Lord of the Mysteries Chapter 183: Another “me”
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While waiting for Klein to respond, staring at Ards in the depths of tomb, he said to himself:
"I also remembered the situation when I died and resurrected for the first time. I lay in a pale corpse and stood up swaying. I was very frightened, I did n’t know what happened, and I did n’t know exactly Where.
"Before the church personnel charged the body for purification, I stumbled and fled there, walking through the wilderness, the countryside and the city like a wandering soul, and I ca n’t remember who I am and where I came from.
"At that time, no matter where I went, I could hear a lot of crying, see the priests preside over a large number of burial ceremonies, and only feel sadness pervading every corner.
"Later, I accidentally saved a noble girl and entered her manor ’s estate. She was a sunny and cheerful girl, and I was like a beast coming out of the forest. It was sensitive, suspicious, inferior, scared, and often Shows a cold, indifferent, cruel, and does not meet the morality of human race.
"She is very curious about me, no matter how I avoid her or do bad things, she will be close to me, infect me with her smile, affect me with interesting things, unconsciously, I am used to it Her tricks are used to her existence.
"We walked together quietly, she was very worried, afraid that her father would not agree to her marrying a past vagabond current servant.
"looks at she has a sad smile. For the first time, I have a feeling that the blood is boiling. I tell her impulsively that I will leave here, but I will come back with the knighthood and the wreath for the bride.
"I went to the army, I became a knight, I held a three-meter long lance and rushed to the enemy. In the remaining chaos of fourth era's ending northern continent, I became a baron and had my own fief.
"I followed my promise, with the seal of the king, the emblem of the family, the ribbon of the knight and the wreath made by myself, I married my bride."
Speaking of which, the expression on Ards's face gradually softened, and it seemed to be aftertaste and nostalgia, even the corners of the mouth unconsciously curled up.
Klein heard a move in his heart and seemed to see the familiar Mister Ards again.
"Later?" He started carefully.
Ards looks at the road ahead:
"Later ... Later, we built castle on our own fiefs. With children, it was a boy, who grew up very fast, and it is foreseeable that he will grow tall and burly in the future.
"He likes fighting, always dragging a broad sword around, saying he wants to be a knight.
"I thought it was just a child's hobby, it was difficult to persevere, but even if he broke his leg and hurt his head, he still did not give up the practice, he thought he was hiding in the room with a distorted expression and covering his wound, I Will not see, hehe, he is too small to look at his father, the spirit of the entire territory is secretly working for me.
"Year after year, I have recovered more and more memory. My wife has complained that castle is too dark and wants to go to the sun and warm places. I met her request, but until a long time later , I realized that she did n’t hate living in castle, but she was afraid of the little changes in me, and I was getting colder and stranger.
"She hasn't said these things to me. She still gets along with me as she used to. We have a good life on the southern seashore, and even want to have another child, but unfortunately failed.
"Until I foresee that my next death is approaching, we have returned to the fief and returned to castle.
"My eldest son, the boy, told me that he wanted to go to Beckland, become a servant of Viscount and Earl, and start his own knighthood.
"I asked him why he had to make such a choice at the age of ten? He answered me because I was his idol and role model. He wanted to rely on himself instead of his father and mother to become a knight and a nobleman like me.
"At that time, I had recovered most of memory. When facing this child, I was always a little embarrassed, unfamiliar and uncomfortable, but when I heard his answer, I still had an indescribable joy, satisfaction and Proud, this is my child, a child who is completely different from the blood people I left in Empire of Balam. "
Klein knows that Mister Ards is talking about his status as "Baron first generation Ramde", and the child who made him proud and satisfied was murdered by poisoning in his old age or middle age, nailed to the coffin, and even the skull Was taken away by Ince Zangwill.
Ards's eyes tranced and said:
"I died again, waking up instinctively, away from the fief instinctively, under the pre-arrangement, wandering to other places, every time in the front part of every life, I have a different life, sometimes encounter Sweet love can sometimes get a beloved daughter. The kind of heartfelt love, helplessness, and satisfaction that have made me gradually recover from memory again and again, puzzled, and contradictory.
"Once I was a filial son, I brought pride to my parents, a beautiful life, and lovely grandchildren, but when I woke up and found myself, I remembered At the end of my last life, I ignored their real son's death on the battlefield and occupied this status. On the one hand, I felt pain and guilt. On the other hand, I thought it was nothing. It was just a trivial matter. My heart seemed to split into two people. .
"At that time, I had a mask that could turn me into anyone, but I lost it after a wake-up. This may have been lost on my own initiative ..."
Klein remembered the daughter mentioned by Mister Ards who liked to ask for sweets from him. After considering it, he said:
"I think that you are not splitting your heart, but fighting the crazy spirit.
"After losing the previous memory, you who start a new life time and time again are kind, passionate, and full of emotions. The closer you are to your current life, the more this should be reflected.
"This may be the real you, the essential you, and you in the Death Consulate period were affected by the out-of-control tendency contained in Extraordinary characteristics and the Death God passed down from high position. I heard that he was in After War of the Four Emperors has gone crazy. "
These words Klein do n’t really have much basis, because he knows that there are only a few Ards lives—Baron Ramde, father who swings for his daughter, filial child, and gentle and friendly history teacher.
His purpose is to provide a guess, a possibility to help Mister Ards fight against the "Death Consulate character" that came back with memory, let him face up to himself in the past period of life, in order to reach a certain settlement with himself, become Not so cold.
While talking and talking, he suddenly had a new idea. He did n’t wait for Ards to digest what he had just said, and quickly asked again:
"Mister Ards, do you know the anchor? The gods and angels fix themselves, and are not dragged by the Extraordinary characteristics's out-of-control tendency and crazy nature?"
"Yes." Ards withdrew his gaze, nodded.
Klein is not too sure, but said with a very firm tone:
"Perhaps, your new life started by losing memory again and again is your anchor against madness and runaway!"
Do n’t discard them, do n’t forget them, this is you! After talking, Klein silently added a sentence in his heart.
"Anchor ..." Ards repeated the word, looking puzzled.
I do n’t know how long it took, he suddenly sighed:
"This may be an explanation, at least to make my spiritual division and conflict less intense.
"However, since I have come here, I still have to go deep in tomb to see what is hiding there, why is calling me, and what caused me to die and resurrect again and again, and lose memory again and again. Gradually get back ...
"This has troubled me for more than a thousand years and troubled my life again and again. I think I should get an answer today."
His eyes became sober a little, his tone seemed soft but indescribably firm.
Klein wanted to stop it, but after opening his mouth, he squeezed again.
Ards pressed the half-height silk top hat on the top of the head, without a side head, gently smiled:
"Remember to close your eyes."
After finishing, he walked forward, along the stairs, to the depths of the dark tomb.
The dark mist there no longer gasped, and slowly spread out to the surroundings, and the illusory things entrenched at the bottom appeared a little bit.
That is a winged snake that is huge enough to occupy an island!
It has huge scales that are blackened by dark green. There are feathers stained with light butter growing in the gaps. Above each feather, there is an unreal black thin tube extending out.
This exaggerated winged snake is both illusory and real, and the more specific shape is difficult to describe. It seems to have a composition that human race cannot understand.
Pale flames are burning in its eye sockets, and its face is face of human race!
That face has a bronze complexion, soft facial features, and a tiny black mole under the right ear, just like another Ards Eiges!
PS: Change first, then change, and the new version of this chapter seems to have a strong delay.