I Just Came to Borrow a Light Chapter 13:

Yuan Wu felt that something was wrong with himself these days. I don't know if it was because of illness or something else.

Dreams occur every night, much more frequently than before, and each dream is chaotic and oppressive, some of which he can't remember.

The only thing I remember is sitting in the stern and crying.

When he cried, his feelings were very clear and real, although he didn't know why he dreamed of crying, and where the source of the pain was.

But when I woke up, the scene of crying became blurred, and I couldn't even feel the real pain anymore.

It's like waking up from a frightening nightmare that often struggles to repeat it.

Also irritable.

Yuan Wu was walking back and forth on the boat with a cigarette in his mouth. He didn't know what he wanted to do, but he was restless and irritable, like a trapped beast, or the kind that was locked in a cage and placed in a corner where no one was visiting. It was particularly lonely and uninteresting.

What happened?

Where is the problem?

Big head got another **** beating in the morning because he poured a whole bag of laundry detergent in the house in a big bucket in an attempt to blow a big bubble that would cover him.

The **** beat is not soft, and the big head is howling hard, like cheering for the mother.

But before half an hour after the beating, Datou ran to his boat again beaming.

"Brother Xiaowu!" Datou shouted as he clawed at the crack of the door.

Yuan Wu was sitting in the cabin, thinking about whether to eat at noon and whether to eat instant noodles. He had already heard it when he came over, but he was still in a cold sweat at the shout.

Noon?

When did he tell Datou to call him Xiaowu?

Why?

What the **** does Big Head call himself?

Is it also called Xiaowu?

"Little..." Datou shouted again, but he was quickly interrupted.

"Call me uncle from now on." Yuan Wu said.

"Why?" Big Head asked.

"No reason." Yuan Wu said.

"But what kind of uncles are everyone else?" Big head clawed at the windowsill, resting his chin on the back of his hand, "I just call it uncle, you don't know who I am calling you."

"Am I the only one who isn't some kind of uncle?" Yuan Wu took out a jelly and tore it open.

"Yeah." Big head's eyes lit up.

"Then don't know it's me." Yuan Wu beckoned.

"Oh!" Big Head ran into the cabin and took the jelly.

"Eat slowly and scoop with a spoon," Yuan Wu looked at him, "or it will get stuck."

"Yeah, I'll eat it," Big Head scooped a spoonful of jelly, "Thank you uncle."

"He decided to find his true self...

Where to find, how to find, he has no direction, he just wants to free himself from this endless doubt...

He looked silently at the water. Who was that changing, elusive face? you, or me...

Some things seem to never have an answer, just like waking up in the middle of the night and can't find the reason, the only thing that proves their existence seems to be those weird shadows, those whispering, and those cold slivers across the skin Fingertips...

He wants to tear open the darkness, roar, question, and shake off all these fears, his endurance is reaching its limit..."

It's almost the limit, it's almost the limit, it's almost the limit, it's almost there... Yuan Wu pushed the notebook aside, picked up the cup and took a sip of coffee.

Yuan Wu felt breathless as he wrote these words that seemed to be written before the end.

The terrifying supernatural plots in the story and the strangeness of facing the unknown are better than writing down these confusions that seem to be self-talking.

It's almost over.

He bent his legs, buried his face in his knees, and put his head in his hands.

Is it almost over?

End what?

Why are you so scared?

When I saw Lin Chengbu again, it was a week later. Yuan Wu was sitting on the fool's boat, leaning on the **** of his cow who enjoyed every boat ride.

"Where are you going!" Lin Chengbu stood on his boat and shouted at him.

Yuan Wu looked at him and didn't speak, he didn't bother to shout.

Mainly for fear of frightening the cows behind him and arching him into the water.

"How long will it take to be back!" Lin Chengbu shouted again.

Yuan Wu waved at him and told him to go back first and not wait.

But maybe it's because the hands are too nonstandard. Lin Chengbu obviously misunderstood his spirit. He nodded and started to take off his clothes. He shouted happily: "I'll go right away!"

"Fuck! Get out!" Yuan Wu roared, and immediately wanted to fly over and hang him on the boat.

The fool chuckled as he punted the boat.

Lin Cheng took off all his clothes in a few steps, including his underwear.

The fool couldn't stop laughing when he saw it.

