Shape of the Wind – Volume Meteorite Chapter 5: Throbbing

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The southern part of El Tienno in December, 418th year

"I feel more and more that Bailu Cave is a very dehumanizing bird place, especially the one that will abuse its subordinates. I have been in Bailu Cave for more than 400 years, and I have been in Bailu Cave for more than 300 years. It’s either injury or disability. Last time I dealt with the bat mad dog who didn’t know where it came from, the whole person was so bad that there was no good meat left. He was dragged out by an unscrupulous ladyboy before he could even heal the injury. Why did you say that you won’t be able to deal with the demons this time? The opponents are only weak humans. I got caught with my hands. What happened? I was interrupted, and I’m still hanging here, shaking and shaking, hey, I said shemale, are you? Didn’t you see me being half-stuck unwilling to be reconciled?"

"...what is the definition of a ladyboy?"

"A good man wearing a mask is a ladyboy."

"I don't wear it now, and... a woman with two beards on her face is really a ladyboy."

"The beard is a disguise, it is glued on! Even if I become a ladyboy, it is also a handsome ladyboy who is glamorous and generous, and will chase a long list of girls behind."

A conversation without any sense of tension, it is hard to imagine that it came from the mouths of the two major disciples under Lu You's door. They, throwing away the eyes of others, are secretly meeting in an uninhabited stream for a conversation. One is the number one master in the rebel army, and the other is a fierce general who has made successive achievements in the rebel army recently. If others see them talking, they will definitely pay attention.

In recent battles, Yan Ning has always been the first to enter the enemy’s formation, and the last one to fight out, but he was really responsible for breaking the response, blocking the Eltinus’s pursuit, and hitting it again, but it was Xiao Qiao personally led the team. The leader personally went into battle, and Gong Jin, an important cadre, also accompanied the battle to build as many merits as possible.

It's quite embarrassing to say, but Gong Jin has to admit that this whole thing has gradually been out of his control. Xiao Qiao has sufficient mysterious support under the table, and Yan Ning's full support on the table. He wants to control this allied army without a trace. The difficulty is getting higher and higher. Now he has to work hard to build merits and improve himself in the alliance. Only then can he regain his control. In the past few days of fighting, in order to work hard, Gong Jin has chopped off at least three of his knives, and the number of enemies killed by him is even more than that.

"The wine sacs and rice barrels of Eltinore are really vulnerable. I thought they were still a little bit too weak, but none of them could beat me. It was too bad."

"You fight them like a demons. Of course, they will be overwhelmed, but they can't be too careless. The current victory is because the opponent is not the elite of the Eltinus Army, at best, it is only a poorly qualified local army. If you are stunned by the victory, the casualties will be hard to estimate when the main force of Eltinus appears."

"Oh, that's right... But, Xiao Qiao should see this. Tomorrow the last attack is over, we will retreat for the winter, and when we come out again, the training and strengthening have been completed. You can compete head-on with the Eltinus Army. No matter how you look at it, we are fighting steadily. There is no sign of flamboyant instability that you are worried about."

"Well, unfortunately, it is indeed what you said. This is the last situation I want to see."

One thing that Gong Jin thought was very troublesome: Although the rebels were victorious in the war, they did not kill as much as expected, blood flowed into rivers, and half of the continent of wind was plunged into darkness. People Live in fear and crying.

Too many killings in the war will deviate from humanity. Even if the dynasty is established, the regime will not last long. Xiao Qiao should understand this truth well, so he has issued many military orders to prevent things from getting out of control. Pillage and slaughter are forbidden, and even the subordinate army is required not to harass the people as much as possible, and to focus solely on the soldiers. What Xiao Qiao does is the benevolence advocated by Bailudong. From this point of view, it is really true. Nothing to be picky.

But this will be bad, because this rebel army is just a tool chosen to destroy Eltinus. The task of establishing an orthodox and powerful dynasty should be done by humans. If the rebel army is not cruel and evil enough now , How can the human forces that wiped out this rebel army show their legitimacy? Gong Jin is not happy to see this happen, because if Xiao Qiao really builds a new country based on the benevolence of the king, then the layout of Bailudong can be said to be a complete failure.

"Guiyi and thieves cannot establish a dynasty. The development like this is too dangerous to let that woman continue to do this. I have already figured out how to do it. Yan Ning, the work of implementation is necessary Please."

