Before His Eyes: 125 The muddled past

I cried and walked to the door of the doctor, attracting everyone's attention along the way. The first time the doctor saw me, he said: "I have never seen a girl as strong as you."

The weather that day was not good, there was a strong wind and rain outside, lightning and thunder, the air was filled with the smell of blood, I was as numb as if I had lost my soul.

The doctor immediately arranged the operation for me. I lay on the operating table with my legs apart. At that moment, I felt the light on my head was extremely dazzling, which gave me a headache.

I was awake the whole time.

I woke up and heard the doctor's voice with my own ears.

"Quick, stop the bleeding!"

"The baby is out!"

"Process it now!"

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A tear fell from the corner of my eye, and when the doctor breathed a sigh of relief, he said, "Okay..."

I just closed my eyes, and this sleep lasted for several days.

Fortunately, before my operation, I saved my last breath of strength and told the doctor that after I had the operation, he immediately called a person named Ding Fei on my mobile phone, so this also caused me to wake up a week later, To be able to see Ding Fei for the first time.

Seeing me waking up, Ding Fei felt as if she had finally let out the breath she had been holding back for so many days. She asked me nervously, how is everything going? ?

A series of questions made me dizzy, but I felt surrounded by a warmth, and I felt very warm.

I knew it was gone, but I still put my hand on my stomach, smiled coldly, and asked her, "Where is the child?"

Ding Fei lowered her eyebrows and changed the subject: "Are you hungry? After sleeping for so many days, let me buy you something to eat. Tell me what you want to eat, and I will buy it for you..."

I interrupted her: "It's gone..."

Ding Fei was stunned, and comforted: "Shen Qing is fine, it's just a carelessness, there will be more in the future."

"Accidentally?" I felt blurry in front of my eyes, and my nose was sour. I bit my lip, trying my best not to let my tears fall, and raised my head to hold back the tears.

Ding Fei continued to comfort me: "Actually, it's good to have no children now. In the future, you can do whatever you want and go wherever you want. When you first got pregnant, you just wanted to get rid of him." Is it?"

She chattered endlessly, but she tried every means to appease me and divert my attention, but I couldn't listen at all. When I thought of the pain, the red pool of blood, and Qiao Ying's face, I was so angry My whole body trembled, and I patted the bed sheet with my hands, and looked at the ceiling, weeping in pain.

After waking up, every night is a boundless nightmare, like a **** net, tightly surrounding me, like a **** monster, approaching me closely.

When I woke up suddenly, I found that the pillow was wet, my neck and forehead were full of sweat, I was panting, like a dying fish, trying to swim back to my own sea water, but I was always trapped on the beach.

Helpless, despair, pain, resentment, these emotions surrounded me, and I felt like I was going crazy.

Moreover, every night I hear the cry of the child, and sometimes I hear the unborn child say to me: "Mom, mom, why don't you come and save me..."

Like a nightmare, being haunted by it endlessly, many people's faces will appear in my mind, Qiao Ying's, Lu Mingfeng's, Lu Junyan's, Zhou Yun's and many others, I feel like I want to die Same.

Finally one day when I finally broke down and couldn't take it anymore, I picked up the fruit knife on the table and slashed at the main artery on my wrist, and blood gushed out immediately.

Ding Fei has been sleeping lightly for the past few days, and she woke up immediately after such a small movement. She saw me holding a knife with drowsy eyes, and blood was streaming from her hand. She screamed, and immediately threw the knife aside for me, calling The doctor came, and after bandaging me up, the doctor gave me a sedative.

That night, after the doctor left, I couldn't bear it anymore, and finally confessed everything that happened to me.

It's not that I trust Ding Fei enough, but that at that moment I really need someone to comfort me, and I need someone to share with me.

But fortunately, I didn't believe in the wrong person at the time. In the past four years, Ding Fei has been really kind to me. I have nothing to say. The two of us are like sisters and sisters. In the past few years, she has stayed by my side. The feeling is different from Bai Yao's, so I know that I will not make the same mistakes again.

Guan Hong opened a kindergarten, which is quite large in scale. I invested all the one million Lu Junyan gave me back then, but Guan Hong refused at the time. I said it was my share. Say yes.

Ding Fei also invested one million in it. She has developed well in the past few years. First, she supports her old classmates, and second, she also plays for fun.

Guan Hong agreed and gave us shares. I also applied for an English teacher in the kindergarten, but no one knew that I was also a shareholder in the kindergarten.

The kindergarten has been open for almost two years, and its business is getting better and better. It is still well-known in Beicheng. The key is that the environment is good and the teachers are excellent. The sound came out, and many parents came here admiringly, and the children of those rich people were also sent to our school, so in the past few years, they have made a lot of money.

When I arrived at the feast, I ran into Guan Hong who was coming. He gave me a surprised look, greeted each other, and then walked in side by side.

Guan Hong's eyes fell on my side from time to time, and he asked me jokingly: "Why did you cut your hair short again?"

I touched it subconsciously. My hair has been cut to the neck now, and it is shorter than before. Guan Hong is on a business trip these days, so I don’t know that I have cut my hair. Surprised.

I smiled and said, "It's so convenient to do this."

Guan Hong nodded: "It's refreshing, it looks like a college student, it suits you very well."

I took it as a polite remark, and patted him on the shoulder with a smile: "Squad leader, you are getting better at talking now."

Guan Hong scratched his head and smiled honestly.

After entering the private room, what stimulated the eardrums was the loud music, a bit like rock and roll, and the scene was very exciting. Although there were few people, it seemed very lively.

Qi Huai invited his fitness friends, he is not in the gym now, he is someone else's personal trainer, earning 10,000 to 20,000 a month is not a problem.

Qi Huai has many friends, both boys and girls. It's the first to go."

Guan Hong gave a dry laugh, but neither answered nor refused.

Ding Fei was having a good time, holding a wine bottle and singing on the stage. She sang well, but she was not very pleasant when she was in a drunken state. She saw me at a glance and walked towards me crookedly. I quickly helped her up, and she fell down on her body. I thought to myself, this is how much I drank.

"Shen... Qing, you fucking... finally came... hiccup..."

She spoke with a big tongue, hiccupping her mouth full of alcohol, I frowned in disgust, Guan Hong helped me to help her sit down on the sofa.