Heroine’s Road to Becoming Scum: The forty-eighth bowl of soup (3)

Chi Junyan had a dream.

He was crying in the dream.

He seemed to be watching from a thousand miles away, faintly wanting to laugh. He never cried, he'd rather bleed than be vulnerable to tears.

But he suddenly covered his chest weakly. The dull pain from there made him unable to bear it. There seemed to be pointing voices around him. There seemed to be attacks, abuse, ridicule, ridicule, and countless others. The words nearly broke him.

It hurts so much, I want to cry.

He woke up from the dream, brushed his hair irritably, looked at Chi Lu who was sleeping beside him, tried the quilt, and got out of bed.

He never smoked or drank alcohol, one because he was not good at it, and the other because he was worried that it would be bad for children. But now, Chi Junyan is desperate for a bottle of wine or a cigarette. In many cases, the pain cannot be vented, and these paralyzed nerves can only be used.

He stretched and leaned in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows until dawn, when the little girl struggled to get up drowsily with her eyes closed, and he collected all his thoughts.

That strange dream was not of these worlds. Chi Junyan has reason to think that it was his own life. It's just that he couldn't remember what he saw in the dream anyway, only that despair made his heart stop, and even if he woke up, he still had a haze in his heart. He had no plans to go back. Even if he failed in this world, it would be fine, but this dream woke Chi Junyan again. He wanted to go back, and the angels couldn't stop him.

He recalled every second he spent in Wangchuan, and the feeling of being on the verge of collapse was terrifying. He always felt that he was about to die, but when he opened his eyes, there were still countless ghosts around.

It's not over, it's not over.

Chi Lu obediently came to the kitchen after washing herself, tilted her head and found that something was wrong with her father, so she reminded: "Dad, egg..."

Chi Junyan came back to his senses and found that the eggs in the pan had been burnt and gave off an unpleasant smell. He hurriedly opened the window to ventilate, and asked Chi Lu to sit on a chair and wait, so as not to come in, so as not to smoke her clothes. I threw the charred omelette into the trash can and took another one. This time there was no accident. I fry it in a mold into a heart shape and send it to the dining table.

The little girl is already hungry. She waved her little hands and smiled sweetly, "Dad is amazing."

"Where is the power?" Chi Junyan asked casually.

"The children all say that their father can't cook, but my father can, so my father is the best." The little girl opened her mouth and said sweet words as if she didn't want money. This flattering Chi Junyan felt refreshed, pinched his face habitually, and then asked her: "Drink the milk."

The older Chi Lu grew up, the less she liked to drink milk, but since her father asked her, she would just reluctantly drink it all. After drinking it, he hurriedly ate something else to get rid of the taste. Chi Junyan couldn't help laughing at the expression like drinking poison|medicine: "Is it that bad to drink?"

"It sucks!" Chi Lu pinched her nose and wrinkled her face. "The advertisement says that milk is squeezed from cows, I am human, I don't want to drink cow's milk!"

Chi Junyan was amused by her and laughed, and explained it again, before Chi Lu grimaced and promised to drink a cup every day from now on.

Send Chi Lu to school, and Chi Junyan returns to work again. Although he does not advertise, he charges for writing articles. Why is this kind of hard work and effort free? Although he has money , but people always do not despise themselves for being richer. If he leaves in the future, with more money, Chi Lu will be able to live better.

Chi Junyan, who was worried that he would be hacked to death by Chi Lu one day in his sleep, had already made a will. No matter how he died, Chi Lu would be the last heir, yes, and she was the only one.

Time passed slowly, and soon, Chi Lu was twelve years old. After graduating from the sixth grade of primary school, he was going to enter the junior high school. To Chi Junyan's relief, he did not need to worry about Chi Lu's grades. Pampered and doted on growing up, but smart and hardworking, she is the first in her age every semester.

The same as when I was alive.

When I was alive... Chi Junyan was faintly fascinated, and Chi Lu jumped on his back before he realized it, and directly carried the little **** his back: "Why did you come back before school time?"

"After the exam, it's out of school. My classmates and I took the bus back."

Well, in addition to being smart and working hard, Chi Junyan has also been cultivating Chi Lu's independence. He really doesn't know when he will be a dog, so he has to treat every tomorrow as the last day. Fortunately, Chi Lu has a bit of temperament. She is squeamish and reliant on him, but is very sensible and obedient. Even if he is not around, he can take care of himself. For Chi Junyan, this is enough.

"Are you hungry?"

"No, I ate kebabs with my classmates on the way back." After speaking, Chi Lu immediately covered her mouth and looked at Chi Junyan pitifully: "Dad...I just ate it. Two, really, just two." Afraid that Chi Junyan wouldn't believe it, he extended **** to express that he "really" only ate two.

Chi Junyan looked at her helplessly: "This is not an example."