"Oh? Are you going to assassinate Xiao Qiao?"

"No, this step is not needed now. Maybe there is the support of the Medici family behind her. I don't want to hurt her life as a last resort."

Gong Jin and Yan Ning explained that although Xiao Qiao wanted to walk on the path of benevolence, he would definitely face great resistance to implement such strategies in today's rebels. Regardless of the fact that more than ninety-nine percent of the members of the rebel army do not have such vision, the ghosts, orcs, and thieves who make up the rebel army have resentment against the entire environment, treating the people of the world as enemies, and wishing to treat everyone's Happiness is all destroyed to make up for the suffering that I have suffered since birth. It is almost impossible for these people not to harass the place during the war.

"Hate is like a fire, even if it is not for a while, it is easy to be ignited again. It just needs a person who can fight against the authority of the leader, so it is up to you to come forward."

What Gong Jin wants to take advantage of now is Yan Ning's rapid rise in the rebels.

Whether it is an orc, a ghost, or a thief, they all live a life of licking blood with a knife head and respecting the strong. Although Yan Ning is ruthless and ruthless in fighting games and on the battlefield, he is superhuman. First-class force did not arouse comrades' resentment, but was more regarded as the backbone of the alliance.

The same thing as Xiao Qiao is that Yan Ning, who betrayed Bailudong, has no gang or faction, and is a person with no background. As long as she leaves the battlefield, her personality will become calm and clear. Just like the "man" of the pastoral elegance, now she has become the idol of soldiers of all races. As long as she appears somewhere, the crowd and cheers will appear there.

People like the sense of security when they kill the enemy side by side with him, and they also like to listen to him singing poetry, or playing a pipa under a tree. Yan Ning quickly accumulates considerable popularity and support in the alliance, if she takes a high profile Contrary to Xiao Qiao, even Xiao Qiao, who is leading the alliance in the image of "The Son of Destiny", will be very tricky.

"...You really will find a good job for your friends. Such an unpleasant task. Compared with that, it is much easier to just kill the demons."

Yin Ning's complaint meant something. She did have something to say about Gong Jin's plan.

"Gong Jin, in order to respect the meaning of Su Laotang, when we met with Cao Shou in Zhongdu and gained the power of orthodox leadership, you once thought this behavior was meaningless and hypocritical."

Yan Ning said: "Then what are we doing now? A girl who wants to use benevolence to eliminate the hatred of the two races and make the world a better place, Bailudong can find another better leader than her Will you get anything after you get her down?"

The words were very light, but Gong Jin's reaction was great. Huo Ran stood up, and the anger that burned on him at that moment shocked the birds on the water to escape.

"I hate the Guiyi tribe. They shouldn’t exist in the lower class of the human world. I want to get rid of them all. So, Yan Ning, don’t stop me, I don’t want to be here with you. What is the dispute above."

It is hard to imagine a person who has always been calm and sensible. Because of this, Yan Ning, with the blood of ghosts and barbarians in his body, was very unhappy with these words, but he showed understanding and said nothing.

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Gong Jin implemented the plan very quickly. He used the spies lurking in the rebels to provoke the whispers that were suppressed in the hearts of the people. After just two days, dissatisfaction began to flow among the rebels. .

"According to the leaders, the purpose of our battle this month is to build up our reputation, spread our reputation far away, and attract more people who are dissatisfied with current affairs to join. Since we have to consider the significance of propaganda, we must start Of course, it must be heavy, kill the enemy without leaving a piece of armor, hang up the heads of every resister, and burn their villages, so that the reputation will spread quickly!"

Among the rebels, this is a very common-sense concept. Whether it is a ghost and a man with war experience or a band of thieves, killing and arson is basically commonplace for them, and they do. Relying on these means to win the war, it is the most direct and effective method to implement the strategic vision of the leader.

"I don't want to cause unnecessary killings. Doing it like this... will do us nothing, and... and being too obsessed with fighting will delay the time to retreat, which is dangerous to all of us."

Xiao Qiao’s last reason for objection sounds far-fetched, but it is not impossible for everyone to understand it, because there have indeed been two examples. Because the victorious rebels were too overwhelmed, they were almost intercepted by the enemy’s encirclement. huge loss.

