Heroine’s Road to Becoming Scum: The thirty-sixth bowl of soup (1&2)

While Qinghuan was looking at the sky in a trance, Mo Ze suddenly ran over with chubby short legs: "Master! Master!"

"What's wrong?" She stopped swinging, bent over and hugged Mo Ze in her arms. "What happened?"

Ji Guang and Xiao Hei also followed Mo Ze with their tongues out, all of them looking at Qing Huan eagerly, hoping to be hugged by their master. Qing Huan doesn't get close to them often, so this rare warmth has become their common favorite.

"That female ghost outside is making a fuss!" Mo Ze hurriedly accused. "The voice is so loud, Xie Bian is so annoyed that she rolls her eyes!"

Xie Bian rolled his eyes? Qing Huan thought about the scene for a while and thought it was quite interesting. "Let's go and have a look."

Outside Mengpo Village is Naihe Bridge, and the female ghost who is screaming is struggling frantically. Xie Bian stood next to her, his pale face still expressionless, but he really rolled his eyes - the black eyes were completely gone.

I can see that he is helpless, but he can't do anything to the ghost.

Qing Huan asked: "What's the matter?"

The female ghost heard someone talking, she immediately raised her head, saw Qing Huan and rushed over, grabbed Qing Huan's arms and demanded: "Are you the bridge master Naihe that the white-faced ghost said?! If yes , please send me back immediately!"

"Where are you going?" Facing the anger and anxiety of the female ghost, Qing Huan was not angry, but just supported her and made her sit down. "Sit down, let's talk slowly."

"No! Can't talk slowly! I'm going back now!" the female ghost growled. "I must go back immediately! If I don't go back, it will be too late!"

"I can't do anything in time?" Qing Huan asked her softly. "Even if you go back, you're dead. Your body has already been burned to ashes and buried in the ground. Ordinary people can't see you, so what if you go back?"

The female ghost looked at her in despair: "Being a man, you have to keep your word, we agreed... How can he, how can..." She said, covering her face with her hands, blood and tears dripping from her fingers one place.

Qing Huan said: "I can fulfill your wish."

The female ghost raised her head sharply.

"But I can't revive you, because your longevity has indeed come to an end. Similarly, I can't let you revive you, because you don't have the chance." Qing Huan's voice was very gentle and calm, "but I can let you You can even let the other party see you when you go back, but you have to know that you may not get any good answers."

The female ghost nodded desperately: "I do!"

"Again, you have to come back here after that. Always remember that you are dead. Everything in the world has nothing to do with you, understand?" Qing Huan asked.

The female ghost nods like garlic. Qing Huan smiled at her and waved her hand: "You go."

The next second, the figure of the female ghost has disappeared on the Naihe Bridge. Xie Bian, who had witnessed everything, slowly rubbed over and said, "I don't think it's good for you to do this."

"What's wrong? Wouldn't it be better for her to take a look instead of me trying to persuade her?" Qing Huan patted Xie Bi'an's white hair and watched his black eyes slowly emerge again. "Sometimes, human beings are like this. They don't shed tears until they don't see the coffin, and they don't die until they don't see the Yellow River."

She smiled at Xie Bian and touched his chest - it was empty and there was no "heart". "Even if it's you, after so long, don't you no longer look forward to it?"

Xie Bian heard the words, his empty eyes suddenly looked at Qing Huan. Qing Huan said nothing, smiled at him, and let him leave.

The first second was in the dark place of death, and the second after returning to the world of the sun, the female ghost suddenly opened her eyes and gasped violently. She looked up at the sky, and was surprised to find that she was no longer afraid of the sun's rays.

She has been dead... for more than seven years, but then she has not left since her death, and no ghosts have come to seduce her soul, so she has been by her boyfriend's side, watching him quietly. But the truth is, two years ago, a new girl appeared by her boyfriend's side. They fell in love for two years and fell in love quickly. The female ghost was in a hurry. He said that he would only love her in his life, so she never left after her death. He was with him in a place no one knew about. How could he be empathetic? !

And yet he couldn't see her, couldn't hear her, and no matter how hard she tried to call him, he couldn't feel her by his side!

