Heroine’s Road to Becoming Scum: The twenty-seventh bowl of soup (seven & eight)

The twenty-seventh bowl of soup (seven & eight)

Yuan Jia can't sit still like this. Even if in this world he could only be an accessory to Gu Yu, he couldn't even lose the chance to see her.

The empress is not very lustful, so she visits the harem only a few times a month. Therefore, even if Yuan Jia had a prominent background and was not liked by the Empress, it would be difficult to meet her.

He had no choice but to walk barefoot on the cold, uncarpeted marble floor all night, pouring a belly of cold water, and finally tormenting himself.

But Yuan Jia miscalculated a bit. He thought it was just a small illness such as a cold and diarrhea, but he forgot that this body is not the original one, and naturally it is not as strong as before. The price of drinking cold water with bare feet is that he is really I was ill, and the disease was not serious. I vomited and had diarrhea. The imperial doctor came several times, and even after taking several medicines, it didn't get any better.

Yuan Jia felt a little anxious. In that case, what was the use of having Gu Yu come to see him? Now his appearance was ugly, he was sick, and he couldn't serve her. Even if Gu Yu came, it was only because of the Yuan clan behind him, not for him. When I see his current appearance, I'm afraid I won't like him even more.

But it was useless for him to regret, because the Empress had already learned of his illness.

Yuan Jiaqiang got up from the bed. Although she couldn't dress up, she couldn't face her with a sick face without winning the heart of the Empress. Luckily, the little **** who was accompanying him had a lot of heart and was flexible. Before the Empress came in, she used a powder to cover up his embarrassment a little, but he could reveal a bit of weakness. He looked in the mirror, which was what Yuan Jia wanted most. desired state.

The Empress still wears a bright yellow robe. She just went to court, and heard He Shanggong say that Yuan Gongjun was very ill, and asked her if she wanted to come and see. If it were other palace lords, it would be fine. The Yuan clan was kind to the empress, and there were many ministers in the family, so the empress would never chill the heart of the Yuan clan.

When I entered the hall, I saw that Yuan Jia was really weak, but he still had to stand up and salute. The goddess stepped forward to support Yuan Jia, who was about to bow down, and said, "You don't need to be too polite, just take a rest, I'll come and see you."

"Thank you, Your Majesty, for your concern." Yuan Jia quietly raised her eyes to look at the Empress, only to see that her phoenix eyes were long and narrow, not angry and arrogant, and her words and deeds were domineering.

"Help Gong Jun back to the bed." He Shanggong hurriedly instructed the eunuchs.

The eunuchs helped Yuan Jia back to the bed again. The queen said a few words to Yuan Jia, expressing her concern and was about to leave, but Yuan Jia suddenly grabbed her hand. The empress was a little strange, she looked down and saw Yuan Jia staring at her intently, her dark eyes flashing with longing and begging: "Your Majesty, can you stay for a while longer? I haven't seen Your Majesty for a long time. ..."

The Empress thought for a while and said, "Alright, I will wait until you fall asleep before leaving."

Yuan Jia had done a lot of homework before preparing to save Gu Yu again, and generally understood what a man of this era looked like. At the same time, he also took scriptures from some face-to-face heads. Usually, he also paid attention to the gossip of the harem. News, especially about the Empress, almost as long as the Empress is mentioned, Yuan Jia will get to the bottom of it.

He has put away the machismo and the so-called male self-esteem. He doesn't know what those things are. What he wants to do most now is to regain the heart of the empress. Other than that, he has nothing else to ask for. .

Because of this, Yuan Jia did not hide the affection in his eyes at all, and the fiery gaze made the Empress stiff for a few seconds. There are countless beautiful men in the harem, and most of them are happy with her, but she has never seen such naked eyes, as if she has written all her intentions in her eyes, so desperate, so sincere.

For a tough and indifferent emperor, nothing burns her more than fiery admiration.

As for Yuan Jia, the Empress did not like it at first, she felt that he was not as knowledgeable, sensible, gentle and virtuous as the Yuan clan said, on the contrary... a bit vulgar and difficult to be elegant. That's why she didn't set foot in his palace again after she was fortunate to him once. She was the emperor, and whoever liked it or didn't like it, she naturally followed her own mind and went as she liked. You didn't hate it when you first saw it.

In this way, Yuan Jia took a step by step and slowly began to gain a sense of presence in front of the Empress. Because he is not from this world, many views and ideas are different from those of the ministers who follow the rules in this world. The empress can often get inspiration or novel insights from him. Over time, the two get along very harmoniously. Harmony.