From Gong Jin's view, Xiao Qiao's position is really difficult. As a ghost, facing the millennia of blood feud between the two races, she could not even openly express her thoughts of forgiveness and benevolence. She could only persuade the people around her on the grounds of practical benefits.

But Gong Jin, who intends to take advantage of this, will of course not be polite to her, but instead uses this opportunity to double down and ignite Guiyiren’s anger again and again.

"For the past two thousand years, we have been bullied and abused by humans. Now we ghosts have finally made it to their heads, why should we be polite to humans?"

"Humans don't know how many of our compatriots have been killed. My father and my grandfather were put in cloth bags by humans and drowned in the water alive. We can't make humans feel better."

"Those humans robbed our family’s fields and took all of our family’s money. I want them to pay with blood. The leader is obviously a ghost, why can’t we understand our pain? Will she just use us, Kick us away when it's done?"

The feeling of suspicion quickly spread among the coalition forces, so that Xiao Qiao must spend time and energy to deal with it in addition to the busy military affairs. Under such anxious mood, the month of fighting quickly passed, and Xiao Qiao led the entire rebel army to disappear.

The place Xiao Qiao chose to retreat was in the large mountains on the border between Wulian and El Tienno, and the forest called "Shuilian" under Huaguo Mountain, surrounded by mountains and ridges, rapids and rivers. In a fairly hidden place, as long as there is sufficient food, a hundred thousand troops can spend a smooth winter here, wait until the snow melts in the coming year, and then go out to continue fighting.

In the plan, as soon as they enter Shuilian, everyone will begin to recuperate, but one thing that is happening now is that after entering Shuilian, the dissatisfaction originally suppressed by the rebels finally broke out. Several forces in the alliance broke out. The representative, pushed Yan Ning out, and questioned Xiao Qiao that her approach was wrong.

"Everyone came out to ask for life and worked **** the battlefield, just to live a good life in the future. I am confident that with my method, everyone will receive results within three years, and this month we have been victorious. Although the gains are not much, they are already several times more beneficial than the losses and risks of the sporadic battles in the past. Why do we have to use killing and destruction to vent?"

Xiao Qiao tried to use this expression to calm the restless people, but the results were not satisfactory, because in this powerful group, Xiao Qiao, as a woman, was still discriminated against, even if she was leaning on Hard fighting won the honorable throne in the alliance meeting, but there was a whisper, running through the rebels.

"...The leader is just lucky and got two great artifacts. Without those two artifacts, she is just a weak woman. She can't beat Master Tao Qian and is even less qualified to command us."

During this month of victories, Xiao Qiao is certainly popular, but Yan Ning has become an idol of soldiers from all sides. Originally, people who were afraid of "Tao Qian", worried about whether this would be counterintuitive, after seeing her bravely on the battlefield, they had long since lost their doubts.

During the battle, as soon as he saw blood, Yan Ning seemed to have a madness, bursting out with heavy palm power, snow-arms fluttering, and rationally killing everyone who tried to get close. Open each of the closest physical bodies and destroy all the lives seen by the eyes.

The red-eyed Yan Ning nearly killed the comrade by wrong hand several times. Fight side by side with her and watch her kill the enemy at will. Although she feels safe, you must be very careful because if you don’t pay attention all of a sudden, if you get too close, the friendly forces nearby may die faster than the enemy in the distance. .

Whether it is attacking the army or attacking the city, Yan Ning's combat power is unparalleled in the world, but the killing and bloodshed caused are ten times that of others. This fighting style that has been honed in the battles with the demons over the years seems to be the **** of death coming to the world in the eyes of the enemy, but in the eyes of the friendly forces, there is simply a **** of war by the side.

Of course not every friendly army likes this situation. Xiao Qiao has advised Yan Ning more than once. However, before these persuasion appeared effective, Yan Ning had appeared in Xiao Qiao along with other leaders in the rebel army. In front of.

"Mr. Tao, I don't want to fight with you in this situation."

"Leader, the surname Tao counts. Since he promised to join you in the revolution, he will never create your opposition, but you can't help but consider the feelings of the brothers. Tao just gave you something on their behalf. Advise it."

If the fist is the best tool for conversation, then Yan Ning's exhortation is very powerful. In one month, enough arm injuries were healed, and Tao Qian already knew that Xiao Qiao possessed two great artifacts. Every attack and defense was aimed at this point. The thunderous attack forced Xiao Qiao out of breath, even more. Not to mention freeing up to use the two artifacts.

