Doomsday Wonderland Chapter 1806: Xie Feng’s choice (2)

In the ten years since he became an evolver, Xie Feng has never been near the sea.

"Time is a good medicine that forgets everything" is only said by people who have benefited from the medicine of time. In addition to this sentence, I don’t know how many people are still longing for relief day after day because they cannot forget or relieve themselves.

Xie Feng can write down her experiences, she can express her feelings in the sea, she can speak sincerely and exaggerate... But there is no way she can make others truly feel that that night in the sea, she The feeling when your arms are suddenly empty.

Both the world and oneself, chaos has been shattered. Before that moment, she had never known that such absolute and endless pain existed in the universe.

She forgot who she was and where she was.

The last conversation between the two, the patrol ship at sea, the mutated snake head... were all too far away from her, as if they were hallucinations. The world is blank, there is nothing, except for one thing, and that is to let Dong Luorong float to the surface of the sea and open his eyes again.

Only at that time will the world exist again and Xie Feng will exist again.

Since the two met, it seemed that the same situation had been repeated, and that night was no exception: Even after his life left him, Dong Luorong still saved Xie Feng again.

It’s not that Xie Feng didn’t think about this later. She had just evolved at that time, floating in the middle of the ocean, facing patrol ships and fallen species. Without Dong Luorong, she couldn't imagine how she could have survived that night.

But as time passed, she felt more and more that it would have been better if she had died that night.

Isn’t it the ideal ending for her to follow Dong Luorong and sink to the bottom of the sea?

Even though she still lost Dong Luorong, at least she didn't have to see or get along with her later self.

The most important thing is that you don’t have to see Dong Luorong later.

The biggest weakness and limitation of Xie Feng's ability after it had just evolved was that a thing, as a special item, only existed for a short time. When its "special item function" expires and disappears, the item itself will not disappear.

The desk lamp she used in the hotel turned back into an ordinary desk lamp after it expired and is still in the same place; but Xie Feng, who was in an extraordinary state at the time, naturally did not expect this, let alone , when the object is not a desk lamp but a person, that person will continue to exist in the form of an object even after "expiration" - since it is an object, of course there is no difference between life and death, only the difference between intact and damaged. .

She just wanted Dong Luorong to come back.

She just couldn't understand at that time why she couldn't have Dong Luorong in her life.

So every day that Xie Feng lived was like atonement for the decision he made that night, but it could never be mitigated even one bit.

She took Dong Luorong to wander and struggle in the apocalyptic world. No matter what happened or what kind of situation she fell into, Xie Feng never let her skin be scratched or touched by others. A piece of her hair. However, Dong Luorong itself, which can exist in the storage props, is the cross that presses on her day after day and is about to crush her into pieces.

...If only she could forget her decision that night, no, if everything could disappear from her mind.

"I thought... you, like everyone else, were forcibly transformed by the shark system and had their memories deleted." Lin Sanjiu said in a low voice.

The memoirs in the entire dungeon are almost all from the owner who was plotted by the shark system but knew nothing about it; how could she have thought that Xie Feng was actually voluntary?

Whether it was the woman Ah Quan met in the alley later or the Batou De whom Pengping failed to attack, they were all targeted and fell into the dungeon unknowingly; Even Yachiyanagi, who claimed that he had known about it afterwards, did not deny the nature of the whole thing: the shark system used Aquan copies to forcibly transform one valuable evolver after another, and drove them to use them for their own purposes.

"I'm sorry." Lin Sanjiu thought for a while and found it difficult to say the next words - at least she found it difficult to say them clearly. She hesitated for a long time before hesitatingly said: "If... there is something I can do..."

Xie Feng said nothing.

After she finally recovered from her uncontrollable wails, she seemed to have let out all her strength, her resentment towards Lin Sanjiu, her desire to fight, and her original stance... along with her tears. She sat on the ground, leaning her back against the reception desk, looking blankly at the tiles at her feet. At first glance, it seemed as if she had become an object.

Has she not thought that even the memory that was accidentally restored today can be removed again?

