Heroine’s Road to Becoming Scum: Forty-ninth bowl of soup (three & four)

Although I participated in staff activities, with Cheng Qing's character and normal image, no one dared to chat with him or talk to him at all. too close.

As a result, Cheng Qing's existence is a bit embarrassing. As soon as he can’t integrate into the staff, he can play and barbecue with everyone. Second, when he is there, the staff can’t let go and play. They even talk and walk carefully. If they know it’s coming for a picnic, if they don’t know, they think it’s an open-air meeting. Woolen cloth.

Even if Cheng Qing didn't feel embarrassed, he could get the information from other people's actions that his existence made them very cautious. He frowned slightly, he came to a picnic today, the company-packaged bus, he himself They didn't come by car, so it's not easy to call a taxi here.

I originally wanted to be more close to the people, but I didn't expect it to end up like this.

Just when Cheng Qing was thinking about how to leave, cindy came over. There were a few gray marks on her face, and she was as dirty as a kitten. Every time Cheng Qing saw her, she couldn't help but soften her heart, not because of anything else, but because of her eyes. Clean always reminded him of the cat he had. It's a pity that the kitten hadn't grown up when he left, so every time he stared at Cindy, Cheng Qing felt familiar.

As a result, he was much gentler to her than the others. Even after getting along for so long, the two are considered good friends.

Cindy is beautiful and lively, optimistic and hearty, and very popular with everyone. Although she is a newcomer, she can do things and is considerate. Basically, she can't pick out her shortcomings. There are many people in the company who like her and many suitors. It can be said that She is the goddess of most unmarried male employees.

How many people follow her to pursue her unmoved, but she fell in love with the CEO of Big Ice Cube. This has to make people feel that the world is full of sadness: in general, it's just to look at the face. Sure enough, handsome guys and beautiful women are a pair. Do you have to stand aside if you look ugly?

Aren't the CEO and Cindy in an ambiguous period? You can tell by seeing CEO Cindy's blushing face every day. Send cindy home, this is not a boyfriend or girlfriend? It's just that the two seem to rarely do intimate acts when there are outsiders, and I don't know if Cindy is shy or the CEO is unwilling.

Anyway, it's hard to imagine that someone like the CEO would have a girlfriend. It's surprising to think about it. But if you think about it carefully, it's normal. Ordinary girls may not be suitable, but Cindy is especially good when standing with him. Therefore, for these two people, everyone is in a state of blessing.

Cindy held the grilled skewers in her hands and brought them to a white paper plate. She squatted down beside Cheng Qing, then took a bite of a chicken wing and said, "You don't like it very much. It's spicy, so I only brushed on a little chili sauce, after all, the barbecue is not delicious without being spicy, try it, I grill it myself."

Cheng Qing looked at the plate, reached out and took a mutton kebab, bit a piece, and after chewing twice, his eyes were a bit strange, but he didn't say anything, but silently finished the mutton kebab. Cindy stuck out her tongue after eating two bites herself: "It doesn't seem to be very tasty, I'm not good at making this." She carefully observed Cheng Qing's expression. "Ah...isn't it delicious?"

"No." Cheng Qing shook his head. "Not bad." It's just far from her usual cooking level, but it's not bad, at least it's cooked.

cindy stuck her tongue out: "I never had a chance to take part in a picnic before. This is my first time in the company, so I'm a little nervous." She smiled, scratched her head, and slowly put the matter together with Cheng Qing. A plate of BBQ was eaten up.

Cheng Qing looked at the table below and said, "It's half past eleven."

"Ah? So fast?" Cindy was stunned for a moment, and took out her phone to take a look. Cheng Qing noticed that she had a cute little pendant attached to her phone. The pendant was very delicate, making her look special childish.

He was lost, cindy suggested: "Then let's go back first, you won't find anywhere to call a taxi."

"It's fine for me to go back alone, you can stay and play." Cheng Qing didn't want to trouble her, and it was rare for her to go out to play with her colleagues.

cindy didn't care: "It doesn't matter, I have already paid for this picnic. Besides, I'm not the initiator, so it doesn't matter if I'm not there." She found her bag and carried it on her back, "You always give it away. When I go home, let me take you once this time?"

Cheng Qing glanced at her quietly, with a smile on the corner of her mouth: "Okay."

After speaking to the person in charge, Cindy left with Cheng Qing. It's not far from this grass to the place where there is a car, but if you have to go around, Cheng Qing didn't remember the route very much when he came, and now he can only follow behind Cindy.