In this battle, leaders of all forces in the alliance are watching, and Gong Jin, who secretly promotes this scene, will naturally not let this opportunity pass.

(Very good, Yan Ning will attack with all his strength. This battle is bound to be very splendid. Whether we win or lose, it will be beneficial to us. If Yan Ning wins, the prestige and status of the leader will be shaken, and this shoddy alliance will soon face splits. , The rebellion is successful, after overthrowing Eltinus, it will soon be extinguished......)

But if Yan is defeated, there is no loss. The old church in Bailudong has already made a ruling recently. Xiao Qiao’s vision and ability are extremely threatening. It is not ruled out that before the rebels overthrow the Eltinus regime, she will be assassinated and married again. Misfortune is for others, and it is Gong Jin who will be in charge of this task by then.

Xiao Qiao, who uses two great artifacts, has martial arts no less than Yan Ning. Of course, Gong Jin is not sure of winning. For the sake of safety, watch her shots more. This can also improve his chances of winning. However, Gong Jin, who was watching the game, quickly discovered something was wrong. Xiao Qiao, who couldn't help but dodge, obviously missed some gaps. If those gaps were grasped well, she would have time to launch the two magical weapons and tie the battle.

So, why didn't Xiao Qiao seize the opportunity? Is she willing to lose the battle, determined to give up the leader? This is absolutely impossible, because she had worked so hard before grabbing the position of leader.

(There is no reason, such a concession is unreasonable. Isn't she determined not to use it?)

When this thought appeared in his mind, Gong Jin suddenly felt a tremor. The girl’s insight, wisdom and courage were surprisingly better than she had expected. She has always been able to look directly at the essence of things. I have seen it through, knowing that this battle happened because she failed to convince the people in the battle with Yan Ning, so when the battle happened again, she completely gave up using the two artifacts, and wanted to win by her true skills, so as not to be similar. Things keep repeating themselves.

(It’s really courage to win without two great artifacts, but...is it possible?)

Gong Jin suddenly realized that although Xiao Qiao’s martial arts was good, what left a deep impression was her light and dexterous body, as well as deep internal strength, but she attacked What is the martial art of the aspect, but no one can tell why, only remember that she was wearing armor and swinging a hammer on the battlefield, which is really heroic.

But Xiao Qiao can no longer rely on artifacts to win, and if she can't effectively wound the enemy, then no matter how much she can dodge, she will inevitably lose in the end. In fact, after the battle went on for more than ten rounds, Xiao Qiao was already sweated by Yan Ning’s palm strength, and the defeats were numerous. If she did not immediately counter the defense and attack, she would make some surprising reversals. Then Gong Jin dared to assert that she couldn't survive the next three moves.

(Uh, this is...)

Gong Jin, who was watching the battle, suddenly felt a strange fluctuation. Among the people present, I was afraid that only oneself could feel it, because this fluctuation was not an ordinary force, but a spiritual wave before the magician cast the spell. If you haven't practiced Eastern Immortal Art before, that would definitely not be sensed.

(Why is there a Lingbo here? Could it be......)

Gong Jin's mind turned sharply, but the battle had changed in an instant. Yan Ning, who had had the overwhelming upper hand in the battle, somehow hit the air with a palm, and the mighty Five Sacred Thunder did not hit Xiao Qiao. Instead, it was printed on his left wrist. In the crisp sound of bone breaking, his left wrist was broken and reversed at ninety degrees.

"Woo..."

Yin Ning gave a painful grunt, and when she was about to hold on to the chase, Xiao Qiao was missing before her eyes. Following a pain in the vest, she was kicked by Xiao Qiao, who was rapidly shifting and transposed, and the whole person flew out.

The second match between two outstanding women ended in such a stupefied manner, and the onlookers next to them were all dumbfounded. Xiao Qiao rushed to help Yan Ning, and asked everyone to find a doctor to heal the injury, but he walked away.

"Leader Zhou Yu, come here."

In spite of the consensus that each other should be estranged, Yan Ning approached Gong Jin to speak; Gong Jin went over immediately and listened carefully, also wondering what has changed in the battle just now.

