Heroine’s Road to Becoming Scum: The forty-eighth bowl of soup (seven)

Sometimes I can't catch it, even if I don't let go and give up, I still can't catch it.

Chi Junyan was lying on the bed, quietly looking up at the ceiling, his hand slowly raised, making a pinching action, at this moment, what appeared in front of his eyes was the little girl he brought up with one hand , holding his arm and calling him Daddy, the girl who gave him a sweet smile.

But that was too late. No matter which one is late, it is all late. There was no way for him to heal the wounds in Reborn Chilu's heart, because as long as he existed, as long as he appeared in front of her, she would recall the bad past life over and over again in her heart.

And his Lulu may never come back. Chi Junyan's raised hand stopped in mid-air for a long time, and finally put it down slowly, covering his eyes.

He refused to admit that the fluid from his eyes was called tears.

That is an emotion that only human beings have. Humans only feel sadness and sadness when they have love, but the difference between evil spirits and humans is that evil spirits do not cry. Their eyes are not made for tears, they will never forget despair and pain, but without tears, the pain will not subside.

After a long, long time, the window without the curtains had already penetrated into the twilight of the morning light, and Chi Junyan put down the hand covering his eyes. For a while, he didn't know what he was going to do. He got up, made breakfast, knocked on the door of Chi Lu's room, had breakfast, and then the father and daughter went out for a morning run together, but now... he was a little dazed.

Reached out and touched the phone, no text messages or missed calls, Chi Junyan sat cross-legged on the bed, he lowered his head, the morning sun shined in, refracted on his face, but just covered his eyebrows, only The lower half of his face exposed in the morning light showed his mood.

Then he got up as usual, made breakfast, and ran in the morning. A passerby encountered a familiar uncle and asked why Lu Lu didn't come. Chi Junyan smiled and explained that Lu Lu went to a friend's house to play. He didn't know why he was so sad. It was obvious that the current Chi Lu didn't want to kill him, which showed that she saw the difference between herself and Chi Junyan in the previous life, but even so, he still——

Chi Junyan sat down on a chair in the park and wiped his sweat with a towel. Today, he ran a lot farther than usual, and even went to an unfamiliar park. He rested for a few minutes, stood up and was about to go, when suddenly he heard a faint meow. Chi Junyan stood still, and after a few seconds, he slowly walked over, pushed aside the bushes, and saw a dirty kitten that couldn't see its original color.

The kitten noticed someone, raised its little head, which was not as big as Chi Junyan's palm, and let out a soft cry. The two little paws fiddled with the bushes around him, as if they were stuck.

Chi Junyan looked at it and suddenly seemed to see a little girl hiding under the coffee table a long time ago, looking at him timidly. With a slight smile, he gently pushed aside the grass and held out the kitten that was stuck between the branches. Only then did he find that one of the kitten's hind limbs was bloody, and he didn't know how long it had been stuck here. Chi Junyan looked around and found no trace of the mother cat, but the kitten was obviously just born. He thought about it and felt that it was probably abandoned by the mother cat, so he held it in the palm of his hand and turned to a pet hospital. .

After the examination, the doctor said that it was a skin injury, and I could take it home after a few days in the hospital. Chi Junyan touched it with his hands across the cage, and the little guy made a slight purring sound, so fragile and so moving.

He told the doctor that he wanted to keep a cat, and then with the help of the doctor, he made up a lot of knowledge about raising cats. After swiping the card, he touched the kitten. It is too small. After cleaning and wiping the wound, it can be It was seen to be a yellow and white pastoral cat. The doctor confirmed Chi Junyan's meaning again and again. All cats are very cute when they are young, but when they grow up, some of them will deviate from their original childhood appearance. They are naughty, short-tempered, easy to hurt, ugly...anyone There's no guarantee what a cute little kitten will look like in the future.

Most people abandon their pets for these reasons.

From this day on, Chi Junyan came to the pet hospital every day to see the kitten and never called Chi Lu again. He gave what he could, and no matter what the final result was, he accepted it.

