Apocalypse Meltdown:

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It ’s been a long time since I wanted to issue a single chapter, but I have n’t written it. First, I ca n’t write, and second, I feel that expecting to be understood is an extremely immature idea.

There have been many rewards recently, for a long time in a row. Perhaps the correct statement is that since the publication of this book, various rewards have continued, and it ca n’t be overstated to describe it. Some are in military service. Bing elder brother throws a lot of money, there are many local tyrant readers who smashed the money for more and more, and more is the screen that I can't count.

Thank you all!

I feel that apart from being able to say thank you here, the best reward is to write hard and code well.

But ...

There are many things that I need to explain, and I have a responsibility to explain. Everyone understands or spurns. When I decide to write down these innermost real thoughts, I am ready to respond positively to all right and wrong.

The following two paragraphs are highlighted, do n’t get me wrong:

[The first thing to explain and assure is that the readers can rest assured that this book will not be **** and will not end badly. This is certain and it is also the bottom line for me as the author. 】

[The second thing I want to say is that in the days to come, I will try to do more and more, as much as I can. 】

Guaranteed that I ’m finished, and I ca n’t tell what I want to express next.

The creation process is very hard. How hard is it? If you do n’t go deep into this line, you ca n’t understand it deeply, and each author ’s hard work is not the same. People have different trivia, troubles and worries. In real life, unexpected surprises occur constantly, and once someone chases the book The negative evaluations to avoid are all sources of stress.

This is a muddy road that sinks deeper and deeper. There are powerful people running fast and weak people struggling.

I am a person who disdains to show weakness to the outside. This kind of heart is extremely inconsistent with my outside. It often gives people the illusion of talking online and meeting offline completely.

For a long time before today, I felt embarrassed even in tears in front of my closest friends. I was afraid to show the unbearable and fragile side. I felt that it would not only make people feel more stressed, but also less The right to throw negative emotions at others.

But now when I write these words, more emotions are relieved.

Resonating with people is an extremely difficult thing in itself. There are no two identical leaves in the world, and there are no two perfectly matching souls.

However, I chose to tell you these words. My readers listened to it, and many of them even did not even know my parents.

Why?

Because there is no reader who has been following this book so far, it is closer to the group of an author itself. The text described by each author often directly reflects his inner intuitive thoughts, and is liked after being read. , Is a manifestation of spiritual resonance.

I am determined and somewhat stubborn that you, who like the book "Great Meltdown in the Last of Days" and have been following along the way, can best understand what I want to express at the moment.

The readership is huge. Perhaps it is as young as ten years old, maybe it is not far from me.

A considerable part of the reader group prefers to follow the book silently, and will not leave comments and add group interactions, and will never fall when contributing subscriptions.

As a long-form work published on the reading platform, from May last year to October now more than ten months, slowly gathered a lot of people.

The cultivation of reading, the appreciation of editors, the expectations of readers, step by step, this book is pushed to a height that I, as a new author, never thought of.

How can I live up to such high hopes?

The later this book becomes, the harder it is to write. A large number of great pit pits and various ideas that are not mature to me have poured into my mind, making me feel more and more deeply how small my ability is.

Can I manage this style that is not easy to write in the first book, and this is a long piece that is beyond my ability?

I do n’t know, I can only go one step at a time, constantly innovate, constantly reflect, and keep making progress. If I ca n’t do it, I will try my best to do it. Seems like a deep quagmire, after removing the mud, it is hidden at the bottom Treasure, who knows what will get me?

I have always held such an idea, and I have always striven to make myself a mature author, not only to write a good novel, but also to guide young readers to have correct three views.

Then ...

At this morning, I suddenly felt that the pressure was so great that it was several times larger than before. The emotions that I could calm down in the past suddenly became extremely restless. Anxious made me do nothing.

I do n’t know how to tell anyone, and I found a senior who can take care of me on weekdays for help.

When I said my worries and said it with chaotic and logical words, the four words that the senior blurted out, made me burst into tears.

He said: You are distraught.

A lot of things that you do n’t want to admit and dare not reveal are reflected in these four words.

Last month, on two days in early September, I had 40 hours without sleeping.

After nearly half a month from mid-September to the end of the month, my daily sleep time is 2-3 hours. mental is extremely weak and muddy, and the whole person looks tired.

The outsiders only saw that my mental was poor, but I did n’t know what I was suffering. During this time, I still had to code words to maintain daily updates.

The biggest difference between online writers and traditional writers is the daily update volume similar to the competition. The creation of more than 2 million words a year is everywhere in this circle. There are people who have 3 million, and 4 million Deity a year There are several more.

Occupational diseases, cervical spine problems, waist and back problems, mental problems, insomnia and neurasthenia, a lot of comments on Internet violence, I have all ...

Even if I say a sentence here that is hard to hear, the one I do n’t want to face most:

22 Blade Flows turned out to be a female author ah!. It ’s no wonder that the more girls, the more water, the girls are wordy!

Including the editors who took me, I was also surprised before the photos were revealed recently. It turns out that the author who wrote Great Meltdown is a sister?

I never want to reflect the fragile side of girls in front of people. I have never used gender to seek understanding before this, because I feel that once I do this, I am avoiding self-regression and facing this The problem to be solved is slack but has received consideration and preferential treatment that normal male authors do not have.

This is not fair.

Now that I have been enlightened, I have also faced my weakness, I am not so powerful and powerful, and sometimes even very ignorant.

If I want to be tolerant and understanding, and want to feel warm and caring, in addition to the readers who have been supporting me, I cannot find a group more suitable for me.

So I wasted my code time and wrote so much nonsense.

Finally, thank you for your likes and support, and thank you to all readers who encouraged me to support criticisms.

In the future, I will not evade the problem anymore, I will accept the lack of it properly and will face my heart correctly.

Thank you all!

Oh yes, is there a monthly pass?

Crazy! !