"Thank you Dad!" One second he was pitiful, the next he cheered and kissed Chi Junyan on the face. Chi Junyan is typing, letting her hang on him like a koala, neither annoying nor heavy. When Chi Lu grows up, he will stop posting photos on Weibo to avoid being recognized.

But something Chi Junyan never expected happened. He was thinking about when the reborn Chi Lu would appear every day, but he forgot another thing until Chi Lu, who was in the first year of junior high, came back from school one day. At home, he showed a very strange expression to him, looking at this and then at that, seeing that Chi Junyan, who was cooking, was completely wrong: "What are you looking at?"

"Dad..."

This cry was malicious, and Chi Junyan grabbed the kitchen knife: "What are you doing?" Could it be the reborn Chi Lu?

The next second, Chi Lu immediately smiled: "Dad, can you tell me about mom?"

Mom...If it weren't for Chi Luti, Chi Junyan would have forgotten that Chi Lu was born from the belly of the real Chi Junyan's girlfriend, oh... yes, yes, Chi Lu has a mother! Only then did he react: "Ask her what to do?" The little girl never asked her mother since she was a child, never asked, and Chi Junyan never thought to explain, how to explain? After a one-night stand, the other party is pregnant, knowing that he has money and deliberately delaying it until he can't be beaten, and comes to ask for money?

Isn't it ashamed to say it?

"A woman came to me today, and she said it was my mother."

"What?!" Chi Junyan frowned, he was very good-looking, he didn't look old for so many years, and he knew how to wear clothes, so he looked young and handsome. "What is her purpose?"

"I think... she may indeed be my mother, she looks a lot like me." Chi Lu touched her face, "but not as beautiful as me, who told me that half of my genes came from a great father What?"

With a sweet mouth, Chi Junyan raised his eyebrows: "And then?"

"Then she asked me if I wanted a mother and a happy family." Chi Lu smacked her lips, "I think she might want to get back with you, because I asked and she's not married yet."

Chi Junyan thought about it in his heart. When Chi Lu was born, the other party was seventeen, and now Chi Lu is twelve, the other party... "Isn't it normal to be twenty-nine and not married? In case she just wanted to see How about you?"

"Dad, aren't you afraid that she will come to fight with you for custody?" Chi Lu pouted. "I don't want to recognize my mother, and she didn't bring me up."

Chi Junyan reassured: "Don't worry, she will not leave your custody. If she wants to see you, as long as you are willing, you can, otherwise I won't let her get close to you."

Chi Lu immediately smiled: "Thank you, Dad!"

Because I just finished the exam, I can relax, so according to Chi Lu's request, Chi Junyan is going to take her to the night market to allow her to eat some junk food. As a result, the father and daughter saw a woman walking back and forth at the door as soon as they left the community. The two looked at each other and turned around and walked back at the same time. Unfortunately, it was too late. The other party found them and immediately shouted: "Chi Junyan! Chi Junyan!"

Alas..."I wouldn't go out if I knew it earlier." Chi Lu muttered, then looked up at her biological mother. She is not a fool. You can tell at a glance whether other people are good to her or not. This woman says that she misses her, but her eyes are completely different from her father's. She has no feelings at all, so she doesn't believe that the other person is real. Think about her daughter.

I really think, why haven't you seen her once in twelve years? They never moved.

"Hello."

The woman was a little dumbfounded, mainly because she didn't dare to recognize Chi Junyan. Chi Junyan, who was with her back then, was a sloppy little gangster who was nothing but rich, but the man standing in front of her looked at most Twenty-five-six, white t-shirt and jeans, so good-looking, young and mature with years of precipitation, it is really fascinating.

Looking back at myself, I am twenty-nine years old, and my life is not good at all. I have long had crow's feet with rough skin around the corners of my eyes. Now standing in front of this father and daughter, I feel an indescribable sense of embarrassment. The woman lowered her head crampedly, regretting in her heart, if she hadn't become obsessed with getting pregnant for money, or if she had stayed with Chi Junyan instead of paying back the money with her children, now this handsome and elegant man is her husband, beautiful and lovely. The girl is her daughter!

It's a pity that the world has never sold regret medicine. No matter how unwilling a woman is, the past cannot be changed. She smiled at Chi Junyan first, and she suddenly didn't know how to say the words she had prepared before coming. I always feel that no matter how high-sounding reasons I say in front of such a person, I can't hide my despicable and mediocre heart. She licked her lips and finally asked, "How are you, how are you now?"

"Good."

"I...I..."

"What do you want to say?" Chi Junyan's voice is very gentle. He always has this expression and tone in front of outsiders. He never seems to be angry or embarrassed. But only he himself knows that his heart is like dead water and will not tremble for anyone. And in this world, he doesn't care about anyone except Chi Lu.

But even Chi Lu couldn't make him stop.

Chi Lu is afraid that Chi Junyan will suffer. After all, in her memory, her father is the kind of gentle and talkative old man. This kind of thing that always suffers can't be done again in the future! So even if the person in front of her was her biological mother, she would never back down.