Heroine’s Road to Becoming Scum: The fifty-first bowl of soup (ten)

The fifty-first bowl of soup (ten)

"What's going on here?"

"General! General, you are back!" The steward saw Chi Jing from a distance, and hurriedly stepped forward to greet him. Chi Jing rode on his horse and saw the father and daughter who were squatting outside the general's mansion, crying and provoking the crowd. His brows furrowed slightly: "Are they here to find Madam?"

"Exactly. They said they were asking the madam to save their lives. The madam refused to see them, so they started making trouble outside the door. The servants wanted to be kept away from them, but they were worried that they would be accused of bullying..."

Chi Jing dismounted, took off his cloak and handed it over to the guards. Miss Tan raised her head and looked at it madly, realizing for the first time that such a manly man was much more handsome than those white-faced scholars. She had been fortunate enough to have seen the generals get along with Tan Youling several times. Such a tall and strong man was tender in front of Tan Youling. Although there was no expression on his face, how could his eyes hide from others?

She thought that Chi Jing was walking towards her after dismounting, so she sorted out her words and prepared her words, but she saw Chi Jing passing by and directly entered the gate of the General's Mansion, and at the same time told the guards: "Blindly break into the General's Mansion and tell the General's wife. Disrespectful, throw them to me in Jingzhao Mansion and punish them as crimes."

"Yes!"

Chi Jing doesn't care what the people think of him at all, and how he evaluates his ruthless behavior towards his father-in-law's family.

He doesn't care anymore.

Tan Youling was reading a book in her room, and when she heard that the general was returning to the mansion, she quickly put down her book and went out to greet her. It happened that Chi Jing walked into the yard, and she flew into his arms like a happy bird and asked with a raised face: " Is the general back?"

The voice was soft and sweet, and Chi Jing's eyes could not help softening. With a hum, he hugged her and walked into the room. She began to tell him what she did and read when he was away, and asked him if he was hungry or tired, Chi Jing answered them one by one, and then told her where she went today, What kind of errand did the emperor give him? After this errand, I can rest for a few days. Where do I want to take her to play.

At the beginning of the night, Tan Youling was lying on Chi Jing's chest, sighing happily and blankly: "I never thought that one day I would be able to live such a life. If I can be with my husband, eat more. I am also willing to suffer.”

Chi Jing didn't respond, and stroked her long hair again and again with big hands, how could she talk to her when she was sad. After a moment of silence, he said, "If I walk in front of you, you don't have to keep the festival for me, just live the life you want."

"What nonsense is the general talking about?" Tan Youling was a little angry, she frowned, "Does the general just want me to remarry?"

"Of course I didn't mean it that way. It's just that...you are young and have no children to worry about. If you can find a good husband, wouldn't it be better than staying in this cold general's mansion?"

"Are you sure the general will leave first?" Tan Youling's nose was sour, she couldn't tell whether she was angry or sad.

Chi Jing sighed softly: "Linger, I'm in my thirties, and I'm almost twenty years older than you. I've been on the battlefield all these years, and I've been injured countless times. It's God's mercy that I can survive until now. After speaking, he was silent for a while before continuing, "I'm afraid I don't have the fortune to grow old with you."

Tan Youling couldn't see him saying such words, hugged him tightly, pressed against his chest, and whispered: "So what, the general is alive, I am the general's wife, and the general is dead, I will not live alone. "

"Don't say something childish." Chi Jing's voice was soft, as if coaxing a willful and tantrum child.

"No, you have to wait for me on Naihe Bridge. If I die first, I will wait for you there too."

Hearing this, Chi Jing had mixed feelings in his heart. How could he tell her that not everyone will cross the Naihe Bridge, and most of them will go straight to reincarnation after death. As for someone like him... who jumped off the Wangchuan River, and his soul is no longer complete, how can he be with her? goodbye? Whether there is an afterlife or not is a question, how dare you promise something that will last forever to the end of your life.

"My fate with you is only in this life. In the next life, you will be clean and you won't remember anything." He chuckled at her love like an elder, "I can't force it."

I can't force it.

Tan Youling doesn't understand why no matter how happy they are, his eyes are still so sad, and she doesn't understand why she can't dispel the loneliness and alienation in him with all her strength, she doesn't know what to do Can save this man, because she has no idea why he is sad.

He said nothing to her.

Even as his wife, even in the arms of this man, even if he respects her, cherishes her and takes care of her, he still doesn't tell her anything.

"I like my husband." Tan Youling said with her eyes closed. "I like it very much. If I like it, I am willing to bear all the pain for my husband. I don't know what is in my husband's heart, and I don't want to know. But I will always be with you, no matter what happens in the future, no matter what happens in the past. accompany them all.”

