Heroine’s Road to Becoming Scum: The fifty-third bowl of soup (5)

The fifty-third bowl of soup (5)

"The conditions here are very difficult, and they are not comparable to those in the palace, so I may be wronged by the princess."

The princess was a little shy: "It's okay." As long as she can see Xie Ze, it's okay to ask her not to eat.

Lu Ling volunteered to help. The princess wanted to intervene, but she did her best to help. In the end, she had to sit on the threshold and watch the two big men working there. Xie Ze didn't have many ingredients, and the food he made was very simple. The princess was used to eating delicious food from mountains and seas. It was the first time she ate such a rough meal, so naturally she couldn't adapt, but she still forced herself to swallow it hard and raised her head. Look, Lu Ling has already gone to clean up the house. She must be staying here at night, and Xie Ze is standing not far in front of her.

She couldn't swallow after eating a little. The taste was one thing. More importantly, she lost her appetite when she saw Xie Ze's figure. All the way to this small town, she was pampered, and she suffered a lot, but if Xie Ze could give her a little tenderness, even just a little - she would not be so sad.

He has always rejected people thousands of miles away. He doesn't flatter her, doesn't flatter her, and at the same time, doesn't like her.

The princess doesn't understand why, what's wrong with her? Everyone else broke their heads and wanted to be a concubine, but this Xie Ze regarded her as a beast of a flood and wanted to run away when he saw her, let alone get along with her.

Lu Ling tidied up the house, and the princess slept in it at night. Then he went out to arrange dinner for the other soldiers, and slept outside, making it easy to work together. Fortunately, not many people came, about 20 people, otherwise it would be difficult to arrange.

The princess slept in the house at night, and Xie Ze didn't stay there. The princess was lying in this dilapidated mud house, feeling uncomfortable. How could this be compared to her bedroom? It was dark and shabby, with mottled walls. It was really scary to sleep alone in the house. She thought for a while, and said to Lu Ling, who was guarding her outside, "Go and call the general to this princess."

Lu Ling hesitated for a moment: "Princess, it should be a subordinate vigil."

The princess loses her temper: "If you tell me to go, you can go, where is so much nonsense!"

Lu Ling had no choice but to walk out the window. Near the door, Xie Ze was sitting there leaning against the door panel. The soldiers outside were all asleep, but his black eyes looked particularly dazzling in the night. . "General, princess she...please come over."

Xie Ze frowned slightly: "I see, sit down and rest for a while."

"Yes."

Xie Ze walked to the window a few steps and said solemnly: "Princess, the end is in the future."

"Do you think I'm very bad? I'm very impersonal, very rude and difficult to get along with?"

This question is unreasonable. Others have long been sincere and fearful, but Xie Ze's expression is indifferent: "The princess is a princess, and she has the capital to be unruly and willful."

The princess bit her lower lip as she lay on the bed and looked at the roof. There wasn't even a tent, and every now and then, sand would fall on her. Xie Ze knew that she was going to sleep in his bed, so he took away all her personal belongings, and even ordered someone to go to town to buy new sheets and quilts. Anyway, she just didn't have any intimate contact with her. Thinking about it, I have liked him for several years, but until now, let alone holding hands, the princess has never even touched Xie Ze's personal belongings.

She took a breath and explained, "...I just wanted to give you a breath today, not to bully the people on purpose."

Xie Ze squinted and looked up at the sky. The dark night was dotted with stars. He didn't speak or give any response.

The princess felt very aggrieved. She was the darling daughter of the heavens. For the sake of Xie Ze, she was considered to be condescending, but this person was so cold from beginning to end. How much love could she give him? ? "...That Osmanthus is greedy, and with my word of mouth, she can live a long and good life in the Sima family in the future, and she will definitely mess up the Sima family. But after waiting for a long time, those two people Realizing that I won't take care of this anymore, Osmanthus will suffer. Although these three are not very good, they are not bad people. Are you angry that I didn't chop off their heads? "

"The last general is not the one who will take his own life."

The princess is even more sad. She felt that she had given enough, and even made a decision for him, but this person is always so cold and distant. "Xie Ze, you are a bastard."

Xie Ze was silent.

She was obviously crying: "Do you think I have to like you? This princess tells you that a person who wants to be a concubine can circle the capital ten times!"

Xie Ze's thin lips opened lightly: "Then I wish the princess to find a good husband as soon as possible."

