The Righteous Player(s) Chapter 52: Jealousy is like fire, hatred is like tide
Julius was silent for a long time.
He took a deep breath and began to psychologically analyze himself.
"I'm not just jealous of Bernardino. To be honest, I even hate him - he has a mentor who can teach him and an adoptive father who loves him. Father Ludwig is even willing to sacrifice himself... Just to completely free Bernardino's talents.
"And Bernardino - he never had a burning desire from the beginning... Ludwig knew that he could not reach the golden stage, just like me. But Ludwig did it for him A specially designed path to ascend to godhood without embarking on a transcendent path.
"But Bernardino takes the excellent education he received for granted. He thinks it is because he is smart, not because the teacher taught him well; he thinks Ludwig worked hard to teach him, It's just a 'means of making a living'.
“Compared with him, what’s the difference between me and him? Is ‘natural talent’ so important, and just the difference in talent can completely separate two completely different paths of destiny?
"——Why is this? Who assigned the talent? Why do they have a better background and higher talents?"
Julius opened his eyes wide, without any regret or hesitation in his eyes.
He analyzes himself with great proficiency.
This is a basic skill that every soul-stealing wizard must master to avoid going crazy: "You say I am jealous - maybe it is true. I am not only jealous of Bernardino, I am even jealous of Luther Vichy.
"I was from the same era as him, and we are old friends who have known each other for many years. But why can he meet a child who can inherit his path, sacrifice his life without hesitation, and think it is 'worthy'? Why can he have the determination to give up everything and use his own life to create art?
"Silver level - for mortals, this is the pinnacle of the road to transcendence. Glory and wealth are available at the wave of your hand. But only extraordinary people will know... Those who stay at the Silver level are the most painful.
"They may have strong enough desires at any time and be promoted to gold; but most of them can only stay here throughout their lives. Just like me.
"They just came to the door and saw a more wonderful and glorious world... but couldn't find it. That is more painful than being confused.
"——Talent."
Julius squeezed out the word word by word through his teeth.
"All this is because of their natural talents... You are right, I am indeed jealous. I am so jealous that there is blood in my eyes and fire in my heart. This fire in my heart is so hot that it is difficult to extinguish. ……
"The position I have spent my whole life working hard to reach is just the starting point for them. I will never catch up with them in another lifetime, but I can clearly understand how great they are. Great.
"...But there is indeed something I can do."
Speaking of this, Julius couldn't help but smile with satisfaction: "I can never catch up with his pace - but I have the ability to make it impossible for him to catch up with my pace.
"I can never reach the Golden Stage. But I can destroy a genius destined to become a god... In Ludwig's words, 'As long as he does not become a sculptor, he will cause harm to the world.' I have created a demon king with my own hands. Isn’t this something only I can do?
"If this is an evil and despicable thing; if you can easily accomplish things that others cannot do, you can be called a genius...then I am also an evil genius and a perfect rotten person."
At this point, Julius’s voice gradually dropped.
He almost gritted his teeth and said word for word: "I would rather become a sinner than disappear into history. If people can't remember me because of my achievements and greatness, they should at least remember me because of my achievements. Remember me for my crime."
He said, looking at Annan expectantly: "Quick, tell me... how did Bernardino die in the end? Did he follow the path of a soul-stealing wizard? Did he become a villain?"
"He was killed by me. Because of his great crime...he killed all the Black Towers in the Zeland."
Annan leaned back slightly on the chair and looked at Julius with pity.
He said lightly: "Bernardino did become a soul-stealing wizard. But unfortunately...even if you try so hard to destroy a genius to satisfy your own desires, he finally reached the golden level. Almost becoming a **** - at the last moment, I personally destroyed his noble avatar at the top of the Black Tower in the Zeland.
"And I...have indeed never heard of your name. Whether it is a good name or a bad name."
The corners of Annan's mouth raised slightly.
Looking at Dr. Julius whose pupils were trembling.
Annan showed a bright and malicious smile on the face of Bernardino when he was a boy: "I think it was probably Bernardino who finally understood the truth and killed you with his own hands.
"Unfortunately, your burning jealousy has not allowed you to take another step forward.
"In the end...you still haven't changed anything."
With Annan's words, the world around him finally began to peel off and collapse.
The roof fell off, the tabletop collapsed, and the floor cracked.
Half of the face of Dr. Julius sitting opposite Annan also peeled off, fell off, and turned into nothingness. His whole body became torn to pieces, and he leaned forward and tried to speak at the top of his lungs, but all he could see was that his tongue was trembling wildly and a whimper that was not just a scream but a roar came from deep in his throat.
Only those blood-red pupils reflected the burning jealousy so clearly.
Drowsiness made Annan close his eyes.
When he opened his eyes again, he found that he was back in a state of being restrained again.
"...blood pressure is still rising!"
"——Brother, he's awake!"
"——Incredible, he is still alive..."
There was a lot of discussion around.
And Annan clearly felt that there was something in his body that ebbed and flowed with his breathing.
That is the activated mana of order.
It is also dark, wet and cold hatred...
——Bernardino finally mastered the magic and became a wizard apprentice.
But those apprentices still don’t know what happened.
They just followed the experimental procedure and removed "Bernardino's" eyepatch.
Annan suddenly narrowed his eyes and felt dizzy.
The light of the ceremony lamp was still shining on Bernardino's face.
Two lines of blood and tears gradually shed from "Bernardino's" eyes.
"...Hey, his eyes are bleeding."
"Is it high blood pressure? No such symptoms have been seen in animal experiments."
"I think it's because sea beasts come from the deep sea and can't accept strong lights..."
The apprentices were discussing.
They have not considered Bernardino's feelings. Rather... if they can make this "old man" feel pain, they will find it fun.
They had no idea what they would let Bernardino see after they let him enter the deepest part of the darkest soul.
In other words, they have already seen Bernardino's memories countless times and feel that there is nothing to care about.
Of course, the real reason is that as apprentices, they are not aware of the memory modified by the "professor" himself. So many people not only did not make Bernardino doubt this memory, but made him believe it more firmly, so that he completed the intermittent and unclear "false memory" in his mind.
"Move the light, idiot!"
Annan cursed without hesitation.
The students were stunned for a moment ~IndoMTL.com~ but they still subconsciously obeyed the command and moved the bright light away from "Bernardino's" face.
But after the bright light was removed, Annan realized...
I am afraid that when Bernardino wakes up, he will have lost his eyesight forever.
In his field of vision, there were no walls, ceilings, or floors at all. There are only outlines of "spirit bodies" of different colors dancing around with their teeth and claws.
"I have been drifting for forty years, only to be awakened by a nightmare..."
Annan sighed softly.
Or are these forty years of futility and pain... just a nightmare from which I never woke up?
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