I couldn't be in a hurry to submit a manuscript, so Xie Tian had to comfort himself that he had no special need for money in the near future, and that his little savings could still support him for a while.

I never wanted to work in the past. I didn't need it at first, but then I didn't want it. During this time, I was always pulled out by Ma Yangyang. When I think about it, I don't seem to have it. So resisted.

Thinking of Ma Yangyang, Xie Tian couldn't help but start searching for the boy with bright eyes. If it wasn't for the boy who always surrounded him enthusiastically, his life would be much bleaker now than it is now, no matter from the spirit level or otherwise.

Thinking about this, Xie Tian suddenly couldn't wait to see him, and saw him standing in front of him with starry eyes, slightly raising his head and smiling at himself.

Ma Yangyang didn't go too far, he was basically in the same area as Xie Tian, ​​and Xie Tian found him after a while.

He was half-squatting beside the bookshelf with a photo album in his hands, fascinated. Xie Tian looked at him from a few steps behind him, and he didn't respond for a while. Xie Tian took a few steps forward and squatted beside him.

Ma Yangyang felt that there was someone around him, so he hurriedly moved a step before looking at the person. When he saw Xie Tian, ​​he really showed a smile of Xie Tian meeting, "Have you been optimistic?"

Xie Tian nodded, "Well, there's nothing particularly I want to read."

Ma Yangyang put the shadow on, stood up and prepared to put it back. He squatted here for a long time, and when he stood up, he realized that his legs were so numb that they were not his own. He hurriedly stood up and almost didn't fall. It took a lot of concentration to avoid embarrassing himself in front of his crush. But he also knew that his grinning expression just now must be a little stupid.

Ma Yangyang's head was imaginative, Xie Tian guessed what was going on by looking at his expression, and hurriedly stretched out his hand to help him.

Ma Yangyang was supported by him like an old man, embarrassed and embarrassed, and his heart was overwhelmed, and he shied away: "I'm fine, I've been squatting for a while, it's just a little numb, and I'll be fine soon."

Xie Tian still didn't let go, frowned and said, "Take your toes to the ground and try."

Ma Yangyang obediently followed suit, but his feet were numb, and after a long time on tiptoe, the numbness gradually disappeared. Anyway, he still gave Xie Tian a credit, "Wow, Xie Tian. , your method is too effective, it's really not numb."

Xie Tian did not reply, his eyes swept over the bookshelf and asked, "Do you like photography very much?"

Ma Yangyang nodded, "Yes, I especially like portraits."

Xie Tian thought of Ma Yangyang, who was incarnated on the mountain that day and filmed Crazy Demon. He raised the corner of his mouth and said, "It's good." He took out the album that Ma Yangyang had just put back and flipped through it, suddenly Thinking that he had never painted a portrait before, he asked again, "Do you want to buy it?"

Ma Yangyang shook his head, his tone suddenly a little lost: "I don't want to buy anymore, we are both in the second year of high school, I can't be distracted if my grades are not good."

Xie Tian looked at him sideways, and saw that he was still staring at the album in his hand, with a face of entanglement and reluctance, he said: "It's good to adjust the pace of study with a little hobby. ."

Ma Yangyang sighed loudly when he heard it, "You are a scholar and you don't understand." Then he looked at Xie Tian, ​​"It takes almost three hours for you to study for an hour. If it goes on like this, I might be separated."

If you don't work hard, even if you don't get sent out, I'm afraid I won't be able to be in the same class as you this time next year. Ma Yangyang didn't dare to say these words, and his eyes looking at Xie Tian couldn't help but feel a little down.

Xie Tian never knew how to comfort people. His mouth grew a few times, but he didn't know what to say. Seeing him like this, Ma Yangyang comforted him in turn, "It's okay, I won't be discouraged, I will definitely study hard. , try not to be divided."

Xie Tian tightened his hand holding the album, stared at him and said, "You will not be separated."

Ma Yangyang was warmed by his seriousness. He felt like he was filled with blood bars. He smiled and said, "Well, I will definitely not be separated." In order to be with you all the time I will definitely not be separated from a class, not only that, I will try my best to be admitted to the same school as you, and I will try my best to be by your side all the time.

You can't slow down, and I don't want you to slow down, so I'm just trying to catch up.

Ma Yangyang leaned back against the bookshelf and looked forward, pretending not to care, and asked, "Which university do you want to go to in the future?"

Xie Tian also looked down at the album and replied, "I haven't thought about it yet."

Ma Yangyang glanced at him sideways, sighed a little, and said in a light tone: "Anyway, your grades are so good, you will definitely go to the best university in the future."

Xie Tian also turned around and leaned against him, silent for a while, and said, "Maybe."

Ma Yangyang asked again: "Will you choose a science class next semester?"

Xie Tian shook his head and asked, "How about you?"

He once thought about going to the best university. At that time, he was in high spirits. He always thought that he would go to the best university with the best major, and even become the number one there, but today he feels that even if What if those goals were achieved? There is nothing in the world that will not collapse, so what's the point of fighting for it?

Xie Tian didn't know how scared Ma Yangyang was about the possible separation, and Ma Yangyang didn't understand that Xie Tian was a rootless duckweed, and he didn't understand the horror of drifting with the tide and nowhere to stop. His answer was quite unconvincing. "Science."

Xie Tian nodded and said, "Me too."