Heroine’s Road to Becoming Scum: The 50th bowl of soup (3)

From the appearance, Chen Xinghuo is absolutely perfect. He is very good-looking, and he has been immersed in books all the year round | Books and inks give him a kind of bookishness that ordinary people do not have. Perhaps because of his loneliness since childhood, he yearns for the companionship of the soul more than the snuggle of the body. The quiet and tranquil life is far more attractive to him than the vast sky and youthful willfulness.

When he met Qing Dongchu, he was not tempted. It's just that as time passed, Qing Dong's stalking courtship gradually made Chen Xinghuo feel heartbroken. He realized that he fell in love with the same sex, and he never hesitated or flinched, but Qing Dong, who once wanted to tell the world, took the initiative to hide this relationship.

He didn't understand before, but later he learned that in many cases, the effort and the gain are often not proportional.

He's lost a lot, and finally understands it.

Some people have a rough life and never find true love in their lives. Some people enjoy wealth and prosperity, play with the sincerity of others, and still live happily and comfortably.

He had a good life until he met Qingdong, and while he felt love, he also welcomed heartbreak and pain. This torment made him restless after his death. He had no way to get rid of everything and head for the next life, so he could only choose to jump off Wangchuan.

After a thousand years of struggle and torture, he no longer loves this person, but the wound in his heart has never recovered for a moment.

This is a thousand years after he and Qingdong meet again. Once he wanted to grow old with this person, to become a better person for this person, to stand with this person and face the world hand in hand. But in the end he stood alone across the world and was smashed to pieces.

In Qing Dong's consciousness, he hadn't seen Chen Xinghuo for a few days, but now that he met, he felt something was wrong. Let's not talk about this house, just Chen Xinghuo's attitude - it's worse than when they first met. At that time, he was completely refusing people thousands of miles away, and his indifference could be seen with the naked eye. At this moment, his indifference was troubling. An ordinary member of this world.

If Chen Xinghuo didn't know the truth, then he should be overjoyed to see him. If Chen Xinghuo knew the truth, he should also be angry or questioning, but Qingdong has fantasized many times, but he never thought that he would end up It is so.

He looked at him, within reach, but far away.

"What are you doing."

Even their voices are extraordinarily cold, and it feels like they have never had a heart-to-heart intimacy, but have been strangers from the very beginning.

Qing Dong is spoiled, no one has ever dared to talk to him like this, even if he is as cold as Chen Xinghuo, wouldn't he dote on him even more after being chased by him? Usually he plays with his temper, and no matter how he acts, Chen Xinghuo will not say a bad thing to him. This should be kept in normal times, Qing Dong lost his temper early, but today, for some reason, looking at Chen Xinghuo, he couldn't say anything.

Chen Xinghuo really doesn't care, it doesn't matter how much Qingdong makes trouble, he doesn't want to continue to entangle with this person when he returns to his own world - although he doesn't know what he wants .

Qing Dong's facial expression was dull, Chen Xinghuo was taller than him, and looked like he had just gotten off work, because he was still carrying some fresh vegetables in his hands, which looked full of fireworks. Qingdong suddenly remembered what Chen Xinghuo once said that he wanted to live with him for the rest of his life, like ordinary people, being happy and simple, it doesn't matter if you don't have children, it doesn't matter if you can't be public, as long as the two of you are together.

But now he doesn't want to be with him anymore, does he?

At this time, Chen Xinghuo's goodness is particularly obvious. He is gentle and considerate, full of gentlemanly demeanor, compared with Gu Feng, who always has Qingdong's appetite and likes to play domineering, Chen Xinghuo respects him from the bottom of his heart, and loves him earnestly and devoutly.

Everyone has only one share of that kind of love.

Seeing that Qingdong didn't answer, Chen Xinghuo put down the vegetables and fruits and said, "It's getting late, you should go back."

His tone was still calm and gentle, without the anger or resentment that Qingdong imagined, but Qingdong didn't know how to react, so he walked slowly towards the door in the sight of Chen Xinghuo, and then watched Looking at the door being locked, he realized that he hadn't had time to say a word from start to finish.

I don't know if I didn't have time to say it, or I couldn't say it.

Those eyes are still as good-looking as ever, but they are no longer as tender and affectionate as they used to be. Qing Dong stood at the door for a long time, not knowing what he wanted to do, until the phone rang and it was Gu Feng.

He didn't pick up the messenger. At the door of Chen Xinghuo's house, he didn't have the courage to answer the call.

I don't know how long I stood there, Qing Dong finally raised his hand and knocked on the door, but he was disappointed. Chen Xinghuo didn't answer his plan at all, let alone the door was opened, and there was no one who even asked.