From a palace monarch who was not cared for after being blessed overnight, to a palace monarch who was most often summoned by the empress other than the husband, Yuan Jia took a path that made all the beautiful men in the harem envy, jealous and hated. .

But none of them can replicate Yuanjia's brilliance. Many times the empress was troubled by certain political affairs, and Yuan Jia, who had decades of experience as an emperor, would enlighten her and give her hints without a trace, but never said it on her own initiative. This world has extremely high requirements for men, especially the harem. If they dare to say a word or two on national affairs, they will kill the nine clans.

Besides, Yuan Jia only wants the heart of the empress, not the country, and he doesn't want to have a estrangement with the empress because of this, and even let her guard against him.

However, after working so hard for so long, the Empress treats him only mildly. If she can say a few more words, she will come to him more often. But in her eyes, except for a little more temperature, Yuan Jia couldn't see anything.

He was a little sad, but soon after the sadness he cheered himself up again. How long has it been since he had been here, a little over half a year, Gu Yu had been by his side for several years at the beginning, and in the end it still ended up like that, even if he repaid the debt, he still had to pay some interest, right?

Thinking of this, Yuan Jia mustered up his courage again.

It happened that the palace banquet on the 30th night of the New Year's Eve, all the palace gentlemen with rank must attend, which naturally included Yuan Jia.

For the evening banquet, Yuan Jia started preparing in the morning at the urging of the little eunuchs. What color robe to wear, what kind of jade crown to use, which piece of jade to wear... and so on.

And he can wear any color except bright yellow, which represents emperors and monarchs.

Yuan Jia's body is known as the number one beautiful man when he is in the boudoir, and he is even more dazzling and handsome when he dresses up carefully. His rank was second only to that of the husband, so he sat on the lower left hand of the Empress. During the dinner, Yuan Jia couldn't help but look at the Empress.

She is also very beautiful today, but she didn't pay attention to herself from the beginning to the end. Except for saying a few words to the husband, the empress basically ignored any palace lords. Yuan Jia was holding chopsticks in his hand, but he couldn't help feeling sad. He is not even qualified to sit side by side with her... He is just one of her many palace gentlemen, maybe a little different, but in fact there is not much difference.

Yuan Jia couldn't contain the strong sense of loss in his heart. In the past six months, the regrets and pains he thought had been buried deep in his heart have not been reduced. It was just because he was good at self-comforting and covering up, so they no longer appeared, and he thought the wounds were getting better.

But it still hurts.

In this palace banquet, Yuan Jia didn't use his chopsticks very much, he couldn't eat, and he couldn't keep up his strength. He even felt dizzy. Forget all your troubles.

I don't remember how he got back to the palace in the end. Anyway, he woke up the next morning with an unbearable headache. The little **** sent him to understand the wine and tea, and specially told him that it was ordered by His Majesty.

Yuan Jia suddenly shuddered: "How did I get back last night?"

"Master Huigong, I came back from His Majesty's imperial chariot." The little **** had a smile on his face, because his master was favored and his face glowed, so he was very happy. Apart from the king's husband, the only ones who have sat in His Majesty's imperial carriage are Yuan Gong Jun! This is a glory that no other palace lord has ever had!

Yuan Jia tried to recall what he had said last night, but found nothing. He should have had a better memory. This is not his body that won't fall over a thousand cups, but the body of a man like Lin Daiyu who can't help himself.

Seeing that Yuanjia didn't seem to be very happy, the little **** asked hesitantly, "What's the matter with Gong Jun? It's such a joy for His Majesty to value you so much? Why are you so sad?"

Hearing what the little **** said, Yuan Jia sighed softly. What he said was not bad. In the eyes of others, his position in the heart of the Empress was definitely different, but so what? Prince, can he cross over? The husband did not make mistakes, and he and the empress were married again. Yuan Jia had experienced that kind of relationship, how could he not understand?

It's easier said than done to completely **** the Empress.

Waving his hand to let the little **** go down, Yuan Jia was a bit at a loss. He had been in this world for more than half a year, but he lived like a year. Thinking about it now, it feels like a lifetime away.

Maybe it's because I owe her that I will pay it back in this life.

At the time when Yuan Jia was familiar with the Empress, there was still hope that the Empress would remember him, but as time passed, he gave up, Gu Yu was different from him, he didn't forget anything, and she didn't remember anything ,why is that? Didn't they still carry memories of each other in the last life? Why is it that only you remember this life, but Gu Yu has forgotten everything?

Is this God's way of punishing him?

In this regard, Mo Ze, who watched the whole process, said: Because Gu Yu drank the soup of Mengpo God, and you are not qualified to go to Naihe Bridge!