It took more than seven years for the female ghost to cultivate and take shape from the day she died. Even if she has no body, it is good for him to hear her own voice. This is what she hopes. She has also been working hard, really, really hard.

She followed him every day, watched him every day, worried about him, watched him gradually break free from the grief of losing her, watched him slowly regain hope for life, watched him fall in love with Someone else... how could he do this? How could this be? !

Just as her boyfriend was about to marry his new girlfriend, the female ghost was furious! This rage gave her strength, her eyes began to turn blood red, her nails began to stretch unnaturally, and she was full of questioning him! Question him! ask him! why! Why not talk? Why did she continue after her death for a lifetime, but he has forgotten it? !

They even went to her grave to tell her how happy they were! Did he think she would bless him?

She won't!

Since she is no longer afraid of the sun, the female ghost floats under the sun without any scruples. She just wanted to go back to their new house and know where he was!

There is no one in the house, nor where he works. She heard from other colleagues that today is their wedding ceremony. The female ghost looked at the date on one's computer. When she was furious, it was when her boyfriend knelt down and proposed to another woman! But at that moment, that annoying white-faced ghost appeared and took her away, otherwise she would not leave!

The female ghost found the church based on the address. However, with the protection of divine power, she could not enter that place at all. She roared at the sky: "You said you wouldn't hinder me! You said I could go and ask for an answer! Why didn't you let me in?!"

She is asking Qinghuan.

Ke Qinghuan didn't answer. The female ghost can only stand outside the church, alone, heartbroken, and desperate. Looking inside the church, the newlyweds who are so happy that the whole world blesses them exchange rings, kiss each other, and make vows to each other. .

Have you forgotten?

Those vows were originally made by the two of us. How can you tell another woman now? How can you... fall in love with a second woman besides me?

Is it so difficult to have only one love in a lifetime? You long for a new life, so eager to forget me?

She rushed in like crazy, but the guarding force that enveloped the church bounced her away again and again. Soon, the female ghost lost her strength. She squatted on the ground and laughed at the people inside. Calling, making trouble, throwing bouquets, blessings, and being happy.

She lay on the ground crying in despair, blood and tears spread all over her face, her long hair rose without wind, her eyes gradually filled with blood, her nails were sharp and extremely long again, deep inside The resentment finally made her break through the shackles!

But even if she entered the church, she couldn't touch those people. Not only could she not touch, she could only walk through the crowd and look at the sincere and happy smiles on their faces. Many of these people were present at her funeral, and they were genuinely mourning her back then, but why is this happening now? Why...everything is gone? Why?

She looked at the bridegroom and bride again, God, they laughed so happily, their happiness was so strong and so obvious that even she could feel it.

But she just doesn't understand!

Why do you want to change your mind? Why can't the promises be kept? ! She died, she did not reincarnate, she did not leave, no one could see her, and no one could talk to her, she endured the boundless loneliness, the pain of burning flames, and everything I just want to be by his side.

But why can't he do it?

The female ghost stared at everything in front of her. She tried to grab the groom's neck with her claws again and again, but every time she was empty, she couldn't touch him at all.

The groom hugged the bride and laughed so happily, he carried her out of the church, and people applauded and cheered for them, wishing them a happy life.

The female ghost is very close to them, so I heard his vows to the bride: I will love you for a lifetime, love you alone, forever loyal, whether alive or dead.

What I once said to her.

But she's only been dead for seven years, and he doesn't love her anymore.

He fell in love with someone else.

The female ghost doesn't know what else to do. She maintained her fierce appearance and silently followed behind their wedding car. Watching them toast table by table, watching them accept the kind jokes of their relatives and friends, watching the lively and interesting wedding room——

She still remembers that when she was alive he said that when they got married, he would make her the most beautiful bride in the world. But she died, and another person took her place and became his bride.

Why are you so happy?

Can you see me? Can you see I'm crying? I see it and want to ask you, do you still love me?

Why can't you love me all the time? Why can't you stick with it? It's only been seven years since you said that you belong to someone else, so what should I do? Just like this, watching you alone for a lifetime of happiness?

Why fall in love with someone else?

Because I am dead and you are alive?

She stared blankly at the lively scene. Countless people passed through her body. She stood in a place with so many people, but no one could see her, and no one could hear her voice. .

"Ah! Mom! There's a big sister there!"

