Before His Eyes: 213 I think it should be worth it

I'm so angry, I really want to refute him directly and loudly, if only this is the case!

But this is not the case, he thinks too simply, but from his standpoint, he knows that is all there is to it.

Guan Hong only knows the superficial relationship between me, Lu Junyan, Qiao Ying, and Lu Mingfeng, so he has no idea what is hidden behind this relationship, so he is completely on his side. He is not me, he doesn't know what I think and feel right now, and he will never understand the feeling of wanting to skin this woman.

And I don't want to give him any more explanations. He thinks that I am a stingy person who will get revenge and stingy, so I will take it for granted and let him recognize it earlier!

"Yes!" I looked at him, "I want to take revenge on her because of this incident, and she used to be Lu Junyan's fiancée. Get rid of it, I'm not the kind of twitchy, hesitant person, Guan Hong, you should know."

He was speechless for a while, staring at me with his eyes, and didn't say a word until he arrived in the community.

Jingyi was very happy to see me, he threw himself into my arms, it was rare for him to be so active, it seemed that he really missed me.

I patted his head: "Mom will cook something delicious for you later."

He buried his little head in my neck and rubbed it coquettishly: "Okay."

Birthday cakes can't be hidden, I came here today and made a big table of dishes, Jing Yi guessed it right away, pulled my clothes and asked me: "Is my mother here to celebrate my birthday today? "

It's not good for children to be too smart sometimes, and they don't have any sense of surprise.

I put his favorite shrimp into his bowl: "Yeah, mom has something important next week, I'm afraid it will be too late, so I'll give it to you in advance, Jing Yi, don't be angry with mom!"

He shook his head obediently: "No, mom, go get busy, Jing Yi will be obedient at Uncle Guan's house!"

I looked up at Guan Hong, he was eating in silence, when his name was suddenly called, Chao Jing smiled absently, and then continued eating.

I said: "Okay, Jing Yi has to be good, he's seven years old, and he's going to be an adult!"

"Yes, Jing Yi must grow up quickly and protect mom!"

I gently wiped off the oil stains on the corners of his mouth, and my heart was warm like the sun shining all over the ground.

After singing the birthday song and blowing out the candles, it was getting late. I just picked up my clothes and was about to put them on, but Jing Yi suddenly pulled me back and looked at me innocently, like a poor little girl. : "Mom, can I sleep with Jing Yi for a night today, Jing Yi misses you very much."

I cannot deny that when I heard this sentence, my heart trembled, as if the softest place had collapsed.

I started to feel awkward, because Lu Jun said that he would be back the day after tomorrow, and I had to go back and clean up, but today is Jing Yi's birthday, he needs me, can't I even give him this request?

I couldn't, so I said yes.

Jing Yi was very happy, but Guan Hong was a little stunned. He probably didn't expect that I would really agree.

Guan Hong's apartment is not too big, but it has everything. There is a master bedroom and a second bedroom, which perfectly solves the problem of who will sleep on the sofa.

Because I didn't expect to come here overnight, so I didn't bring a change of clothes. I smelled the smell on my body, and it wasn't too bad, so I just took off my makeup, washed my face and came out.

Guan Hong looked at me in surprise: "So fast, don't you want to take a shower?"

I shook my head, said no, and said goodnight to him.

I haven't slept in the same bed with Jing Yi for a long time, one is that this child is not clingy, and the other is that he has grown up, he needs to get out of my arms and move forward alone.

I patted Jing Yi's back and gently coaxed him to sleep. After a while, he fell asleep. I looked at his quiet and cute little face, and leaned over to kiss him.

When I was about to go to the bathroom and get ready to go to bed, I found the living room was dimly lit, and Guan Hong was sitting there alone with a cigarette dangling from his mouth.

I asked him in a low voice: "Are you still asleep?"

He brushed away the smoke with the hand holding the cigarette, and his voice was hoarse: "I can't sleep."

I pursed my lips, and when I came out of the bathroom, Guan Hong said to me: "Shen Qing, let's talk."

I walked over and sat on the sofa some distance away from him, and I said, "What do you want to talk about?"

With a tired face, Guan Hong threw the cigarette and lighter into my arms: "One?"

I waved my hand and refused: "I won't smoke now."

He smiled: "Is it for Jingyi?"

"No, Lu Junyan doesn't like women who smoke."

One sentence brought the whole atmosphere down to zero in an instant. He froze his ignition, then stood up abruptly, threw the cigarette to the ground forcefully, gritted his teeth and said to me: "You have to be so angry with me. Are you happy!"

I looked up at him: "Yes."

He raised a wry smile, and fell down on the sofa in a state of embarrassment.

I said: "Guan Hong, don't worry about me anymore. It's impossible for the two of us, and we will never be able to. You deserve better."

"What's better?" he asked me back, his eyes burning.

I smiled and looked away: "It's not like me anyway."

"What's so good about him, just because he's rich and handsome? Shen Qing, give me some time, and I'll have these too!" He wanted to lean over and hold my hand, and I stood up immediately dodged.

"Believe me, Guan Hong, if there is a next life, I will definitely choose you, but not in this life."

His eyes were dim, and the corner of his mouth was mocking himself: "Okay, in the next life..."

"It's getting late, go to bed early." I turned and left.

"I'm going to America."

Stopping, I turned to look at him in surprise: "America?"

He took a sip of beer and said, "Next month."

I hurried over: "Why so suddenly?"

"Didn't it be so sudden when you said you were going to be with Lu Junyan?"

I frowned: "What are you doing in America?"

He leaned on the sofa and looked at the ceiling: "My mother found a daughter-in-law for me abroad and asked me to go back and get married."

I was taken aback, not knowing what to say.

He looked at me, obviously the corners of his mouth were raised, but he seemed so insincere, "Hey, you should say congratulations to me, because I won't bother you anymore."

"I never find you annoying."

"I know, it's like you've never been interested in me, but it's really meaningless."

I took out a cigarette and lit it for myself.

"Don't you smoke?"

I exhaled a puff of smoke, "I think I can make an exception today."

He smiled, his eyes curved like crescent moons: "I think it's worth it."

"What is it worth?"

"You made an exception for me, isn't it worth it?"

I also laughed: "It should be worth it."

Guan Hong's sudden departure caught me by surprise, because I never thought that one day he would leave. What should be done.

People may be selfish, Guan Hong's leaving is good for him, because he is finally going to live his own life instead of hanging around with me all the time, so I really want to be with him Say congratulations, because from today on, he will live only for himself.

But on the one hand, I am happy for him, on the other hand, where should Jing Yi go?

It's impossible for me to let him live in Ding Fei's house, because she can't protect herself now, and I'm worried about letting Jing Yi live alone. If something happens, no one will know.

I suddenly felt that my head was too big, and I couldn't come up with any ideas.

Fortunately, I still have a month to think about it. I need to think of a way to get the best of both worlds, to protect Jing Yi's safety, and to prevent people from turning their attention to the relationship between me and him. This is very difficult. .