Heroine’s Road to Becoming Scum: The thirty-fifth bowl of soup (1&2)

It's a flower that blooms brilliantly in the dark night.

Dark, damp, full of splendid darkness, it seems like a bewitchment from **** and a sigh from heaven. In the silence of the emptiness, it blooms soothingly and freely, the petals are as deep as ink, but the rhizome is a tender green that symbolizes life.

As the darkness erodes, it gradually returns to silence.

Have you ever loved someone deeply?

For that person, I am willing to give up all my pride, trample my dignity under my feet, crawl to the ground, and only wish that he could look at you - even if it was just a glance, attentive, engrossed, and in the eyes, except for the reflection The figure of you, there is no second person.

It is a love that goes deep into the tide. It cannot be stopped, it cannot be wiped out, it is like a fire that burns the soul. Love, love, love until you burn your soul.

You still love him very much, but there is no way to hold your heart out, send it up, let him cut one after another with a knife, and then ask him with concern: Hey, are your hands sore?

You waited humbly, waiting for him to look back at you, it would be better if he could hug you and comfort you, but you know it's an extravagant hope, he can't see you in his eyes, even if you Your figure is reflected in his eyes, and the person he is thinking of will not be you.

The devil hidden in the dark beckons at you and wants to make a deal with you: give me your soul, give me the gospel.

Did you agree?

Or, no?

In a high-end bar in city a, a certain box was puffing with clouds, and several men were squatting on the sofa, and beside them sat a hot and enchanting girl. This place is full of money, people who show up or leave frequently here, they only live for money. Some do it to make money, some do it to spend money.

The man in the lead had a thumb-thick gold chain around his neck. He smiled, revealing two large gold teeth. There was a deep scar on the left side of his face, but his face was very good and masculine. At this moment, he opened the suitcase he was carrying, pushed it in front of the man with oily head and noodles, and raised his legs with a smile, "This batch of goods is one grade higher than the previous batch, so you can make sure you don't lose money! How about you? Are you satisfied?"

The man with oily head and powder noodles put his arms around a woman with one hand, picked up a bag with the other hand, looked at it, and said, "I am very satisfied, but this price..."

"Of course the price is different for different grades, but don't worry, I will definitely not be expensive at this price!"

The price was settled between the two. At this moment, the box was kicked open from the outside! Everyone was shocked, the girls screamed harshly, and they were soon surrounded by heavily armed special police.

The box is on the third floor, even if you want to jump off the building to escape, everyone squatted in the corner with their heads in their hands after a fight, and was soon handcuffed and forcibly taken away.

When these people were resolved, a young SWAT policeman approached the captain and asked curiously, "Captain, who did you tell us the news?"

The captain knocked him on the head: "Ask so much, stop nonsense, and hurry up!"

This dirty business was over before it could even start, and the bar was closed down, and the next day made headlines on the social page—the high-end bar has a hidden mystery, and it is actually a drug trade hypermarket!

A young woman stopped in front of the small newsstand, took out two coins, and exchanged a newspaper with the boss. She stood on the road and read the news, with a contemptuous smile on the corner of her mouth, she smashed it into a ball and threw it into the trash can. She dragged a small suitcase and turned in through the alley. Back home, as usual, her mother was drying clothes and her father was not at home.

Tong Man stood at the door of the house for a while before shouting: "Mom."

The woman who was drying clothes looked back at her. The first sentence was not to ask her why it took her so long to come back, nor to ask her where she had been for the past six months, but just looked at her with disgust and asked: " What are you doing here?"

Tong Man lowered her eyes and asked without answering, "Mom, can I stay for a while?"

"No!" Mother Tong refused without thinking. "Hurry up, your dad will be angry again when he sees you when he comes home." After speaking, he muttered, "It's really useless, such a good man can't catch it."

Tong Man said: "Mom, when you took Tan Rui's one million betrothal gift, I didn't ask for a dime. Can't you let me live at home for a while now?"

Although she was pleading, her tone was flat, looking straight at her mother. Tong's mother was still a little guilty, but when she heard Tong Man's money, she immediately changed her face: "You little hoof, how dare you say it! My father and I worked so hard to make you grow so big, shouldn't you repay us? Who told you to come back, you have lost all the face of our Laotong family! Not to mention being kicked by Tan Rui, even without a dime of alimony, there is still the face to go home and ask for a betrothal gift? Hurry up and get out of here! I kept the money for your brother to buy a house and marry a wife, and I don't have your share! If you don't have money, you can find a way to do it yourself!"