A child suddenly pointed to the place where the female ghost was standing and said loudly.

Many people heard it, but they looked in the direction the child was pointing and couldn't see anything. The child's mother immediately said: "What is the child talking about? Where is the big sister there?"

"Really!" said the child in disbelief. "I'm not lying! That big sister is crying!"

It's always unlucky to say this on this big day. The mother of the child hurriedly covered his mouth and scolded him: "Don't talk nonsense, if you talk nonsense, your mother will spank you."

The child puffed out his mouth in grievance and jumped off the chair in a sullen mood. After a while, he saw that no one was paying attention to him, so he quietly ran forward, walked up to the female ghost and asked curiously, "Big sister, can you speak?"

The female ghost looked down at him, the child was startled, gasped, and burst into tears.

He cried so hard that he immediately attracted everyone's attention. The child's mother was immediately embarrassed, and quickly came over to hold him in her arms and coaxed: "Baby, don't cry, don't cry, you can't cry on such a good day, darling~"

"That big sister is so scary!" The child glanced at the female ghost while crying, and suddenly cried louder. When he saw the female ghost approaching him, he was so frightened that he closed his eyes and cried: "Don't come, don't come! Don't come!"

Some older people probably guessed what was going on. They all said that children have the cleanest eyes and can see strange things. He came over and took the child into his arms and asked in a persuasive manner: "Good boy, don't you? Cry, what do you think that big sister looks like?"

The child was sobbing and crying, describing the appearance of the female ghost while crying, and some people were shocked.

The female ghost ignored the farce, she just followed behind the groom and didn't leave.

The elder asked again: "The big sister you mentioned, has she left?"

"No no! She's stuck on Uncle's back!"

As soon as these words came out, the audience instantly fell silent. Everyone looked at the back of the groom in horror, with a ghostly expression - in fact, none of them could see what was there, but saying something like that from the child's mouth would be full of fear even if they couldn't see it.

The groom was also stunned and turned around instantly.

The female ghost stood quietly behind him. In fact, he couldn't see her at all, but she couldn't help crying.

"Big sister is crying! Her tears are red!" the child exclaimed.

"...is that you?" The groom looked at the air in front of him, his voice trembling, "is that you?"

The female ghost just looked at him and didn't speak.

"Can you see that? He's scared."

These words suddenly appeared beside her, and the female ghost turned her head dazedly to look at Qing Huan, who appeared out of nowhere. Qing Huan stared at her tenderly, and said, "If he could see you, he would only feel fear. For him, the girl he once loved has passed away, and now he has a new life, So, what you should do is let go."

"Let go?" the female ghost whispered softly. "I won't let go...I don't want to...I don't want to..." She said, blood and tears crawling down her cheeks again. She was really reluctant, she loved him so much, all her life, all her life, she still kept her promise when she died, but he fell in love with someone else.

"No matter how much you can't bear it, you can't be together anymore." Qing Huan said. "Since you came back to this world, he has been so happy, so happy, but when he heard of your existence, he immediately became uneasy and frightened. His love has been given to others, and the person who loved you is no longer there. He's still him, but not him anymore."

The female ghost whimpered in pain. She hunched over her body because she couldn't bear the piercing pain. How can it still hurt so much when everyone is dead? She was really in so much pain, the tears couldn't be stopped, and her heart was shaking.

Instead of touching the man, she took a few steps back, looked at him, and asked him, "Why can't you keep loving me?"

The man didn't answer because he couldn't hear.

"Why do you want to fall in love with someone else?" the female ghost continued to ask, her voice trembling, "Why can't I stick to the promise for a lifetime? Just because I'm dead, can I no longer love?"

"Everything about you will fade. It's a cruel thing to be immersed in the pain of losing a loved one. Some people can come out, some can't. Some people can hold on, some can't hold on. It's not absolute things." Qing Huan looked at her. "You should let it go."

The female ghost is crying.

Qing Huan sighed softly, "Come with me, I will let you see him."

The female ghost raised her head, and Qing Huan nodded her eyebrows, then closed her eyes.

It was late at night when she woke up. She was in the bridal room, the newlyweds on the big bed were embracing each other, and she didn't know how the next wedding was done, but...