There's nothing left to struggle. At this point, even an idiot knows why Chen Xinghuo did this. Just thinking that that person didn't say hurtful words in front of him even so, Qingdong's heart was full of mixed feelings. He remembered what he saw on TV, and Chen Xinghuo said calmly that he fell in love with a man, he didn't think he was at fault, but the person he fell in love with was not worth it.

Not worth it.

A man who once regarded himself as a treasure, thought he was not worth it.

Qing Dong returned to his apartment in despair. Now Gu Feng often comes to live with him. Gu Feng doesn't know everything like Chen Xinghuo. Every time two people come here, they have crazy sex, and then Gu Feng will ask him how to treat Chen Xinghuo so that Chen Xinghuo can fall from that position so that he can take his place.

For the first time, Qing Dong felt that she was being used. He felt that Gu Feng liked him quite a bit, but what if he didn't?

If he is allowed to deceive people with love, others can't deceive him with love?

But when he entered the door and saw Gu Feng who had just taken a shower and came out of the bathroom, Qingdong felt that this was not the case again.

Compared with the elegant and cold Chen Xinghuo, Gu Fengdao is more like a fire, handsome and strong, full of submissive masculinity.

Gu Feng didn't wipe off the water droplets on his body, so he pulled Qing Dong into his arms and kissed him. After a fierce exchange of kisses, he asked him, "What's the matter, I'm not happy."

Of course he really likes Qingdong, why not? This young man is good-looking and has a good family background. He can help him in many places. If he wants to achieve his goal, he cannot rely on himself.

When Qing Dong was kissed by Gu Feng, Chen Xinghuo's face strangely appeared in his mind. That cold and indifferent face, as if he didn't care about anything, looked at him from a distance.

"...It's nothing." Qingdong pushed Gu Feng away, walked to the sofa and sat down, saying, "Do we have to treat Chen Xinghuo like that, he has always treated me well, I don't want to..."

"Don't you still like him?" Gu Feng's face turned black in a flash, he strode over, pushed Qing Dong down on the sofa, and approached him: "Didn't I tell you, no more Like anyone other than me?"

"I didn't!" Qing Dong subconsciously denied it, but was inexplicably guilty and dared not look directly into Gu Feng's eyes. "I just don't want to hurt him!"

"How can this be called to harm him? If you win, you will lose. Could it be that your Qing family has been standing in the Milky Way for so many years because your methods are very bright?!" Gu Feng stared at Qing Dong fiercely. "Me and Chen Xinghuo, you can only choose one!"

Qingdong was flustered, he knew in his heart that Chen Xinghuo would never turn back, but because of Gu Feng's words, hope was ignited, can he make a choice? These two equally good men, he can choose arbitrarily?

But before he had time to think clearly, Gu Feng sealed all his consciousness, immersed in the ocean of lust.

Chen Xinghuo works step by step every day, going home, cooking, and sleeping. Just like every day he lived, he tried very hard to find something to do for himself, such as volunteering, doing charity... He kept himself busy every day, and he also went to climb mountains in his spare time, Take a look at the scenery and taste the food.

He did everything he could, but he still had no way to hope for the world from the bottom of his heart.

He thinks everything sucks.

Because of the courage to express his sexuality, Chen Xinghuo's status in the hearts of the people has risen to a higher level. Although there is no lack of disgust and opposition from some radicals, he is still the best in this country and the most outstanding in the Galactic Federation. High profile diplomat. Everyone believed that, in time, this man would lead the country to another glory.

He can, he has the ability, the courage, and the determination.

The more complacent Chen Xinghuo was, the more difficult it was for Gu Feng to bear the hatred in his heart. In all fairness, he is equally good, he doesn't think he has any place to lose to Chen Xinghuo, and even Chen Xinghuo's favorite person has turned into his arms, doesn't he? But even so, Chen Xinghuo was still on a big mountain in front of Gu Feng.

He is a few years younger than Chen Xinghuo, so he has become a so-called junior. In a country that pays attention to etiquette, when he sees Chen Xinghuo, he has to bow and say hello. No matter how powerful it is, it seems that no matter how hard you try, you can't succeed.

Just because someone is standing in front of me forever.

Since it cannot be crossed, it will be destroyed.

Actually, Chen Xinghuo and Gu Feng knew each other well, but they still cooperated in their work, and they still greeted politely when they met - so calm on the surface, but under the skin there were turbulent tides.

I'm afraid no one would have thought that these two equally outstanding diplomats, on the surface, are very close friends, but in fact they are incompatible?

It's just to see who can hold their breath first.