Before His Eyes: 133 major depressive disorder

Guan Hong told me that at that moment I looked pitiful and weird.

Except for Ding Fei and Qi Huai, no one knew that I had a child in my womb, so in his eyes, my strange reaction was like being bewitched suddenly.

He was startled, then shackled me and went to the hospital.

After going to the hospital, the doctor told him that I should go not to the brain department, but to the psychiatry department.

At that time, I had already regained my senses. I didn't believe that I had a mental problem, and Guan Hong didn't believe it either.

But it turns out that I was still severely depressed. At that moment, I felt that I was abandoned in the endless darkness and lost myself.

Guan Hong knew more people than I did. He helped me find the best psychiatrist, a man named Xia Shansi.

When I first saw this man was gentle, he looked very gentle and well-mannered.

Guan Hong also asked someone to inquire about it for me, so he is not familiar with Dr. Xia, but this also reassures me, because I know the profession of a psychiatrist, they are very good at dissecting your heart, and you don’t care about keeping it No matter how strict the secret is, he will dig it out. Guan Hong is not familiar with him, so he can't start with Dr. Xia and ask about my past, so I will feel a little more at ease.

Dr. Xia is the one who eats this bowl of rice. I think my heart is very hard and seamless, but I don’t think that in just two classes, he has already figured out my whole body. Therefore, it guides my emotions from all aspects, then comforts me, and finds a solution for me.

Dr. Xia's time is very tight, and he receives many people every day, so my treatment time is arranged on the 15th of each month, and today is the 15th.

I communicated face-to-face with Dr. Xia alone, and he said to me, you have made a significant leap in your state during this period, did you encounter any happy things?

I'm surprised, he can see this?

Dr. Xia smiled like a spring breeze: "Don't forget, I am a psychiatrist, and of course I have to keep abreast of my patients' emotional changes."

I smiled, and told him all about meeting Lu Junyan and everything that happened next.

After hearing this, Dr. Xia showed the original expression, and then asked me: "Then what are you going to do next?"

I said: "I want to make him fall in love with me and get revenge."

Dr. Xia never expressed any opinion on my thoughts, just said: "That man, do you think he has feelings for you?"

I didn't tell Dr. Xia Lu Junyan's name, and other people who appeared in my description, I used letters to replace them, and he never asked about this point.

It’s just that sometimes I say to me: "Shen Qing, in fact, your psychological defense line is higher than you think."

I take this as a compliment.

I didn't hesitate to answer Dr. Xia's question, "I don't like it."

Doctor Xia nodded: "You have to believe that if you insist on one thing, even if you can't achieve your satisfactory result, it will always give you unexpected surprises."

I nod my head.

He continued: "When it comes to things like love, use a little patience and carefulness. No one is born a rock. You have to believe in yourself."

He always said a lot of words of encouragement to me, which made me feel very confident. I nodded heavily, and then Dr. Xia told me some more about my current mental state, and the time was up.

I nodded to Dr. Xia and walked out of the room.

Guan Hong waited outside the door for a long time, and bought me a cup of milk tea by the way, mango flavor, I like it very much.

"How's it going?"

I took a sip: "It's not bad, it's getting better."

Guan Hong gave me a complicated look: "Shen Qing, are you sure you want to continue chasing Lu Junyan?"

I nodded firmly: "Of course, although I am no longer a girl in her teens or twenties, I am still quite confident."

Guan Hong frowned, and said in a voice like a mosquito: "Can't you think about other people around you..."

Actually, I heard this sentence, but I pretended not to hear it. I don't want to make our relationship too awkward, so that everyone can't get off the stage.

I stopped, then raised my wrist, "Guan Hong, have you seen these scars? Doctor Xia said that I have become happier these days than before, and all this is because of Lu Junyan."

I admit that I am not simply happy because of Lu Junyan, but when I think that he will help me avenge my revenge, I am extremely excited, and everyone mistakenly thinks that this excitement is Lu Junyan , even Dr. Xia thinks so.

I admit that I still have some feelings for Lu Junyan, but mostly I only think of him as a tool to kill people. To please him, the ultimate goal of pleasing him is to keep this sharp blade well and help me achieve my goal.

I haven't thought about anything else.

And what I said was just to make Guan Hong retreat and let him understand that there is no one else in this world who can make me happy except Lu Junyan.

Obviously, Guan Hong understood this sentence, forced a smile and said: "Okay, I support you."

"Thank you."

After the failure of the lunch offensive last time, I thought of all kinds of reasons to get close to him.

I thought that he would definitely go back to the villa to sleep at night, but since I moved in, I haven't seen him.

I asked Ding Fei to inquire about Lu Junyan's news. Ding Fei told me that Lu Junyan was in KTV during this time, and went to the hotel to sleep when he was tired. Yuan Qi came back every night with a big The smell of alcohol was simply unbearable for her.

I frowned, and then asked Ding Fei, "Are they having a feast?"

Ding Fei nodded: "Yes."

I said hello to Ding Fei and hung up the phone.

After packing up that night, I went to the feast.

A high-end place as always, I asked Ding Fei to ask Yuan Qi about the private room they were in. After finding the room, I tidied up my posture, opened the door and walked in.

The smog, the feasting, and seeing the scene in front of me, these are the two idioms that came to my mind.

I thought there were only three of them in there, but I didn't expect there to be many other people, and there were groups of beauties, all of whom sat on men's laps with enchanting figures, but Yuan Qi and Ji Nanxin were like a stream of clear water, drinking Small wine, not close to women.

There is also a charming woman on Lu Junyan's shoulder, her eyes are like silk, they are playing cards, and the woman is standing behind Lu Junyan, biting Lu Junyan's ear from time to time. Slight smile, but also do not answer.

Seeing me coming, except for Ji Nanxin and Yuan Qi who were stunned for a moment and looked at me in surprise, the others were still doing their own thing, completely treating me as if I didn't exist.

The same is true for Lu Junyan. Seeing that Yuan Qi and Ji Nanxin didn't play cards, he urged with a cigarette in his mouth, "Play!"

Yuan Qi lowered his hand, and then pointed his eyes in the direction where I was. Lu Junyan turned his head and took a look. In less than a second, he immediately retracted his gaze, and his voice became colder than before: " Hit."

Yuan Qi and Ji Nanxin immediately pulled out a card from their hand and threw it over. Lu Junyan sneered, and ended the game with a blow.

At this time, I have already walked in front of them.

Yuan Qi was probably observing Lu Junyan's expression, and after thinking about it, he still called me Shen Qing.

Ji Nanxin just nodded slightly to me

Yuan Qi asked me: "Why did you come here, Feifei told you?"

I didn't answer, I looked directly at the woman lying on Lu Junyan's shoulder, and said in a deep voice, "Who are you?"