"It's just a small spell, so that they all forget the little episode of having a big sister." Qing Huan said and appeared beside her. "Let's go."

Where to go?

The next second, the female ghost found herself standing in a beautiful snow scene. The street was empty. She didn't know where she was and Qing Huan was not around. For some reason, she involuntarily walked forward, walked and walked, and she didn't know how long she had walked before she came to a square. There is a fountain in the center of the square, which is very familiar and familiar.

That's where they used to date when she was alive. The female ghost walked over slowly and saw a man sitting on the bench behind the fountain.

She sat down beside him without looking at him.

"Is that you?"

She hummed.

"Am I dreaming now?"

"Perhaps," she said.

"You, how are you?"

Is she okay?

She's not good, she's not good at all. She has been by his side for seven years, watching him fall in love with others little by little, watching him give his love to others, how could she be okay? She will never get better! But this bad is so difficult to export. The female ghost did not speak, did not answer.

The man seems to understand something. "I'm sorry."

Sorry.

Sorry for what?

Sorry not to love me anymore, or sorry to marry another woman?

"You died, but I am still alive, I... will continue to live." The man's voice trembled slightly, "I used to wake up every night in the dream of having you, but two years ago At first you never appeared in my dreams again, I know, you must be angry with me, angry that I fell in love with someone else."

The female ghost wept quietly.

She's just too persistent to let go. Before she died, she held his hand and asked him not to forget her, but he still forgot her.

"I'm sorry, really... I'm sorry." A man can't love two people at the same time, she will always be special in his heart, but now, he loves his wife.

The female ghost knew what she didn't say. She slowly stood up and walked slowly in the direction she was going back and forth. Maybe this was an opportunity that Qing Huan gave her, but the result was the same as what Qing Huan said, the answer was not so good.

She has been dead for seven years, and these seven years are enough to gradually take back her love and give it to another person completely.

The man woke up from his dream, staring in front of him for a long time, unable to return to his senses. His new wife opened her eyes hazy and asked him, "What's wrong?"

He was silent for a few seconds before saying, "It's okay."

Then lie down and hug her again, closing her eyes.

The female ghost stood in front of the bed and looked at her, Qing Huan stood beside her and asked, "Can't you put it down?"

"Maybe it's not him that I can't let go, but my love." The female ghost said softly, unusually calm. "This is my own love, and it has nothing to do with him." From the time he fell in love with another person, everything was different.

After she finished speaking, she asked Qinghuan: "Have you ever loved someone?"

Qing Huan nodded.

"Would you wish he would fall in love with someone else and continue his life after he left?"

Qing Huan said: "It's been too long, I forgot."

The female ghost said: "I don't want to. I am so selfish, I hope he will always love me only, for this reason I am willing to stay by his side forever, even if I can never touch him or talk to him."

Qing Huan sighed: "I thought you'd look at me a bit."

"You say, who is wrong between me and him?"

Who is wrong? Who is right again? There is no right answer at all. There is nothing wrong with letting go of the man who started a new life in the past, and there is nothing wrong with holding on to the ghost you love after death.

So, who was at fault?

Qing Huan brought the female ghost back to Naihe Bridge. Bring the soup boiled with her emotions and tears of her life to her, and tell her: "Drink this bowl of soup and you can be reincarnated. There are other reasons for the next life."

The female ghost looked at the bowl of soup and received it, but instead of drinking it, she asked Qinghuan, "Will he come here after he dies?"

Qing Huan didn't answer.

The female ghost said: "Can I wait here?"

Qing Huan shook her head: "No way, you have stepped on this bridge and you have already gone to the road leading to the next life, you can't turn back." She paused for two seconds and said, "Even if you wait for him, what can you do? ? He fell in love with someone else, he and his wife will meet with white heads, no matter what, he is not yours anymore."

The female ghost looked at Qing Huan, she was very calm until Qing Huan told her that her lover would grow old with another woman. She was crying so hard, but Qing Huan just watched and didn't go to comfort her.

She refuses to let go, others can't help her.

The female ghost put the soup bowl in her hand on the table, ran a few steps forward, jumped off the bridge, and was instantly engulfed by the turbulent Wangchuan River.

Qing Huan chased by the river, and the female ghost had disappeared without a trace.