"Xie Ze!" The princess sat up from the bed angrily, just in time to see the tall figure standing in front of the window. The shadow of this man was reflected on the ground by the moonlight. She had imagined more than once what it was like to be hugged by him, but no matter how hot her heart was, there would be a day when it would cool down. "Can you tell me why? Why don't you like me? What's wrong with me? I like you so much, I even begged the emperor not to marry him, and begged him to respect your opinion. In order to do this, why are you? Still don't like me?"

As she expected, Xie Ze did not respond to her. In fact, if it weren't for him being a courtier, the princess believed that this person would not even look at her. The advantageous conditions that she was proud of were not available to Xie Ze, because he didn't like them at all. "My liking is also limited. This princess is a member of the royal family. She will not be so humble forever and wait for you to look back at me. So Xie Ze, I just ask you: Can you have a moment to be heartbroken for me?"

Xie Ze's answer is simple and firm: "Never."

She cries like a child while holding the quilt.

Actually, Xie Ze didn't understand why he didn't want to marry the princess, and no one ever asked him to guard his body. But he really lost the idea of ​​starting a family. He couldn't help but keep a distance from every woman who tried to get close to him. Even every late night, he couldn't help but think of another woman.

"I don't understand..."

"The princess doesn't need to understand." Xie Ze whispered. "I have someone in my heart."

The princess cried even more: "Who is it?" She promised not to kill her!

Xie Ze said lightly: "No more."

What does "..." mean? She burst into tears, unable to understand what he was saying.

Xie Ze repeated it again, not sure if he told the princess, or if he told himself again: "No. I lost her."

After speaking, he turned and left, leaving the princess alone.

Seeing Xie Ze coming back, Lu Ling quickly got up to go to the vigil, but was stopped by Xie Ze: "Lu Ling."

"General."

"You...do you know what liking is?"

Lu Ling was taken aback by the question. "Why did the general ask this?"

"What does the princess like about me?" he muttered, not understanding the question himself.

Lu Ling couldn't help laughing: "The general is young and promising, he is upright, and he is the princess' savior. Isn't it normal for the princess to like the general?"

"Then why... I don't feel like she likes me." Xie Ze frowned. "I used to have a girl who liked me, and I treated her differently from the princess."

"It's not easy, the general naturally likes that girl."

Xie Ze was struck by lightning when he heard it. "What did you say?"

Lu Ling bowed his head and still smiled: "That's how you like someone. If it goes deep into your bones, you won't be tempted when you see someone better and more beautiful than her."

"Listen to what you mean, have you ever liked someone else?"

Lu Ling was a little embarrassed: "Yes, I also have someone I like."

"That person...?" Xie Ze was rarely curious. Lu Ling had been with him for several years, but he had never heard him talk about it.

"It's hard to tell my subordinates, but that person, my subordinates are willing to make any sacrifices."

Xie Ze waved his hand, and Lu Ling went to the window to watch the night again, leaving him alone in front of the door.

The wind was soft and the moonlight was nice. In short, it was a good night, but Xie Ze felt a big shock in his heart. To be honest, he always knew that the princess liked him, and when he clearly rejected her, he never thought of anything else, but tonight, he couldn't help but think, why did he reject the princess?

No matter how useless Xie San was before his death, he also wanted to live a good life, and also wanted to marry a daughter-in-law and go home. Don't men think that way? So why doesn't he? The princess liked him, and even the emperor valued him very much. It stands to reason that he should nod his head to be a concubine and enjoy the wealth and glory. Are you afraid of a bad life in this life?

But in the end he just wanted to be alone, without anyone to accompany him.

...he had never thought about getting a wife.

Why?

Looking up, Xie Ze saw Lu Ling standing upright in front of the window, with a tall figure. He still remembered Lu Ling's tone when talking about the person he liked. Although it was dark, he could still see the gentle expression in Lu Ling's eyes. Light, that is not regret, is persistent, but also at all costs.

That kind of love is already love.

Xie Ze felt that his mind was in a mess, something was about to come out, he wanted to know, but he didn't want it to come out. He had a hunch that if he saw his heart clearly, he would definitely change.

In that case, how can you return to your own world with nothing left? Even if he doesn't remember what happened, Xie Ze's soul can't forget the thousands of years of torture at the bottom of the Wangchuan River. Did he climb ashore after suffering so much that his success was in vain?

No one can stop him, he wants to go back to that world, find his past, and seek justice.

Has the world ever treated him kindly? He worked so hard, didn't he end up in a tragic death? Xie Ze covered his chest, he felt that there was something in that place, and it gradually became vivid and moving.

But in the end he covered it.