Lin Sanjiu wanted to come up with this method as a remedy, but for some reason, she felt that she couldn't say it. Moreover, she was afraid of shocking Xie Feng, who had finally regained his mental balance. After all, the real question is not whether Xie Feng remembers it, that is just a way to escape; the real question is whether Xie Feng can forgive himself.

When she finally helped Xie Feng up from the floor, she suffered a few injuries. Fortunately, Xie Feng was not very lethal in a state of confusion. After thinking about it, she He sat down not far from the other party and continued to bandage the wound silently without saying anything.

It took only half a day to sit here; the sunlight outside the rental house changed from strong to dim, the shadows changed from short to long, and the sky was gradually filled with a faint orange-red color. I don't know when it started, Xie Fenghui suddenly muttered a few words without beginning or end.

Lin Sanjiu will also respond as best she can.

"...I can't die because she will be left alone. But I really can't live anymore. I don't know how the woman found out about my situation...I have never been as desperate as that day. When she asked me if I would like to walk into the dungeon and forget everything, I immediately agreed."

Lin Sanjiu straightened her back. The first "she" naturally refers to Dong Luorong; but who is "that woman"?

"Shark-type people?" she asked, although she didn't think she would get the answer. "The person who transformed you with a copy of Ah Quan is a woman?"

In the past half day, Lin Sanjiu had been talking to Xie Feng a lot, but Xie Feng had never spoken to Lin Sanjiu, and he almost didn’t answer her questions - occasional soft explanations, fragmentary memories of the past. , more like talking to himself; Xie Feng seemed to still be resisting Lin Sanjiu, but after losing all his strength, this resistance turned into ignoring, as if as long as he didn't ignore it, the latter would not exist. Same.

However, this time, she surprised Lin Sanjiu.

Xie Feng still didn’t look at the woman next to him. He just asked his hands: "Do you know why I didn’t kill you?"

This is not an exaggeration; if she wanted to risk her own life and die with her, then Lin Sanjiu would not be able to leave this leasing company.

Lin Sanjiu shook his head hesitantly.

"Because I remembered everything." Xie Feng still looked at his hands and said: "I not only remembered the past... I also remembered the mood when I decided to delete the memory, and the first time after walking out of the dungeon. The feeling of seeing the world at a glance."

She suddenly fell silent.

Lin Sanjiu just waited for her to collect her thoughts slowly.

"It's not... the relief after relief." Xie Feng frowned, his voice as light as a sigh. "That's right, I don't remember what I was carrying before, so when it disappears, I naturally won't feel relieved. It is precisely because of this that I don't feel relaxed and happy. I am still me, but it seems less I found a piece of empty space and stood there for a long time, not knowing where to go.

"Before that, I felt that my life was too painful to bear. But after that, my life became..." Xie Feng frowned ~IndoMTL.com~ seemed not to know how to describe it. . "It has become an insignificant, meaningless thing that makes no difference even if I live it. It is indeed no longer painful, but now I look back and compare it, and I find...'no pain' itself is not what I thought." is so important."

Lin Sanjiu knew that she was just a person who happened to be here, and happened to hear Xie Feng's words - if it were someone else, or if it were a cat or a dog sitting here, I'm afraid Xie Feng would behave the same way. .

But since she heard it and had feelings, she naturally expressed her feelings.

"Although it was painful... your life at that time was still closely related to her, right? Every minute and every second was because of her, she was there." Lin Sanjiu said softly : "I understand. When you lose your memory, you lose contact. So what's the difference between yourself and a speck of dust floating in the infinite universe... There is no source, no destination, and no place to stay."

After a few seconds, Xie Feng finally turned his head and took a long look at her, as if it was the first time he saw her existence. "...Yes."

"So, I didn't do anything to you, and you don't expect me to be grateful to you." Xie Feng said in a hoarse voice: "However, now that I think about it, I'm not sure whether she...that woman did it deliberately. It took advantage of or even promoted my mental state that day. If you want to find the shark department, I will not stop you, nor will I help you."

She paused and then said: "No matter what, it was that woman who found her final destination. What's more, what the Shark Department is doing now, I believe it is right. Even if there is helplessness, there is I'm sorry to others, but I also think it's in the right direction."

(End of this chapter)

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