She scolded a few slurs in her mouth again, little bitch|bitch hoof or something like that—as if Tong Man wasn't her own.

Tong Man stood at the door and didn't move until Mother Tong came over and slammed the door in front of her! Tong Man stood so close that he almost hit his nose.

The neighbors heard Tong's mother's scolding and came out to watch and pointed at Tong Man. They may all know that she was kicked out soon after she married into a wealthy family. When she married Tan Rui, everyone was jealous, and her parents were even more happy to show off. But in less than two years now, everyone has changed a face.

Tong Man looked up at this small alley. This was where she grew up for more than 20 years, but it was never her home.

She dragged her suitcase and walked away slowly. When walking out of the alley, a black car stopped in front of her, the window rolled down, revealing the face of a middle-aged man: "Miss, do you need help?"

Tong Man shook his head, and the man drove away. Tong Man wandered aimlessly on the street. From the bright morning to the dark night, she dragged her suitcase and kept walking, walking, walking, without stopping.

Finally she pulled her wallet out of her pocket, which contained a key and an address. Tong Man didn't want to go there, but now, it was obvious that she had nowhere to go.

The destination is a community, Tong Man got into the elevator and arrived at the house. The house was well decorated and everything was complete. Tong Man put the suitcase in the living room and sat on the sofa. She quietly looked out the window. From now on, she is alone.

Tong Man slowly lived in this community like this. She applied for a job as a clerk in a snack bar not far away. She received 2,000 yuan a month for food and accommodation. Tong Man didn't live in the store. She went to work on time every day and never spoke to anyone. She was just that quiet and peaceful. Dead silence. Many times, colleagues felt that she didn't seem to be alive, as if she couldn't even hear her breathing.

In the evening, Tong Man returned to the house, sat quietly until late at night, fell asleep until the body could not support it, and woke up very early the next morning, day after day. She spends the Dragon Boat Festival alone, the Mid-Autumn Festival alone, and she still spends Christmas alone.

On New Year's Day, the store was closed for rest, and everyone went home. Tong Man still got up early in the morning, went to the park or by the river, and sat on a bench all afternoon. She spent more than a year like this, until before the new year, she met a pair of beautiful people on her way back to the house.

That's a real couple.

The woman is beautiful and gentle, with a gentle and sweet smile on her face, wearing a camel-colored coat, which is of great value, high heels stretch the curve of her already slender legs, and thick and fluffy curly hair makes her look Extraordinarily charming. On the other hand, the man wore a black woolen coat over his suit, he was slender and handsome, and his beauty was suffocating. Their hands were clasped together as if nothing could separate them.

So compared to them, Tong Man, who is wrapped like a sugar ball, looks like a bumpkin.

When she raised her head, her eyes reflected the shadows of this pair of beautiful people. Whether they were beautiful or happy, her eyes were like stagnant water.

The woman glanced at the man worriedly and smiled kindly at Tong Man: "Hello, are you Miss Tong? I'm Yan Lan." She took off her gloves and stretched out a hand.

That hand is beautiful, well-maintained, and incredibly slender. Tong Man gave her a dull and slow look, and didn't shake her back. Yan Lan retracted her hand a little embarrassedly, and soon Tan Rui felt distressed. He put Yan Lan's hand in his pocket to warm it, and said to Tong Man, "Where have you been for more than a year? I can't find you anywhere..."

Tong Man ignored them, let alone talked to them, bypassed them and continued to move forward. Unexpectedly, Yan Lan stopped him: "Miss Tong!"

They walked in front of her slowly, Yan Lan apologized embarrassedly and uneasy: "I'm sorry, we didn't mean to hurt you, just..."

"It's all my fault." Tan Rui said quickly, "I shouldn't have impulsively married you just because Xiao Lan left me, Tong Man, I'm sorry."

He sincerely apologized.

But so what? Tong Man thought. so what? After they apologized, they were still very happy. What does it have to do with her?

"Can you forgive us? We have been worried about you for more than a year. I have been looking for you. Are you, how are you?"

Is she doing well?

Tong Man didn't answer, she didn't want to see these two people at all. So she walked forward briskly, expressionless and stagnant.

Tan Rui and Yan Lan looked at each other and did not catch up. They could all see that Tong Man couldn't accept their apology, but it didn't matter. Fortunately, they finally found her, and they could take it slow in the future, not in a hurry.