That night, the Empress came. Yuan Jia was very happy, but worried about what he said last night that he shouldn't have said. He looked at the Empress with lingering eyes, until the Empress beckoned to him, he ran over like a puppy. Squat down in front of her and let her cold fingers pinch her cheeks.

"What's the matter, what kind of expression is this? Is there something you can't understand about me?"

"Of course not, it's just... Your Majesty, I didn't say anything bad last night, did I?" Yuan Jia asked anxiously. He is now very afraid that he will tell the story of his past life and this life without paying attention. Facts are facts, but these strange and chaotic things, he said in front of an emperor, are really bad. In case someone uses this as an excuse to attack him and he doesn't remember anything when he wakes up, how should he explain it?

Thinking of this, Yuan Jia carefully observed the empress's expression. Her face was as beautiful as ever, but her expression and eyes couldn't tell anything. Yuan Jia was a little discouraged, but regained his courage. Instead of letting the empress hear it and then cover it up, it would be better to ask it out. "Your Majesty, did I really do something stupid?"

The Empress closed the book in her hand and said, "I didn't do stupid things, I said a lot of nonsense."

Bullshit? Yuan Jia looked at the empress' face more seriously, and determined that although her tone was a little cold, her eyes were relaxed, which showed that she was teasing him, not blaming him. Thinking of this, he breathed a sigh of relief and smiled, "Is Your Majesty mad at me?"

"Shouldn't I be angry with you for your nonsense at the palace banquet?"

The empress's expression was like a smile but not a smile, which made Yuan Jia, who had just taken the reassurance pill, beat up again. What the **** was this... "Then, what did I say?"

He Shanggong, who was beside him, burst out laughing. "Your Majesty Yuan Gong, in a large audience, rushed over and hugged His Majesty's waist and cried out that he loved His Majesty, and said that he had done something wrong, sorry to His Majesty, and will definitely treat her well in the future. No words."

As long as I think about it, in a public place, with so many eyes staring at him, he is a dignified palace monarch, hugging the emperor's waist and crying and apologizing to show his loyalty... Yuan Jia thought, let him die, no wonder he Said that today everyone looked at him a little strangely, as if he were some kind of funny actor.

The queen heard what He Shanggong said vividly, and she also found it interesting, and the corners of her mouth raised slightly. Yuan Jia and Wang husband feel completely different to her. She feels calm by Wang husband's side. The two have been together for many years, and Wang husband never bores her. He does everything just right, so he is very much like an empress. Heart.

Yuan Jia and Wang Fu are very different. Yuan Jia's temperament is always a bit surprising. If it is said that the empress can take off her guard in front of the husband, then the empress feels a rare ease and comfort around Yuan Jia. This is also the reason why she likes to come to Yuanjia. He doesn't have to say anything, he can always make her happy.

Able to please the emperor to this extent, Yuan Jia is not an ordinary person.

He Shanggong thought so.

Yuan Jia originally wanted to kneel down to apologize first, after all, if he really did such a stupid thing as He Shang Gong said last night, he would definitely lose the face of the royal family in front of everyone. But now that the Empress didn't mean to ask for guilt, he just beat the snake and followed the stick. With a wink, He Shanggong immediately took Gong'e eunuchs back, leaving space for the two of them.

Yuan Jia snuggled up beside the Empress, staring into her face, they have been together for half a year, always in a very relaxed atmosphere. In addition, he was drunk and made a big joke yesterday, Yuan Jia wanted to take a gamble, he wanted to ask what the Empress was thinking. "Your Majesty."

"Huh?"

"What kind of feelings does Your Majesty have for the king's husband?" He considered for a few seconds before asking.

But after asking him, he immediately regretted it, because the empress looked at him with a cold look in her eyes: "Is this the question you should ask?"

"Your Majesty forgive me!" Yuan Jia immediately knelt down and pleaded guilty, his body trembling slightly. Unlike Gu Yu, who loves him deeply, the woman in front of him at this moment is a well-deserved iron-blooded emperor. Yuan Jia must admit that Gu Yu is better than himself as an emperor. He can help her purely because of his knowledge. More extensive experience and more abundant reasons. In terms of ability and skill, he was not as good as Gu Yu.

The Empress looked down at him for a few seconds and said indifferently: "Get up."

"Thank you, Your Majesty." Yuan Jia got up, only to realize that he was breaking out in a cold sweat. He actually... could no longer control his fear in front of Gu Yu, it was as if in the past six months, while they were getting closer, he was slowly being tamed by her.

The Empress didn't speak for the next few minutes, but Yuan Jia, who was standing on the side, couldn't control her physiological reaction. He was shocked by his own changes. He never found out that something was wrong with him. He thought he was gradually "doing as the locals do", but in fact, his essence had changed.