"I don't force it, but if I can hold it in my hand, who would be willing to give up?"

Chi Jing was shocked.

"I will never leave you, and I will never fall in love with anyone else." After she said this, Chi Jingguang's bare chest felt hot.

That was Tan Youling's tears.

Then she hugged him and fell asleep without speaking, leaving Chi Jing alone all night.

Waking up the next morning, Tan Youling was still the same as before, happily and earnestly living every day. It's just that she may have been frightened by Chi Jing. As long as he is in the mansion, she always likes to follow him, and she follows him wherever he goes.

About seven or eight years have passed since their happy days. Tan Youling, who is in her twenties, is still beautiful. She has become noble and graceful, but she does not lose the purity and beauty of her daughter's family. The only thing is that they never had a child from beginning to end.

Without children, there is no concern, for Chi Jing.

In recent days, Tan Youling found that her husband who had always been indifferent seems to have adjusted her personality and began to cling to her. She went to the palace to speak to the empress, and he would also follow. He was inconvenient to listen to the topic of the woman's family, so he waited outside, and he was reluctant to leave her for a minute anyway.

Tan Youling felt very sweet at first. She really seldom saw Chi Jing like this, but she didn't realize until Chi Jing fell down that he didn't want to leave her and wanted to accompany her because he knew that his death was coming. A little more, a little more.

In the past six months, he has stopped helping the emperor to do business. He has stayed by her side all day long, obeying her in everything, and she agreed to everything she said.

Now Tan Youling finally knows why.

Chi Rui's illness is so threatening that even the imperial physician can't diagnose what the disease is.

Compared to the sadness of the emperor and others, Tan Youling is very calm.

On the night when Chi Jing left, I didn't want anyone to accompany you except Tan Youling. He stared tenderly at the girl who had been with him for so many years, and wanted to raise his hand to wipe away her tears, but he had no strength.

Tan Youling finally couldn't hold back her tears. She tremblingly kissed Chi Jing's lips and forehead and asked him, "Are you leaving?"

Chi Jing said: "Yes."

"I can't bear you." Her tears were more urgent and fierce, and there was a heart-wrenching feeling.

"Don't cry." He stroked her face with scrawny hands. "I will feel bad."

Tan Youling rubbed his hand with her small face and took a deep breath: "It's a pity, I can only be with you for ten years in this life. If there is an afterlife..."

If there is an afterlife.

It would be nice to have an afterlife.

Chi Jing didn't tell her anything about herself, and Tan Youling didn't even know who she had loved for so many years, and she didn't even know her lover's name.

Even Chi Jing can't remember.

He said nothing, looked at her, and closed his eyes.

Tan Youling snuggled up to his chest, like every night they slept together for ten years. She promised in her heart that she would not be too sad and would not follow him, but how could she meet a second person with such a good person?

After Chi Jing's death, the emperor and queen were very worried about Tan Youling's emotions. After all, how affectionate the two were, they both saw it, but Tan Youling still lived quietly every day, but would spend a long time in a daze.

According to Chi Jing's wishes, the funeral was kept simple. When the spirit was lifted, Tan Youling seemed to see Ye Qianlu in the crowd. She wasn't sure if she was wrong, but it didn't matter anymore.

Ye Qianlu is still married to her cousin from the previous life, but her life was not good. She hid in the crowd and watched the coffin being lifted. There lay the man she owed her whole life, but this He doesn't want her for the rest of his life. His wife is so beautiful and noble that he has long been excluded from his life.

She came to see him one last time, not knowing why.

Without Chi Jing, Tan Youling will still continue to live, but the longer she lives, the more she will miss it.

No one hugged her late at night, no one spoke softly in her ear, and she would never see that person again. This sad mood made Tan Youling unable to control herself. She wanted to follow Chi Jing more than once, but she held back.

She promised him to leave him alone, not to look for him.

Because even if I go, I can't find where he is.

Tan Youling tossed and turned on the bed for a long time that day and couldn't fall asleep. She changed the big bed in the bedroom, because there would no longer be a general holding her in his arms from behind. She would think of him every night, but she really missed him. is too painful.

I don't know how long it took, she seemed to fall asleep, but she didn't seem to be. In her dream, a white and tender little dumpling ran up to her happily, hugged her calf and looked up at her, smiling.

Tan Youling doesn't have children, but she likes children very much, so she bent down and asked, "Who are you and what's your name?"

Xiao Tuanzi smiled and rolled his eyes: "My name is Mo Ze."