Taking a taxi, Cheng Qing sat in the car and looked at the sky outside. Today's weather is very good, and the world is different from the Wangchuan River.

The Wangchuan River was pitch-dark. Even if he climbed out of Wangchuan and walked up to Naihe, it would be pitch-dark to greet him. The past is dark, and the future has no fingers, only the present, but how many people can grasp the present? How many people invested in Wangchuan, but they never came out again. They either completely lost their minds and became crazy, or they were brutally swallowed up, and even the fragments of their souls would not remain. All of this is not the same as it is now.

Being alive, you can breathe fresh air, meet many people, good people, bad people, men, women, people you like, people you hate...

Cheng Qing looked at Cindy by her side, and Cindy fell asleep because she was nodding her head in the car, like a chicken pecking at rice bit by bit. The driver in front accidentally saw Cheng Qing's eyes in the rearview mirror, and saw him take off his jacket and put it on his shoulder, then let Cindy lean on him, and joked: "This gentleman really loves his girlfriend. My daughter is about the same age as this young lady, and she just made a boyfriend, alas."

"What are you sighing for?" Cheng Qing asked softly, and chatted with the driver very respectfully.

"Her boyfriend, he said he was the director of some company. He had a high salary, and he looked good. He had a good conversation and temperament, but he was inconsiderate." The driver continued to sigh. "Boys these days don't even know what it means to be considerate. They play games every day after get off work, but they worry about my old father-in-law."

Cheng Qing smiled: "I don't play games."

"It's good not to play games. The young couple quarreled a lot about playing games."

Cheng Qing didn't say a word, but looked out the window again. The road signs and pedestrians had faded away quickly, but he didn't know what he saw.

It's like... seeing everything but remembering nothing.

Why is this happening?

He doesn't even know what he's thinking. So far in this world, he doesn't know what the real Cheng Qing wants. When he is helpless, he will toss and turn and think about whether his step-by-step life is a task in progress. He once tried to call the Moze kid in his heart. , but the child who would always respond to him immediately would not tell him what the real Cheng Qing wanted.

What can a pair of hands like this hold?

What can be caught?

Can his heart be redeemed even if it grabs someone or something? Will his soul be freed from it? Cheng Qing didn't know, so he could only choose to move forward, complete the tasks in this world, return to his own life, and then——

What then?

He doesn't know anymore.

Even when he met these wonderful people, he couldn't stop for them. Cheng Qing stroked his forehead and sighed. As a result, Cindy didn't wake up. The driver wanted to wake Cindy, but Cheng Qing stopped him: "Just stop here. I'll pay you the fare according to the time."

This kind of good thing falls from the sky, and it is a fool if it is cheap or not, so the driver happily agreed, Cheng Qing sat down, and waited until Cindy woke up.

When she woke up, there were traces on her face, stripes, red, and cindy noticed it herself, and felt embarrassed when she touched it. This time she lost her face. I'm sorry to see Cheng Qing, but Cheng Qing just smiled: "Okay, let's get off."

After getting out of the car, Cindy found out that this was her home. She was stunned for a moment. Cheng Qing said to her, "Go home to clean up, take a shower, and I should go back."

He turned around and took two steps, but Cindy grabbed his hand for some reason. Cheng Qing looked down and frowned slightly. Cindy also suddenly found herself too abrupt. After all, the two are only friends now. She bit her lip and asked, "You...you go back by yourself, is it okay?"

Cheng Qing felt that she asked very strangely: "...what's the matter?"

"I just think you don't look very happy." Cindy looked straight into his eyes, "I don't know what you are worrying about, but I want to tell you that everything will pass, just get through this time. ."

Cheng Qing felt that her words made sense, nodded and said, "Okay, I remember it."

After experiencing those worlds, he is very willing to open his heart to beautiful people, so in the face of cindy's kindness, he smiled, this smile is different from the previous one, extra gentle. Cindy was shocked by the smile. She nervously clenched her hands into fists. She didn't know what to say to Cheng Qing, and her face was red. Fortunately, Cheng Qing didn't speak, just got in the car to say goodbye to her.

"Goodbye, goodbye."

Wait and stand until the taxi is out of sight.

When Cheng Qing returned home, he was the only one who was quiet in the huge house. He was sitting in front of the window of the study. From here, it was a blue sky.

The weather is fine.

The wind is very fresh.

White clouds are soft and the sun is warm.