Yuan Wu was speechless as he watched him put his clothes on his head, and then put a streamer from the boat that he used to play with around his head, and tied a knot on his chin.

Tie his clothes perfectly over his head and jump into the water.

"I...Come on." Yuan Wu raised his head on the back of the cow and stared at the dazzling sunlight.

Lin Cheng swam quite fast, Yuan Wu could hear the sound of his arms getting closer and closer.

He closed his eyes, and the sunlight stubbornly emitted a bright white light through his eyelids, causing tears to continue to gather in his eyes, sour and astringent.

The sound of paddling from the water begins to blur, like a fading background.

In a trance he begins to feel uneasy.

The feeling of being out of breath is getting stronger.

Come back!

He growled inwardly.

Why!

Why are you!

At the same time that Lin Chengbu put his hand on the edge of the boat, Yuan Wu, who had been leaning his head against the cow, suddenly opened his eyes and rushed over, grabbed his arm, and his voice was hoarse and low: "Why are you? "

"You didn't call me..." Before Lin Chengbu finished speaking, he saw the confusion in Yuan Wu's eyes, as well as the anxiety and despair after the chaos.

"Come up!" Yuan Wu ripped off the clothes tied to his head, grabbed his hair, and pulled it towards the boat.

"Hey!" Lin Chengbu hurriedly climbed to the boat, but because his head was controlled by Yuan Wu, he couldn't adjust his posture to find a focus, "Wait...I haven't...hey hurts!"

Yuan Wu didn't seem to hear him at all, just dragged him tightly.

The fellow who punted the boat was probably also frightened by Yuan Wu's madness. He was stunned for a few seconds before shouting "Aah", and stretched out the bamboo pole in his hand from the bow of the boat.

Lin Chengbu then grabbed the bamboo penny and climbed onto the boat out of breath.

Yuan Wu still held onto his hair and didn't let go. He wanted to break Yuan Wu's hand apart, but as soon as he raised his hand, the cow who had been lying on the boat turned his head to look at him and let out a moo.

"Hey," Lin Chengbu subconsciously stretched out his hand to cover his bottom again, thinking about it and thinking that the hair is more important, so he raised his hand and pinched Yuan Wu's wrist, "You let go! I've already come up! I'm coming up! Let go! I'm going to be bald, I'm going to fuck!"

This pinch finally made Yuan Wu let go, but after letting go, he still stared at Lin Chengbu, and the anxiety in his eyes was still there.

"I'm fine, I'm fine." While comforting him, Lin Chengbu tried to get his clothes on, but when he turned his head, he realized that the clothes were not on the boat.

The fellow who punted the boat laughed very happily, gesturing to him, pointing to the surface of the water downstream.

Lin Chengbu followed and looked over, and was sad to find that his zebra **** had drifted far away.

"Are you all right?" Yuan Wu asked suddenly, as if he had come to his senses.

"Well," Lin Chengbu nodded, "it's mine..."

"Are you really all right?" Yuan Wu cupped his face with his hands and looked fixedly.

"...Well." Lin Cheng was half-kneeling on the boat, propping up the cow's **** with one hand. He originally thought that Yuan Wu's nerves had passed, but Yuan Wu's eyes made him feel distressed that he had not yet.

"Don't do this again," Yuan Wu still held his face, "Don't do this again."

"Oh, I'm not like this anymore." Lin Chengbu replied.

To be honest, even if Yuanwu is chaotic now, he still thinks it's good to stop here.

But time didn't stop, and this scene, as well as the audience, was really embarrassing. Lin Chengbu squinted at the corner of his eye, and one person and one cow on the boat looked at them seriously.

"It scared me to death." Yuan Wu said.

"I was scared to death too." Lin Chengbu said.

He didn't know how to talk to Yuan Wu in this situation. Just when he wanted Yuan Wu to sit back on the boat first, Yuan Wu suddenly hugged him.

He clenched his shoulders tightly, clapped his hands on his back, and spoke in a low voice.

Lin Chengbu only felt that at least 24 big fireworks exploded in his head. He didn't hear what Yuan Wu said, only vaguely heard that everything was fine.

Finally, when he heard the laughter of the fellow villager, he came back to his senses and turned his head to look beside him.