Yan Lan's eyes were a little wet, she threw herself into Tan Rui's arms and asked softly, "It's all my fault, isn't it?"

"No, it's not your fault, it's me, it's me who's sorry for her, not you."

"I shouldn't have come to you when I returned home, I shouldn't regret leaving you..." Yan Lan burst into tears.

Tan Rui hugged her tightly: "The person I love has always been you, I'm sorry about Tong Man, but I still don't love her, I only feel guilty for her. I shouldn't lie to her, I shouldn't be with you even after marriage, if I'm wrong, it's all my fault."

"But now you are still husband and wife, aren't you? Others don't know, but I know. You haven't divorced yet." Yan Lan looked at the direction where Tong Man disappeared, she knew that she was doing something wrong, she knew that she was like this It was despised, but she was reluctant to let go of Tan Rui. She had left him once before, and she regretted it to the death. She couldn't live without him again!

"When I get her forgiveness, she will divorce me. Tong Man is a good girl, she will not fail us."

Yan Lan was persuaded, nodded lightly, and looked forward involuntarily.

Tong Man returned to the house, which was terribly cold. She stretched out her hand, she was particularly afraid of cold, so she hated winter. After turning on the air conditioner, Tong Man wrapped himself in the quilt and lay on the sofa, silently not speaking.

She is still alive.

She was supposed to be dead, but she came back alive.

But.

But she's afraid of the cold. She... was so afraid of the cold. It was bone-chilling, as if even the soul was frozen. Tong Man held himself longer, longer, tighter, tighter. In fact, she didn't know why she wanted to live so much, and what did she do with her life? It's not because she doesn't give up, she always doesn't give up.

But how can people be so cold when they live?

Tong Man shivered. She trembled slightly, it was okay to not speak after being alone for too long.

She closed her eyes again, but the night was long and she could never fall asleep. Nightmare haunted her, she will never forget it.

Tong Man stayed like this for a long time. When she was hungry, she went to find something to eat, then went back to bed, wrapped in the quilt in a daze. The coldness that radiated from the depths of her heart made her uneasy. She was stunned for a while until a doorbell woke Tong Man from her absence, but she didn't know who would come to her.

Tomorrow is New Year's Eve, her parents will definitely not come to her, and her younger brother will not. She is worthless at home and is equivalent to waste.

Tong Man looked out from the cat's eye and found that it was Tan Rui, but he came alone, with a gift box in his hand. Tong Man turned around and went back to the sofa, ignoring it and pretending he didn't hear it.

But Tan Rui seemed to be certain that she was at home, and kept pressing the doorbell. Tong Man, who pressed it, was impetuous, and opened the door, ignoring him, just looking at him. Tan Rui's dark eyes caused Tan Rui to be in a trance for a moment. She always looked at him tenderly and lovingly, but right now there was stillness like dead water in these eyes.

Suddenly, his prepared remarks were useless, and his pretty lips moved before asking, "Can I go in?"

Tong Man didn't speak and took a step back.

Tan Rui walked in, only to find this house - how should I put it, it was terribly clean and terrifyingly empty. In the huge living room, there is only one air conditioner and one sofa, and there is nothing else. The floor is bright and the temperature is very high. But he turned to look at Tong Man and found that Tong Man was still wrapped in a thick quilt. So I couldn't help but ask: "Aren't you... cold?"

Tong Man looked at him without speaking.

Tan Rui was a little embarrassed by her, and coughed softly: "That...I brought you some food, all of which you like, and the limited edition bear you've always wanted." Said He handed it to Tong Man, looking a little restrained.

Tong Man glanced down along his hand, didn't respond to him, didn't take it, just went back to her sofa and wrapped herself up.

It's not that Tan Rui is exaggerating, it's that he really feels hot. Although Tong Man ignored him, in the end, he was sorry for Tong Man, so he didn't get angry, but went to her and tried to persuade her to untie the quilt: "Aren't you hot? The temperature is too high, why? Still wrapped in a quilt? I'll take it down for you..."

Clap! With a bang, it was Tong Man who slapped Tan Rui's hand away. Tan Rui was a little embarrassed, took his hand back, and explained, "I didn't mean to..."

"You go."

This is the first time in two years that Tan Rui has heard Tong Man's voice in a place other than a dream. In his memory, Tong Man was always sunny and optimistic, no matter how much unfair treatment she suffered, no matter how her loved ones hurt her, she faced every day positively.

