Joker Game (Fei Gua): (Non-text—I haven’t written it for a few days, write a few strokes to find the feeling) The story of the contained object…

"I love you."

In her sleep, she murmured softly, her voice was full of love...and exhaustion.

Sunlight penetrated through the curtains, surrounded by a faint smell of wine that has not dissipated.

By the faint morning light, I opened my eyes and listened to her soft snoring again...

"Eh..." I rubbed my head and let out the groan that all hangovers make.

It's the second morning at her house, and the first day... I'm totally in the wine.

No way, the first time I came to her hometown, "wine" is indispensable no matter what.

The sound must have disturbed her, the snoring stopped suddenly, she pulled the quilt in a daze, and opened her eyes.

I meet her eyes...

Beautiful, confident, kind, careful... I am glad that I can marry such a woman. In my 20 years of life knowledge, this is undoubtedly love.

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"Woke up early..." she said, looking at me.

"Well... I drank too much, I woke up early." As I said, I picked up a glass of water by the bed and drank it.

She always keeps a glass of water by the bed... Like I said before, she is very caring.

Suddenly, I feel a little weird! !

"Ahem..." I was choked by this sudden awareness and coughed.

She sat up and patted my back.

"Slow down..."

She said worriedly.

These two words exploded in my ears like thunder, I turned around and opened the curtain behind me hesitantly...

A few seconds later, a sparrow flew by the window...

And my body is shaking involuntarily!

Then... I immediately got dressed and rushed out of the room.

She may have been frightened by my inexplicable behavior, she didn't say anything for a while, just stared blankly on the bed!

I ran to the street in a panic, and saw a yellow Jetta passing by, an old lady chasing a bus, a girl wearing knee-high barrel socks...

It's like my brain is being blasted... no, it's like being bombarded by continuous mortar fire!

No matter how hard I dare to believe it, I have to believe in this incredible situation.

All of this...is exactly the same as yesterday!

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I live in a small city where I have to search for a long time on the map. I live a life that I don’t like and can’t escape. Three years ago, I met her and fell in love.

I'm drinking now. In the north, family members always drink when they see their wives.

This is my 12th...maybe 13th time sitting in this position.

In the same environment, they speak the same words, even the wine tastes the same

I've been through the same thing over and over again

The spicy liquid crossed my throat, and I was drunk again.

She took the cup for me worriedly again, and drank it for me amidst the crowd's playfulness

I know...she never drank.

But she has drunk this glass of wine for me many times

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In the room, I looked at her flushed cheeks

She looked like this yesterday... What will she say next? ?

I forgot...

Because I'm drunk at this time of day

"You look tired"

She stared at me worriedly and said.

"Uh..." I hiccupped and didn't answer. She should have said this to me yesterday too. That must be the case, and nothing has changed about what happened anyway. I don't know why at this moment, I don't have any desire to talk, anyway, tomorrow, everything will return to the original point...

She is still looking at me, as if she still said something? But I didn't hear... Alcohol confused my vision, her face gradually became blurred, and for a moment, I felt that there were many things in her eyes.

"You'll never understand!"

I yelled drunkenly and pushed her away,

How I hope that tomorrow will be a new day, or maybe all this is just a dream. "If it's a dream, let it end quickly..." I prayed, fell headlong on the bed, and fell into a deep sleep.

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"I love you..."

The same morning light, the same tone,

For me, this is a declaration more cruel than death, which means that I will be imprisoned in this day forever!

There is no past, no future, just this never-ending cycle.

I went out like a ghost, the yellow Jetta passing by, the old lady chasing the bus, the girl wearing knee-high barrel socks...

And I'm just a lonely traveler, and in the long river of years, I'm going to be alone forever...forever.

"Why don't you just kill me?" I inexplicably burst into a smile, and after a moment of spreading, I couldn't hold back anymore, laughing wildly on the street like a lunatic.

I'm smiling

I hammered the ground with my hands and attracted countless passers-by. They covered their mouths and looked at me with an idiot expression. "Then come on, come on, haha." I couldn't hold back the overwhelming helplessness and loneliness in my heart, and staggered insanely to find a strange street.

I am a lonely traveler.

Since then, my life has been just wandering around the city doing nothing. I don't have to worry about my livelihood, and I don't have to worry about tomorrow's hardships. In this case, let me be a ghost of time. I forgot how long it was, how many scenery I had seen, and how many indifferent strangers I passed by. Day after day, I was lost in the maze made of steel and concrete, wandering, like a third party unrelated to the world, watching the growth and destruction of the world in a day. I gradually feel that this eternity seems to have become my destination.

No, I can't just be trapped like this

I can't take it anymore

So

I decided to try death

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I woke up again

"I love you..."

She is still talking

I was stunned by a ghost

It suddenly occurred to me...how many times has she said "love me"?

So, I turned my head and looked at her,

And she slowly opened her eyes and looked at me,

It's still the same gaze, never changing.

"You seem very tired..." she said with some concern.

Suddenly, my heart was clenched.

"Yeah, I'm tired, the kind of tiredness you can't imagine..."

"Just look at your eyes." She said with some worry: "Tell me about it"

"You won't believe it."

"I believe in you..." She looked at me seriously

There was no warning at all, and I didn't even notice, a tear fell from my eye socket. I wiped my eyes and looked at my palm in surprise.

It turned out that I was so eager to talk about this loneliness with others.

When I touched her concerned eyes, I felt as if some emotion had burst the embankment, rushing out violently.

I told her everything, and all the while she kept her hand on my shoulder and listened quietly.

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I put on the clothes that fit me again, although I can't remember how many cycles ago the last time I wore clothes, and she turned out the collar tucked in the back of my neck for me.

In the mirror, I can see her smiling at me.

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On the wine table...the same people, those words, those wines, but I am different.

I don't want to drink today

I know that this is not in line with the customs in the north, but it doesn't matter anymore, I want to spend more time with her instead of turning myself into a drunk.

At night... in the garden of the community, there are some stars in the sky

"I don't know if tomorrow will be a cycle..." She asked with a calm smile.

"It will definitely be..." I shook my head and said

She stared at me and said. "On the bright side, maybe we are not ready for tomorrow, God gave us some time."

"Give me some time to prepare?"

"Yes." She raised her eyebrows, her black hair swaying in the wind, "everyone will have such a moment when they feel that they can't walk anymore, and they are afraid that tomorrow will come, so they should stop and stop again." Go ~IndoMTL.com~ Then what am I afraid of?"

"Love me..."

I look at her eyes that are looking at me seriously,

There are tears in her eyes, besides love, there is also a kind of expectation

"We????"

In an instant, it seemed that her eyes at this moment overlapped with the eyes she saw when she was drunk countless times before.

Suddenly, my brain seemed to be hit hard again, so shocking that I couldn't even stand still

I finally remembered what she said softly to me after countless drunks

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"I'll wait for you..."

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