Even if you bring Chi Lu back, it's not the little Chi Lu who has been with him for years. There is a lot of love and a lot of hate in her heart. Chi Junyan doesn't want Chi Lu to stay at home. Looking at her familiar face every day, she doesn't know how much she hates it.

Why torment each other, the children grow up and have full wings, so many don't stay at home to live, not to mention that it is still summer vacation, she can go wherever she wants, as long as she is safe.

A week later, the doctor said the kitten was almost healed and could be brought home, just be careful. So Chi Junyan carefully took a milk cat wearing a shame mask back home. This week, he specially cleaned a room as a cat house, and also bought a cat litter cat toilet on a climbing frame - in short, all cats Whatever he needs, he's ready.

The kitten is very well-behaved. It never stretches its paws in Chi Junyan's arms. Even after following Chi Junyan home, it will follow him wherever he goes. Chi Junyan must take it with him when he sleeps at night , otherwise it will keep meowing, but this makes Chi Junyan not dare to turn over, for fear of accidentally squashing the little guy who doesn't know where to sleep.

After eating the soft cat food for a few days, Chi Junyan found that the kitten had soft stools and the smell was very strong. He checked the Internet and decided to change his mind. He will not let him eat cat food in the future. Make cat food.

In order to balance nutrition and mix properly, he also used a computer to strictly formulate meals for seven days a week.

This kind of thing that ordinary people would find troublesome, but he does it with joy. He put all his energy and effort into this cat, and then he found that the only thing that would never betray or despise, only animals.

Even if he is from Wangchuan, even if he is not human, as long as he is willing to give, animals will respond.

Chi Junyan named the kitten Xiaochengzi, because it has orange-yellow fur, only the head and belly have white patterns. The kitten grows faster than humans. Chi Junyan takes pictures of it every day and finds that the kitten is growing at a speed visible to the naked eye.

He never called Chi Lu again during this period, as if he never had this person in his life. But he bought many things to Guan's house, including Chi Lu's favorite teddy bear at home, which was the first toy he bought for her. After so many years of buying newer and better ones, the one she likes the most.

At the same time, in order to express his gratitude to the Guan family, Chi Junyan also prepared gifts for their family. It's just that he doesn't take the initiative to come to the door again, and he no longer takes the initiative to greet him.

This family is quite big, but he also feels very happy with Xiaochengzi.

When holding the little orange in the palm of the hand, it seems that the whole world becomes softer. Fans on the Internet were surprised to find that after the male **** raised the cat, the little loli fell out of favor! Under Chi Junyan's feeding, the little orange grew up day by day. Fortunately, its appearance did not degrade because of growth, but the longer it grew, the more lovely it became.

Chi Junyan spends his spare time with Little Orange every day.

But maybe, it's Xiao Chengzi who is with him.

Sometimes he spends an afternoon in the cat house and doesn't need any entertainment. Even just watching Little Orange sleep makes him happy.

It is a long-lost, tenderness and love that rises from the bottom of my heart. He felt that he was becoming more and more like a "human". Although the pain would be stronger after he had love, he still felt good.

So he refused to let go, and was reluctant to let go.

Who would want to let go? What a wonderful thing to be alive. He has been struggling in the Wangchuan River for thousands of years because of his obsession. Chi Junyan wants to go back, but he understands that if he wants to go back, he does not necessarily have to avenge the person who betrayed and deceived him. Maybe, he went back, just I want to tell my former self: You did nothing wrong, you don't need to be ashamed.

There is no sound when the meat ball is stepped on the ground, but the little orange uses its claws to catch it when it drinks water, so when it runs again, one small footprint will be printed on the floor. The lovely Chi Junyan's heart was about to melt, he called Xiao Chengzi, and the little milk cat swayed towards him.