But—but now, her voice was quiet and steady, without the slightest emotion. Tan Rui even felt that the Tong Man in front of her was no longer Tong Man, and the spirit and happiness in her body were taken away - he took it away.

"Manman...Where have you been for the past two years? I've been looking for you." Tan Rui looked at her sincerely. "I didn't mean to that night. I went to find you immediately after I got out of the hospital, but you've already left. I, I've always wanted to say sorry to you..."

"Look for me." Tong Man glanced at him. "Divorce?"

"No, that's not what I meant..."

"I'm so cold."

"...What?" Tan Rui almost thought he had heard it wrong.

"I said, I'm so cold." Tong Man repeated this sentence while loosening the quilt on his body, as if possessed. Her lips were pale and her fingertips were red and blue from the cold, but Tan Rui, who was so hot in the room, couldn't take it anymore. "Come and hug me."

Tan Rui was stunned for a moment, and Tong Man asked him, "Don't you want to?"

"No, I just..."

"When we were still living together, didn't you often carry Yanlan behind my back?" Tong Man's black eyes were Tan Rui's handsome face, she stretched out her arms to him: "Hugg me , I'm so cold."

It's really, really, really cold.

Tan Rui seemed to be bewitched, and bent down and hugged Tong Man into his arms. As soon as she hugged him, she shivered - it was like holding a piece of ice, her heartbeat was slow, her breathing was slow, and even her eyelashes seemed to be frozen, Tan Rui didn't have time to think about anything else, put Tong Man put his hands on his chest, just like he had warmed her hands countless times in the past. "Why is it so cold? What's wrong with you?"

"I'm so cold." The little face rested on Tan Rui's shoulder, repeating over and over again: "I'm so cold."

She involuntarily began to yearn for human body temperature. She reached out to take off Tan Rui's clothes, and the cold little hand touched the naked and strong chest, and Tan Rui couldn't help shivering. He wanted to say no, but he couldn't say no. Tong Man in his arms is like a drowning person who grabs a driftwood, hugs him and refuses to let go.

Since that summer night two years ago, her heart has never been calm, and she can't get better. Everything that is calm is an illusion, and what she has loved is an illusion. She has become so afraid of cold, lonely, lonely, desperate, and betrayed. It's all cold.

"Take me to the bedroom," she whispered in his ear.

The bedroom was dark and the lights were not on. Tong Man grabbed Tan Rui like a life-saving straw, hoping that he could warm her up. Even in a very hot room, Tong Man was still cold all over. With Tan Rui's body temperature only slightly improved. She hugged him eagerly, as if she held her heart to him with endless love in the days and nights two years ago.

It's as if...there was never two years of separation, two years without hugging Tong Man, her body is still as beautiful and graceful as ever. Tan Rui remembered the time they spent together. Every night, he would hold her tightly like now, promising her that he would not leave her.

But he broke his promise. Not only did he leave her, he also cheated on her. He regarded her as a substitute for another person, just because their facial features were somewhat similar. But after all, Tong Man and Yan Lan are two people through and through. He is sorry for Yan Lan, who he loves deeply, and Tong Man, who loves him.

But what he is most sorry for is Tong Man.

"You don't have to feel sorry for me." In the dark room, Tong Man's body gradually became cold, and she felt that the man's heart was gradually drifting away. "You gave my parents a lot of money. I bought something from you. If you don't like it, you can return it or throw it away. This is your right."

"I didn't think about it that way-"

"Let's go." Tong Man left his embrace, "You can no longer warm me."

Tong Man left the room, and Tan Rui was lying on this bed. He didn't understand why he couldn't refuse Tong Man. He had always been firmly in love with Yan Lan, and suddenly he had shaken.

He had never seen such a Tongman.

In his memory, Tong Man is strong and brave, living optimistically every day. He never knew that Tong Man would be afraid, and she would be sad and sad. She always lives happily and smiles at him, but just now...

Tan Rui abruptly sat up from the bed, put on clothes and chased out.

The door is open, but Tong Man has disappeared. Tan Rui stood at the door of the cold wind, stayed there for a few seconds, and chased after him. But Tong Man didn't know how long he had been gone, and he didn't know where to find her at all. It's freezing cold, where will she go?

Surely not going home. In that family, no one regards her as a relative, and no one cares for her. She is so... lonely!

Tan Rui clenched his fists. He looked around aimlessly, but passers-by said they had never seen them. He took out the photos that were hidden in the deepest part of his wallet. It turned out that he still kept them.