Yin Ning's face was not good, and her left wrist was painful, she said in a low voice. In the battle just now, a palm of hers was about to hit Xiao Qiao, but suddenly a weird situation occurred. It was not a blow, or the sudden disappearance of the opponent, but a very weird feeling. If she was reluctant to say it, it seemed like it was. Suddenly something is missing.

The palm of the five-mountain divine thunder was originally to lift up the qi, raise the arm, swing down, and exert strength. Because of the power of this palm, it has long become Yan Ning's favorite martial art, but he just gave Xiao Qiao a palm. When he raised his arm, he clearly waved his palm down, but the action of "swing down" seemed to disappear inexplicably. As a result, "raising the arm" directly turned into "strength", the strength was released, but the whole position and time The point was completely wrong, and instead of hitting the enemy, he broke his left arm with a palm hit.

"It's a spell, that girl knows some kind of unusual magic. I can't judge this, because there is no similar thing in the Eastern Fascination that I know."

"Magic? Didn’t you say that she was raised in Medici’s family? How can the Medici’s people use magic? Forget it, don’t worry about this, Gong Jin, when she just helped me, her entire palm was Khan, my body shakes worse than me...Do you know what I mean?"

If there was no reminder from Yan Ning, Gong Jin would definitely ignore this, because everyone here was paying attention to Yan Ning, but instead he had forgotten Xiao Qiao's departure.

The result of this battle, although it looks like Rouge's defeat, but if the spell is so effective, Xiao Qiao will not use it until then. In other words, using that unknown magic spell, definitely A great loss or price must be paid, so Xiao Qiao hurriedly left after the war.

"Your injury..."

"It's just a broken wrist. It's no big deal. Do you remember our previous cooperation model? I'm all black face. If you don't be a white face, what are you doing here?"

"Be careful yourself."

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When Gong Jin chased Xiao Qiao's figure, away from the crowd, and came to the back half of Huaguo Mountain, after passing through layers of woods and broken branches, he knew that Yan Ning's eyes were right.

On the way Xiao Qiao left, there were quite obvious traces, and the more they went, they became clearer. This trace is not blood, but pieces of broken ice, scattered on the road, it seems not very eye-catching, only Gong Jin noticed the unusual.

And when Gongjin finally came to the stream following the traces of broken ice, she saw a very unusual scene: Xiao Qiao was lying down in the stream, her eyes closed, she seemed to be awake, only The remaining half of his body was exposed on the surface of the ice. With Xiao Qiao as the center, most of the stream was freezing rapidly, turning into a pale ice and snow world, rapidly expanding outward.

Gong Jin knew what was going on at a glance. Obviously, this is the result of using some kind of extremely laborious tactics, self-cultivation is insufficient, and the tactics are backlashed. If they are not rescued in time, the consequences are likely to be fatal, so Gong Jin immediately broke the ice to save people, drew his knife and cut the ice Block, save Xiao Qiao from inside.

"Miss Xiao Qiao, lord, please wake up."

"You... Are you... Chief Zhou Yu?"

In Gong Jin's call, Xiao Qiao weakly opened his eyes and recognized the man's identity. During this period of time, every time the rebels retreated, Xiao Qiao and Gong Jin were the main force of the sever team. The powerful and active Blood Shadow Brigade made Xiao Qiao a very deep impression. Jin recognized it.

Slightly regained consciousness, Xiao Qiao seemed to know how to save himself, and asked Gong Jin not to speak out, not to disturb anyone, and to help cut down trees to make a fire, surround the fire around Xiao Qiao, and start with Xiao Qiao. Cross-legs to adjust the breath, draw the heat of the surrounding fire into the body, and quickly expel the freezing cold in the body.

Gong Jin watched indifferently from the side, wanting to take the opportunity to see Xiao Qiao's martial arts skills. It stands to reason that this woman has been raised by Medici since she was a child, and naturally she also studied art there. Observing her breath adjustment can not only confirm this, but can even infer Kublai’s current martial arts achievements.

But after observing for a period of time, Gong Jin felt disappointed, because he not only couldn't see Xiao Qiao's martial arts skills, but also did not find any clues related to the Medici family from this unique internal strength. , And even vaguely feel that this kind of internal strength seems to have a lot to do with Bailu Cave. This is of course a 100% misjudgment. If it is really Bailudong martial arts, then how can I not see the truth?

