Harry Potter’s Book of Sin Chapter 1915: “I am not a human”
It is actually very pleasant to be able to sit down and drink tea and chat for a while after a full meal. Especially in today's circumstances, it can be called a "luxury."
But it must be said that the more severe this is when no one knows what tomorrow will be, the easier it is for people to treat each other unconsciously and honestly in a rare leisurely atmosphere.
At the moment, after Luna persuaded Sarah who wanted to leave after the meal, she just had a short meal and started talking about what she had experienced in Hogwarts in the past. Some little things.
The past events she mentioned are not necessarily so ups and downs, and even others sound a little bit dull.
It’s just that among the people sitting around at the moment, either they were the same experiencers, or just like the two sisters Geoffin, they simply didn’t go to the magic school seriously at all. Overschooled. In the face of too much heaviness and depression these days, the plain topics that Luna talked about have become more and more attractive.
"...Oh! Sarah, I remember that Professor Snape also got a Bogut in the first grade class, and almost tossed about a semester once a week. In fact, we were in the third grade. I had a similar class in my grade... Guess what did Bogut become when he saw me?"
"What?" Sarah asked absently.
"It's mistletoe!" Luna opened her arms, drew a big circle in front of her, and gestured, "Then—what a big pile of mistletoe! It didn't tell me, but I know, there must be Many, many hooks!"
"...what?"
Sarah was taken aback when she heard it, and then she repeated inexplicably.
"Hook!" Luna bends her fingers, "A black parasite, they have three eyes and thousands of teeth!"
As she said so, she suddenly shrugged and said:
"Okay! Actually, I haven't actually seen it, it's all my dad told me... Oh, yes! Sarah, I actually wanted to ask, what became of your Bogut at the time ?"
Seeing Luna turned around and asked about Bogut again, Sarah couldn't help being reminded of some memories.
I remember when she enrolled in Hogwarts, almost entirely to get close to Maca. Therefore, although she did study hard to not reveal her true identity, she only needed to study the content of the first grade, so she didn't pay much attention to the time in class.
But even so, she still remembers the first Bogut class that Snape gave.
After some more memories, Sarah didn’t want to fool around, so she just said:
"It became me—the other me."
"The other you?" Luna asked enthusiastically, "Why is this? The thing you fear most is yourself?"
"Yes, I am afraid of myself," Sarah said frankly, "because you think, if a sample of'monsters' that shouldn't appear in this world suddenly appeared in front of you, wouldn't you Are you afraid?"
Speaking of this, she shook her head slightly.
"It's a pity that Bogut didn't know at the time. What he saw was not my fear—it was just that I kept telling myself that I should feel'fear' of myself. At that time, I didn’t even know what fear was."
"What do you mean?" Hannah, who was sitting across from her, couldn't help but asked in confusion as she listened.
"In other words, I proved that Bogut can actually be deceived," Sarah smiled. "If I deceived myself into believing something, Bogut will do the same. Fooled... But in fact, the time when I can really understand what emotions like laughter, sadness, and fear are like is not long ago."
At the end, she picked up the tea Luna poured for her and took a sip:
"Actually, I am not a ‘human’."
……
Sarah can be a "person" who is very good at disguising.
Since she gradually integrated into human society, except for the Patriarch of the Hohenheim family and a few people, most people just treated her as a little girl.
In order to hide her true identity in front of people, she even did not understand human emotions, and she insisted that she remembered the reasonable expressions and actions that she should show in all situations.
However, Sarah can actually be a very honest "person."
Especially now, when she finally made up for the flaws in the soul level with the help of Maca to a large extent, and truly possessed the emotions, she has seldom used the ones that she used to spend a lot of Kung Fu only learned the disguise skills.
After all, true emotions are hard-won "treasures" for her. Now that they finally have them, why hide them again?
After uttering the phrase "I am not a human", Sarah seemed to have an interest in small talk, and suddenly began to talk about her long past with everyone present.
When talking about Phillips, she was sad; when she talked about the generations of the Hohenheim family, she couldn’t help but chuckle; and when she finally talked about Maca’s help to herself, she It was even more grateful and delighted.
It’s actually a pleasant thing to talk frankly with people-at least Sarah is talking, and she feels more relaxed in her heart.
It’s just that, Sarah’s story is obviously not so happy... it can even be said to be very sad and painful~ IndoMTL.com~ Everyone listens, and my heart can’t help being touched by her successive emotions, one All of them became silent secretly.
After a while, Sarah’s narration and feelings finally came to an end, Ursula on the side finally couldn’t help saying:
"I used to think that my life was scary enough, but...Miss Hohenheim, I really can’t imagine what it would be like to live without emotion for hundreds of years."
"Well," Sarah shook her head, "In fact, there is no special feeling—it's like natural blind people often envy normal people with vision, but they don't understand that their eyes can really see things. Status, so...you know, they won’t have a real goal to envy."
While she was talking, she suddenly looked at Ursula again, and then said:
"So, now I feel that it's like Miss Geoffrey's situation with you. Perhaps it will make people feel more fearful and sad--"
"Because I once had it, I will understand the horror of'lost' even more." Luna whispered thoughtfully.