The injury of the hind limbs is almost healed, but it still stumbles a bit when running. As soon as the sun shines in, the small and soft fluff on Xiaochengzi's body is clearly visible. Chi Junyan holds it and scratches his chin and ears lightly. Orange purred, licked Chi Junyan's hand, meow meow.

Chi Junyan couldn't help but smile.

And Chi Lu, who is with the person she likes every day, gradually becomes silent. Guan Zong would take her out to play every day, and even if he didn't go out, he would always be with her. The first few days were indeed very happy. She seemed to have made up for all the regrets in her previous life. She held his hand all the time and never let go.

Don't worry about him doing stupid things for yourself, don't worry about not being worthy of him, and don't have to worry that Dad will suddenly appear in front of you and expose all the darkness to the unbearable sunlight.

No one will look at her with contempt and disgusting eyes. She walks on the street without anyone pointing at her. She is taken care of and pampered like a little princess. Even the wind that blows in every day is sweet and beautiful.

Guan's father and Guan's mother like her very much. She can live in Guan's house from now on, and Guan Zong loves her. She hugs him every day and acts like a spoiled child. When they all grow up, they can complete the wedding that was not completed in the previous life. Continue the unfulfilled vows, go gray together, grow old together.

But why does she feel sad?

Is this her?

When she dreamed at night, she would always dream of the previous seven years. The man in the dream had the exact same face as the person she hated the most, but had a completely different temperament. He was so gentle, so loving, always Looking at her with doting eyes, he stroked her head warmly with his big hands, and pinched his face down.

He never ignores him, except that she will pretend to cry out in pain, then jump into his arms and make some willful little requests, he will frown, hesitate, but always agree in the end.

That person's name is Chi Junyan.

It's her dad.

Chi Lu sat blankly in the yard, closed to a single family, the yard was full of flowers and plants, and now it happens to open in summer, and you can smell the fragrance every day.

She looked up at the sky, the sun was about to set again, it was not too hot outside, there were no clouds in the sky, and occasionally a bird flew by.

The rays of the sun shine on the fence full of green vines. Chi Lu swayed her feet. She didn't know why she suddenly liked to sit here, but if she sat here, she had a good view and could see from a distance At the intersection, if someone or a car drives in, she will see it as soon as possible.

She just sits here and looks out every day when she's fine, but she doesn't know why.

I don't know how long she's been sitting when someone suddenly patted her on the shoulder, she was bowing her head in a trance and turned back in surprise: "Dad!"

It is Guan Zong.

She knew that her current expression must be ugly, like smiling but not laughing, like crying but not crying. Guan Zong looked at her and pinched her soft cheeks with both hands: "Smile, why are you crying, it's not cute at all."

"...Anyway, I'm not cute in the first place." Chi Lu in the previous life was gloomy and introverted, and the word "cute" had nothing to do with it. Only after I met Guan Zong did I know what laughter was.

Guan Zong also jumped to the railing and sat, following Chi Lu's gaze to the distance: "Missing Dad?"

"No."

Guan Zong was not angry at her denial, but just chuckled: "When I was young, my parents took me back to my grandparents' house in the countryside, where I met a lot of friends, and I didn't know how much to play every day. I was happy, but they refused to come back with them. They had no choice, so they left me and said they would pick me up after half a month."

"...Why did you tell me this." In fact, she probably knew what he wanted to say, but she still asked a question.

"I played happily until the evening. There were many children in my grandparents' house, but it was strange to say that I couldn't sleep that night, I couldn't help crying, and the next day I was clamoring to go home."

"At that time, I realized that I missed my parents so much. Even if it was only for one night, even if I had already entered junior high school, I still didn't want to be separated from them." Guan Zong said, turned his head and smiled at Chi Lu, He stroked her soft hair. "You know, some things can never be ignored. Some feelings accumulate over time, you don't feel it when you don't pay attention, but once you leave, you know how valuable he is."

Chi Lu bowed his head and did not speak.

"Sooner or later, we will have to live away from our parents. So when we can still be with them, we must learn to cherish them, because you will lose them if you don't know when."