But Cheng Qing just couldn't get up, he couldn't get up at all. I don't know how long it took, he sat until the night fell, and then the phone prompted a new message. Cheng Qing glanced down, it was Cindy reminding him to remember to eat dinner.

As if she knew he would forget. Cheng Qing smiled, feeling a little warm in her heart, got up and went to the kitchen, like every night in the past, to cook lunch for herself. He seems to have used up all his emotions in the first few worlds, obviously - thinking that he has learned to love again, but now he has a feeling that he has been hollowed out. Not just love, but heart.

He thought that the love he had learned was continuous and would never stop, but now it seems to be returning to the light. He should have known that the ghosts who fell into the Forgotten River could not come back to life.

Even if it is possessed by human flesh, even if it has bodily functions, even if it looks no different from ordinary people - but in fact, it is still different. The moment you choose to jump into Wangchuan, you are doomed, and you will never be the same as humans again. Even in this body, it is not a normal human being.

Cheng Qing was a little dazed. He couldn't remember the moment he jumped into Wangchuan, whether he was willing to continue to be a human being, whether he gave up his desire to live, or whether he was holding the courage to gamble at that moment, and he was pitiful that he was crushed to pieces. Heart, jump down.

The pain in that moment, he will never forget. The heart was cut open, sliced ​​into pieces, so painful. It was shredded, reorganized, and then shredded and reorganized in Wangchuan.

What is holding him back? He thought he should have really died a long time ago.

After dinner, Cheng Qing suddenly remembered that his office key card seemed to be forgotten with cindy. He first called cindy, but it showed that the other party was on the phone. After thinking about it, he still decided to get it now, and wait until he goes to work to find Cindy. Too many employees see it, and the impact is not good.

So Cheng Qing drove to Cindy's house. Although he hadn't been to her house as a guest, he knew where her house was. Only after asking someone did he know that Cindy's so-called Room 506 on the fifth floor had been vacated for a long time and no one lived there.

Cheng Qing stood at the door of 506, and the enthusiastic aunt came over and asked him: "Young man, who are you looking for?"

"I'm looking for a girl named cindy, do you know her?"

"I've never heard of a girl named cindy living here, boy, have you been deceived?" said the aunt with pity. "Before 506, a young couple lived there. Later, they moved out, and the house became empty. The landlord has been worried about not being able to rent it out. If you don't believe me, take a look. Look at the lock, it's all dusty!"

"There should be no mistake, my friend will not lie to me."

"So you remembered wrong? Maybe she doesn't live on the fifth floor at all?"

"It's the fifth floor, I'm pretty sure."

"Certainly not, definitely not." Auntie waved her hand. "Tell me about what this girl looks like. As long as she lives in this building, I will definitely have an impression!"

"Long hair, she's beautiful, and has a good personality. Ah, her eyes are very clean." Seeing Auntie thinking hard, Cheng Qing also emphasized it. "The eyes are really clean and look like a cat."

"Oh!" Auntie suddenly realized. "I see, you mean that strange girl? She goes down every time she goes to the fifth floor?!"

"Huh?"

"There's a girl, I've seen it several times, she always goes up to the fifth floor and goes down, but she doesn't live here, I talked to her a few times, and she said she's here to find a friend , and even went to my house to drink a glass of water."

Cheng Qing suddenly asked: "Aunt, which number do you live in?"

"I live at 503."

"...Can you take me in to take a look?" Afraid that the other party thought he was a bad person, Cheng Qing quickly took out his ID card. "I won't lie to you, I just want to see it."

"It doesn't matter, the young man is so good-looking, he is definitely not a liar. Look at how you are dressed, what did aunt want you to draw?" The aunt's personality is also very forthright, and she agreed without saying a word, walking in front of Cheng Qing, Let him follow you. Cheng Qing followed Auntie to her house and found a room, "Can I go in and have a look?"

Aunt said: "Yes."

Cheng Qing walked in, turned on the lights in the room, and walked to the window to look out. Sure enough, he could clearly see his car from here. He asked the aunt, "That girl... did she only come here once?"

"A lot of times." Auntie scratched her head, thinking that the two were really strange. "I said what are you young people doing now, everyone likes this room in my house very much. How good is my room?"

"...I see, thank you." Cheng Qing smiled at her aunt. The aunt followed behind him, feeling that the young man was a little lost. "Young man, are you all right? You want to find that girl. When I see her later, I will tell her for you?"