Change.

It turned out to be such a terrible thing.

Putting on oneself and others, so, the self in the previous life was also subtly changed by the ancient feudal society? He denied the idea of ​​equality between men and women, monogamy, and loyalty to one's lover, and he took it for granted that as an emperor, he should naturally embrace each other, and Gu Yu must understand.

That world is cruel to Gu Yu who refuses to change with it. Therefore, in the end, Gu Yu would rather burn all jade and stone than give in. He would rather be broken than broken tiles, but he himself has never understood this truth.

And in this world, he began to change again. This is the so-called "do as the locals do". The changes this time are different from the previous life, but there is no difference in essence.

In the final analysis, his weakness caused this result. The soul is not strong enough, persistent enough, and self-maintaining enough, and in order to assimilate him and let him survive, the world must make him change.

Why is he inferior to Gu Yu in being an emperor, and he is far worse than Gu Yu in being a man.

In the modern world, Yuan Jia has always thought of himself as an extremely good man, and he is. In the ancient world, he always believed that he was unique and worthy of Gu Yu's sacrifice and sacrifice. But now he realized that from the beginning to the end, he was not worthy of Gu Yu.

He doesn't deserve such a good woman.

It's funny that he's still complacent about how powerful and attractive he is.

It's... terrifying.

Yuan Jia shivered. He realized this for the first time, and he couldn't resist. He only felt fear. No wonder Gu Yu in this life couldn't fall in love with him like this, because he didn't have the quality to make her fall in love with him. She deserves better, what kind of better, Yuan Jia doesn't know, but it's definitely not like him.

"What's the matter? I just said a few words to you, and you became so frightened?" The Empress looked at him suspiciously. When he asked her about her relationship with the husband, he really made her feel a little bit. I was not happy, but I just knocked a few words casually, knowing that he was a sensible man, and didn't think about how to blame him. But look at this, what is this doing?

Yuan Jia knelt on the ground without raising her head: "...Your Majesty."

"What's wrong?"

The queen reached out to help him, but Yuan Jia knelt on the ground motionless. She frowned slightly, but saw Yuan Jia look up at her: "I like Your Majesty."

The queen was a little surprised when she was caught off guard. There are not many people who can directly say their admiration for her like Yuan Jia.

"No, I love Your Majesty." Yuan Jia said. "But I'm not worthy of Your Majesty."

"There's nothing worthy of it." The queen never wanted these boring things. She grabbed Yuan Jia from the ground and put Lai on the chair to sit down, and then the corners of her mouth twitched slightly. "Since you can achieve this position, it must show that you have something special. Could it be that you are doubting my vision? Not long ago, I promoted you to the position as a first-class palace lord, working with the king and husband. In charge of the harem. Now you are saying something in front of me that is not worthy, isn't it doubting my vision?"

Yuan Jia looked at her in a daze, and asked after a while, "Your Majesty sees me, does it look familiar?"

"I saw you once before entering the palace, but that's all."

She forgot so cleanly that she remembered nothing. Whether it was love or hatred in the past, those sweet or bitter, beautiful or sad pasts, loving for a lifetime, tit-for-tat for a lifetime, in this lifetime, those memories, only he still remembers.

He was saddened by those memories, which she had gracefully forgotten. Just like when she left in the last life, never looking back, never regretting, daring to love and hate, he really doesn't deserve this woman.

"Does your Majesty believe it? I have strange memories."

"Huh?"

"In my memory, I have done a lot of things that I'm sorry for Your Majesty. What's even more terrifying is that I never realized my mistake. I always felt that I loved His Majesty and gave His Majesty love, so that I could take back my loyalty. But Is that actually wrong?"

"What did you say?" The Empress didn't understand how Yuan Jia said some confused words today. "Just now you asked about the relationship between me and the husband, and I don't know how to answer you. The husband and I are husband and wife. Before I ascended the throne, he took care of the back house for me. After so many years, I have never let me worry about the harem. Yuan Jia, if you are virtuous and generous, you are far worse than the husband."

Yuan Jia listened and almost burst into tears! He's just so disrespected... Damn, it's all to blame for this body, otherwise how could he possibly want to cry?

"But you also have characteristics that the husband does not have. Neither of you can replace the two of you. I have righteousness with the husband, and love with you. I do not deny that I am happy with you, but the husband is more than you in my heart. More importantly, the relationship between my husband and wife will never change, do you understand? If one day, I want to make a choice between the two of you, the husband is my best choice. I hope you I can understand. I am an emperor first, and your wife second."