The fellow who punted the boat pointed to Yuan Wu and then to his own head.

"He's not sick," Lin Chengbu said, "he's just... frightened."

The fellow nodded.

Yuan Wu held him for a long time, and Lin Chengbu could clearly smell the faint smell of tobacco on his body and the smell of soap on his clothes.

Considering that although the fellow didn't look at them anymore, but Niu never turned his eyes to stare, he didn't feel embarrassed to close his eyes and enjoy.

When Lin Chengbu counted 66 in his heart, Yuan Wu let go of him, sat back on the boat, leaned on the cow's butt, and looked at him up and down.

"You..." Lin Chengbu squatted down.

It can be seen that Yuan Wu's eyes gradually gained focus, moving from his face to his body, then continuing down, and finally back to his face.

Then he hooked the corner of his mouth, and an uncontrollable smile flashed: "You chose a big adventure?"

"...Actually, I never choose big adventures." Lin Chengbu looked at him.

Yuan Wu didn't speak, he touched his trousers pocket and took out a cigarette case: "Do you want it?"

"No." Lin Chengbu sighed.

Yuan Wu took out a cigarette, then turned around and asked, "Idiot, do you want it?"

The fool nodded and took two cigarettes from the cigarette case.

Yuan Wu was smoking a cigarette at noon and looked at Lin Chengbu, who was sitting across from him.

This time I really see my figure very clearly, very good, with long legs and no fat.

After breaking out of the deep fear, Yuan Wu looked at Lin Chengbu with an inexplicable intimacy.

Lin Chengbu is like a person standing at the critical point of his confusion and fear. Although it disturbed his peaceful life, it gave him real feelings in all kinds of emptiness.

A very strange feeling.

According to the old habit, the fool propped the boat to the old locust tree, Yuan Wu got off the boat, and said to the fool, "You will come and send us back in an hour? I won't be staying too long today."

The idiot smiled and nodded.

Lin Chengbu followed and got off the boat, then quickly jumped over and crouched under the tree.

"Where are your clothes?" Yuan Wu asked.

"Let you throw it in the water and float away," Lin Chengbu said here and couldn't help but stroke his hair, "It's you, I've already done it for someone else, and it's so hard!"

"Let's be naked," Yuan Wu walked over to him and sat down, leaning against the tree trunk, "There's no one here anyway."

"What are you doing here?" Lin Chengbu asked.

"Stop for a while." Yuan Wu said.

"Aren't you going to stop on the boat? At most, the big head will come to chat with you," Lin Chengbu thought for a while, "Oh and me... Are you trying to avoid me?"

"No." Yuan Wu pulled out a vine from the side, dragged out the elder, then lowered his head and held the vine back and forth.

"Actually, I came here today," Lin Chengbu looked at him, "yes...then what..."

Yuan Wu turned his head.

"Today is my birthday," Lin Chengbu said, "I want to spend time with you."

"Why?" Yuan Wu asked.

"No reason," Lin Chengbu buried his feet in the soft and wet mud next to him, "just wanted to."

Yuan Wu was silent for a while, then turned around and continued to circle the vine in his hand: "Happy birthday."

What followed was silence, and neither of them spoke.

However, this kind of silence is not uncomfortable. Lin Chengbu is very comfortable except that he feels awkward sitting on a rock with his bare buttocks.

The surrounding scenery is very beautiful, the water surface shining in the sun, the reeds swaying gently when the wind blows, the water birds passing by from time to time, and the insects chirping from nowhere.

Quiet and cozy.

"Here." Yuan Wu tossed for a long time, weaving the rattan into a circle.

"A birthday present?" Lin Chengbu took it and looked at it.

"Cover your bird." Yuan Wu said.

"...Fuck." Lin Chengbu opened his mouth and didn't know what else to say.

"Aren't you afraid that you will be uncomfortable?" Yuan Wu glanced under him, "After all, I have no experience with Guo Ben."

"Okay," Lin Chengbu stood up, "how do you use this thing, do you wear it on your waist?"

"Well," Yuan Wu said, "the vine in the middle can be tightened."

Lin Chengbu hesitated for a moment, then put the rattan ring around his waist, and then tightened the rattan in the middle according to Yuan Wu's instructions... It was quite suitable. The layers of leaves made him feel less embarrassed. .