Cheng Qing shook his head and said, "No need, thank you." He will never come again, and neither will the girl.

He went back to his car and was stunned for a while, and then he asked Mo Ze in his heart: What's going on?

However, this time, Mo Ze did not respond to him.

Cheng Qing just returned home. When he called cindy again, the other party connected, but when he said he was going to get the room card, cindy politely refused, saying that he had already taken a shower and fell asleep, or he would come and give it to him in person tomorrow. he. Cheng Qing answered and hung up the phone, then lay down.

The next morning, Cindy really came, holding a thermos pot, which was the red date porridge she had boiled early in the morning. This time the porridge was very delicious, and she seemed to be back to her usual craftsmanship. Cheng Qing drank a bowl and thanked her, but looked at her perfect hands.

It's a perfect pair of hands. It can be said to be flawless. You can't even see pores. It looks like hands that don't touch the sun and do housework and are regularly maintained. Cheng Qing is also a rich man. He occasionally cooks his own meals, but because of his long-term work, there are some thin calluses on the palms and fingers.

It's strange. It is said that Cindy, who has studied business management and worked for several years, is now a new employee in the company and often works overtime. Her hands are white and tender, but she can't see any calluses.

Cheng Qing found that he was indeed becoming more and more inattentive. He didn't notice such an obvious thing at all. I just don't know, is he not aware of it, or is the real Cheng Qing unwilling to notice? Or, he who did not get all of Cheng Qing's memories, is still walking the old way of Cheng Qing at this moment?

If it wasn't for the accidental discovery last night, he would have always trusted this girl, right?

What a pair of beautiful eyes, but full of lies.

Cheng Qing didn't speak. After drinking the porridge, he sat on the chair. Cindy talked to him with a smile. Cheng Qing asked her, "Do you need to wash the lunch box?"

She froze for a moment and said, "It's okay, I'll take it back and wash it."

In the company before, Cheng Qing took the initiative to wash the lunch box every time after lunch, but this time he asked her if she wanted to wash it.

Cindy's answer was expected by Cheng Qing, he was not surprised, but the smile on the corner of his mouth was unfathomable. "Why don't you just wash it at my house and put it in the dryer after you're done washing it, otherwise it won't be very convenient for you to carry it back home."

"Uh..." Cindy hesitated. "Okay then."

"I'm going to the living room."

As soon as Cheng Qing left, cindy carried the lunch box into the kitchen. She glanced back nervously, and found that Cheng Qing was not looking at herself, so she was relieved, looking at the faucet was a bit tangled, how did it work? ...

But she was afraid she wouldn't be able to pass the test without washing, so she just washed it with water, and then wiped it with a rag. Before she was done wiping, Cheng Qing's voice suddenly came from behind: "Have you washed it yet?"

"Huh?!"

Cheng Qing took the lunch box in her hand, glanced at it, and said lightly: "Go to the living room, I'll wash it."

cindy forced a smile: "I feel a little pain in my fingers, so..."

Cheng Qing looked at her with a half-smile, washed the lunch box in front of her, dried it with a rag, and handed it to her. Cindy quickly reached out to pick it up, but she let go before she received Cheng Qing, and the lunch box fell to the ground with a clear and loud sound. Cindy was startled: "What happened to you? Why did you throw it on the ground?" He squatted down to pick it up, but was grabbed by Cheng Qing.

She raised her head to look at him, but he didn't look at her. He looked straight ahead and asked her, "Is it fun?"

"What did you say?"

"I ask you, is it fun?" Cheng Qing let go of his hand, he always smiled at her, although the smile was very light most of the time, but it was indeed a smile, as indifferent as now, cindy has never Haven't seen it. There are so many employees in the company, and they always say that the CEO is not easy to approach. Cindy has always felt that this is not the case, but until now she didn't know why others said that, if the Cheng Qing she saw was like this, then she would not want to approach him.

Only now... she bit her lip, still refusing to admit: "I don't know what you're talking about."

"Don't you know?" Cheng Qing didn't want to admit that a feeling of disappointment was slowly rising in his heart. "Since you said you don't know, then you don't know."

He walked out of the kitchen, cindy followed him, Cheng Qing said, "You can go back."

Cindy doesn't understand: "What did I do wrong? Even if you want me to go, you have to give me a reason?" She looked at the man in disbelief. They weren't all right yesterday. In less than a day, why did his attitude change so much that she didn't dare to recognize it.

But at the same time, her clean eyes began to dodge and she felt guilty.