Before His Eyes: 146 How can I be willing

This is the first time so far that I have cried so disregarding the image in front of my son. I feel that I am very fragile. I hate the current self. I can't overcome the obstacles in my heart, which leads to this move. I got off, but I don't know how to go.

Jing Yi didn't say anything, just hugged me like this, although his stature and body are small, but I can feel the endless warmth, he patted my back with his hands, constantly comforting me , Said: "It's okay, Mom, I'm always by your side, it's okay."

Just such a sentence has become a strong belief that I will try my best to overcome any difficult things in the future, because I know that if I shrink back now, my son will leave me one day and go.

How can I give up?

In the end, Jing Yi and I left without saying goodbye. We took a taxi, and after getting in the car, I sent a text message to Gu Yu, which meant that we had something to do at school, so we went back first.

After a few minutes, Gu Yu made a phone call, I frowned, and finally picked it up.

"Auntie, what happened, why did you leave suddenly?"

I felt that my strength had reached its limit, so I answered her lightly: "There is something wrong with the school, so I asked Jing Yi to go back together. I don't feel at ease when he is there alone. You don't have to worry, it's fine."

Gu Yu wondered: "Why are you speaking so weakly, what's wrong?"

"It's fine."

Gu Yu didn't believe it: "When Uncle Jun came back just now, his expression was very bad, and then his face remained dark. What happened to you two?"

I don't want to talk about this for now, so I found an excuse to hang up the phone and said I'll talk when I have time.

As soon as the phone was hung up, I leaned heavily on the seat. This day was the most tiring day for me.

Jing Yi has been by my side all the time, I hold his little hand, I feel very warm, close my eyes, rest for a while, I said lightly: "Did you see it just now?"

Jing Yi's little hand moved slightly, and then he answered honestly: "Yes."

"How much did you see?"

"It starts with you smoking, mom."

I saw the whole thing, I gave a wry smile, I didn't expect the child to bump into this kind of scene.

I opened my eyes, afraid that this kind of thing would cause him a psychological shadow, so I wanted to find a better reason to explain it, but now I found that my mind was messed up like a bucket of mud, I didn't know anything, I sighed in compromise , and said to him: "Baby, don't think too much, mom is fine."

Jing Yi obviously felt sorry for me, he took my hand and asked softly: "Mom, is that the one you like now?"

I was stunned, how could this child even see this, there is no secret between mother and child, I smiled and nodded: "Yes."

Jing Yi's eyes darkened: "Mom, do I have the right to choose my father?"

I smiled: "Of course."

"Then I don't want this uncle to be my father!" Without any hesitation, Jing Yi expressed his inner thoughts.

I frowned, maybe it was because Jing had a bad impression of Lu Junyan due to today's incident, so I was so repulsive, but this is not good, we need his help later, so I hate it so soon Yes, it will not develop well in the future.

"If it's because of today's incident, you misunderstood, it was my mother who accidentally slipped and fell, you should know that the bathroom floor is very wet, it's none of his business..."

The more I spoke, the less confident I became, because Jing Yi just looked at me quietly, his eyes really looked like Lu Junyan, which made me dare not lie to him, because I knew the lie would be exposed.

I took a deep breath: "But mom likes him, what should I do?"

Jing Yi hesitated, we looked at each other for a minute, he finally compromised: "If mom likes it, Jing Yi won't express any opinion, but I won't like him."

I hugged him into my arms, feeling that troubles came one after another today, which made Lu Junyan hate me even more, and Jing Yi also hated Lu Junyan. It was a wrong step, a wrong step.

I dare not go to the hospital, but in fact, my hand is so painful that I can't lift it now, but Jing Yi is by my side, I can't let him see my injury, so I sent him to Guan Hong's house and then Take a taxi to the hospital.

Guan Hong was surprised why he came back so soon and didn't ask him to pick me up.

I can only explain that I forgot, and then make an excuse to say that there is something wrong and ask him to take good care of Jing Yi, and I have told Jing Yi on the way that no one can tell what happened today. Although Jing Yi doesn't understand the reason, But he listened to everything I said, and seeing him nodding, I felt relieved.

When I came to the hospital, the doctor removed the gauze. As expected, the wound bleeds again and deepened, and the palm was bruised and swollen. Otherwise, my hand will be useless. What he said was very scary. I thought it was scaring me, so I didn't take it seriously. I have almost escaped from death in the past four years, so it's just an arm, so I don't need to pay too much attention to it.

The doctor gave me an order to go to the lobby to get the medicine. On the way back, I didn't expect to meet that woman here.

The woman I dreamed of killing—Qiao Ying

Although I have been living in a daze for the past few years, I almost always inquire about her news as soon as I hear it. I heard that she is now a housewife and raises and takes care of the children at home every day. After the first child, she did not fill in any other children for the Lu family.

I don’t understand Zhou Yun’s temper. She is greedy. When she doesn’t have children, she just wants to have a child. After all, who doesn't want the elderly to be full of children and grandchildren, and Qiao Ying to spread branches and leaves for the Lu family, this must be Zhou Yun's heart.

However, that scumbag Lu Mingfeng, his mother is a dead sperm, it is impossible for a woman to conceive, so how can Qiao Ying conceive a child, besides, the precious grandson of the Lu family is not their Lu. The kind of family, Qiao Ying must be aware of this, so in order to protect her position in the Lu family, she will definitely use her methods again, using those shameful tricks. Thinking about it this way, it is really worthwhile for her to come to the hospital Big question.

I quietly hid behind the flowerpot, following her bit by bit.

I'd like to see what tricks this **** is going to play this time!

I haven't seen her for four years, she has aged a lot, her figure has changed, and the wrinkles and yellow spots on her face have become more and more obvious. I watched her changes, and felt very refreshed, and subconsciously squeezed her hands. , Today is a day of surprises. I met all kinds of "old friends", which was beyond my expectation.

She turned her head vigilantly and looked around. I reacted quickly and turned my back immediately. After a few seconds, I turned my head quietly. I saw her chatting with a male doctor at the door. Far away, I don't know what they are talking about. After the two communicated for a few minutes, the male doctor let her in sideways. Before leaving, she looked back carefully, and then the door was closed.