"Thank you." He sat back on the rock, feeling his legs stretch out a bit.

"How are you going to spend it," Yuan Wu asked, "your birthday."

"I don't know," Lin Chengbu answered truthfully, "I just want to stay with you, whatever you want."

"Are you..." Yuan Wu looked at him and narrowed his eyes, "Are you..."

As soon as Lin Chengbu heard what he said, he immediately turned his head and waited expectantly, yes, yes, I like you, so I want to be with you on my birthday! That's right!

"Do you lack fatherly love?" Yuan Wu said.

Lin Chengbu had the urge to turn his head and dive back to the pier: "...No, my dad loves me very much."

"Oh," Yuan Wu responded. After a short silence, he said again, "Then you are..."

Lin Chengbu immediately ignited hope and looked at him expectantly again.

"Want my signed book?" Yuan Wu asked seriously.

"Goodbye," Lin Cheng stood up in a hurry, turned around and walked towards the water, took two steps and then stopped, "I said I'm not your reader!"

"Oh." Yuan Wu looked at him, stopped for a while and then suddenly laughed.

Lin Chengbu froze in place.

How long has it been?

I can't remember, how long I haven't seen Yuan Wu laugh like this, with a bit of ruffianness and cunning... Although Yuan Wu didn't laugh much in his memory, but such a smile is indeed It belongs to Yuanwu.

His own smile.

Before he completely recovered from the shock, Yuan Wu closed his smile and asked, "Do you like me?"

Lin Chengbu was quickly pulled back into a state of shock.

I forgot to mention the answer I thought of before.

Yuan Wu didn't seem to be ready to listen to his answer after asking, so he leaned against the tree and closed his eyes.

"Yes," Lin Chengbu looked at his profile, "Yes."

"You like men," Yuan Wu closed his eyes, his voice was very low, and he spoke slowly, "No wonder why you come to me to take off your clothes."

"I didn't specifically come to undress." Lin Chengbu said.

"Really?" Yuan Wu turned his head and opened his eyes to look at him.

"Of course it's true, I came over to undress me..." Lin Chengbu felt speechless.

"You really like me?" Yuan Wu interrupted him.

Lin Cheng paused: "Really, and I have said it many times."

"How many times?" Yuan Wu asked.

"I don't count," Lin Chengbu said, "I'll tell you if I have nothing to do."

"Why?" Yuan Wu continued to ask with interest.

"I like it so much." Lin Chengbu smiled, and when he lowered his head, he saw the grass circle on his waist, and suddenly felt that it was quite cola to express himself in such a shape.

"How can you like a man." Yuan Wu sighed, stopped looking at him, grabbed a grass and put it in his mouth and bit it lightly.

Why do you like men yourself?

Lin Chengbu really wanted to ask, but when he thought about that day at the farmhouse, he shut up again, but he was nervous for a while.

What should he do if Yuanwu only looks at girls from now on?

"Let's buy a cake," Yuan Wu said, "I can't buy it in the village, go to Xiaojiang Town to see it, it's too late to order a cake, and see if it's ready."

"Now?" Lin Chengbu asked, the worry in his heart was instantly washed away.

"Wait for the fool to come and pick us up," Yuan Wu said, "or you can swim back, didn't you just say goodbye to me?"

"Hi," Lin Chengbu immediately waved at him, "meet again."

Yuan Wu ignored him.

Lin Chengbu sat back on the rock and looked at Yuan Wu with his eyes closed. When he was in the water before, he panicked like that, but now when it comes to letting him swim back, Yuan Wu doesn't care at all. look.

What kind of performance is this?

Lin Chengbu was a little dazed. He brought two bartender glasses over today, thinking that if Yuan Wu didn't respond, he would take them out.

But now Yuan Wu suddenly said that he was going to buy a cake, and he began to hesitate again, fearing that the two cups would make Yuan Wu, who was in a good mood, fall into pain again.

Lin Chengbu felt that he was with someone who couldn't dance and had to dance. When he stepped on the other side with a series of feet, he wanted to give him a back fall, but he was worried that the next foot would step on it, while He didn't dare to stop in order to grab the other's hand and wrap his arms around the other's waist.

To put it bluntly, I feel like I'm fighting for a long-term hooligan. What a great spirit.