Before His Eyes: 176 because you like me

"Also, I'm forty years old now, the company must find an heir, if I don't have children, then the final benefit must be his son, Shen Qing, we have a common enemy anyway, why can't we just do this for this Reason, join hands with me once?"

He told me all his worries, and I suddenly felt that the burden on my shoulders became heavier, but I still have a question to ask him.

"Why me? You, Lu Junyan, want a son every minute. There are a lot of women in this world who are willing to give birth to you. Why did you choose me?"

He gave an answer.

"Because you like me."

I laughed: "Which woman in Beicheng doesn't like you?"

"No woman will do this for me. Since you have worked so hard, then I will give you this chance, okay?"

I was stunned, what he was referring to was that I was willing to be a stand-in for him because of his lowliness and pitifulness, but what supported me to do these things was not because I liked him, but my son, he It takes me to do that before I have a chance to get his health back.

So, Lu Junyan may have made a mistake.

But since he thinks so, I will naturally continue this sentence, it is not easy to have a child, we have agreed before, but in the end, the child died, and there was no time to call my mother.

In addition to overcoming the psychological shadow, I also have to face the fear of skin-to-skin contact. My son, because it is what he owes me.

I thought about it for almost five minutes, and finally nodded heavily.

Compared with the fear in my heart, I am more afraid that Jing Yi will leave me suddenly, and then I will be left alone in this world. This is what I am most afraid of.

So I said yes to him.

Lu Junyan's expression was slightly surprised. He probably didn't expect that I would give an answer so quickly.

He asked, "Why?"

I smiled: "Because I like you, I am very happy to have a baby for you."

But I know, I'm not happy.

Forcible smiles are all stiff in my opinion, but Lu Junyan, who observed the details, didn't notice it.

"But I won't marry you. You can choose to stay after giving birth, or you can choose to leave, it's up to you."

"If I stay, what kind of identity will you give me?" I bent my eyes and asked him with a smile.

He fell silent.

I knew in my heart that a woman who had given birth to him and was not seen in the public eye was more suitable for me except as a secret mistress. There was probably no position that needed me.

But it's okay, I don't want to stay by his side, as long as I can save my Jingyi, I don't need anything else, and after giving birth to this child, I can still avenge Qiao Ying. Competing with her son for the family property, I think it's quite cool when I think about it, so things like titles don't have much temptation for me.

"OK, deal."

After that sentence was said, we drew up the agreement that night.

The agreement clearly states that I want to conceive a child before Qiao Ying gives birth, and Lu Junyan's compensation for me is that during this period, I can get whatever I want, as long as it is not too much, he will do his best Satisfy me.

The rights given to me are quite large, which made me feel that I am not too bad for a moment.

After signing, Lu Junyan took the contract in his hand, glanced at it, and then put it down.

I put down the pen, feeling stuffy and depressed.

Suddenly my body soared into the air, I screamed in fright, and subconsciously hugged Lu Junyan's neck: "What are you doing!"

Lu Junyan's stern face tightened, he hugged me, and headed to the bedroom with a clear goal.

"Don't waste your time."

I was startled, and instinctively resisted violently: "Let go of me, Lu Junyan, this kind of thing can't be rushed, Lu Junyan!"

Unmoved by my struggle and shouting, he carried me directly to the bedroom, and then threw me on the bed. I felt my body stay in the air for a second, and then my whole body fell heavily On a soft bed.

I quickly propped up my body, but he had already bent over, approached me, and pressed me under him.

"Since you signed it, you have to follow the agreement. You only have nine months left at most. I don't want to waste time. I can pay as much as I can."

As he said that, he was about to press down, and I put my hands on his chest quickly: "Do you think it's so easy to have a baby? Just come when you say it!"

He grabbed my hand easily, lifted it above my head, and restrained me.

"Four years ago, I did it so many times and failed to conceive a child, which means I didn't work hard enough. I don't want to be misunderstood by others. I can't do it."

Cool voice, with a playful smile.

My whole body was stiff, and I tried my best to break free from his restraints, but my strength was not enough, so I could only watch helplessly as he deftly unbuttoned my shirt with one hand, and stretched his slender, white fingers into it , stroking my scorching skin with slightly cool fingertips, I really can't stand his teasing, gently, itchy, making me tremble all over, and my body is as soft as mud at the moment. Even he has loosened the shackles on me, but I have no strength to fight back.

I can't lie to my heart, I am fear, it is fear, but I know that there is another kind of emotion entangled in these two emotions, expectation, I am actually looking forward to it faintly.

He took off my upper body clothes without any effort, I squinted my eyes halfway, the light above my head was dazzling, I looked at Lu Junyan, he still maintained his elegance and calmness, his clothes were neat, we It's like two worlds, they are doing the same thing, but they seem to be treated differently.

I thought it was unfair, so I said hoarsely, "Why don't you take off your clothes?"

He said it in a grandiose manner, under pressure, he kissed my lips accurately: "I will take care of you first."

He kissed my whole body, the already hot body became hotter now, very gentle, he tried to melt my tension and uneasiness with rare patience, I admit that I sank, my body reacted I have always been more honest than my psychological reaction, even though I am still resisting in my heart, saying no, but I am actively responding to him, entangled with his tongue, and greedily sucking the breath of the other party.

I haven't touched a man in four years. Although most of them are afraid to touch because of the obstacles in my heart, as long as I am a person, there will always be a physiological reaction. It's just that my fear is greater than my physical needs, but this can't be done. It means that I have no sexual interest, but I have not been aroused by others, and today, because of Lu Junyan, he has successfully made me throw up my armor and surrender.

But that shadow really dug a hole in my heart that can never be healed, so when Lu Junyan was about to take off my pants for me, my body instantly became vigilant and clamped my legs , not allowing him to move on.

When doing this series of actions, I was still in a daze, and I didn't even open my eyes.

So I heard Lu Junyan call me tentatively: "Shen Qing?"