(This level allows you to avoid it again, but you will not be seamless forever.)

When Xiao Qiao was able to drive away the cold inside her body and regained her spirit a little, she got up to thank Gong Jin, but Gong Jin had different thoughts.

Yin Ning’s shot has failed again. If he does it at this time, it will only make the action more visible. So the most important thing to do is to use the most commonly used method in the past, as Yan Ning said. Pretending to be a black face, one pretending to be a white face, just approach the enemy like this.

"Leader, you are injured. Tao Qian's servant is really too much. You actually hurt Miss Xiao Qiao. This is absolutely not the case. I want to make the matter public immediately and let the brothers who have a sense of justice in the alliance do it for you. Be fair."

He deliberately instigated, Gong Jin’s tone was extremely angry, and the feeling of rattling and gritting his teeth almost made people believe that he would fight "Tao Qian" to the death for this. Of course, only he knew that these were pure disguise. It's as meaningless as the two beards on Yan Ning's face.

"Please don't do this. Mr. Tao Qian just did what many brothers want to do. I and him are competing in a fair duel that everyone recognizes. He didn't do anything to provoke people's anger."

As Gong Jin expected, Xiao Qiao did not intend to make this matter a big deal. For this girl, the harmony of the whole group is more important than everything else, especially at this juncture, let alone this rush. The alliance split.

However, these things are in the midst of Gong Jin's arms. On the way he escorted Xiao Qiao back, he was like an indignant flower protector, criticizing many things indignantly, including Tao Qian, the conservative forces in the alliance, and deliberate The bad heads of the horse thieves group cleverly accused these people as conspirators, and regretted that because of Xiao Qiao's kindness and kindness, these people were all self-esteem and arrogant.

This is a very basic provocation technique. If it succeeds, it will make the relationship between Xiao Qiao and these people more tense, and the suspicion within the alliance will be greater. Even if the effect is not so great, it will receive another effect. , Because it's rare for someone to stand in Xiao Qiao's position like this, this should be able to narrow the distance with her.

In the past month, Gong Jin has noticed the fact that Xiao Qiao is very lonely. Although she has always remained calm and calm in front of others, and the smile on her face has never diminished, Gong Jin believes that she should be very lonely, because she has no friends or relatives in the alliance, only Xiao Qiao, who is alone, It is impossible not to feel lonely when undertaking all kinds of major pressures.

If someone made it clear that they wanted to be on the same front with her, she would be happy to accept it, and this would be her own opportunity.

When the two quietly returned to Xiao Qiao's thatched house, the anger on Gong Jin's face still seemed to be full of flames. From the outside, no one would doubt his loyalty and sincerity.

"Thank you, Commander Zhou Yu, but I think... things are not exactly what you said. Dao Qian often gets out of control on the battlefield, and his temper is a bit grumpy, but..."

"But?"

"Maybe I shouldn’t say that. Normally, the soldiers say Mr. Tao is like a magic wolf, but I think... Mr. Tao has a pair of very beautiful eyes. On the battlefield, those eyes reflect The **** light also reflects sadness."

"Oh...is there...is there such a thing?"

With a surprised expression, Gong Jin thought these words were very interesting. She had been with Yan Ning for hundreds of years, but she had never had such an idea. If she told Yan Ning that way, she would definitely find it ridiculous.

"Well, Mr. Tao's eyes always give me such a feeling, I think your friendship with him must be good!"

"Uh? What did you say?"

Suddenly, Gong Jin was in a mess. He couldn't think of why Xiao Qiao suddenly said that. At the moment, he only stared at her, trying to find a trace in her expression, to see if he was trying to perfuse him. In the past, he still drew his sword directly.

But Xiao Qiao's expression seemed sincere, and Gong Jin couldn't find anything from it; and Xiao Qiao just explained what he said.

"Because... General Zhou Yu, you also have a pair of beautiful eyes. In your eyes, you are thirsty for blood like Mr. Tao, but you also have the same sadness as him... I think if you have a chance, you will be able to Become a good friend."

Under the moonlight, the sharp corners on Xiao Qiao’s forehead and the patterns on her face represented the fact that she was bleeding from ghosts and barbarians; staring at her face, Gong Jin couldn’t say clearly for a while. What is the shocking feeling that it brings to me?